11.Im terrified

Jays pov

Erin telling me she was pregnant caught me by so much of a surprise i couldn't move. As soon as those words came out if her mouth I had to close mine as I sat in the chair beside her. I must have looked like i was going to pass out or freak because when i sat down

she asked" Are you okay?"

I turned my head to look at her and said "yea yea I'm fine but are you ok is the baby ok?"

Finally realizing she passed out and hit her head.

"Yes Jay were both fine calm down a bit "she ordered me playfully.

Then I started to smile and laugh a little nervously as i put my hand on her stomach.

She looked at me like i was crazy but all i could say at the moment was "wow we're actually having a baby together."

"Yup we are" she said with teary eyes.

3 hours later*

Erin got discharged about an hour ago so i was in the kitchen getting her some water so she could rest up a bit. When i was walking back in our room I realized she wasn't in there so i went to the bathroom and tried opening the door but it was locked and i could've sworn i heard crying.

"Erin "i said worriedly.

" I'll be out in a minute"she said obviously crying.

I didn't want to wait for her to try to act okay so i busted down the door. She looked so surprise to see me bust in like i wasn't supposed to know what was going on. But i did because When i broke down the door i saw she was lying in the bathtub crying her beautiful eyes out. I ran over to her with my heart breaking and got in with her. As we sat there i just held on to her as tight as i could.

When she calmed down i looked down at her and asked her "whats wrong?"

she looked up teary eyed and asked "what if I'm not a good mom? What if i screw this baby up or end up being just like mom? "

I almost cried with her for a minute because she looked like she truly believed that.

Then i looked straight into her eyes and said "you will be the best mom this child could ever ask for and you will never be anything like your mom not even close i wouldn't pick anyone else to have a baby with."

She looked at me with a smile and started to cry into my chest a little and said "i really hope your right."

I picked her up and put her in bed we laid there quietly until we both fell asleep.

When i woke up the first thing i saw were the most beautiful big hazel eyes looking at me.

"Morning" she said sounding better then yesterday.

I kissed her and said "morning."

We got up and i took a shower as she cooked some food. Then we rotated making enough time for both of us to shower and eat. Just as the food was done she came out of the bathroom and took a seat eating her food. As i sat down i started to take a sip of my coffee.

As she said "Jay if i can't have coffee neither can you."

I immediately put down my cup and said "that is so not fair."

She shrugged her shoulders and said" I don't care but come on we're gonna be late."

When we got to the district she stopped me before i got out the car. She looked at me with a pleading expression and said "Jay i don't want to tell anyone just yet i want to wait until at least three months so we know everything is okay with the baby"

"Alright we'll do it your way" i said kissing her briefly.

She smiled as we got out the car. Before we left the parking lot she walked up to me and asked playfully "how did i get so lucky?"

Then i said with a goofy grin "i don't know maybe one your wishes finally came true."

We both started to laugh as we walked into the district holding hands.

"You wish you were one my dreams." she said jokingly.

A/N: I REALLY AM SORRY I KNOW IM HORRIBLE SO YEA THIS PROBABLY SUCKS WITH THE PUNCTUATION AND SPELLING ALSO ITS SHORT SO I APOLOGIZE BUT THANK YOU READERS