Next? Maybe Sirius.

Hermione Granger Weasley

1) Back at muggle school, she had never felt like she belonged. She hadn't had friends, instead had just stayed secluded with her books, getting higher grades then everyone in the class and being praised by the teachers. It wasn't until she got her letter, until someone came to explain everything to her, that she realised why she didn't feel like she belonged- because she didn't belong. It cleared everything up- why the night before a big test she needed to study for, she never got tired. Why, after Janet Nicholson mocked her for her hair, she came to school with half of it missing. It explained so much. And Hermione was so excited to go to this new school. Because this was where it would all change.

It hurt more then it ever did in muggle school when she was proved wrong.

2) Of all the people she ever knew, Ron made her cry the most. There was the first time with the troll, in third year when they got in that fight (she almost never stopped crying) in fourth year when she realised that all these years she had felt something for him and he hadn't even realised she was a girl. Then there was the whole thing in the forest, when he left. She's never cried harder, never cried more, and it was hard because she tried so hard to be strong, to get over it, because she knew Harry didn't need to hear her blubbering. And yet she just couldn't stop.

But he came back, eventually. That was the thing with Ron- he always came back. Hermione could always count on him for that.

3) Sometimes, she got so sick of boys. So sick she just wanted to leave, to stop being friends with them and try to grow up normally (well, as normal as a witch can get) without worrying so much about Voldemort or prophecies or whether she was going to live or die. Sometimes she just couldn't take it.

But she knows that she wouldn't be able to just forget Ron and Harry. She could never become friends, close friends, with Parvarti or Lavender- never. Even Ginny, who is her best girl friend, wouldn't have been enough. From day one, Hermione belonged with Ron and Harry.

4) She never really liked Victor. Not that way, at least. As a friend, yes, because he was a really nice boy, despite all the fame. However it wasn't so much that she was attracted to him, more that he flattered her. When Ron was completely oblivious, Victor was there, making her laugh, making her smile, making her feel like she was beautiful. But the first time he kissed her, she pulled away and shook her head, telling him that she was sorry, but she couldn't. Because how could she kiss Victor when she was wishing it was Ron?

5) She hated being an only child. Because she had no one to turn to in the early years, hadn't had a sister or a brother to form a bond with. And even though Ron constantly complains about it, she doesn't really understand how a big family could be bad. It would just like having many close friends. Hermione loves spending time with the Weasley family, because they all just mould together, even with one of the pieces missing.

But Ron wouldn't have it. He told her that if she knew what it was really like, to have such a big family, she wouldn't wish it upon her children. And Hermione trusted him, because, well, why wouldn't she? It seemed to bug Ron so much. So she had two children, and she's happy that she did. Because they can't get much better then Rose and Hugo.

6) With her grades, in the beginning, she studied hard and did well because she wanted to prove something. She wanted to prove that she belonged at Hogwarts, because if she didn't belong at Hogwarts, where did she belong? So she worked hard and did well because she wanted to prove something. And many people complimented her and congratulated her on her hard work. But then, it seemed as if it was just expected of her. When she did perfect on a test, it wasn't, 'Excellent job, Ms. Granger,' it was more, 'Well, of course she got perfect. I expected nothing left.' That was when her school work became a chore for her.

7) Despite what everyone always said, she felt inferior then people because of her blood. Because both of her parents were muggles. She felt like she didn't belong, felt like she had so much more to prove, that she had to work harder. And even if she didn't show it, every time anyone, Malfoy included, muttered that word, mudblood at her, it stung, and the pain didn't lessen despite the amount of times she had heard it.

8) She knows it is absolutely terrible, but she favours Harry's and Ginny's kids over the others. She really can't help it. It's just that James is so adorable, and he reminds her a bit of Harry, when he was younger, before he had all those troubles, before Voldemort robbed him of his innocence. And Albus, sweet, thoughtful, Albus, how could you not love Albus? And Lily, so much like Ginny, outspoken, strong, a powerful witch with much too quick a temper... plus she had been there with them since birth, had helped raise them, almost, and Lily and Hugo and Albus and Rosie were so close, best friends...

It doesn't stop her from loving her other nieces and nephews. Molly and Lucy, Fred and Roxanne, she loves them all, of course.

9) When Rose told her about Scorpius, at first she refused to believe it. Because that couldn't be right- her baby, her Rosie, she couldn't have fallen for a Malfoy. And even though he was such a nice boy, so sweet and clearly crazy for her daughter, she still couldn't help but remember his fathers face, sneering at her, hissing angry, insulting words under his breath. But she shook it off, especially when they met up with Draco one odd, awkward time, and he told them that he could understood if they disapproved of the relationship, but he insisted they let it live on, because he had never seen his son happier.

That was when she knew that he had changed, and he had raised his son to reflect that change. That was when she could let go of all those names he called her, all those times he made her second guess herself and her talent, her ability.

10) She knew she was crazy about Ron. But she never really knew how deeply they cared for each other until he came with her to find her parents, when he held her hand as she fought back tears when they stared at her with blank, unseeing eyes. That was one of the hardest things- knowing that they didn't recognize her. But he squeezed her hand and gave her support while she cast the spell, and from that moment on she knew she could never love anyone more then she loved Ron.