A/N:

Sorry this is so long in coming. My life is being filled with drama which makes for interesting times. Anyway I wanted to tell ya'll that I figured out how to upload pictures from my digital camera to the computer so if you want a picture of me email me:

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I'll send you some. Sometimes it's nice to see the person who is doing the writing. :) I love you guys a lot. I have NOT forgotten about this fic, it's my pride and joy.

Inspiration:

You and me
We come from different worlds
You like to laugh at me
When I look at other girls
Sometimes you're crazy
And you wonder why
I'm such a baby
Cause the Dolphins make me cry

Well there's nothing I can do
I only wanna be with you
You can call me your fool
Only wanna be with you

Only Wanna Be With You (Hootie and the Blowfish)

"I just can't believe seventh year is almost over, I so desperately want to be rid of Hogwarts."

"You've had the time of your life, Lily, you've accomplished everything you wanted to accomplish."

"But I come out broken," she said with a weak smile, "I have done it all, I think, I really have. But I am not whole, anymore, you know? I am not the same Lily that came into this at eleven."

"No one is, are they?"

"Some people are, look at Janet, you can look in her eyes and she is that same little girl first year who dropped the pitcher of pumpkin juice and ran into the lavatory crying. She is that same girl. And James, he is so untouched by everything real."

"You aren't surprised by life anymore?"

"Oh goodness no."

"I wake up every single day, Lily, and I am still amazed at the sky and the sun and the fact that we eat eggs prepared by house elves, you know, I really am."

"You're so innocent."

"And you aren't? You've learned so much but what have you done with it?"

"Become a bitter old woman," she laughed, "sometimes I am. I feel much older than seventeen, I feel at least sixty."

"You're brilliant."

"I am not, I am the most ridiculous person who has ever lived."

"You're so insecure. I'm not only amazed by eggs and the sun I'm amazed by you too. You walk into the Great Hall and you stand so straight with your messy unbuttoned shirts and wrinkly skirts and you smile at everybody, even at Malfoy. You flash him the biggest smile. And your eyes sparkle. And then I see you like this, and you're more human than anybody..."

"I don't want to be worshipped, Remus. No one really wants to be worshipped. I want a husband who I can put in his place and sometimes he can put me in my place. I am a lowly commoner," she struck a dramatic pose, "I am. I like butter on my bread and I like the countryside and that's it, that's absolutely it."

"You and James seem so happy."

She kicked at the dirt in her black buckled shoes, "sometimes we are and sometimes we aren't."

"You're a diplomat."

"Oh, but it's true isn't it? It all seems so useless, doesn't it? I mean what will be will be, I'm inclined to believe no one has a choice in anything. And no one can give you a good reason, yesterday I asked James why he loved me and he shrugged then said 'you have really nice eyes.'"

"Sounds empty."

"It is so empty."

"Why go through with all of this?"

"I don't know, I really don't. Me and you could be so happy together, maybe we'd eat each other alive but we'd be so happy. We'd have everything."

"No, no, we wouldn't. Nothing can be perfect, Lily."

"We can."

"You're mad."

"Just mad about you!" She laughed, falling backwardsinto theovergrown grass. "Oh God, you make me feel so full and James leaves me feeling so alone."

"Get your priorities straight, dear," he said, exaggerating his accent.

"I'll try, but for now you just sit by me, yeah, right there."

"I'll get grass stains."

"Oh go cry about it, Remus," she teased.

"Fine, I'll sit."

"I want to make you proud, Remus."

"You already have, Lily Marie."