Sorry for leaving you guys like that, and another short update. I just needed to get this up and happy. For now. Maybe. Or not. Ever.
Tony walked in on Clint giving an animated representation of Natasha's 'super ninja assassin' skills to Steve. It involved an excessive amount of leaping and fast hand movements that almost made Steve go cross-eyed. Of course, the most amusing part would be Clint's sound effects.
Tony marches straight in, went straight to the bar, poured a tumbler of whiskey, downed it, went to pour another and ten thought better and grabbed another bottle and walked over to the elevator, pressing the basement level for his workshop. He ignored the disapproving looks that were sent his way.
He even ignored the clicking heels that followed him, making sure to close the lab door fast behind him, mumbling instructions for Jarvis to keep it locked, even to Pepper and even in extreme life or death emergency.
"Jarvis, play some music. Loud."
"Any preferences sir?"
Tony lay back in his chair. "Make it loud and angry."
Good. He needed to think.
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Loki flicked through the tomes he had left back in his old home, the cave in the mountain, the place he had first met (really met) Tony. The place they had spent their first night together, shared their first kiss, eaten cheeseburgers, encountered giant slimy earth snakes, and read poetry in the dim light of the Arc reactor.
Loki could not find a spell, everything he tried failed. Every spell, the thing fought back. He had become angrier and angrier with each spell barely scratching his skin. He had tried scraping, clawing at where the baby would be, all to no avail.
This evil, this 'thing' that was tearing him from Tony. It refused to leave, it would not be banished.
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"Tony? Are you okay?"
"FUCK OFF PEP!"
"Tony I-"
"JUST GO!" Tony knew he shouldn't be so hard on her, but he needed to think. He lay further back in his chair as she scurried out the room. He'd make a mental not to buy apology-flowers later.
He didn't know why he was so angry with Loki, after all, it was kind of him who suggested it would be easier to have kids. And Loki didn't know, it wasn't intentional.
But Tony didn't want kids, never had. It was something that Starks weren't good at, raising kids.
He knew Loki would be a great dad. He knew that others wouldn't think so, but he knew Loki differently, he would be such a devoted father as he was husband.
I suppose the biggest problem Tony had was Loki. No, well him.
Tony was jealous. He had always been possessive, jealous, suspicious. He and Loki had spent so much time together, did absolutely everything together, shared everything, were barely ever apart. And tony depended on Loki so much, much more that he thought Loki did him. If they had a child, would it keep Loki away from him?
That was it though, he had to speak to Loki, he had to accept responsibility. It was either losing a little time with Loki, or losing the whole Lolo forever.
It was an easy decision to make.
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Loki had given up. His hands and clothes were stained in blood, so he washed and changed them. Tears still continued to fall, but he had made his mind up. He would have to have the child, and he'd put it up for adoption and go back to Tony, if he'd have him. It would be months before he began to show, and then he'd go away for a while to have the baby. Make something up about duties in Asgard. Not that he had any duties anymore.
Loki had gone to Malibu. There he'd await Tony's return and try to explain. He didn't know how long he'd be waiting.
He was surprised when it was only a few hours.
"Babe?" Tony walked into the room, looking around for any signs of life. "Loki?"
Loki stepped out from the kitchen behind. There were tears in his eyes, but a warm smiled filled his feature when he say Tony standing there. "Tony."
"Babe, look. I'm sorry okay, I was just shocked and scared and..." His voice stuck in the back of his throat so he decided to change tactics. "Loki, I love you, I adore you. I admit I'd have preferred if this was a little more... planned, but I'd live to have a baby with you. To extend our family."
Loki rushed into the open arms, tears falling again on his face, this time merged with Tony's as they rested their foreheads together. "Tony, you truly mean this?"
"Loki, I love you with all my heart. Lo' I love you more than Jarvis."
Loki chuckled at that and kissed tony gently and chastely on the lips.
This was better, perfect. He didn't need to tell Tony his plan, or the child. No one need know what he had tried to do, what he had almost done.
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