Chapter 11 (Roses Has its Thorns)
A/N: This is a filler chapter because I can't think of anything to write for our favourite couple Santittany/Brittana. I also wanted to let you know more about my fave character on this story Kairi and a back story about Santana's last relationship ;)
Quinn paced back and forth on the porch with Santana rolling her eyes. Quinn dragged Santana out to the porch after their dinner; she kept touching Kairi by accident while putting some food on her plate or when Kairi passes her sauces. They helped in preparing the foods they ate and had a little food fight. Quinn knew she has more than platonic feelings for the half Latina and she knew she could talk to no one else but her favourite cousin. So that's the reason why Quinn and Santana were out on the porch.
"Seriously Fabray, stop pacing and will you please tell me why you drag me out here when I can be with Brittany" Santana said exasperatedly. Quinn stopped for a while only to ponder her thoughts then paced back and forth again. Santana sighed audibly and finally walked up to Quinn to sit her down.
"Quinn, please tell me what's going on in that head of yours. You know you can tell me anything" Santana reassured the blonde.
"I know San. It's uhm. About Kairi" Quinn stated.
"What about her?" Santana inquired. The Latina already knew that her friend has romantic feelings for her cousin. She couldn't blame Quinn since Kairi has such lovable personality. She knew Quinn's feelings when one of Kairi's friends, Caitlin, came home with her cousin one night. Quinn at that time was oblivious about her own feelings for the half Latina but she knew what she felt when Caitlin linked her arms with Kairi she felt jealousy deep inside her.
"Quinn. I know about it." Quinn looked at Santana with a frown.
"Please, I'm a lesbian, I have awesome gaydar. And you are way too obvious with those glances you give to Kairi" Santana smirked as Quinn's face turned bright red.
"Oh my God! Am I really that obvious? Shit! I bet Kairi knows too" Quinn placed her head on her hands. She heard Santana chuckle but she didn't look up. She was embarrassed.
"Quinn, Kairi's not really good with detecting other people's interest towards her" Santana saw Quinn's confusion so she explained further.
"Kairi may be good with other people's feelings towards each other but she's oblivious when it comes to someone's affection towards her" Quinn straightened up and listened to Santana.
"If you want your affections to reach her, you have to show it. Otherwise your affections will never get through her if all you do is staring at her" Santana finished.
"So, what you're saying I should show her how I feel?" Quinn saw Santana nodded.
"I can't" she said dejectedly.
"Why not Fabray? I thought you love Kairi" Santana quipped.
"I do but what if she doesn't feel the same? I mean she sees me as just her friend. I don't think I can take her rejection." Quinn admitted.
"Well, how would you know she only sees you as her friend? Quinn, Kairi is hard to pin down but the way she looks at you, it's the same look she gives when she's fond of someone." Santana encouraged her friend. If Santana wants to give Kairi to anyone, she'd give her Kairi to Quinn.
"Go on Fabray. She's upstairs. Try and show her you love her more than just a friend" Santana added and left Quinn on the porch to join Brittany on the couch. Quinn thought over Santana's words, found her courage and summoned herself up to walk upstairs to Kairi's room. She knocked softly and heard a muffled 'its open' from the other side of the door. Quinn slowly stepped in and her breath was hitched. Kairi was lying on her back with her legs up in the air. She looked at Quinn and smiled before returning to reading some book.
"Hey" Kairi greeted as Quinn sat on the edge of her bed.
"Hey" Quinn said in almost a whisper. She checked the title of the book; 'Eyes Can Be Deceitful' but no author,
"Nice book. But who's the author?" she asked. Kairi looked up to smile at her.
"A friend of mine wrote this and she thought I should read it and give my review or something" Kairi shrugged and went back to reading, now sitting cross-legged.
"It's interesting actually. Eyes are deceitful. They say they are the windows to the soul but sometimes people's eyes can deceive you." Kairi explained. Quinn nodded understanding.
"Met someone whose eyes deceived you before?" Quinn asked hesitantly.
"Except from Santana, Caitlin's" Quinn visibly cringed hearing Caitlin's name come out of Kairi's lips.
"But to top my list, Vlad's eyes." Kairi's voice lowered when she said the name of her first heart break. She stopped reading by then to look at Quinn. Quinn noticed the darkness in Kairi's eyes that she couldn't read.
"Vald's my first boyfriend back in senior year in high school. He was what girl's dreamed of to have. Charming, athletic, smart, just perfect." Kairi by this time looked away as memories flooded her mind.
"But turns out prince charming aren't so perfect after all. Caitlin found out about his secret girlfriends when she took a walk around campus to just unwind after a long day." Kairi felt her tears and fought it.
"I confronted him and made him say the truth. At first he denied it but later on one of his girlfriend's came up to us and I broke up with him" Kairi gave a weak smile.
"I guess he wasn't the one for me. I built walls around me and dated random people but Caitlin stopped me from making mistakes. After my last failed relationship back in freshman year College, I stopped dating both guys and girls and focused on what I did best." Kairi finished and Quinn reached out her hand to place it on top of Kairi's which Kairi laced her fingers with Quinn's.
"He's an ass. You by far are the most charming, lovable person I ever met and if anyone doesn't see that they are either blind or stupid." Quinn said which earned her the smile she fell in love with so much.
"Thanks Quinn" with that said Kairi went back to reading her book never letting go of Quinn's hand. Quinn silently contemplated what she should say. After a long silence Quinn finally spoke up.
"I want to try something. And I need you to help me out. Is that okay?" Quinn started her plan. Kairi nodded enthusiastically. Kairi scooted back rest her head on the headboard as Quinn sat in front of her.
"You can hate me after this okay?" Quinn added which gained her a confused look from Kairi.
"I could never hate you" Kairi said with a smile. Quinn slowly leaned in till her breath mixes with Kairi's. Kairi watched as Quinn leaned in. Quinn hesitated for a second but seeing Kairi's eyes encouraging her, soft lips met with even softer lips. Before Kairi could respond Quinn pulled away looking anywhere but Kairi's eyes. Quinn was as red as tomato. Kairi stayed silent waiting for Quinn to speak up again. When she got nothing she spoke up.
"What was that?" Kairi said after being silent for a whole 5 minutes.
"I think I love you" Quinn said lamely.
"Okay. But why did you kiss me?" Kairi was still a bit confused. She knew Quinn was seeing Noah which makes her straight. Right?
"'Cause, I want to show my affection for you" Quinn explained still not looking at Kairi. Kairi thought about it before bringing their entwined fingers to her lips, placing soft kisses on Quinn's knuckles.
"Quinn, you didn't have to kiss me. I think I love you too" Kairi said. Quinn met her eyes for just half a second.
"I mean, I like you more than just a friend Kairi" Quinn said.
"I know. I got that when you told me you might love me" Kairi made Quinn look up and when their eyes met, she smiles lovingly at those hazel eyes.
"Quinn, I love you. Since we met at the club when my stepfather died, I've always been haunted by you." Quinn looked as if she was about to cry.
"I didn't want to pursue you since I was pretty sure you're straight" Kairi chuckled. Quinn looked at her, into her eyes and what she saw was a different Kairi.
"I wanna be with you but I'm too scared that I might just hurt you" Kairi looked down.
"Hurt me? What way?" Quinn reached her free hand to caress Kairi's cheek which made the half Latina looked up to her.
"I doubt you'll ever hurt me" Quinn said. Kairi leaned her head to Quinn's touch and kissing the woman's palm. Kairi closed her eyes and took several deep breaths before opening her eyes again to look at Quinn.
"Can I do this right? I want to give you the best and if anything, I don't want to rush you to being with me. And the fact that you're still with Noah"
"I'm not with him" Quinn interrupted her. Kairi frowns so she continued.
"Noah and I broke up months ago. We only see each other to talk about my feelings for you. He told me I should just tell you straight on than hiding it" Quinn chuckled. Kairi's lips tugged upward as she smiles at the thought. She took Quinn's free hand and laced it with hers, brought both their hands up to her lips and placed kisses on each of Quinn's hands. Kairi then looked up at Quinn.
"Quinn Fabray, will you give me the honour to have you as my girlfriend?" Quinn's heart swelled with love as she heard the words she longed to hear. She grins before saying the answer Kairi waited to hear.
Meanwhile, Brittany and Santana were cuddled up on the couch watching music videos. Brittany contemplated whether she should ask Santana now or not. 'Ask her' her mind yelled. She took a deep breath before turning to look at Santana.
"San?" she whispered. Santana looked at her companion with a warm smile.
"What's up Britt?" she asked. Brittany smiled before opening her mouth.
"I was just wondering what happened to your last relationship" Brittany noticed Santana tensing up so she quickly added "It's okay if you don't want to talk about it."
Santana turned away, looking down weighing her options. Brittany does have a right to know since they're dating. She can't keep things from Brittany if she wants this to work. As Santana thought about how she'd tell Brittany, the blonde was worried if she pushed too far and Santana was shutting her out again.
"It was 3 years ago when I dated Christine" Santana started still looking down. Brittany listened intently.
"She's my first girlfriend. I did everything for her. I thought she'd do the same but I was wrong. When we were dating, I was still in med school so I didn't have any idea what she was doing. Until one day when she just broke up with me. She actually had a freaking boyfriend while we're together. I was stupid and heartbroken that I almost committed suicide."
Brittany tensed up after hearing what Santana had just revealed. She felt anger, hatred and all negative emotions for the woman who broke Santana 3 years ago.
"The night Christine dumped me to go with her boyfriend; I locked myself in my room and thought about drinking pills. It felt like the end for me. Before I could even open the bottle, Kairi broke my door and stopped me" Santana remembers the look on her cousin's face. Pure horror and fear etched to her face.
Kairi took in the sight in front of her. Santana holding a bottle of pills, sitting on the floor with broken beer bottles in the corner of the room. She walked up to her broken cousin before ripping the bottle out of the Latina's hand.
Santana saw who the intruder was and felt terrified by the look of her cousin.
"What are you planning to do huh San? Kill yourself for that undeserving bitch!" Santana's head snapped up to glare at Kairi. She stood up on shaky legs.
"Shut up!" she all but yelled at Kairi's face. Kairi narrowed her gaze on her before grabbing her shoulders.
"WHAT! You think I'll sugar coat this for you? I warned you Santana, she's nothing but a bitch who used you to get what she wanted. Now that she got everything she needed, she dumped you like a trash and you want to die for her? WAKE UP SANTANA!" Kairi shook her cousin letting her go afterward. Santana stumbled back hitting the floor.
"Don't think I don't know how painful it is, I had my fair share of heart breaks too San. But never once have I thought of killing myself. What will happen to the ones you left huh? They'll be the ones who will deal with the loss. How do you think your family would feel once you're dead? We'll be dead too knowing we weren't able to stop you from doing it! Damn it San! She's not the only woman who'll come to your life" by this point Santana was a tad bit sobered up as she look up to see the distraught appearance of Kairi. Kairi dropped down to the floor, sobs broke through her body.
"I'm sorry" was all Santana could muster up before her world black out.
"I woke up in the hospital with my mom and dad looking like they cried the whole time. It turns out I had a high fever because I was out in the rain for too long." Santana looked at Brittany whose eyes held nothing more than pure care. "After that I swore to myself I'll never let anyone in again. I became workaholic which worried my parents but they knew I needed to get distracted from what happened. Then you came along" she smiled gaining one back. She reached up to caress Brittany's cheek. "You proved me wrong"
Brittany smiled and locked her gaze with the woman she loves. She promised she'll never hurt this woman and will do anything to make her happy.
A/N: awe..aren't they cute? hahaha. Reviews are totally appreciated. Tell me what you guys think ;)