Chapter 11- The Melt Down
"Ohhkay...Why don't we go sit down on the couch...There we go...I'll grab you some water okay"- Santana was beyond confused as to what was happening with Rachel, but she didn't wanna put any pressure on her because it seemed like it was a big deal.
"Here you go!"- The Latina handed Rachel a glass of water and sat next to her. - "Better?.."
Rachel nodded - "...Okay, so why don't you tell me what happened, who was it on the phone, are your dads okay?"
Rachel put her hands over her face and started sobbing. It was a very awkward situation for Santana, who hate dealing with emotional people. She had no clue on what to say to someone who was crying, and she was afraid she might make it all worse by saying something ridiculous to lighten the mood.
After a few minutes, Rachel stopped crying. she got up abruptly, headed to her room, grabbed her gym bag and started packing.
"What are you doing?"- Santana followed Rachel into her room, still very confused.
"Rachel stop it! You are acting like a maniac, what the hell is going on?"
" What do you care Santana, stop preteding, we all know you only care about yourself"
Santana stoped herself from saying something mean to her roommate, who was clearly having a mental break down. Instead, she walked up to Rachel and gave her a hug. Rachel tried to fight it at first, but then just gave in and let herself go.
"Its okay...It's all gonna be okay Rach"
"I don't think so...nothing is ever gonna be okay!"- Rachel broke from the hug and started pacing back and forth"
"I cant believe this actually happened..."- Rachel's panic state was Started to annoy the heck out of Santana.
"And this would be..."
"The show, it was cancelled..."- Those words took the Latina by surprise. The show hadn't been on air for longer than 6 episodes, and even though it wasn't Santana's favourite, she liked it because it reminded her of her high school days and simpler time.
"Oh my god, I'm so sorry , what happened?"
"Nothing, nothing happened, that is the problem. Ratings were too low, so we didn't get an order for new episodes, that's all they said."
"Well, Damn! Theres no need to panic, you'll be alright tho..."
"I messed it all up Santana, I lost everything! I fucking lost everything! ...I lost Finn because of my stupid Broadway dream, I let him go thinking I could have him back whenever Iwanted , and where is he now Santana? WHERE IS HE WHEN I NEED HIM MOST? He's dead Santana! he is gone and he is never coming back! and all because of me... I let him go, I chose Broadway, and I even fucked that up too! I let it go for Hollywood...no one will ever hire a flaky actress with a bad reputation on Broadway. I left Nyada because I thought I was too good for it, I Fucking dropped out of college, and now here I am. The show got cancelled, my parents are getting divorced so I have no home to go back to, I have nothing! I'm nothing and It is all my fault. IM SURE I'LL BE OKAY SANTANA, OF COURSE I'LL BE FUCKING OKAY!"
A deep feeling of sadness had taken over Santana when Rachel mentioned the loss of Finn. It was a very diffucult subject for everyone that had been a part of his life, but specially for his family and the Glee kids. It was a subject that they had put behind them on a day to day basis, and only brought up whenever the Glee club got together to celebrate Finn's life.
"Hey..."- the latina said getting close to Rachel again- " I know this is difficult and I could not imagine how you must be feeling right now, but it is NOT you fault! Finn is not gone because of you... bad things happen, and it wasn't your fault. He loved you so much and knew how much you loved him, even when you were apart. Rachel... you are amazing! You made difficult choices in life but they weren't wrong. You followed your heart... yeah you failed, but it'll only make you stronger. You may not see it right now, but I promise...things WILL be okay, you WILL be okay. And you do have someone. You have me! I'm not going anywhere. I'm here for you."
Rachel was really surprised by Santana's words of comfort. What Santana had said to her actually made her feel better. Despite all the issues that they have had in the past, and the issues they still had from time to time, Santana and Rachel were actually friends.
"Thank you" Rachel said and gave Santana a hug.
Santana felt a warm feeling inside of her, completly different that she had ever felt before.
"You know what, I think you are my best friend hobbit... after Brittany, of course, but she's my girl so it's a little bit different, and even though you are ridiculously short and extremly annoying, I really care about you."
When Rachel got news about the show'ls cancellation, she felt like her life was over and she was free falling down an abismal pit of disspair, but now, after the moment she had shared with her roommate, she felt like things were looking up a bit.
"If anyone had told me, four years ago, that Santana Lopez was gonna end up being my best friend, I never woulda believed it. It's weird how things happen... It's just so sad that this whole show thing happened just before the holidays. As if the whole Chrisstmas situation didn't suck for me already. Now I have to go back to Lima and deal with my parents divorce and on top of that, my failure... I think i'll just spend christmas here, by myself."
"Oh Berry, no need to be dramatic! It'll be a great christmas, we will have a blast!
"We?"
"Yeah, Illl stay with you, we'll have a nice dinner, I'll even get you a present..."
"Santana you dont have to do that, what about your family, what about Brittany?"
"I didn't feel like going back to Lima anyways, and I'll see Brittany before New Years, maybe we can all go to New York if you feel up for it"
"You'd really stay for me?"
"Yeah, and I know the perfect thing to do all week..."
Even though she was gonna miss christmas with her family, Santana felt good about spending the holidays with Rachel. She was afraid that Rachel may spiral down and spend the next two weeks in bed feeling even worse about herself, so she made it her mission to cheer her up.
The girls spent the following days watching a marathon of America's Next Top Model that Santana had downloaded starting from season 1. Rachel didn't leave the apartment at all during those days but Santana did, to get groceries and much needed wine.
B- What season are you guys on?
S-Almost done with season 4!
B- wow, thats fast
S- yeah, we've been watching it none stop, we barely talk, which I'm fine with lol
B- Awww sweetie, you'r so nice, I wish i could be there with you! how is she doing?
S- Better, she doesnt cry herlself to sleep anymore, but she's still sleeping on my bed #superneedy :S
B- haha you are such a good friend San...Its Hawt ;)
S- I miss you babe, I can't wait to see you! Merry Christmas Eve!
B- Merry Christmas Eve! Say hi to Rachel for me! I love you!
S-Love you!
" Soooo..."- Santana got up and turned off the tv that her and Rachel were watching. -"Santana no! my favourite girl is in the bottom two, I need to see who gets eliminated!"- Rachel whined
"Berry I paused it, you won't miss it, thats the whole point of pausing. We can finish it later! It's Christmas Eve, we gotta getz our Christmas on!"
"I don't feel like doing Christmas, can we just skip it..."
"Hellz no, c'mon, help me out! I bought some decorations from the dollar store. You put them up and I'll get started with dinner, and yes! I bught you vegan meat... Pshh vegan meat, how is that even a thing..."
"Aww you got me vegan meat, seriously Santana, you are just the best! I guess we can do dinner..."
"Lets do this!"
Santana was an amazing cook, she even managed to make the vegan meat taste good. The decorations she had bought, lit up the room and made it feel like it was actually Christmas. They even had christmas music on while they ate dinner.
Both Santana and Rachel were quiet during dinner, they had spent the past five days at home together, so there was not a lot to say.
"Just leave it in the sink...we can do dishes tomorrow.." Santana said to Rachel while walking away towards her room.
" It's fine, I'll just get it over with."
"Berry, I said leave it!"- The Latina yelled out from her room.
"No, I'll just do it now..."- Rachel started doing the dishes, disregarding what Sanatana had said.
"I told you to leave it..."- Santana came back into the kitchen holding a gift bag- "...why does it always have to be opposite Day with you Berry!"
"What's that?" Rachel asked referring to the bag the Latina was holding.
"Your present, but please continue doing the dishes, I'lll be over there watching Top Model..."
" Oh my god"- Rachel squealed and clapped her hands together like a little girl.- "Santana you are so sweet, I love presents!...I didn't get you anything though.."
"It' s okay, its not a big deal"- Santana handed the bag to Rachel and walked toward the living room. Rachel followed the Latina and sat next to her, and opened up her gift. She pulled a little snow globe from the bag. It was aHollywood Hills snow globe with a little Hollywood Sign, and instead of snow, it had a bunch of little gold stars in it.
" This is beautiful..." Rachel was incredibly moved by Santana's thoughtfulness.
"It's a reminder... you are a star Rachel, never forget that!"
"Santana..."- Rachel was trying to find the words to tell Santana how much she appriciated everything she had done for her. She was so greatful to have a friend that would go out of her way to make her happy.-"...Thank you!"
"Berry don't get all mushy on me..."
The next morning when Santana woke up to the sound of music coming from the living room. Santana checked her phone and noticed it was 10:30 in the morning. For the past few days, both her and Rachel had been going to bed late and waking up past noon, so it felt weird to be up so early. Santana got up and headed into the living room, and found her roommate already showered and dressed, sipping on a cup of coffee.
"Good morning! Merry christmas!"
"Hey whats goign on?" - Santana said rather confused at the sight of Rachel looking like her old self again.
"It's time to open up your present! ...Here!.." Rachel handed Santana a laptop.
"What's with people giving me their old laptop?...thanks I guess..."
"No! look at the screen!"
Santana opened up the laptop and on the screen she saw that Rachel had bought 3 plane tickets to New York City.
"What is this?"- the Latina said, incredibly confused, barely able to comprehend since she hadn't had her coffee yet.
"I talked to Kurt already, and he is waiting for us! I got us first class tickets to New York City!"
"Oh wow, but theres 3 tickets..."
"Yeah, 2 for us from LAX and one from Cleveland for Brittany!"
"Rachel are you serious! you got one for Britt too, what! no way, First class, why?"
"I wanted to do something nice for you... you've been so great to me, it was the least I could do"
"But for Britt too... its amazing"
"I know you woulda rather spent all this time with her ... so yeah... thank you for spending it with me."
"what's gotten into you? you feeling better?"
"yeah, I guess. Thank You Santana, for all of it...I believe you are right... things will get better. I just wanna spend time with my friends.."
"And you will Berry! We are gonna have a blast!...We are going back to New York bitches!"