Change
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Change
The day the whole Republic fell is a day Lux Bontaire truly wishes he could forget. He was in his small apartment complex, resting away as he eagerly waited for tomorrow to come when he heard it all.
The screams. The cries. Everything as if he were watching a horror film on the HoloNet, except this was reality. The Jedi Temple aflame was an awful sight, gret powerful beauty fallen, destroyed in the worst act of betrayal by those the Jedi trusted surely.
He fought back tears, trying to think of who could've done such a horror when an image flashed his mind to frighten him even more.
Ahsoka.
Was she alright? Dead? Alive? He dared himself not to even think about her being gone, because everything he had come to love was because of her, and with her gone it would destroy everything he hoped so dearly.
And suddenly it felt like he had died inside. How he longed to see her face, her smile, her laughter, simply be able to hold her. He hadn't seen her in three days, but she had assured him she was resting at the Temple and couldn't visit him or else the others would become suspicious.
Three days to hm felt more like three long years. The Clone Wars themselves were three years, and that was pure dread to even try to bear for him. He was sixteen, and had returned back to his impaitence from when he was a child because he didn't have what he wanted. And all he wanted was her.
And this impatience made an exception.
He hears a knock at his door, and he literally runs towards it, just in case though keeps himself calm in case if it were an intruder, and before he knew it his hand slwoly reached toward the knob of the door and turned it.
Only to find a familiar hooded figure at him.
A familiar pair of gray blue eyes that he feared so were lifeless.
He slapped himself mentaly to check if his mind was playing a cruel trick, but it wasn't. She was here. Standing at his door trembling and shaking in fear.
The poor girl was traumatized.
He ha dsene he as a warrior, fighting and fearless. But now she feared the shadows themselves as she literally threw herself at him, like the time she had found him.
Except this time he had found her.
"Lux!" was all she could say, in alow whisper of a new voice. Scared. Something that made him shiver in fear as well, since he had come to know her a a strong young woman. But to see her cracked, it didn't mattter. He couldn't blame her, her friends were being killed off.
His shoulder starts to get wet from hot tears that pour out of her, a deep sobbing noise erupting from her chest. He shushes her in a comfort as he rubs her back, and she shakes as she cries.
"I- I'm a coward! They- they're all dead! I-" she stopped, overwhelmed from the more tears that came from her.
"It's not your fault. Don't you ever say that." he sternly tells her. She lifts her head up from his shoulder, wet gray-blue eyes that met to his sky blue ones and she softly says.
"But I left."
His eyes pierce at her, but he manages to keep himself strong since it was an owed debt for the Force knows how many times before she had stayed strong for him even at the worst.
"But you're alive. Here. And if you died I- I can't even imagine." he kciks himself for not finding the right words to say. She shook her head though as she bit her lip to fight back more tears.
"No Lux, you don't understand. I mean, I literally left the Jedi Order. Today. Just this afternoon. I had left a HoloRecord if anyone were to find it- I figured nothing would happen..." she paused.
If the emotion of shock itself could kill, Lux would've dropped dead right there.
"W-why?" he whispers. She wa sos promising, recently Knighted and he knew for certain it wouldn't be long before she were to become possibly the youngest Master ever in the whole Order. She was brave, powerful, and kind. He couldn't think of any reason why she would've- wait.
She left the Order for him.
And suddenly a wave of guilt practically drowns him, he was stupid enough to have her fall in love. He made her break away from a promising future up until now.
Wait- what future is there now anyways? The kriffin' Jedi Temple is in flames, and that would've been her joining the death toll. Everything was just so confusing at the moment. Lux was for certain it was some sort of a plot by the Sepratists to destroy the Temple and murder the Jedi, but he just can't understand why go as far as to this limit. Like the cats and dogs only playing dirty.
He wasn't paying attention when Ahsoka answered.
"I-I left because I could've gotten in trouble for us. I-I love you."
Of any time she could've told him, the time now felt so inappropiate yet- perfect. She left the Order for him, and they could simply o what they wanted. It almost felt more like a fairy tale.
What fairy tale? People are dead now. Hundreds upon thousands of people are dead.
Even with the grief there, it seems like at that moment Lux suddenly has the answer to the sollution. Like how he knew his mothr had most of the answers to his questions only know he knew what to do to at least improvise with this one.
He pulls her as fast as he can, and sweeps her over her feet for the mightiest, most passionate kiss he could pull off. All the love, al the desire and longing for her, now placed into one perfect kiss.
And suddenly all the troubles and horrors are swept awat, blown away like dust in the wind. Nothing that could stand in their way. He feels her lips are a bit warm, probably form ome tears dripping to her lips, and he feels her lips formed into a frown that slowly relax and then she smiles as she kisses him.
And they hold each other close, as if this were truly the way they were destined to die. When his lungs demand for air, he pulls back in a gasp and blurts out the last thing she would expect.
"Run away with me. We- we can't stay here anymore, there's no use now." he pleads with her. She looks at him with shocked eyes, confused and debating over whether or not to go forward with the idea. she bits her lip until she is sure she tastes blood and shakes her head slowly.
"I- I dunno...we- we're not safe here or anywhere anymore Lux." she tries to cope with him, and he actually finds a way to smle despite the moment of grief and horror for everyone else. It's a small smile, but geniuine enough to try and cheer her up.
"No, we're not. But as long as we've got each other, we can take on anything. You said that yourself." he reminded her. She still doesn't look fully convinced but she thinks about it.
"I-" she says before being cut off in yet another kiss, this one even more than before to try and make a plea with her. She widens her eyes, but she wraps her arms around him as tight as she can. It flet like thw whole galaxy was spinning around her in a wave she had never seen it, a new beauty.
A Change.
A new life and future.
With him.
It is not long before despite the grief it feels like a part of her is somehow free frm the Code. And though she knows that the darkness is far from over, and soem would most likely deem her a coward if they were to recognize her:
That didn't matter at all.
There seems to no longer be anymore guilt inside of her, but it is not gnoe for good. But she doesn't care. She loved him.
And yes, she knew it and was well aware. She was willing to scream that to the whole galaxy she was in love, and how right that truly felt. Night stays long with passion for the two of them, an unusual timing though with what happens on this day. And like she had known before, he too knew that all the troubles were just beginning. The illusion of a true happy ending for him and her will never come to be, he had learned to accept that he couldn't always get things to go his way.
This story is no true happy ending for them...
...but it's their story.
Only with a new life to being with.
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Reviews? Thought? Opinions? I'm feeling really down today so I'm not sure if I like this chapter or not. *shrugs shoulders* I tried to express the emotions flying by, where though it is still sad but they're overjoyyed in a way that they can love freely. Kind of like where you tell a joke and then it takes the person like 30 seconds to get itand then they laugh. Like that.
Still, REVIEWS = LOVE! XD