Hey guys! I hope you liked the last chapter even though it didn't get
much Feedback. I am now writing these on my iPod. So if things are
kinda... Different. That is why.
Anyways. Thank you all so much to those of you who read my stories! If
you like Victorious stories with Jade, I have another FF called "Dont
let me cry, Just let me die." I hope those of you who are reading this
and are doing this know that I CARE. Stay strong guys. 3
Hope you enjoy the chapter.
God bless
Sierra~~

Cat's POV

I don't think I thought it through all the way. When the food was
done. I didn't want to eat. The pancakes sat there on my plate,
mocking me. It was killing me. I don't want to eat this.
But do I not eat it, and let Robbie get mad at me? Or do I eat it and
throw up and feel horrible after.
I know that I want to act like I am getting 'better'. But I can't! I
can't do it. I am not strong enough. I really am not.
"Robbie..." I sigh. Pushing the plate away.
"I know. But you are still eating." He says not even turning his head.
"I know?" I ask. "What do you know?" I am really confused.
"That you were putting on an act. Cat no one gets better just like
that. It's going to be a process. I just wish that you would really
try. I can force you to eat... and I can stop you from cutting. When
you are here. You aren't going to be here forever. You are in my
temporary custody." He pauses. His voice starts to break. Tears are
building up.
No Robbie. Please don't cry.
"I just want you to know.." He turns to me. Pushing my head up lightly
by my chin so I was no longer looking at my hands, but into his eyes.
"I just want you to know that you mean... So much to me. I can't let
you throw your life away. I can't let you treat yourself like dirt
anymore. Cat you are so much more then scars and starving. Please.
Just listen to me and believe me when i say this." Tears stream down
his face. Then they begin on mine.
We both sit there, crying. He was waiting for me to respond. To say
anything. But I don't. I sit there silent. Trying to find the key so
that I could unlock our gaze.
"Why do you do it?" He asks. I pause. Thinking.
"I do it.. Because I am not worth anything else. I do it because it's
the only thing I know how to do correctly without failing. I do it
because I am a ugly, horrible, stupid person." I push my head away.
Sighing.
"I do it because I want my mother back." I continue. "I do it because
my father has hit me and raped me all my life." I stop. His mouth
drops. I dart out of the dining room, running into the bathroom trying
to lock it behind me.
He took the locks off.
I still curl up on the ground, pushing my legs up to my chest.
I can't believe I just told him. He knocks on the door.
"Cat?" He asks. I just continue to cry into my knees. He opens the door.
He sits next to me.
"Cat... I am so sorry." He says. I just look up slowly and look at him.
I didn't want to be in the same room as him. I wanted to be alone.
I didn't want to be here.
I got up, leaving the bathroom quickly, almost In a sprint.
I run into the kitchen. Grabbing a knife. A big one.
"Cat!" I hear Robbie yell over and over again. While he searched for me.
To be honest, I don't know what I am doing. I don't know why I ran
out. I just can't believe I told him. I need the knife. I need the
knife now. I hold it to my wrist and cut quickly over and over again.
Robbie finds me crying. I hold it to myself so that he won't come
closer.
"Stay away." I scream while sobbing harshly. I could barely breath.
"Cat! Oh my god. Cat, listen to me. Please. It's okay. Everything is
okay. Please. Put the knife down. Please." He begs, taking baby steps
towards me.
"No! Stay away!" I yell, cutting my wrist again.
Blood strained down my arms, on to his floor.

Thank you for reading this chapter (: Do you like it? I hope so 3 I love you guys so much.

Sierra~~