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WARNINGS FOR MENTIONS OF ABUSE
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x Muriel
Chapter Eleven'You can pretend all you want, but we know who you are. And who you will always be.' Emma growls as she looks at Regina with nothing but pure hatred and fury for this woman. This infuriating monster that has been tearing up her family from the day she was born. Separating her from her parents because of that damned curse.
Emma didn't even seem to notice that light magic seemed to be seeping from her fingers. Magic that was gripping Regina tightly. Magic that was creeping over Regina her skin in a way the magic of her mother used to do. Holding her in her place and paralyzing her with fear. Her mother. Her mother that was now here.
The magic made Regina forget her anger. Forget her fury, as pure fear and despair filled her veins when the magic of Emma started to tightly constrict her lungs from breathing in any air. Emma didn't even notice as she kept ranting on. Regina couldn't hear any of the words that were being said, as a familiar ringing started in her ears that only helped to heighten her fear.
She couldn't reach her own magic. Hurting Emma would mean having Henry loathe her for the rest of her life, and her fear wouldn't even let her make a slight connection to that lovely sense of power her magic gave her. She was the little girl again. The controllable laughing stock that could never have power or freedom. Not as long as she lived.
The crowd that had gathered around waited with a baited breath as they looked at Regina slowly not being able to breathe anymore, and Emma being so angry not even realising what her magic was doing. She probably didn't even really have a clue she had magic. The idiot just kept on talking and talking until Regina gasped for breath. Tears of exhaustion starting to gather in her eyes as she had trouble holding on to consciousness as the life was squeezed out of her.
Emma her eyes widened and unclenched her fists, which immediately made Regina crumpled to the ground spluttering for air. 'oh my god, Regina, I'm sorry.' She breathed and tried to put a hand on Regina her shoulder. Yes, she was damned angry at Regina, but killing her was not something she had ever thought of doing, and would never do.
Regina flinched away from the touch in pure fear and she masked that with outrage. 'don't touch me.' She hissed and she got up on unsteady feet as she still struggled to breathe. She felt suddenly terrified of the woman in front of her. She hadn't thought Emma could physically harm her. Not the in the way that she couldn't handle. And she could handle a lot. But this side of the woman that was on the side of good, just tried to choke her to death. She could suddenly just see herself spluttering for breath as a little girl as her mother punished her and she disappeared from the street in a cloud of purple smoke.
When it was gone Emma felt guilt wrenching her gut. She had seen the pure fear in Regina's eyes. The fear of a child being abused time and time again and them looking back up at the abuser. God what the hell had she done?! She knew she had magic. Had discovered it when she felt a tingling sensation in her fingers and suddenly her cup of hot coco had fallen off of the counter, but it was light right? How could light magic hurt someone like this?
Or was it because Regina was evil, and she was good, so she could do anything to the ones that were categorized as Evil, because they deserved whatever they had coming?
No. Emma knew it didn't work like that, she knew because in the foster system, it didn't work like that. And that was the world where she came from. Not this fairy-tale bullshit. She could barely even think of the reason why she had been this angry at Regina.
She knew what the past of the woman was, she knew that all of these people had it out for her. The crowd was only now dissipating when they were sure that their Saviour was not going to end the life of the Queen. Maye she should have tried to listen to Emma.
She didn't even know this woman could be afraid. She felt so inhumane at times that she truly doubted that Regina could have any feelings. Faking the love, she showed Henry to try and seem like someone worth being cared about in a way. But now that Emma had seen this woman firstly sick and letting Emma in for help, and after that this deep amount of fear for what Emma could do to her, Emma was knocked down a peg.
She had thought that she was good, not in the perfect way her parents were, but she was good. She wouldn't just harm someone, there had been too much of seeing people get hurt in her history. She had seen enough abuse to promise herself never to become the abuser. But perhaps today she had broken that promise to herself.
Emma had scared Regina. The fearless Queen had almost been brought to tears because of her. God, what kind of a monster was she? She had let her emotions get ahead of her.
In her head she had called Regina a monster, not worthy of raising Henry. How could she? How could she take away the child which Regina had raised for ten years when she herself and her sorry ass couldn't even keep the kid.
She was incredibly angry at Regina, and didn't trust her probably, but how she had treated the woman just now had shocked her. She hadn't thought herself capable of hurting someone like that.
The look in Regina's deep, and ever so expressive eyes were haunting her as she stepped back in her car and drove to the pawn shop, deposited Gold there without a word as he gave her one of his knowing smirks. Before he could say anything to her though, she got back into her car and decided that going home to her son. The son she shared, and would always share, was the best remedy for now.
Emma didn't think she would ever be able to forget those eyes filled with fear as they haunted her in her sleep that night as well.