A/N - Hey guys, I just wanted to apologize that the last chapter had some errors in it. I'll trust my better judgments and proof read next time so I can fix missing words, and not type shitting when I meant to type shutting. Thanks for sticking with it so far, I'll keep my writing less sloppy from here on out. Feel free to leave a review or message me if you have any input.
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When Fynn woke she heard muffled voices, she didn't know if she should get up, or just stay where she was. Fynn wanted to close her eyes again, go back to the blissful nothingness of sleep. Either way Fynn decided she should probably move from the floor. After standing Fynn felt a little less tired, even though from the looks of it, it was still dark outside. Fynn yawned a little on her way to the table where her sweater was as she reached in her back pocket for a smoke, and draped her sweater over her shoulder.
As Fynn was feeling around for her lighter the voices became more clear, looks like Kenzi finally made it home… and Tamsin. Now Fynn was a little nervous all things considered. Kenzi walked downstairs and decided to leave Bo and Tamsin alone for the moment. "Hey little wolf, how ya feeling?" Kenzi asked Fynn.
"Burn out. Tired, you know?" Fynn replied. "Sorry about yesterday Kenzi, I'm sorry for what you had to go through to get to that point."
Kenzi just walked over and smiled as she ruffled Fynn's hair. "Coffee?" Kenzi asked.
"Please." Fynn responded. "What time is it anyways?" Fynn asked.
"6pm, have a busy night?" Kenzi asked while shooting her a look that let Fynn know she clearly already knew the answer to the question she had asked.
"Oh you know… no strings attached." Fynn answered while grabbing the cup Kenzi was holding out for her.
"Well no strings for you two ended up pulling on someone else's strings." Kenzi warned Fynn.
Fynn let out a sigh. "Tamsin."
"Oh yeah." Kenzi breathed. "The second she woke up she was on a man hunt looking for you. I think she even scared Astrid a little bit." Kenzi laughed. "What's not funny about all this is how broken she looked when she found you."
"Care to fill me in?" Fynn asked knowing she would either way.
"Well, we check the Dal, Dyson's, everywhere in that magical forest of yours, and then we came here." Kenzi said while giving her a skeptical look with a stern tone to her voice. "The thing is when we walked in you were right over there, and then there was Bo in nothing but her lingerie and her robe running her hands through your hair."
"What?" Fynn sounded a little confused considering she thought Bo would have been fast asleep as well. Wizards did tend to sleep more than anyone she's ever met though.
"Yeah." Kenzi said. "Tamsin is livid, even though you looked like you were having one hell of a nightmare. You looked completely distraught and your breathing was really strange, and then it just stopped altogether." Kenzi explained. "Tamsin calmed down little bit after that, considering you didn't start breathing again until like a minute later, but she's still as cold as a statue."
"I think it's safe to say Bo filled you both in about last night then?" Fynn asked.
"Oh yeah." Kenzi shot her a look. "Now her and Tamsin are having a little chat."
"Well that's good and bad I'd say." Fynn laughed. "I hate that drowning dream. I've had it ever since about a month before I met Tamsin. Someone's trying to take her, a wolf drags me into a river when I'm focused on nothing else other than trying to reach her, and I just start to drown. It looks like I'm only several feet below the surface, but it gets darker and darker fast, the last thing I see is Tamsin's hand reaching for me, and then it all fades to black. I can't help but fill my lungs with water while I'm still fighting to make my way back up, and then there's just nothing." Fynn explained. "I never knew it was Tamsin either until about a week or so after Astrid found her. She was growing into one of her life cycles, and she appeared to be a teenager, and out of nowhere the next week or so she was a fully grown woman still acting like a little punk. I've always been a little afraid of her since then considering she was the woman I didn't know that I'd been trying to save over and over again in my dreams for weeks before we crossed paths. They stopped when we met, and come back every time we're apart."
"That's really strange, and freaky. Have you ever told her about it?" Kenzi asked.
"No. I never even told Astrid about them, you're the first. I figured I might as well since you might get to see it for yourself. Astrid told you everything about the bond right?" Fynn asked.
"She did, I still want to go through with it though. I'm ready. I'm just a little surprised you'd trust a stranger with the memories of your past." Kenzi replied.
"You may be a stranger now, but not for long. You feel familiar in a way anyways, and I couldn't picture anyone more trustworthy to leave those fragments of myself with." Fynn smiled.
"You just see people for who they are, don't you?" Kenzi asked. "You see past people's little facades, and you just know."
"Some call it a gift. Sometimes I call it a needle full of venom. It's got its ups and downs, I think it's part of why I've always just stuck to myself… out casted myself from society. Sometimes it feels a little heavy watching people run around trying to fool themselves and others." Fynn admitted.
"No wonder Tamsin has a soft side when it comes to you. I've never seen Tamsin so angry or worried at the same time as she was looking for you today. She did vow that she was going to kill you though." Kenzi laughed and at that moment they heard footsteps coming downstairs.
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Tamsin was looking at the floorboards as she walked towards them. She had her Valkyrie face on, cold as a statue just as Kenzi had mentioned. Tamsin looked up at Fynn and all her anger came out. "Why do you even smoke those things?" She asked seething with hate as she grabbed Fynn's cigarette out of her mouth and threw it in the sink. "I can't stand you!" Tamsin yelled at Fynn. "I don't know why I ever spent so much time with you in that stupid forest in the first place." She said in a tone full of ice as she pushed Fynn out of the kitchen and towards the living room. "Like father like daughter, always sleeping in the wrong beds." Tamsin said as she pushed Fynn again.
"Looks like all three of us have something in common now." Fynn said nonchalantly while rolling her eyes.
"Having you blocked from my mind was a gift." Tamsin said right before she sucker punched Fynn on the right side of her face. "No wonder the memories of you weren't strong enough to break the surface on their own." She said unable to look at Fynn as she delivered another blow to her mouth this time.
"Pain's a real funny thing, isn't it T." Fynn coughed out the words.
"Tamsin stop it!" Bo yelled as she entered the room. "Why aren't you defending yourself at least Fynn?" Bo asked confused knowing Fynn could easily take out anyone in the room, or disappear into thin air if she wanted.
"That's the point Bo. She doesn't have anything up for defense when it comes to Tamsin. That's why she won't do anything to stop her. She's waiting for Tamsin to see that too." Kenzi told Bo. Kenzi really did notice everything, it was her greatest strength. She noticed a lot from always being pushed to the side, but Bo was starting to see it now that Kenzi had just pointed that out. It made perfect sense to, they couldn't do anything but watch if Tamsin was ever going to notice it as well.
"I wish I didn't remember you still, I wish I'd only ever seen the destructive things you can do, and I wish I could forget you again." Tamsin said between punching her, and pushing her around. "I wished you'd just go." Tamsin said sounding completely broken slapping Fynn across the face this time instead of hitting her.
Fynn walked away from her and picked up her sweater from the ground which had fallen off her shoulder between blows. Fynn put it on and walked back over to the counter quietly finishing her cup of coffee Kenzi had poured for her moments ago. Fynn's face was covered in blood, she had yet another black eye, her lower lip was split open and there was a cut above her left eye. Tamsin was just turning around as Fynn walked over to Bo, grabbed her hand, and they disappeared.
"Holy shit." Kenzi said in utter shock of the beating she just watched take place.
"I need to get drunk." Tamsin whispered.
"Me too. Now." Kenzi said. "Let's go."
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Fynn and Bo were back at Bo's car which they had just got gas for. As Fynn was pouring the gas into the tank Bo wasn't sure what to say, but she felt the need to say something. "So, I guess love really does hurt." Her words sounded nervous.
Fynn laughed. "Like a bitch I have to say. Which one of us upset her more?" Fynn asked.
"I'm not sure. While you were downstairs with Kenzi, Tamsin and I had a talk. She told me how she'd felt about me for the past year, but she said something always seemed off and it wasn't Lauren or Dyson, it was more than that." Bo explained. "It was you. She just didn't know it. She still doesn't want to admit it. If it weren't for you or Rainer we'd probably be together right now, but things are never that easy."
"Look, I know how she feels about you, and if you'd take her instead of Rainer I'd gladly take a bow and step aside. I'd be happy for you both, and be thankful you each found a good fit." Fynn told Bo while shutting the tank.
"Like I said, it's never that easy. I don't know what it is, but Rainer has a hold on me, and as long as he's around, I'm hopeless for him… and I feel terrible that my feelings for someone I love, is hurting other people I love in the process…again." Bo said.
"Things are always messy. You can't blame yourself." Fynn said looking at Bo. "I'm glad Tamsin finally was able to be honest with someone for once though. All is fair in love and war."
"She's in there beating you up because she can't handle the fact that she didn't know until now that it was you." Bo told Fynn. "Whatever happened between her and Dyson was just two people trying focus on anything else but the truth."
"In a way I told her the same thing yesterday." Fynn laughed. "I can't deny that my actions were done more freely than theirs was." Fynn admitted. '
"In a way I'm kind of glad." Bo replied. "Let's get back and get a drink, even though we both woke up late it already feels like it's been a long day."
"I could definitely use a stiff one before I tackle trying to get this dried up blood off my sore face." Fynn said agreeing with Bo's plan.
"It looks like it would hurt to talk to be honest." Bo laughed.
"Oh it does… a lot." Fynn smiled as they sped down the road.
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Meanwhile Kenzi and Tamsin were already at the Dal. Kenzi was on her third drink, but Tamsin was already on her third bottle. Trick thought about asking what happened, but decided he'd be better off not knowing. "Did I at least leave a mark?" Tamsin asked.
"Trust me you left more than a mark." Kenzi couldn't help but laugh. "Poor girl will probably have to sleep on an ice pillow tonight if she can even sleep at all."
"Good." Tamsin scoffed. "Or maybe we should call Lauren to fix her, because we do need those needles and vials anyways." Tamsin finished.
"Were those plurals I heard? Are going to do this too?" Kenzi asked surprised.
"No. It just wouldn't hurt to have an extra just in case." Tamsin said trying to act tough again.
"Either way she probably could use a doctor this time around. She definitely looked like she needed a few stitches… I'm kind of surprised you didn't knock her out cold." Kenzi sounded like she was used to their behavior already.
"Did someone say they needed a doctor?" Dyson asked entering the Dal with Lauren trailing in behind him.
"Uh oh." Kenzi said.
"We need a doctor, not you." Tamsin said coldly. "I'm getting low again barkeep!" Tamsin hollered over to Trick.
"Well, how am I not surprised you're acting out towards me." Dyson said the words like it was just another day as he tried taking a seat next to Tamsin.
"No." Tamsin said looking at Dyson. "You go over there."
Trick came over with another bottle against his better judgment, he knew tonight wasn't a good night to cut Tamsin off. "I'll keep serving you, but would you please consider just slowing down a little bit?" He asked Tamsin.
"No promises." Tamsin said as she grabbed her new bottle.
"So what exactly did I do?" Dyson asked as he took his new seat next to Kenzi.
"It's more like what did you both do that you shouldn't have." Kenzi said shaking her head before taking another drink. "Totally not my business though."
Lauren took a leap of faith and sat down next to Tamsin. "So, who needs a doctor?" She asked Tamsin.
"Fynn, I beat her up because we hurt each other." Tamsin told Lauren in a childish sounding voice. "We also need two syringes and two vials." Tamsin added in.
Lauren couldn't help but smile at her while they looked at each other. Since when was a Valkyrie open up enough to admit that much. "I can do that, why do you need it though?"
"Ancient bonding ceremony." Tamsin replied.
"Well I'm not even going to question that. I'll have them when you need them." Lauren told her as Trick passed her a beer. "How many bottles of whiskey have you had so far Tamsin?" Lauren asked out of curiosity.
"This is my Fourth, and counting." Tamsin answered.
"Impressive." Lauren couldn't help but be impressed, most humans got alcohol poisoning after drinking one bottle.
"You know you can't just keep beating her up every time you get upset Tamsin. I'd like to see what my child looks like without a black eye." Dyson said frustrated.
"Oh it's not just a black eye." Kenzi informed him. "Could be gone now though."
"She better not have." Tamsin said through clenched teeth.
"Well they did leave together, but she didn't last time so I'm sure you can relax." Kenzi reassured Tamsin.
"Speaking from a doctors standpoint, why would Bo lending her chi be a bad thing? It is a more efficient source of healing than even I can offer." Lauren asked confused.
"I'll let this one slide Doc, you're lucky." Tamsin said taking down more of her bottle.
"Fynn and Bo had a little run in, now that I think about it though… Fynn did still have majority of her clothes on unlike Bo." Kenzi said realizing Fynn might not have given Bo the chance to return the favor. Either way all eyes were now on Kenzi looking confused and a little shocked.
Tamsin pounded the rest of her bottle. "Another one down!" she said directing her attention to trick. Trick handed her another one, and poured himself and everyone else another drink. People just never learned he didn't want to know about his granddaughter's personal life.
"Well, I understand that you'd rather have her seek medical attention." Lauren said still shocked before finishing her beer and moving on to the new one.
"Excuse me." Dyson asked. "Why would Bo do that? That's wrong, that's my kid. How could she? How could they?" Dyson asked astonished still.
"Well-" Kenzi started to say as Tamsin cut her off.
"Because both you and I are idiots." Tamsin said staring into nothing.
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Bo and Fynn pulled up outside the Dal. Fynn was still looking pretty rugged. "Are you sure you don't want some of my chi? I took enough from you last night to kill several fae on the spot, even if I give you some I probably won't need to feed for weeks." Bo offered.
"I'm sure. Besides, there's always that attractive doctor." Fynn joked before following Bo inside the Dal.
"You're terrible." Bo said laughing at her.
"Speaking of terrible." Dyson said as he got up and walked towards them. "You look terrible." He said to Fynn looking at how literally beat up she looked.
"There's something I'd like to do, and I just want to apologize to everyone in the room in advanced." Fynn said as everyone turned around to look at her confused. Fynn's eyes flashed vibrant green, and she threw a left hook so hard into the side of Dyson's head it knocked him out cold. "You might want to help him out Bo." Fynn suggested.
"Yikes." Kenzi said as she winced in pain at the sight.
"Even though I like him now, that was really satisfying. I remember when I wished I could do that." Lauren laughed.
"Gin?" Trick asked.
"You guys are so welcoming I love it. I do have to admit though, there's more leather in this room than a gay bar which is pretty weird." Fynn said as she took her drink and sat next to Kenzi where Dyson had previously been.
Bo shook Dyson awake and lent him some chi to help the killer headache she'd knew he would have after that. Dyson got up off the ground. "No one has managed to knock me out cold like that in at least a century." He said.
"Well looks like we're just one big happy family." Bo joked walking over to a seat next to Dyson.
"Look." Dyson said talking to Fynn.
"Just don't ok, don't apologize unless it's not going to happen again. As of right now let's call it a new day." Fynn said very calmly.
"Deal." Dyson agreed.
Lauren got up and walked over to Fynn. "Let me see your face." Lauren said as she lifted up Fynn's chin so she could see her more in the light. "I can't tell for sure with all this dried blood on your face, but your lip, and that cut above your eye are most likely going to need stitches. Not to mention the cut above your eye is still bleeding a little bit. Go clean that blood up so I can make sure that's all you need."
"Jeez, you guys have been gone for like an hour and that thing is still oozing out blood?" Kenzi said in shock. "Valkyries really are deadly."
"Thanks." Tamsin said as she got up and walked over to Fynn. "Shit that looks bad… I'm sorry."
"The same thing goes to you as I told my pops over there." Fynn said before finishing her drink. "I need to go clean this up, doctor's orders."
"At least let me help." Tamsin offered.
"Sure, but don't blame me if I flinch." Fynn joked, and everyone in the room couldn't help but laugh.
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Tamsin got a clean rag from Trick and led Fynn to the restrooms. She wanted to say something to her, but didn't know what. She had felt too many things today, and this past week. She wanted to fix this but didn't know how. "It's ok you know." Fynn told Tamsin as she took the rag from Tamsin's hand and ran it under warm water. "No one is perfect, and emotions just suck. I messed up too."
Fynn stopped talking as she started to wipe the blood away from the less sore parts of her face. "I slept with Bo, I wanted to. I wanted to feel something, just a little comfort for the night after a messed up day. She found me walking in the middle of nowhere. I let her know what I was, and one thing led to another. We both agreed it was a no strings attached thing, and we both used our powers." Fynn paused while she went over the cut on her lip which caused her to wince with pain. "Ouch."
"Anyways she told me you were honest with her. She even admitted that Rainer had one hell of a hold on her. One thing she said though was you said something was off and you just never knew what it was, and that if it weren't for me and Rainer you two would probably be together right now." Fynn paused as she rinsed some of the blood off the rag and wrung it out before deciding which spot to clean up next. "I'm really glad you were finally able to be honest with yourself, and someone else, and in celebration, I can kill Rainer if you want."
Tamsin walked closer to Fynn and took the rag out of her hands. "Let me help… I can't believe I lost it and did this to you." She said while exposing a cut on Fynn's right cheek that was so covered in blood you couldn't even tell it was there. Tamsin's eyes made it look like she was about to fall apart. "I messed up too, and I don't want you to kill Rainer. I didn't mean what I said earlier… I wish I'd never forgot you in the first place, or gone with him when he came looking for me. I don't know why I did what I did, but I took comfort in the lack of feelings."
Tamsin started to wring the rag out before she spoke again. Fynn was sitting on the counter next to the sink not wanting to look in the mirror anymore. "What Kenzi said when she stopped Bo from intervening, about defenses, was she right? Was that the truth, and I just can't see it?
As Tamsin ran the rag across the gash above Fynn's eye Fynn winced again. "Shit!" She couldn't help but curse at the pain. "To answer your question though, Kenzi was right, I could destroy you and that's why Bo knew not to make another move, because you had to realize it sooner or later yourself… and better late than never." Fynn smiled.
"Kenzi said it looked like I was having a nightmare when you guys found me, I told her about it so I figured now is as good of a time as ever to tell you." Fynn kept talking while Tamsin finished cleaning up the rest of her face. "About a month before Astrid found you I started having these nightmares, I'm not sure but I think she knew, and I think she knew it was you, and that's why she sheltered you instead of leaving you at the nearest village. I always saw someone trying to take this woman and she yells out for me, but I end up drowning in a nearby river, and the last thing I always saw was her trying to pull me back out before it all went black. The dreams stopped when Astrid brought you home, and a week or so later when you changed from being a teenager to an adult overnight and I ignored you for a week was because you were that woman I'd dreamt up… and then when you left I had the dreams again like clockwork, and they didn't stop until that night I found you waiting for me after Trick gave you your memories back." Fynn stopped and laughed. "When you guys walked in, I was having that nightmare just like I do every night that you're not there."
"You're not a prophet too, are you?" Tamsin asked not knowing what else to say.
"Not that I'm aware of, and I've never predicted anything, so I hope not… maybe it's time I ask Astrid about it." Fynn suggested.
"Did you let Bo do anything to you?" Tamsin asked changing the subject.
"Actually I didn't, how'd you know?" Fynn asked.
"Something else Kenzi had pointed out." Tamsin said as she laughed at herself.
Fynn reached up and touched the gash above her eye with the back of her hand, it was still bleeding. Fynn frowned at the observation, and took the rag out of Tamsin's hand and held it on the spot. "They say to keep pressure on things that won't stop bleeding right?" Fynn asked jokingly.
Tamsin started to speak looking down with a tear in her eye. "I'm so sorry I did this to you, I don't know what's wrong with me."
Fynn grabbed Tamsin's hand and pulled her into her before speaking. "That's what happens when you don't allow yourself to talk about your feelings. I get it, but we both gotta stop doing this shit, or else people are going to think I have some sick fetish or something."
Tamsin let out a laugh as she pulled her arms around Fynn, and Fynn did the same. "You smell like whiskey Tamsin." Fynn said still laughing.
Tamsin looked at Fynn and placed a finger over her mouth before speaking. "I smell like whiskey, and you look like hell. We better go let Lauren fix you up…" Tamsin paused while she repositioned a hand on Fynn's shirt collar, and her other hand in Fynn's hair. "But first there's just one thing." Tamsin pulled Fynn's shirt collar and led Fynn closer to her before kissing her. "I wanted to let you know I'm sorry again, and that I've been trying to ignore this feeling all along." Tamsin said in between kissing her.
"I know." Fynn replied resting her forehead against Tamsin's.
"Thank you for being so patient with me… thank you for waiting all these years." Tamsin said before pulling Fynn in for another kiss. "Let's go get you fixed up, I promise I'm not going to harm you again… unless you do something really stupid and I just can't help it." Tamsin said before leading the way back up the stairs.
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Two sets of stitches and one butterfly bandage later and Fynn was all fixed up. "Do not forget to ice that eye, and not get into any more fights with Tamsin." Lauren laughed. "Oh and here, Tamsin said you needed these." Lauren handed Fynn the vials, and syringes. "Take the pills as needed."
"Thank you. You're still my favorite doctor, even if you don't keep any candy lying around here for your patients." Fynn teased.
"I'll see you two upstairs." Lauren laughed.
"What a badass doctor." Fynn said. "She's a human working with the fae so she just happens to have basically everything she might need to perform a minor surgery in her car, that's impressive. She must have learned the hard way that the fae are always getting into trouble."
"That and she dated Bo for a while." Tamsin informed her.
"Oh yeah, I think you guys mentioned that before. You didn't go after her for that too did you?" Fynn asked.
"No. Dyson was busy being a pain in the ass then… although me and Bo did share a moment that shook her faith and she left to go work for humans that wanted to bring down the fae." Tamsin answered.
"Whoa… that's as out of control as these morphine pills she gave me. I'm not sure I can make it up the stairs." Fynn said looking at the stairs as if they were a mountain.
"You've got this." Tamsin assured her. "The more I sit in Trick's office the more I just want to go home."
"Ok." Fynn agreed. Fynn managed to get up the stairs, and took a deep breath before making it to the end of the bar. "Water!" Fynn exclaimed. "I need water, my mouth is so dry and I'm on drugs."
Lauren couldn't help but laugh, seeing patients reactions to medicine never got old. "What did you give her?" Dyson asked as he watched Fynn lean against the bar and roll her head into her hands.
"Just some morphine pills to take the edge off. I'm sure the gin she drank isn't helping, and I didn't know if I should dose her like a fae or a human." Lauren told Dyson.
"Fair enough, I didn't think about that part."
"Don't worry, all wizards like to smoke opium, and morphine is an opiate, so she probably feels like she just was given a part of her heritage." Trick laughed reassuring Dyson and Lauren that the doctor did good.
"Look at you all drugged and stitched up." Kenzi said. "We still down with the plan man?" She asked.
"Yes, you take these so I don't accidentally break them." Fynn replied while handing her what Lauren gave her. "I need to go take more drugs and sleep for a day or two." Fynn pounded the water trick gave her and then called Tamsin over. "You're taking care of me right?" Fynn asked while pointing at her face.
"It is the least I can do." Tamsin said as she grabbed Fynn's hand, and before anyone could say goodbye they were gone.
"Whoa, I cannot wait to do that!" Kenzi said excited.
Bo looked at her strangely. "It gives you headaches."
"What was that?" Dyson asked.
"Care to explain the scientific theory of teleportation to him Lauren?" Trick asked.
"He'd never get it." Lauren joked.
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Tamsin and Fynn appeared back in Fynn's music room. Fynn walked over to the piano and sat on the bench and Tamsin followed. "I wasn't trying to end up here. I really wanted to end up in the kitchen where I can drink copious amounts of water." Fynn said looking at Tamsin.
"I forgot to tell you something back at the Dal when I was helping you get that blood off your face." Tamsin told Fynn.
"What was it?" Fynn asked.
"If you ever put up a wall again and don't let me come after you I am going to kill you, slowly." Tamsin informed Fynn.
Fynn smiled at her words while she lit a cigarette. "You love me." Fynn teased.
Tamsin just rolled her eyes at her, and pulled her cigarette out of her mouth. "Why do you even smoke these things?" Tamsin's words a lot softer than the last time she said them. She kissed Fynn and put the cigarette back in between her lips as she got up. "Water?" Tamsin asked, and Fynn nodded in response. Tamsin turned around in the doorway on her way to the kitchen before speaking one last time. "It's true."
Tamsin walked away and Fynn made her way out onto the deck with one thought on her mind. "It's about time."