so I Thought Chapter 11
So, I have determined that you are all gonna hunt me down and kill me after readin this chapter. Let me apologize in advance. Lol. But on a serious note. You guys are SERIOUSLY going to hate me for this. Just a warning as well: There is incest and rape in this chapter. I didn't plan for there to be, but...you know how shit just happens. Lmao. After this chapter, though, there's probably going to be only three or four, maybe less, chapters. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry it's taking so long to finish. Me and my bf have been having some...problems lately, and this is supposed to be a happy-ish chapter, and with the arguments me and him have been having, the chapter kept turning into angst cause I was sad ._. Everything is pretty much fine now, though, so, yeah. xD Lol. I'm so thankful for all of you that review and favourited this. It means a lot. So, thank you. On with the story.
James walked over to Robert's bed, his eyes stinging with tears.
"Robert. I don't know if you can hear me or not, but, I really hope you can," he started, carefully dragging a chair next to his bed. "I'm so, so sorry for what my jackass of a dad did. I wish I could've stopped him, somehow. I'm a terrible person for letting him do that." James let a few tears slip out of his left eye and he continued. "I don't know why I didn't try to stop him, or call the police or something. I was just so scared, I just- I couldn't think straight. Please wake up, Robert. Please. Logan's in here again. He needs you. He needs his father, he needs you." James was crying again by then. He gently held onto Robert's hand, being mindful of the tubes connecting from his nose to his throat to his wrist. He rubbed it gently with his thumb. "I have to go Robert. Please wake up. I'm so fucking sorry." James stood and placed the chair back against the wall and quietly left the room. He pulled out his phone, checking the time. He saw he had three new texts from Kendall.
You almost done? -Kenny xD
Dude, hurry up. Mrs. Mitchell is worried. -Kenny xD
Bro, she said she's about to come inside. Hurry the fuck up! :O -Kenny xD
James hurried to the elevator and pressed the button. He felt his phone buzz in his hand.
Don't take the elevator. -Kenny xD
James walked swiftly to the staircase and ran down the three flights of steps to get to ground level, stopping at the bottom to catch his breath. He quickly composed himself and walked out of the little room where the stairs were, wiping his eyes. He walked into the lobby.
"James," Marey, the receptionist, called to him. He looked over at her.
"Y-Yeah?"
"You're in my prayers. All of you." He nodded a thanks to her and left the hospital. He spotted Mrs. Mitchell in her car and Kendall sitting on the hood of his.
"James," she called out.
"Yes?"
"Do you mind staying at Kendall's tonight? I need to be with my girls tonight." James looked over at Kendall and he nodded.
"Yeah, I guess."
"Thank you, James. I'll call you if anything happens with Logan or Robert."
"Thanks, be careful, Mrs. Mitchell."
"You too." James climbed into Kendall's small Honda Civic and Kendall followed suit. Kendall waited until James buckled his seatbelt then he pulled out of the parking lot.
"James," Kendall started, "We need to talk. About what happened?"
"Can it wait, Kendall? Please?" James asked, dozing off in the passenger's seat.
"Yeah, I guess." Kendall looked pver at James sleeping, and he thought to himself, James is more gorgeous than I thought. He shook his head. That's your best friend's, who is also in the the hospital with some serious mental problems, boyfriend. And you also have a boyfriend. Carlos, remember? Kendall shook is head and flicked on the radio, trying to pay attention to the road.
"James. I thought you loved me !" Logan shouted at the tall boy.
"I-I do!" James shouted back, trying to move but realizing something was restraining him.
"Then you wouldn't have kissed Kendall!" He cried, sinking to his knees.
"Logan, it-it meant nothing! I swear!" James screamed. He watched in horror as the love of his life pulled out a razor blade.
"Do it, Logan. He doesn't love you," a voice behind James spoke. James recognized it has The Bird.
"Let me go!" He shouted at the evil entity. "Logan, please, listen to me! I love you, and nothing will ever change that! The kiss with Kendall, it-it just happened! It meant absolutely nothing. I love you! I want to be with you! You're all I want!"
"It's too late, James," The Bird said, laughing manically. James looked up to see Logan in front of him, bleeding to death, a large cut down the length of his forearm. The Bird let James go and disappeared, leaving James to mourn over his dead lover.
"Oh, God, Logan!" James yelled, holding onto his body and sobbing hysterically.
"James...James...James...James!"
"James!" Kendall shouted, shaking the sleeping boy awake. James sat straight up, wiping his eyes of the tears that fell in his sleep.
"I'm up, I'm up.." he trailed off, stretching. He rubbed his eyes, realizing he was in Kendall's driveway.
"You okay?"
"Y-Yeah, I guess.."
"You sure?"
"I had a dream about him, Kendall."
"I know. I heard you."
"I just...I don't know. I feel like everything's my fault, if I never tormented him and shit, he'd be fine. The Bird never would've claimed him as too weak, and I'd still have my Logan." Kendall put his hand on James shoulder and squeezed gently. "And...I'm sorry I kissed you."
"I am too. I kissed back. It's part my fault."
"We can't tell Logan or Carlos. Not until later, at least," James said quietly, getting out of the car.
"At least tell Carlos."
"No. We can't. Not yet. After Logan gets better, we will." Kendall nodded and the boys walked into Kendall's house as silently as possible. The duo walked upstairs to Kendall's bedroom and James flopped onto the bed.
"James..,Did you, like, feel anything when we kissed?" James looked up at Kendall, who was standing in front of him.
"Kind of. I mean, I don't know. Maybe." Kendall sat on the bed next to him. He began to lean in again, James did the same. Their lips met, and it soon turned into a passionate kiss. Kendall laid back and James climbed on top of him.
"J-James...this...this is wrong.." Kendall trailed off as James scattered hot kisses down Kendall's neck.
"I know. Just...please. Let me forget what's going on. Just for a minute."
"O-Okay..." James lifted Kendall's shirt and took a nipple into his mouth. He sucked and bit it, then went farther south. "James-"
"Don't say anything. Let me pretend you're Logan." Kendall nodded and closed his eyes as James pulled down the blonde boy's pajama pants. He traced the outline of Kendall's erection, and forced back tears. I'm sorry, Logan, he thought. He forced the taller boy's boxers down, exposing him. Kendall whispered something needily and James put Kendall in his mouth.
"N-Ngh, James..." the tan boy glared up at Kendall and he mouthed, "Sorry." James bobbed his head, pretending to have Logan in his mouth and not Kendall. He felt fingers snake into his hair and force him down farther. James gagged.
"Logan, stop!" He said, pulling off. Kendall's mouth dropped open and James wiped his mouth.
"James-"
"I'm sorry, Kendall, I can't do this." James stood and Kendall pulled his boxers and pajama pants back up over his erection.
"James, stay. I'm sorry."
"N-No. I need to go."
"James, it's 3:30 in the morning. Your dad's a psycho, your boyfriend is in the hospital, and your mom doesn't want you. Where. The hell. Are you gonna go."
"I don't fucking know, okay? But I can't stay here!" And with that, James stormed out of Kendall's house and started off down the street. He went straight to the park where him and Logan came to watch Lizzie. He sat on the swing and began to cry.
"I'm so sorry, Logan. I'm so, so sorry! I shouldn't have done that with Kendall. I'm such a whore," he said, taking a deep breath and sniffling. "I love you, Logan. I know you can't hear me, but I fucking love you." He hung his head and let the tears fall into his lap. He shivered in the cold October air.
"Quit crying, you faggot." James' head snapped up at recognizing the voice.
"D-Dad?"
"Right here, son," he said spitefully, stepping out of the shadows.
"Wh-What are you...what do you want?" Randall walked in front of him.
"You to suck my dick, fag."
"I'm your son!" Randall smacked James hard in the face then grabbed his chin forcefully.
"Listen to me, you son of a bitch," Randall spoke, and James could smell the alcohol on him, "I don't give a fuck. My dick needs sucking, I don't care if you're my son or not. I hardly call you a son anyways. I didn't raise a faggot." He unbuckled his belt and pulled his pants and underwear down to his knees, exposing his erect member.
"Dad, please-" he grabbed James hair roughly and forced his dick into his son's mouth. James gagged and tears fell out of his eyes. James felt ten years old again.
"Don't bite it. I'll kill you." He forced James' head up and down, fucking his mouth until he came. James was forced to swallow the bitter liquid, and he coughed. He stayed on his knees.
"What the fuck is wrong you?" He screamed up at his dad and fell back to sit completely.
"Fuck you!" Randall yelled back and puched him in the side of his head, knocking him unconcious.
Mrs. Mitchell was walking around her kitchen, preparing the girls' breakfast when she overheard the T.V.
"In other news, the unconcious body of 17 year old James Diamond was found in Clover Park this morning at 5:30 am by his father, Randall Diamond. He is reported to have been beaten and sexually assaulted. The police are looking for suspects. If you have any information, please call (330)-534-4927. Thank you. Now onto the weather with Alyson Harris. Alyson?"
The plate JoAnne was holding clattered to the floor and smashed into a million pieces. She picked up the phone and called the Knight household.
"Knight residence," Kendall's mom said, answering the phone.
"Jen. It's JoAnne. What happened to James?"
"Kendall said he left this morning at around 3:30. They got into an argument over something stupid, I guess. That's what Kendall told me."
"Do you have any idea of who did this?"
"Not a clue."
"What do you know about James? Where's he at?"
"...He's in the hospital. He's still unconcious. Randall feels terrible."
"I highly doubt that."
"He does. He's been crying all day."
"Doesn't mean anything. You don't know what he used to do to James. I was the only one Brooke ever told. Logan doesn't even know."
"What did he do?"
"He used to molest that poor boy. Now instead of molesting, he beats him."
"Oh my God. He's at the hospital. I'm not sure which room."
"Jen...I'm so sick of being there," she sobbed.
"I know, sweetie. I know. It'll be all over soon. James and Logan and Robert are going to be okay. I promise."
"I know. I have to go. The girls' breakfast is cooking. Thank you, Jen."
"Anytime." They hung up and JoAnne went back to making the girls' breakfast.
"Hey mom," Hanna said, walking into the kitchen and rubbing her eyes.
"Hey sweetheart."
"What's wrong?" she asked, seeing the worried expression on her mother's face.
"James. He's in the hospital now."
JAMES' POV (I KNOW I NEVER DO THIS. XD)
I sat straight up, looking at all the wires attached to my body. I couldn't remember what happened, then memories of last night (or rather; this morning) came flooding back to me.
"James! You're awake! Oh thank God!" I heard someone say, then I saw my dad next to the hospital bed. He tried wrapping his arms around me in a hug, but I pushed him away, screaming.
"Don't touch me! Get away! Help!' I screamed, kicking my legs to keep him away from me.
"James, what's your problem?"
"You fucking made me suck you off last night!" He looked around sheepishly, hoping no one heard me. He grabbed my face again.
"I told you to not fucking say anything," he seethed in my ear. "Now you're going to pay." I spit in his face.
"NURSE!" I screamed loudly. A nurse I recognized, her name was Becky, she was Logan's nurse, walked in.
"James, what's wrong?"
"Get him out. He's the one that did this to me! Please! Get him away from me!" I screamed, crying loudly. My head was pounding.
"Alright, James, calm down. Sir, I need you to leave," she said, pushing my dad out of the room. I wiped my eyes with the heels of my hands, and took a shakey breath. I felt Becky sit on the bed. "James, tell me what happened. Exactly what happened."
"Well. We came home from the hospital, me and Kendall. I was gonna stay at his house. And we...well, we kissed a couple times at the hospital. But when we got back to his house, we went to his room and we started to makeout and I started to blow him and he pushed me down and I said, 'stop it Logan!' and I got upset and we got into an argument and I left. I went to the park, cause I have no where else to go, and I was crying on the swing and my dad was drunk and he came over and started calling me a faggot and hitting me, and then he.." I stopped when I started crying again. "He made me suck his dick." I broke down after I said that, and she held my hand. "I don't remember anything after that." She squeezed my hand gently.
"Sweetie. You need to tell the police."
"Why? They won't believe me. There's no evidence."
"Just tell them. They might believe you. You never know."
"I know. I need some sleep."
"I know. I'll leave you alone."
"Thanks, Becky."
"Anytime." I closed my eyes and drifted off to sleep.
LOGAN'S POV
I opened my eyes, blinking. The white padded room was bright, so bright.
"Good morning, sweetie," I heard a voice say. I looked around to see where the voice was coming from, then I noticed the window. I stood up and walked over to it.
"M-Mom?"
"Hey, Logie." I could hear the sad smile in her voice.
"Mommy! Get me out of here. Please. I miss you, and dad, and Lizzie, and Hanna, and James."
"Logie-Bear...there's something you need to know about James."
"What's happened to him, mom. What did his dad do?" I said. I started to freak out.
"Logan, calm down."
"Tell me what's wrong!"
"He's...he's here. In the hospital. He was found this morning at 5:30, lying unconcious at Clover Park."
"His dad. I know it was his dad. Mom, make them let me out to see him. Please. They've been giving me some type of medicine. Please, momma. I need to see him."
"I don't know."
"MOM! Please!" She sighed and I could hear her whispering to someone.
"They're gonna let you out temporarily. JUST to go see James." I did a victory dance, using just my feet seeing as I was still wrapped up in the damn straightjacket.
"Am I gonna get out of this thing?"
"Yeah. But the people are going to be close by just in case The Bird comes out."
"I know. I get it." I heard the door unlock and I ran over to it. I get to see you, Jamie. Finally, I thought to myself, smiling. I wasn't paying attention as they unbuckle the jacket and slipped it off of me. I went over to the mirror to fix my hair and wipe underneath my eyes. I fixed my shirt and tried brushing the wrinkles out.
"Come on, Logan," my mom said.
"Do you have a breath mint?" I asked her, smiling. She smiled back and reached into her purse and handed me a tin of Altoids. I opened it and picked up one, then put it down and grabbed a handful. I shoved them into my mouth.
"Goofball," she said, giggling.
"I miss you, mom."
"You'll be out soon, darling." I nodded and we walked down the hall to get to the elevator.
THIRD PERSON POV. LMFAO. I'M CONFUSING MYSELF. XD
Logan reached James hospital room.
"Can you guys stay out here? I kind fo want to have some alone time with James.." Logan trailed off, looking at the guards. They glanced at each other and nodded.
"Go ahead, son." Logan smiled at his mom.
"How do I look mom?" His mom smiled and brushed some lint off his shoulder.
"Beautiful." Logan smiled and pushed open the door, leaving his mom in the hallway with the guards. He looked at James sleeping and walked over to him.
"Jamie," he whispered softly, gently shaking his shoulder.
"Mmmm..." the tan boy groaned and rolled over onto his back. Logan smiled and kissed his forehead.
"James, it's Logie. Wake up, baby," he said sweetly in James' ear. James' eyes shot open.
"Logan? Is it really you?"
"Yes, James. It is." James forced Logan into a giant hug which caused Logan to fall onto James' stomach.
"Oh my God. I love you." Logan smiled and sat up properly, shifting to straddle James.
"I love you too," Logan said, leaning down to kiss James. James placed his hands on Logan's waist and the two kissed again.
"Logan."
"Yes, baby?" James smiled up at Logan and the pale boy blushed.
"Don't ever leave me." Logan smiled and stroked James' cheek.
"I won't. I promise." The boys kissed again, and again. Logan laid his head on James' chest and James kissed the pale boys forehead.
"Good." Logan smiled up at James and the two kissed again.
"James?"
"Yes, baby?"
"I love you."
"I love you too." They kissed again, and Logan went back into his straddling position.
"You know what would be fun?" Logan asked, scattering kisses all over James' neck.
"W-What?"
"Fooling around in the hospital. I missed touching you, James," Logan whispered in James' ear hungrily before biting the lobe.
"I...I missed touching you too.." James trailed off. He could feel himself growing hard beneath his hospital gown and he moaned as Logan pressed down against it.
"Show me how much you miss me." James nodded and grabbed Logan by his hair and pulled him down into a kiss. Logan moaned softly into James mouth and forced his hips down onto James' erection. James pushed the pajama pants Logan still had on down and rubbed his erection through blue boxer-briefs. "Ah, James...I missed you touching me.." Logan sighed, shifting so James' wasn't in such an uncomfortable position. James licked his lips and pulled the boxer-briefs down, revealing Logan's cock. Logan blushed as James grabbed it.
"I missed being able to touch you," James whispered, beginning to stroke Logan. He doubled over and buried his face in James neck as the tan boy began to pump his hand faster.
"J-James..." Logan moaned softly and bit his boyfriend's neck. James moaned and thrust up against Logan. Logan smirked into James' neck. "K-Keep doing that, baby.." He sighed. James nodded and thrust up again. He could feel Logan's cock leaking, and he knew his was too.
"Logan...missed this..."
"M-Me too...Don't...stop.."
"Wasn't, ah, going..to.." James made his fist tighter and stroked faster.
"J-James...g-get that cup..." Logan moaned, pointing to a little plastic cup next to his bed.
"Gonna come?" James asked huskily, grabbed the cup and putting it near Logan's dick.
"James, I-I'm gonna...I'm coming!" Logan moaned into his neck as he came, and James was trying to make sure everything got in the cup. He stroked Logan through his orgasm and let the boy rest for a moment.
"My turn," James said as soon as Logan sat up.
"Shouldn't take long," Logan said, winking. James made a mock face at him and sat up slightly as Logan moved lower so his mouth was level with James' hips.
"Logan, please.." Logan looked up at James devilishly and threw the blanket back. He lifted the hospital gown and smirked to himself as he took James into his hand.
"Please what, baby?"
"Suck. Please...you're so good at giving head.." Logan smiled triumphantly to himself and wrapped his lips around James' cock. Satisfied by James' moans, he took all of James down his throat and hummed a made-up tune. "L-Logan I-" he let off in Logan's mouth and down his throat. Logan swallowed everything and pulled off with a 'pop', wiping off his chin.
"Miss me?"
"So fucking much."
"Same here," Logan said, covering James back up. He pulled the blankets back up and crawled underneath them next to James. The two boys cuddled on the hospital bed for what seemed like hours.
"Logan?"
"Yes, baby?"
"Do you even want to know what happened?" Logan sat up and looked at James.
"Honestly, no, because I don't wanna get upset, and I definately don't want you to get upset." James kissed Logan's forehead.
"Thank you, love." Logan smiled and layed back down on James' chest.
"Anytime, Jamsey." The boys shared a sweet kiss, that turned into more. James slipped his tongue gently into Logan's mouth and brought his hand down to interlock his fingers with Logan's. Logan smiled and blushed into the kiss.
"I love you," the tall boy whispered against Logan's lips and took his lower lip in between his teeth. Logan moaned softly and brought his free hand up to caress James' cheek.
"I love you, too."
"I love you more."
"I doubt that," Logan giggled, blushing as James ran his fingers through the pale boy's short hair.
"I don't." James brought their interlocked hands up to his mouth and kissed Logan's hand. Logan blushed even darker and smiled like an idiot.
"You're so amazing."
"You are."
"No, I'm not."
"Yes, you are. I promise, baby. With all of my heart. You're perfect." Logan smiled stupidly and buried his face in James' chest.
"Stop making me smile so stupidly, baby."
"But...But...it's so adorable," James said, tilting Logan's chin up and kissing him.
"Your argument is invalid."
"Oh, it's very valid, love."
"I love you."
"I love you, too." Logan smied and laid his head on James' chest and the said boy yawned.
"Tired, baby?"
"A little bit, yeah."
"Go to sleep. I'll be right here when you wake up, I promise."
"Okay. Wait. What time is it?"
"Like...around 8-ish."
"Oh."
"Goodnight, baby. Sweet dreams. I love you."
"I love you, too." james drifted off to sleep, Logan not far behind. Becky came in a little while later and smiled seeing the two boys sleeping together. They truly are perfect for each other.
Well. There's chapter 11 :) I know. It was sappy at the end. I used some of the things Nick (my love ) has said to me. I'm so sorry this chapter took forever, it's way overdue. Dx I hope you liked it, and I really hope you don't kill me for what I made James' dad do ._. R&R, please, babies ! I loveth you