Allison dove back into work, and Tom felt like she was avoiding talking about how she felt. Every time she shown the slightest ounce of pain, she started taking his clothes off. Normally he wouldn't complain about the amount of sex they were having, but he knew she was just avoiding what was inevitable. It had been another week, and when he got home from the set, he heard her giggling away with someone in the kitchen. He went to stand in the doorway, and he saw Allison laughing away with Amelia, her movie sister, and for the first time since she had come back, it looked like genuine laughter. Allison saw movement in the corner of her eye, and when she saw him there, she smiled, motioning for him to come meet Amelia.

"Tom, come here hon, I want you to meet Amelia. Amelia, this is Tom." Amelia looked starry-eyed at Tom as she stood to shake his hand.

"I'm such a huge fan of your work Mr. Hiddleston, and can I say it's just an honor to be working on this project, even if we never have a scene together."

"Bless you. I wish I were more involved in this film as well, but I really cannot complain. So what is it that had you two young ladies giggling away?" Allison started to giggle again, and Amelia looked up at him.

"Well, you know, the things all girl laugh at, boys." Allison pushed Amelia slightly, speaking up.

"You say it like that like it's all we've been talking about. No, I was teasing miss Morris here about her crush." Tom raised a brow at Allison then to Amelia who was looking like she would just die if Allison said anymore. "Well, I guess I should say crushes, she has more than one."

"Allison!" Tom chuckled as Allison turned to Amelia, shrugging slightly.

"What? I never said who they are, but let me tell him one, please, he will get a kick out of it." Amelia bit her lips as she looked at Allison like a scared little girl.

"Who?"

"The one who you wish was working on this film."

"That doesn't narrow it down."

"Well if I say anything else about him, then Tom would definitely figure it out." Allison then leaned to Amelia whispering something, then she nodded as she looked up at Tom. "She has a huge crush on Jeremy Renner." Tom laughed sweetly as Amelia turned bright red.

"He is a great guy, and I believe he's unattached." Amelia then put her face in her hands as Allison giggled, elbowing her.

"See, I told you Tom would know his status. I could put in a good word for you." Tom smiled at Allison, leaning down to her and kissing her softly before he spoke to the two.

"I will let you two get back to your conversation. I'm just going to go review my script." Allison put her hand on his arm, stopping him from leaving.

"We were talking about heading to dinner, care to join us down at that amazing little café just on the corner?"

"No, but thank you darling. You two go, enjoy the evening and I will be here working. Alright?" Allison got up on her tip toes to press a kiss to his cheek before whispering in his ear.

"I won't be gone long, I want to talk to you tonight." Tom turned to see a shy smile on her lips and he cupped her cheek, kissing her sweetly before she left.

Allison was gone for two hours, and when she got back home, she was alone. Tom was reading his script and sipping his tea when she came in, and she loved seeing him so relaxed. Allison slid her shoes off then she let her hair down as she sat next to him. Tom watched as she ran her fingers through her hair, then pulling her lip balm out of her pocket to sooth it over her lips. Once she was done she looked at him, turning her body so she was facing him.

"Tom, first of I have to say thank you for putting up with my crazy life, and how I've been acting lately. I know that I've avoided talking about how I'm feeling, but that's because I'm afraid to let you see me like that. I hate being vulnerable so I hide it. I know that no one likes it, so I'm working on that. Now I also know you haven't actually complained about the sex, but I just get to these points when I need to feel alive, and you do that me. You make me feel alive and I don't think I could ever survive without you. I want you to know that you are what keeps me going." Tears started to fall down her cheeks as she fiddled with her hands, and Tom dropped his head to catch her eyes, wanting her to look at him. "If I wasn't here, if this wasn't my life and I lost my mom, I'd be prepared to curl up and die. She was too young to die Tom, and I stood there, motionless, unable to do a damn thing to help her. I should have done something. Damian jumped to her side like a son is supposed to do, and I just fell into your arms and cried, I didn't do a damn thing. That is the pain I've been harboring, I feel so guilty, like a child who didn't love their mother enough, and I know she'd understand, but I haven't been able to shake that feeling, like I should have one something." Allison took a deep breath in between her sobs and Tom pulled her close, tilting her chin to look at him.

"Allison, you have nothing to feel guilty for. People sometimes just cannot react because of the emotions they are feeling. You were witnessing something that no one of any age should ever have to witness. We all know that death is a part of life, but to see it happen first hand, that is something no one is ever prepared for." Allison started weeping as she snuggled into his lap, her head resting on his chest, listening to his strong heart beat.

"I just keep thinking that no matter how wonderful everything turns out, she won't be here to witness it. She won't be here to see us get married, or to see our children. I've had years to deal with my dad not being there, and I always just kept thinking, well I still have mom, but now." Tom had heard her admission, she wanted it to be their wedding, their children, but he knew she was a little too upset to talk about it right now. She took Tom's hand that was resting on her lap, and she started running her fingertips from his palm and up his arm. It tickled Tom at first, but suddenly it just felt relaxing. He pressed a kiss to her forehead, just listening to the sound of her breathing laying in his arms.

"Kitten, you know she is always with you, her memory lives with you." She nuzzled close to his neck, her lips grazing his skin softly as planted kisses. Tom closed his eyes, trying hard to focus on anything other than her lips on his flesh. "Allison darling, is this you wanting to feel alive?" Allison laid her head on his shoulder, and he felt her nodding slightly.

"Maybe, but it doesn't help I find you so irresistible."

The next few days were good for Allison, and Tom had a surprise planned for Friday. He had Kelsy helping him plan, wanting to show Allison how alive she made him feel. As Thursday came Tom woke up alone in bed and he heard Allison in the shower, singing away, and it brought a smile to his face. He laid there for a moment listening to her music playing as she belted out the tune, then the music changed, and he listened to the unfamiliar song.

"With every appearance by you, blinding my eyes, I can't hardly remember the last time I felt like I do, you're an angel disguised. And you're lying real still, but your heartbeat is fast just like mine. And the movie's long over, that three that have past, one more's fine. Will you stay awake for me? I don't want to miss anything, I don't want to miss anything. I will share the air the breathe, I'll give you my heart a string, I just don't want to miss anything. I'm trying real hard not to shake, I'm biting my tongue, but I'm feeling alive. And with every breath that I take, I feel like I've won, you're my key to survival. And if it's a hero you want I can save you, just stay here. Your whispers are priceless, your breath is taste dear so please stay near. Will you stay awake for me. I don't want to miss anything, I don't want to miss anything. I will share the air I breathe. I'll give you my heart on a string. I just don't want to miss anything. Say my name, I just want to hear you say my name, so I know it's true. You're changing me, you're changing me. You've shown how to live. So just say, so just say. That you'll stay awake for me. I don't miss anything, I don't want miss anything. I will share the air I breathe, I'll give you my heart on a string, I just don't want to miss anything."

He smiled as he heard Allison getting out of the shower, singing the next song on her playlist as she toweled off. He knew the song she was singing, and when she walked out, he smiled at her, saying the next few lines.

"If I lay here, If I just lay here. Would you lie with me, and just forget the world. I don't quite know how to say how I feel. Those three words are said to much, they're not enough." Allison walked over to the bed, laying across it as she rested her head on Tom's chest.

"You speak my language mister. I can't wait for us to both to have the day off Saturday, we can just lay here all morning, maybe enjoy an afternoon hike then a date night. Anything that sounds good to you."

"Kitten, anytime I get to spend with you is perfect." Allison rolled over, smiling at him, knowing her towel fell open, leaving her exposed for Tom to admire. He rolled up on this side, kissing her softly and running his hand down her back. As he gripped her behind, Allison smiled against his kiss, giggling as she pulled away.

"I've got to get ready for work dear."

"You've got some time."

"I've got maybe five minutes, and that's if I skip coffee. You can wait until tonight." Tom smiled as she got up, and he too slid out of bed so that he could get ready himself. Allison was pulling her panties out of her dresser as Tom stood behind her, pulling her back against him as his lips drifted across the back of her neck and shoulder. A sigh escaped her lips, feeling his hands sliding around her, he then whispered in her ear.

"That is to remind you what I plan on doing with you later."

"That better be a promise." She said with a smirk on her lips, and Tom felt like she was moving forward and getting back to herself again.