A/N: Sorry for the really long time until this update... No real excuses other than getting sick, tons of make-up work and an overnight forensics meet, a few reports, oh and being hysterical all through the other day and getting sick again... And no the forensics that I'm in is not about dead bodies. Oh yeah, I learned a new big word! It's antediluvian, which means before the great flood! And I'll start using Nanie-san and Rising Angel stuff again too now! (And just for those of you who wonder before I became an author I reviewed under the name Rising Angel)

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Previously:

Eriol raced towards her room, he was almost there. He reached the door and stopped at it. He extended out his hand and turned the knob and pushed the door.

Chapter 11: Realization

Tomoyo squeezed her eyes shut, she could feel the light of the sun's rays falling across her face. Her head was pounding and all she wanted to do was go back to bed. She slowly sat up and went to rub her eyes with her hands. She screamed, as she realized that her left hand was bandaged and quickly opened her eyes and looked around the room that she was in, frantically trying to figure out where she was. She placed her right hand up to her aching head and screamed again upon realizing that why her head hurt must be because she had injured it when she fainted. "Oh Kami-sama!" she whispered to herself. "What have I done?" Actually she knew what had happened, she remembered it all very clearly. She had been alone and gotten depressed because she thought Eriol wasn't coming and then, of course there was all her other Eriol problems adding to her depression, so she had cut her wrist, her left one to be exact. She had seen the blood and it caused her a bit of an emotional shock and she fell backwards and hit her head off something. The lightly, as she was losing consciousness she had heard the faint sound of the doorbell in the background, Eriol had come after all, and he apparently had her sent to the hospital too. "Eriol-kun," she whispered, "I'm sorry." "Mother must be so worried about me also," she thought. She fell backwards onto her bed. "But Mother must be displeased with me. She'll want to send me off for counseling and such. Not to mention she and everybody else, including Eriol, will want to know why I did it. I wish that they'd all just leave me alone. Why did they even have to bring me here in the first place? Why couldn't I have just stayed at home? The injury to my head can't be that bad and surely my wrist isn't gonna kill me!" She began to sit up again as the door opened.

Eriol peered inside the room. "Tomoyo-chan!" he exclaimed as he saw her sitting up in bed. "You're awake!"

"Did you think that I'd be sleeping?" she asked and then blushed as her friend bounded through the door and wrapped her in a tight hug.

"You had me so worried!" Eriol said while holding her tightly. "Especially when you didn't answer the door and I found you unconscious upstairs! Oh Kami-sama it was so scary, there was blood on both your wrist and head, I didn't know what had happened! Oh I'm so glad that you're alright! Wait a minute, are you alright?"

"Yes, just fine," Tomoyo responded, which was true of the moment. It wouldn't have mattered if she had just broken all the bones in her body, nothing could make this moment bad, nothing! Being held in Eriol's arms made even the worst alright. "I'm sorry for worrying and scaring you. Mother must be even more worried and scared. She still isn't here, she's probably waiting in suspense while trying her best to get here." Tomoyo started to cry now. Perhaps even though she was being held by Eriol this moment wouldn't be completely alright. "And now she'll think I'm mental or half crazy or something, won't she?"

Eriol looked down at the crying girl. Just a moment ago she seemed like she was mentally alright, but now he wasn't so sure that she was. "Tomoyo is something wrong? I mean why else would you... well you know, why would you?"

Tomoyo felt her chest tighten, this was the question that she had been dreading. "I- I don't wanna talk about it," she finally managed to mutter while slightly turning her face away from Eriol's intensive gaze.

"Tomoyo-chan are your alright?" Sonomi asked while running into the room and breaking up the moment between her daughter and the boy. "I came as soon as I heard I'm sorry that I couldn't be here sooner. Is it true? Did you really..." Sonomi felt herself trailing off at the end of her last sentence. It was so hard for her to believe what her daughter had just done to herself, she thought that she had been doing alright and such, she hadn't acted abnormal or depressed or anything like that before so why should she suddenly do this? "It... it... it is true, isn't it. Oh why Tomoyo-chan, why?"

Tomoyo felt her head bow and her eyes fall to her lap, her emotions were falling over her like a flood, she couldn't meet her mother's gaze, less than tell her that it was true that she had hurt herself, purposely hurt herself. "I-I-I," she faltered, "I'm sorry." "Oh Kami-sama I'm sorry!" she mentally screamed. "Darn you Tomoyo you're so stupid! Stupid, stupid, stupid!"

"Tomoyo-chan!" screamed Sakura while running into the room and hugging her friend. "I was so worried about you, I'm glad that you're okay! You are okay, aren't you?"

Tomoyo smiled a sad sort of smile at her friend. No, she wasn't alright, but Sakura didn't need to be worried over her. She looked over and saw everyone else coming, her whole group of friends was coming here to see her... why? She felt them all rushing towards her, showering her with hugs and love, they all cared about her so much. Soon afterwards she heard Sarrin say that they should leave her and her mother alone for a bit, and she felt her heart breaking as she watched them all leave. She was dreading this moment now, it was just her and her mother. Her mother would want to know why, or would want to send her for counseling or something! Her mother began to speak, and even though it may have been rude Tomoyo found herself holding up her hand for her mother to stop speaking. "I'm sorry," she mumbled as tears rolled down her cheek, "but I don't feel like listening to all of this now."

"Oh, alright," was all Sonomi was able to say, how could she say any more? "I just wish I understood why," she thought to herself. "I wish that I could have done something, or been there. I wish that I could have stopped her!"

"Do you think that she'll be alright?" asked Sarrin from outside of the hospital room in which her eternal friend Tomoyo was staying in.

"Which one are you referring to, Tomoyo-chan or her mother Sonomi-san?" Sayoran questioned.

"Either of them!" responded Sarrin, her voice filled with the anxiety that she felt at the moment.

"But why? Why didn't we see it coming?" Takota asked. He wasn't really asking a question to one of them, he was just wondering aloud, feeling so stupid for not having prevented it.

"We did see it coming. We just chose to ignore that fact. We didn't want to believe that it could happen, we are to blame," Sayoran seriously answered. His tone was low and sorrowful, that of one who felt the guilt for a friend's pain. "We believed that she wouldn't want us to help her, so we left her alone. We were the fools, blinded by what we wished to exist and what actually existed. We chose not to believe that she would hurt herself. We chose to ignore her problems and just try simple things to make her happy."

"Sayoran-kun's right. We were stupid, we should have been there for her, after all she is our friend isn't she!" cried Meiling.

"Enough self blame! We're all at fault but there's no reason that we should dwell on the past and what we should have done! The facts are that we didn't and it's too late to go back now! Now we need to be here for Tomoyo-chan more than ever!" shouted Rika.

"Yes," agreed Chiharu. "We'll do our best now to help her now since we didn't before."

Upon hearing these words the whole group nodded their heads, for they found that they believed these words were true.

Nanie-san: Sorry that this chapter isn't long but... I'll try to update sooner this time but there are no guarantees. On the other hand I promise that I will never give up on this fic and will finish it!

Rising Angel: Yes way! Oh and by the way she finally got to play DDR...

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