Disclaimer: Don't own.

AN: NC-17. I'm trying to cut back on the smex. But Raidou and Genma won't let me :(

One week later…

Raidou entered the apartment with a sigh and walked into the bedroom and stripped of his clothes and moved to the bathroom for a shower, letting the water sooth him after a rather stressful day. He vaguely wondered why Genma got the days when the mission room would be rather calm, and he would get the days the mission room would be crowded.

Genma walked into the apartment and kicked the door shut behind him, shifting the bags of groceries to one hand to remove his bandana and hitai ate. He toed off his sandals, balancing himself with his free hand as the bags threatened to make his stumble. He moved to the kitchen and put the groceries away. He heard the pipes from the shower turn off as he moved to the bedroom, zipping his flak jacket open. Raidou walked out of the bathroom, a towel around his hips and another around his shoulders, and Genma found himself staring.

Raidou felt a familiar gaze on him and he looked up to find Genma looking, no, staring at him. The hazel eyes were roaming over him, making him blush and somewhat insecure. He hesitated before making to move to the dresser but the younger man closed the distance between them, stopping him. He looked at the younger man as a pale hand slipped the towel from around his neck and instead drape it over his own. He couldn't suppress the shiver that ran down his spine when fingers ghosted along the scars that covered his shoulder that traveled up his neck to his cheek, scars that were easily hidden, scars that he would become unaware of during heated moments, scars that he was completely aware of now. He was aware of the fingers ghosting along them in a soft caress, of the hazel eyes studying them. He was reminded of the time when Genma first tried doing this, when they first started seeing each, when he tried avoiding the younger man seeing them, mainly to avoid the possible stares. It took time until he became comfortable with Genma touching his scars, namely his face, where the scars were more exposed and rough until they descended to his shoulder. Not only did the younger man touch them, caress them, but he kisses them, and on occasion, even licks them. He nearly jumped when Genma began to plant soft kisses along the scarred skin, making his skin break out into goose bumps.

"I never really asked you about these, have I?" Genma asked softly, continuing the trail along the tanned neck. In the past, he hadn't asked about the scars that made Raidou insecure because he didn't want to make him even more so, but not only that, he also didn't want to pry, didn't want to make the older man feel as if he had to tell him. If Raidou wanted to share the story behind his scars, he would listen. He pulled away and followed the scars to the older man's cheek, "I didn't want to make you uncomfortable,…but…," he trailed off, his eyes moving to meet the older man's gaze. He dropped his gaze back to the scarred skin, and noticed that the older man was tense. He moved his gaze back to the dark eyes, "I…am I making you uncomfortable, Raidou?" he asked gently.

Raidou took a sharp inhale and shook his head. He looked at the younger man as pale fingers continued to ghost along the scarred skin, "It was during a mission," he said softly, and hazel eyes locked with his, "A fire," the memories suddenly came back to him. Even though the event happened years ago, the memories would flood him as if it happened yesterday, or just a few minutes ago. The mission, the people, the targets, the fire, the pain, the scarring, the loss, "I got these trying to help my teammate," his eyes slid shut when Genma ghosted his lips along his scarred cheek, "I…I was trying to save him, rather, tying to get back to the village when we got ambushed," he sighed as arms wrapped around him in a comforting embrace. He hesitated, "We didn't make it back on time," he paused, a lump forming in his throat, "He didn't make it."

Genma pulled away enough to look at the older man's face, cupping the scarred cheek, "Rai…," he said softly.

Raidou offered the younger man small smile, "I tried," he continued, "I tried to get him back on time, tried to make him hold on," he leaned in to the touch, "And every time I looked at myself, every time I saw my scars, it reminded me of him, of how I failed him. How I tried, but apparently not hard enough."

"Raidou…," Genma hesitated, noticing the sadness in the dark eyes. Part of him was telling him not to ask, that it was a sensitive subject if his suspicions were right. Part of him told him to be there for his lover, "Rai…was he…was he your lover?" he asked softly. His gaze softened when he noticed the dark eyes sadden and the forced, sad smile that he tried offering him.

Raidou swallowed through the lump that was forming in the throat, "Yes," he answered softly, feeling his voice waver even at the simple, single word. He looked away, trying to fight off the shame and failure that tried to pull him down. He tried to move away, trying to find a reason to walk away from the younger man but arms wrapped around him in a warm embrace, a warm cheek pressed against his.

"I'm sorry," Genma said softly, feeling sadness in behalf for his lover, "I'm so sorry, Raidou," he tightened his arms around the older man, "I'm so sorry…I didn't know."

Raidou sighed and buried his face into the younger man's neck, wrapping his arms around him, feeling his lover's comforting warmth.

Genma planted a soft kiss on the older man's neck in a silent apology, a comforting gesture. He understood now. That Raidou wasn't only insecure about his scars, but ashamed. Ashamed of his failure, how the scars reminded him of this, of his loss. He couldn't help but to think that Raidou didn't deserve this. He felt the older man pull away and soft lips kiss his cheek.

Raidou gave his lover a soft smile and cupped a pale cheek, "Gen…don't worry about it, it…it happened…a long time ago, years," he noticed the sadness in the hazel eyes and it made his heart ache and the lump in his throat return. He gave his lover a soft kiss, threading his fingers into the hazel hair, feeling the younger man deepen it. He broke the kiss and moved to the dresser, pulling out a pair of sweatpants and a worn t-shirt.

"Are you hungry?" Genma asked after a moment, making the older man turn to him as he tugged a shirt on. He suppressed his laughter when Raidou got stuck in the shirt, but a snort snuck out anyway. He couldn't hold back his laugh when the body turned to him and he could just feel the older man's glare through the t-shirt. He closed the distance between them and helped his lover into his shirt. He smiled at his lover, trying not to laugh. Raidou took in a deep breath, narrowing his eyes, daring him to laugh again.

Genma did.

Raidou ran around the village after deciding to go for an afternoon jog. Rather late afternoon. He needed to clear his mind, needed to rebury the memories that had resurfaced. He stopped and leaned against a tree to catch his breath. He looked up at the darkening sky and wondered just how long he had been running. He decided to walk back home, give his heart a chance to relax and calm its frantic beating. His mind went back to earlier that afternoon, and he realized that telling Genma how he got his scars didn't bother him as much as he thought it would. Telling Genma about his failure, and the result of that, didn't bother him as much as it should. But it was years ago. He let out a sigh and mentally shook his head, It happened a long time ago. I've moved on, a smile tugged on his lips at the thought of the younger man.

Raidou entered the apartment and toed off his shoes before walking further into the apartment, he poked his head into the bedroom and found Genma reading on the bed, half propped against the headboard, a leg hook on a raised knee. Hazel eyes looked at him and a smile graced the younger man's lips.

"How was your run?"

Raidou chuckled and sighed. He entered the bedroom and tilted his head, "A bit tiring," he tugged off his sweaty shirt, "How long was I out?"

Genma glanced at the clock, "A little over than two hours."

Raidou's eyes widened, "Really?"

Genma chuckled, "Didn't feel like it?"

Raidou shook his head and threw his shirt into the hamper.

"You must have had a lot on your mind."

Raidou sighed, "I guess I did."

Genma eyed the older man before going back to his reading. He looked up when the older man moved to the bed and leaned down over him, and gave him a sweet kiss. He chuckled when the older man pulled away, "Go shower, Rai."

Raidou frowned, "Do I smell?"

Genma chuckled and shook his head, "Hmm, I believe they are called pheromones."

Raidou raised an amused eyebrow, "Isn't that a good thing?" he leaned in and kissed the younger man's jaw line.

Genma sighed and nibbled on the older man's earlobe. He buried his face into the tanned neck, wrapping his arms around his lover's neck as lips began to suck just below his earlobe. He reluctantly pushed the older man away and gave him a half-hearted glare, "Go shower."

Raidou quirked an eyebrow, "Hm, no, now I'm curious," he moved and straddled the younger man's hips and noticed the evident bulge in his lover's pants.

Genma flushed and made a noise when the older man rocked his hips, "Ra-Raidou!" he stammered. The older man leaned back down and locked their lips in a heated kiss, delving his tongue into his mouth, making him moan. He smoothed his hands over the older man's back, feeling the warm skin under his palms, still flushed from his run.

Raidou broke the kiss and moved to kiss the pale neck, grinning as the younger man tilted his head back. He felt hands fumble with his pants, undoing them, freeing his aching member.

Genma groaned as hands tugged down his sweatpants, palms smoothing over his exposed hips. He lifted his hips, "Raidou," he said a bit too breathlessly.

Raidou gave his lover an amused look, "Is this why you wanted me to shower, hm?" he snaked a hand into the younger man's shirt and pulled it up, groaning as his lover arched into the touch. He took off the younger man's sweatpants and reached over to the nightstand to retrieve the tube of lube, thumbing it open and squirted some onto his hand.

Genma moaned as a warm, slick hand took hold of their erection and began to slowly stroke them. He shifted closer, spreading his legs over the older man's lap. He panted for air as the sensation made his body grow hotter. He reached in between them and cupped the older man's sac, making his lover buck against him.

Raidou found themselves being rolled over and the younger man straddling his hips, rocking against his hand. He pulled the hindering shirt up, groaning as the taut abdominals visibly contracted. He panted for air as a pale hand stopped his and the younger man moved, positioning his throbbing member at his entrance, "Gen – ah!" he bucked against his lover as the younger man began to impale himself on his slick erection. He watched as the younger man stripped off his shirt and flung it to the floor, making a noise that sounded like a moan and a whimper as he completely seated himself. He groaned as Genma began to rock against him, lifting his hips in a steady rhythm. He smoothed his hands over the taut stomach, feeling the changes of texture of invisible scars. He felt the pale skin break out into goose bumps when he traced a sensitive scar, making his lover give a soft moan. He raised his knees for better leverage and thrust into the pale body, making the younger man cry out in pleasure when he hit the sensitive gland.

"Rai," he said breathlessly, the warm hands moving to his hips, over his thighs, following the crease where leg meets hip. He felt his body flush hotter when the older man's thumbs began to stroke the tendon at his hips, one that have a sensitive diagonal scar on it.

Raidou moaned as the younger man began to rock harder against him, meeting his upward thrust. He cupped one of his lover's flushed cheeks, feeling the warm breath puff against his wrist. Hazel eyes locked with his and he felt his lover's gasp of pleasure a sharp thrust met his prostate. He pulled the younger man down, wrapping an arm around the slender waist as their lips met in a searing kiss. He broke the kiss with a gasp as Genma circled his hips, massaging his sac as he did so, "Oh gods, Gen," he said breathlessly and moaned as the younger man did it again. He felt a hands entwine with his and move them above his head, pinning them against the mattress as the younger man re-engaged their kiss, delving his tongue into his mouth, massaging his. He used the leverage to thrust upward into the younger man, their hips slapping together.

"Raidou…Raidou…," Genma whispered between pants of air, "Oh gods, Rai, so good."

Raidou groaned and thrust harder into the younger man, making him cry out as he slid in even deeper. The grips on his hands loosened and he took the advantage to plant them on the pale hips, holding the younger man's hips flush to his and he circled his own, eliciting a deep moan of pleasure. He took hold of the still slick, sobbing member that was dripping precum onto his stomach and wrapped his fingers around it, making the slender hips buck against his hand.

Genma moaned uncontrollably as he lost himself in the pleasure. He felt the older man sit up and lips on his neck. The hand on his hips moved over his thigh, the older man's elbow hooking under it and raising it, "Raidou!" he cried out, hooking his arm around the older man's neck, "Ra-Rai," he said breathlessly, panting and gasping for air. He tangled in fingers into the dark hair as he felt the tightness in the pit of his stomach, "Rai – I – ah!" he broke off with a gasp, the hand around his throbbing member tightening its grip.

"Genma," he breathed, moaning against his lover's neck, "Come for me, Gen," he quickened his hand.

Genma body jerked with a gasp as his orgasm claimed him, and came, hard, in his lover's hand, his hot seed smearing on their chest. He almost fell back on the bed but an arm wrapped around his waist and held him flush, trapping his sensitive member in between them. He moaned as he felt the older man come inside of him, filling him with his seed.

Raidou panted for air and their hips rolled against each other, riding their shared orgasm, "Genma," he whispered and fell back onto the bed, taking the younger man with him. Genma made a noise and snuggled into his neck. He smiled and shifted his hips to pull out of his lover. He groaned when he felt teeth nibbled along his shoulder and neck, "Gen," he said, nuzzling the pale neck.

"Hmm, Rai," Genma said contently.

Raidou chuckled and rolled them over onto their sides, smiling at the sated smile his lover gaze him, "So…pheromones…?"

Genma laughed and nosed the older man's jaw line as he breathed in his scent, "Hmm," he hummed and planted soft kisses along tanned skin, "Rai," he murmured against skin.

Raidou smiled and smoothed his hand along the younger man's back, "Shower?"

Genma hummed and nodded.

"Raidou."

Raidou groaned.

Genma sighed, "Rai."

Raidou groaned and rolled over.

Genma narrowed his eyes, "Raidou."

Raidou sighed and rolled onto his back.

Genma waited, thinking that the older man was going to wake up, "Raidou, dinner's going to get cold."

No response.

Genma furrowed a brow, I did not cook so that it can sit on a plate and not be eaten, he crawled onto the bed and leaned over the older man, "Raidou," he cooed. He slipped his hand into the older man's shirt and smoothed his palm over the taut stomach, "Rai, dinner's ready."

Raidou stirred and moved closer to the younger man, "Hmm."

Genma looked down at the sleeping face and brought his hand up to the scarred cheek, gently stroking the scarred skin. The older man curled closer to him. He sighed as he cupped the scarred cheek, smiling as the older man sleepily nuzzled his palm. He stroked the rough scars with his thumb and remembered what they meant, how he got them, why he got them. He felt an ache in his heart at the thought of Raidou losing someone special, someone that he possibly loved, "Oh, Raidou," he said softly. He leaned down and planted a soft kiss on his sleeping lover's lips, "Rai," he whispered against the slightly parted lips before giving them another kiss, "Rai," he gave the scarred cheek a kiss, "Wake up, Raidou."

Raidou sighed and his half awake mind wrapped an arm around the man that was trying to wake him up.

Genma felt himself blush as the older man pulled him down and snuggled against him, almost as if he was a pillow, "Raidou," the older man only held him closer. He sighed and threaded his fingers into the dark brown hair, and smiled when the older man snuggled closer into him.

Raidou woke up snuggled into Genma's chest while a pale arm pillowed his head. He slowly lifted his head and looked up at the younger man, at the sleeping face of his lover. He smiled and gave the parted lips a soft kiss, eliciting a sigh from the younger man. He slowly shifted, rolling the younger man onto his back, smiling when the finger in his hair slowly massaged his scalp. Hazel eyes fluttered open to look up at him, a sleepy smile on his face.

"Now you wake up," Genma said softly.

Raidou quirked an eyebrow, "What do you mean?"

Genma softly chuckled, "I was trying to wake you up earlier when dinner was ready, but instead you mistook as a pillow."

Raidou chuckled, "I didn't mistake you as a pillow, but in my defense, I thought it was a dream."

Genma grinned, "You were dreaming about me?"

Raidou felt himself blush, "Maybe."

Genma chuckled, "Do you still want dinner?"

Raidou smiled, "Sure."

Genma chuckled, "We'll have to reheat it."

"Still good."

Genma sighed as soft kisses along his shoulder woke him up, "Hm?"

Raidou smiled against skin, "I have to go," he whispered.

Genma blinked away the sleep from his eyes and looked at the older man, "What time is it?"

"Seven," Raidou answered, and gave the pale shoulder another kiss before climbing out of bed. Arms wrapped around him and pulled him back down onto the bed. Before he could protest, lips sealed over his in a passionate kiss, the younger man's body pressed against his.

Genma broke the kiss and sighed, "Go shower, and I'll make breakfast, alright?"

Raidou looked at the younger man and nodded, "Alright."

After his shower, Raidou dressed into his uniform before walking into the kitchen where Genma was serving omelets onto plates. They sat the table and ate in a comfortable silence.

"How long?" Genma asked after a while, taking a bite of his omelets.

Raidou thought about it, "A week, I really don't think it should take longer than that."

Genma nodded and took another bite from his omelet.

They finished their breakfast and Genma placed the empty plates in the sink as Raidou moved to the front door to slip on his flak jacket and tie on his hitai ate. He slipped on his sandals and felt arms turn him around and lips sealed over his in a sweet kiss.

"Be careful, alright?" Genma said with a smile.

Raidou smiled and nodded, "Of course," he gave his lover one last kiss before turning and leaving the apartment.

Genma's smile faded as the door clicked shut.

Two weeks later…

Genma rested his chin in his palm, his senbon twitching as he absentmindedly chewed on it.

"Genma?"

His senbon twitched again.

Iruka furrowed a brow, "Genma?"

Genma snapped back to attention and looked at the chunin sitting next to him, "Oh, sorry, what is it?"

Iruka gave him a concerned look, "You've been out of it lately, is everything alright?"

Genma's lips forced themselves into a small smile, "Yeah -," he hesitated when the younger man fixed his with a stern look. He sighed and took a pen in between his fingers, "He's late."

Iruka's gaze softened, "Did he say how long it would take?"

"He said about a week," he put the pen down, "He's a week late."

Iruka's brow furrowed, "He's been late before, hasn't he?"

Genma sighed, "He usually comes a couple days early or late. I can't remember him being a week late," he frowned, his senbon following the motion, "Maybe he has when I leave on a mission while he's still out."

"He'll be back soon, Genma, try not to worry too much," Iruka tried to reassure him, but he knew the feeling all too well.

Genma looked at the chunin sitting next to him and hesitated, "How do you deal with it, Iruka?" he turned his gaze back to the desk, fidgeting with the pen, "How do you deal with it when Kakashi is late? Or when he's gone for a long time?"

Iruka gave the older man a soft smile, "I wait," the older man turned to look at him, "I wait for him to come back home," he dropped his gaze, "And even though, sometimes it becomes too much, to the point where I can't sleep or stop worrying about him, I do the only thing I can do, Genma. I wait," he smiled at the older man, "And it always pays off when he comes back home to me."

Genma smiled and nodded, "So…try to be optimistic?"

Iruka smiled, "Be optimistic, Genma. And I know that's asking a lot, being a shinobi and all, but…I guess it doesn't hurt to try."

Genma softly chuckled and nodded, Come back soon, Rai.

AN: So, I'm trying to shine more light on Raidou, because not have i noticed that it was becoming more about Genma, but it was also pointed out to me. I'm in the process of fixing that :)