Yes, yes I'm back, Hurrah! But don't get too happy. I'm pretty it's going to be like last time. I updated like twice a day then stopped for a long time! But hey, give a girl a break! I went on vacation for like a month and I have toooons to catch up on at school and I have sooo much homework, if I pile it up, it'll be bigger than the everest! So here it goes.

P.S. For Drop Dead Saxy ; I already have a beta but she's never online and I never talk to her so please be mine! (like on a valentine's day card it says  BE MINE! Okay, totally random, sorry… But hey, it's almost valentine's day, so not completely random!)

Lilly's apartment.

January 31

Okay, so this whole living with Michael thing isn't working out. We've been arguing since this morning. I just woke up and I went downstairs to get some breakfast and then I saw Michael drinking milk from the bottle. Ew.

So I said "Michael stop it! That's gross!"

Then he says "You're not my mom!"

Then I say "I KNOW! But I still think it's gross! And other people drink milk!"

Then he says "Well, I'm SORRY if I'm not too perfect for princess!"

Then I say "What's your problem? You can at least treat me with respect!"

Then he says "Why are you giving me orders? This isn't YOUR house!"

That's when I got really mad so I started screaming "MICHAEL YOU INSESITIVE ASSHOLE I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU'D SAY SUCH A THING!!!"

And he says calmly "Oh, I see. It's that time of the month,"

I couldn't take it anymore I threw a banana at him and stomped upstairs to Lilly's room.

This was our first real fight. I couldn't believe it. When I came upstairs Lilly was sitting there (as usual) reading a magazine.

"What was that all about?" She asked.

"Michael's an obnoxious bastard and he doesn't know it," I said, red with fury.

"FINALLY you see things my way!" She said and then she continued reading her magazine.

I hate Michael.

Same day

Central park

Oh my god something horrible just happened to me.

Okay, so I got bored so I went downstairs to watch some TV. Michael was already there watching a rerun of Larry King, so I turned back and headed for the stairs. But then he called me.

"Mia! Come back!" He said.

So I did, because as much as I'm mad, I really do love Michael despite my earlier statement.

"Yeah ?" I said in a very annoyed voice.

"Lo ok," he got up "I'm sorry for screaming at you, I mean, it's not like I wanted to fight with you on purpose! I was just mad that you were treating me the way you were,"

I really wanted to say a clever remark and stay mad at him, but when I look in his sweet brown, I gave in.

"Oh, Michael I'm sorry too! I just got so carried away!" I said as I looked down.

He came up to me and gave me a hug, then a kiss. Everything was good.

Until half an hour later.

After Larry King, we just sat there talking to each other.

"Sometimes I wish I wasn't a princess," I said.

"Hey, it's better than being average," He said.

"But there's the press and the balls and annual Genovian visits and the Princess Lessons. Oh that princess lessons…" I said, cringing at the memory of Grandmere.

"Oh, stop your complaining!" He said.

"What is that supposed to mean ?!" I asked, feeling angry again.

"Well, you're always complaining. OH I don't have a chest, Oh I'm a princess, Oh NO I have big feet, OOHHH GRANDMERE!!" He said mimicking me (badly).

"HOW ARE YOU?!" I asked.

"Why are you mad, it's the truth! You're always doing that Mia! It gets on my nerves!" He screamed.

Then I got really scared because he's never screamed at me like that. But I was so mad that I sort of forgot my fear, no matter how much I was… scared.

"THEN WHY ARE YOU DATING ME HUH? WHY DON'T YOU GO OFF WITH ANOTHER GIRL IF YOU HATE ME SO MUCH?" I screamed at the top of my lungs.

"YEAH WHY DON'T I? I MEAN, AT LEAST I'D HAVE TO STOP HEARING YOU COMPLAIN!" he screamed. By then I was heart broken, but I didn't stop.

"FINE AND I'LL GO CALL RENE! AT LEAST HE'LL TREAT ME RIGHT, BETTER THAN YOU EVER WILL! AND HE WON'T BEAT YOU UP BECAUSE HE ISN'T A BIG COMPUTER NERD BULLY!"

Then it happened. He slapped me. And not softly too. It was so hard, it still hurts. My cheek became so red and I had tears in my eyes. I stared at him and he stared back. We were both breathing hard. I started turing away and he grabbed me by the shoulders very hard that it really hurt I tried to get away.

"Mia, I'm so sorry! I didn't want to hurt you!" he said.

Then he tried to hug, but it was forced and it hurt a lot. I pushed him back, put on my jacket and ran out. He didn't even follow me. I was barely across the street that I started crying. I ran and cried just like the day I found out I was a princess. I ran and ran to Central park, like last time.

And I've been here ever since. It's been two hours now, that I've been sitting on this same bench. The police have been staring at me; they probably think I'm a hobo. Which I am really. At least, for the next four days.

I can't go back to the apartment. I'd have to see Michael and that would kill me. The guy, who 12 hours ago gave me the most romantic gift ever, slaps me. I never knew how strong that guy really is. Now I know how Rene feels. But I think that Rene would have suffered more because he got punched. More than one time.

It's getting dark and I'm a little scared. I think that I'll walk around a bit.

Same Day

Lilly's apartment.

So I'm back. Only because Lilly convinced me.

She heard a big SNAP sound and came running (a little too late, I left by then) and has been looking for me ever since.

She found my at Times Square walking around. She walked with me, trying to convince mr to go back to her place, but I wouldn't. I was so scared, I couldn't even think about Michael.

So we walked in silence until 9 p.m. Then she said "I'm going home, Mia. Please come. You can't sleep in Central Park or something! I'll make sure Michael stays away from you!"

I don't know what finally made me give in, but I did, so here I am again, in Lilly's room. Hiding from my boyfriend. Maybe my ex-boyfriend.

I don't know how this will end and that really scares me. I love Michael with all my heart but what he just did… it was so… not Michael. But fighting Rene was so not Michael, but he still did it.

I guess that you can never really know someone until you've seen their bad side. I always thought that Michael didn't have a bad side, only a good one. I was wrong on so many levels.

But to tell you the truth, if Michael came in here asking for my forgiveness, I'd forgive hime no doubts about it because I love Michael no matter what he does or say to me, I mean, he's the love of my life. That's done something very bad to me. I think I'm going to go talk to him.

Shit I'm nervous. Oh my god what if he doesn't want to talk to me? What if he doesn't regret doing this? What if he doesn't love me anymore? I think that's the thing that scares me the most.