Hi. I am in a pretty good mood, so I decided to write this before I get in a bad mood. Sound good? Oh, and no Natasha Bedingfield. Instead it's the christmas song carol of the bells by TSO. (Trans Siberian Orchestra, duh.)

Chapter 11: Broken Inside

I look around, still upset. Supper was very lonely. I wished I had a shoulder to cry on, or at least someone to talk to. Having neither, I sat, ignoring my plate of food, and put my head down on the table. (This is my favorite passtime in the cafeteria!)

A familar shadow was cast over my left shoulder.

"What's wrong, Callia?"

"Nothing that concerns you." I look up at him.

Sirius still looks sad. He might have looked pathetic, if I knew I didn't look exactly like him. My red eyes were a dead giveaway to even Lily. And she's not... well... the emotional type.

"I just wanted to help..." his voice trails. He looks into my eyes. I stand up to face him.

I am inches from his face, wanting to kiss him so badly. Instead, I brush past him and start crying even before I make it out of the Great Hall.

"I still don't get it." I glare at her.

"What's not to get? I can't go out with him. I would attract too much attention, and if I do, then..." I stop myself before the curse does. "Bad things will happen, and you really don't want me to go, do you? All three of us, that is..."

"WHY?"

"We can't tell you!" I spit out.

"WHY NOT? I thought we were friends."

Ouch. That hurt."Lily, we are friends. I literally can't tell you. Besides, all of my other 'friends' promised they wouldn't tell too."

"But, I won't."

I actually agreed with her. Little Miss Goody Lily would never tell a secret if it involved betraying the trust of someone else. Still, I didn't want to tell her.

"I'm sorry," I turn away.

"Fine!" She flounced off, leaving me alone in the dormitory.

And so I cried myself to sleep.

I no longer understood why I didn't say, "The heck with it!" and go out with him. It sure would have improved my mood. Instead, I gained infamacy as the breaker of Sirius Black's heart. Either way, girlfriend or not, I would stay hated by the female population... Suddenly, it became clear, as clear as the bright blue sky outside.

I raced to find Sirius.

"Oy! Sirius! Will you still go out-" I stopped, mid sentence.

The Hogwarts player was kissing another girl.

Cliffhanger much? I am mean, yes indeed. Deal with it. Oh, and BTW, REVIEW!

Dancergirl51

P.S. Isn't this a pleasant turn of events????