Ok guys here is the deal, first five reviewers for this chapter get a sneak peek. If I get at least 10 reviews, the next two chapters will have a lot of answers that are key to the plot. If not I do have a filler chapter, so it's up to you. As always thanks to my reviewers, this chapter is for you.

Disclaimer: not stephenie meyer, yeah that sucks, but i still love Edward.

Edward:

Stupid! I had made many stupid mistakes in my extremely long life; I thought leaving Bella was the worst of them and the worst one that I would ever make. Apparently I was wrong. This mistake not only hurt Bella, my family and myself, no. This mistake hurt the thing I love more than life itself. Not more or less than Bella, but differently. She was the fruit of the love that I shared with her mother. She is the proof that everything was good in the world. I was petrified of losing her and my fear inadvertently was the cause for losing her.

I don't know what came over me. I saw her there with him, the one who could hurt her worse than anyone else. I didn't want her to leave, the first words to come out of my mouth were the words that I never wanted or thought I could say.

I was telling the boy to leave and in a way the part of me that reminded me of the boy. The part of me that could hurt the ones I loved the best. Then she defended that thing and the words shot out of my mouth without true meaning. Now I had lost forever one of the crucial things to my undead existence. That night I held my wife in my arms as she sobbed tearlessly, knowing that it was all my fault and for once not knowing how to fix it.

Izzie:

I reached the bottom of the stairs without accident. Then I followed what sounded like a very off-key version of Death Cab for Cutie's I Will Follow You into the Dark, into a enormous palatial kitchen.

"Wow," I joked. " I think you are the only vampire in the world who can't hold a tune to save their life."

" Well, I guess it's a good thing that I'm immortal, huh?"

" Death Cab for Cutie?"

"Yeah, not fan?"

" I was, until you totally botched that song."

" Oh, come on, it wasn't that bad, was it," he pleaded and he was so cute that I almost didn't use my snarky response, almost.

" Well, lets just say that if you cook as bad as you sing, we should probably call the fire department and get them here before the house blows. "

" Ha ha, oh so funny." " Sit down and I will make you a meal you will never forget."

" Oh, so maybe I should be calling poison control?" I glanced at him innocently.

He mock glared at me, as I pulled myself up onto the gleaming granite counter. I was feeling so much better, the perks of being half vampire. The only reminders of my near death experience, was the painful bruise extending across most of my torso.

His glare had changed into a careful scrutiny of me. I think that he was making sure that I wasn't going to crash again.

I stretched slowly to prove to him that I was truly ok. The only problem with that was that my stretch caused the t-shirt to slide up a little. Oops?

He gasped. I lowered my arms; a deer caught in headlights.

" Izzie, what the hell is that on your stomach?"

" Nothing," I tugged the shirt down as far as it would go.

A cold hand as strong as a manacle grabbed my two hands, while the other pulled my shirt up slightly to reveal the worsening by the second bruise. Gentle as a feather he ran his fingers over it and as gentle as it was, it still caused me to gasp in pain.

His fingers stilled, but he was still examining it and his scrutiny caused me to reexamine it as well.

The black, blue, and purple of the bruise looked especially stark against my pale creamy skin. And it was so bad, that my reference of being hit by a Mac truck from earlier didn't seem so off.

" It's all my fault," he whispered and pain filled his golden eyes. " If I had been able to save you, you wouldn't be hurt."

" No," I whispered back. " You did everything you could to save me, and even before that you gave me something that I needed desperately. You gave me the way to find myself. " his hand slid to my waist, and I pressed my forehead to his cheek.

Then I noticed something else, the quickening in my breathing wasn't just from pain. His hand on my waist gave me butterflies, I know that he felt it too. He slid me to the floor and tight into his embrace.

He lowered his head, and slid my arms around his neck as I slid up onto my toes. I hadn't noticed before how tall he was. Although not as tall as Jacob, he was most likely a little taller than my dad, maybe 6 "3 or 6"4. All thoughts flew from my head as he leaned in closer, hesitating; his lips less than an inch away from mine. His cool breath made me dizzy and I parted my lips and leaned in almost closing the distance. Then I closed my eyes…

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Xander:

I was so happy that she was ok, that I did something that I rarely ever do. I sang. " If Heaven and Hell decide that they both are satisfied, I will follow you into the dark…"

The sweetest sound broke into my horrible rendition of a classic song. However the words spoken were not so sweet.

"Wow," Izzie joked. " I think you are the only vampire in the world who can't hold a tune to save their life."

I retorted and we continued our banter for a few minutes, all the while I was watching her carefully, still not sure that she was ok.

She stretched and that's when I caught sight of something that caused me to gasp.

" Izzie, what the hell is that on your stomach?"

" Nothing," she tugged the shirt down as far as it would go.

I grabbed her hands and slid her shirt up a little to reveal an angry bruise. Severe against her peaches and cream complexion was an bruise indent of the mutt's hands. I knew that it only happened because he was trying to save her, but still I was angry with him for it. Not as angry as I was with myself, but still angry nonetheless.

" It's all my fault," I whispered " If I had been able to save you, you wouldn't be hurt."

" No," She whispered back. " You did everything you could to save me, and even before that you gave me something that I needed desperately. You gave me the way to find myself. " I slid my hand to her waist, and she pressed her forehead to my cheek.

Her breathing quickened and her heartbeat began to gallop. I felt my own breathing quicken in response. I slid her off the counter and into my arms. I was so glad that she was ok and her warmth in my arms caused me to forget all my worries to just focus on her.

I lowered my head and pulled her arms up around my neck. She slid onto her toes, parted her lips, closed her eyes and time seemed to stand still…

What's gonna happen? Is he gonna kiss her or not. R and R and you'll find out.