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I took a week off. I know, sorry I didn't tell you anything.
Life is hectic right now. I'm trying to launch a design page for like custom party favors, posters, stickers, websites...things like that. It's taking up a lot of time trying to figure out prices and setting up a portfolio and picking the programs I'm going to use. Plus I'm trying to switch schools so that's a pain in the ass. Plus I have an actual job that is like a two hour commute in one direction so I barely have time for anything. Not complaining though
Still working on Book 3. Even though progress is being slowed down significantly.
If I do take a week off again, it will never be back to back. It's simply that I sometimes work Wednesday- Friday non stop so I've just have no time.
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Prompt #6: Rosalie see's a baby.
Requested By: Alkeniw Andilite
The day had started out pretty damn good. They'd been on a movie binger for the last day or so and then out of nowhere Rosalie had pulled her hair into a ponytail and instructed Bella to not move.
So the brunette had sat there dutifully while Rosalie had brought Bella to the throne of God himself. No prompting, just out of the blue and spontaneous as all hell. The brunette couldn't even tell you how the movie went after the blonde had started
The younger vampire had been more than prepared to return the favor and then some but the blonde stopped her.
"We don't have time for that" the blonde smirked as she placed a loving kiss on the brunette's lips
"We don't?"
"Nope"
"...why the fuck not?"
"I want to go out"
"Where?" there was so much shit on the banned wall that Bella had not gotten the chance to re-fill the option box
"Just...out"
"It's pretty overcast, might storm tonight...the park?"
"Okay"
"Quickie in the shower?"
"You don't know what that means"
"A girl's got to learn some day"
"Mmm, true but that will not be today" the blonde smirked as she dropped another kiss on the brunette's lips before disappearing up the steps.
Had she been paying better attention, she would've noticed that the blonde's eyes didn't twinkle like they were supposed. Had she been a little less distracted she would've noticed the slight slump in the blonde's shoulders or the heaviness in her voice. She didn't though.
The blonde sighed as the warm water cascaded down her body. She was in one of those moods again. One she hoped would, but knew probably would, never return. It had happened at some point during a movie where she'd simply glimpsed an adorable cherub of a baby boy and she couldn't help but wonder what her and Bella's baby boy or baby girl would look like.
She could practically see them right there in front of her. The boy would have her hair and nose but Bella's eyes, that devilish smile, and mouth. The girl would be the opposite. She knew it helped nothing to think like that so she'd desperately divert her thoughts and tried to refocus on the movie.
It had worked to an extent and then she'd be taken with the simple physical need to be with her mate. She'd initiated the contact with every tension to have amazing sex with her wife on their living room couch and in the process fuck away the funk she'd inadvertently bogged herself down with. That was what she wanted to do, seek out the physical comfort she could always find in Bella's arms but clearly her libido had a different idea. For as soon as Bella had reached her release her own hunger and want had disappeared. She could only compare it to a horny human having ice cold water dumped over them.
Her need to get out and go was just as intense and rather than run out the house and freak Bella the hell out, which had been her first instinct.. She'd asked the brunette to take her out instead.
She knew the brunette had no idea what was going on with her and she kind of wanted it to stay that way. She felt ridiculous being this hung up over something she should've gotten over years ago. She had Bella now, and that was worth everything she'd lost and so much more. Except now she was including the brunette and it wasn't fair.
The brunette gave her anything she'd ever wanted and often things she didn't even know she wanted or needed. It was not fair to either of them, especially Bella to fixate on the one thing she couldn't give her. Something she knew that the brunette would give her without thought if she could. Yet still she couldn't shake the crippling and crushing feeling she always felt when she got hung up on her status as a barren vampire.
She was trying to work through it without Bella though. She didn't want to burden the brunette with such a thing. She knew a very small part of the reason the brunette went above and beyond for her was because there was a small part of her that was insecure. A part of the brunette who did her best because she didn't think she deserved to be loved. A result of being rejected by her own parents for so long that it was beginning to look permanent.
So while she was aware the brunette could probably help her work through this, she didn't want the brunette to beat herself up about it.
With a sigh, the blonde stepped out of the shower.
Bella frowned as she eyed Rosalie. They'd decided to walk around a nice sized park with a few trails and what not. Humans were around so it didn't make them creepy to just be taking afternoon strolls in the wooded areas of an empty park.
Despite her complete incapability to pick up on most emotions without the use of Jasper's learned power, the brunette knew her mate. So while she wasn't fucking sure what it was and what exactly the blonde was feeling, she knew the the blonde was unbothered. Sure she could simply use her powers and find out for herself but outside of a prank of a fight...she tried her best not to use her powers.
Which left her with two options. The first being that she simply figure it all out for herself and then address the problem accordingly. The second option was to ask the blonde what was wrong and/or wait for her to say something. The second option being the most unlikely of the two though if she was being honest with herself.
She knew it wasn't that Rosalie didn't think that she could help but at the end of the day Rosalie had spent over a century working through her problems on her own. She was that kind of independent woman a lot of girls wanted to be but didn't really know how to be. Rosalie didn't ask for help because Rosalie had always helped herself. She was the same exact way and if she wouldn't ask for help in such a situation then she wasn't going to expect the blonde to be any different.
Just then a little boy and his baby sister ran up, they had the same nose and eyes….a dead giveaway. The boy couldn't be older than 5 and the baby girl struggling to walk had probably just hit 1,
"Whoa" the little boy mumbled in awe
"Mommy" the girl squealed making grabby hands at Rosalie
You know that moment when you're searching for your cell phone. Swearing up and down where you last saw it and then you proceed to turn on the flashlight of your fucking cell phone to look for your cell phone. You know that moment where you question how you managed to have survived life that ong being that dumb?
Bella had that moment and if she could've punted her own ass across the world she would've without a second thought.
Looking back she could pinpoint the moment that had put Rosalie in this mood she was clearly trying to kick. She should've taken Rosalie through the woods, there'd be no fucking random ass babies who only knew one word calling Rosalie momma. She could feel Rosalie's sadness growing with each 'Mommy' from the little girl. Each one was like a punch to the blonde's gut and now Bella had the urge to punt the baby across the world and she knew that was fucking ridiculous.
"Hey, where are your parents?" Bella questioned...she was putting parks on the fucking list
"Our mom is over there, Lexi just walked off and I came to get her"
"Cool we'll walk you back"
"Okay, but you don't have to. I'm a big boy"
"I know but it'd make us feel better"
"...okay"
"What's your name?"
"Kyle...what's yours?"
"Bella"
"And what's hers?"...why did small children walk so damn slow. She did not remember walking this fucking slow.
"Rose"
"Hi" Kyle offered up to the blonde, Bella held her breath hoping Lexi would stay quiet. Clearly she'd not mastered the ability to talk and walk so far,
"Hi" Rosalie replied softly. Bella just barely fought the cringe. The blonde sounded like a person seconds away from breaking down.
"She's quiet" Kyle whispered to Bella
"Sometimes" Bella nodded
The brunette wasn't even sure what she said to the kids mother, she was more concerned with getting Rosalie back to the house and away from teacup sized human beings.
The blonde had completely checked out by the time arrived back to the house but that didn't stop the brunette.
They were both naked and in the shower in record time with the water pelting down on both of them.
Bella sat on the shower floor with her legs crossed with Rosalie sitting in her lap and facing Bella with her legs wrapped around the brunette instinctually.
She was out of it and while the brunette would normally send her a spike of lust to catch her attention, it was not the right emotion for the mood. So instead, she sent a sharp spike of anger to the blonde.
She was met a growl and confused black eyes,
"Glad I have your attention"
"Why are we in the shower?"
"You lost something… a chance to be something. Your biggest dream and all you've done is curse your existence and brood about it."
"Bella…"
"Let me finish. I don't what it is to lose the chance you had. I was never able to and I didn't think I'd live long enough for it to be an issue so I never thought about it but you have. You though all of your human life and you've spent all of your vampiric one thinking about what you lost. Yet you can't get closure, can't accept and move on and it's because you never mourned what you lost"
"I don't understand"
"You need to cry baby. It sucks to do but it does help and well, we can make tears so let this water be your tears but you need to cry. You've been angry and you've depressed now you need to mourn what you've lost."
"I…"
"Rosie, it's me. You need to cry and I'll be here until your done. You lost something and people mourn the things they've lost by crying"
"I'm not a fucking person"
"You are a person, just not a human one. Just listen to me and do this. It's not a quick fix, you'll have days when you're reminded and it'll hurt but you'll have closure and it won't cripple you like it did today. You've been clinging to this unwilling to mourn it because you think if you don't then there's a chance it's not true. That's the most painful way to lose yourself Rosalie, you've got to cry and move on."
"How….?"
"I lied to myself for years that my parents loved me Rosalie. I know what it's like to be poisoned by something that's been dead and gone with no chance of coming back"
"But…"
"I know you have hope and you know me. If there's even a minuscule chance I can do this for you then I'll do everything in my power to do it for you but you can't let that hope poison and break you like this. Mourn this loss Rosalie, mourn it for what it is and you'll be better off.
"I don't know...how"
"Let go...I got you"
Days, she cried for days. She cried for the children she could never have. She cried for the children Bella couldn't have. She cried for her life being destroyed the way it was. She cried for the experiences she nor Bella could have. She cried because she'd never done it before and it felt cathartic.
She cried and broke and Bella held her together and said nothing.
"I need you" the blonde whispered
"Rose"
"Please….I just need...you"
"...Not here though, the bed"
"I love you"
"I love you"
Parks were definitely going on the list though...at least for a little while.