Chapter 11

"Anyway, when ever something bad happens to Candi that would upset most people, she gets mad at everybody not to mention very slutty," Sam explained truthfully.

"It's true," Nichole added, "I've never seen her so bitchy and slutty."

"She's not that bad guys," Jane added peacefully.

Everybody gave her a don't-be-so-naïve look.

"Okay maybe she's been a little angry at some people, but come on guys we're suppose to be on her side," Jane explained.

"There are no sides, it's always Candi verse Candi, with her multiple personalities," Nichole informed them.

Raven who was watching the teacher desk had seen Krum be sent after Candi, she would have gone herself but she knew better. If you didn't time it right you're the one she'll end up mad at. Raven was conflicted whether to go or not, Candi had always had her back, which wasn't necessarily a good thing. Raven was one of those people who you left alone in crisis, for personal safety reasons, but Candi being Candi was to stubborn and easily bored to leave her alone.

Totally randomly and out of the blue Rachael asked, "what's the date today?"

"Third of September, why?"

Rachael's eyes widened, "oh god."

"What?" Jane asked her.

Jane was a really close friend, but she had sworn to tell nobody and that's what she was going to do.

"I think you guys should leave Candi alone," Rachael suggested.

The whole group was confused, (not to mention Harry, Ron and Hermione) but they knew by the tone in Rachael voice that she was serious.

Candi was glad that she had her own bathroom her at Hogwarts, she had one in her granny flat at home. It was funny; you don't miss something until you don't have it. Her grand mother always asking, 'so do you have a boyfriend?' Candi had found it annoying when Kimmy had learnt how to use a phone, calling every night to wish her a good nights sleep. But regardless she still really missed Kimmy, when she wasn't near her she spent all her time worrying how she was. Caitlin wasn't exactly the most responsible parents, she usually dished Kimmy off to her own mother or grandmother.

Candi had tears in her eyes as she sat on her bed and pulled out her phone, the wallpaper was of Kimmy blowing a kiss. Candi wished Kimmy was here; she wanted to be able to give her a birthday hug and a kiss on her sixth birthday. Well she actually wanted Kimmy to give her a hug and for Kimmy to tell her what she told her every time Candi cried, "every thing is going to be okay." Adults tell it to you all the time but when Kimmy said it, you could tell she meant it and believed that everything was actually going to be okay.

Candi took off her robes, which she hated so to a great extent, replacing them with short shorts and one of her many slogan tops 'this top would look good on your bedroom floor.' No soon had the top been put on it was taken off again, tossed aside.

Candi walked into the bathroom, brushed her hair and washed her face with cold water. She lifted her wet face and looked at herself in the mirror, the water and tears in her eyes blurring her usually good vision. Candi tried to smile as she stared at her own reflection, but couldn't manage. The mirror was in a way mocking her, telling her she wasn't good enough.

Candi walked out of the bathroom, sat back on her bed still wearing her shorts and a bra, she pulled out a spell book from her bedside table. Candi flipped through her book till she found something she liked.

She didn't even make it back into the bathroom before pulling out her wand, pointing it at the mirror and shouting, "reducto!"

The mirror burst into a million pieces and sprayed across the room, Candi got scratches on her legs, arms and a larger one across her chest, but she didn't feel them. She didn't care. It wasn't her superficial wounds that she cared about.

Candi knew she was about to cry, so she got in the shower not bothering to take of her shorts or bra. She turned it on and just sat on the floor shaking, crying for herself at first. All the mistakes she had made that lead to others suffering, then she started feeling guilty, for all the other things she hadn't been upset about. When Raven's pet rabbit had died a few years ago, she had come to school crying, Candi found it way to amusing that she was crying over a rabbit. When her great grand parents had died, she'd been mad at the world instead of being upset by her loss. From the floor Candi turned the hot tap on further, burying her face into her knees to further muffle her sobs, even though nobody was there.

After several minutes of going through everything her life that she hated, she turned off the shower and got out, being careful not to tread on any glass shards. She dried then changed her under clothes before examining the cut across her chest, even though the blood had already dried. She picked out a small, sharp glass shard from the end of the cut with her fingernails. The shard pricked her finger, so she put her finger in her mouth instinctively. Candi picked up her mobile, plugged the headphones in and scanned through her music folder.

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

Candi opened up her curtain and opened the window, letting a cool breeze flow into the room and the sunlight to warm her.

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating life
Now I'm bound by the life you've left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

Candi wished she had told her friends, but didn't want to be judged. She knew that Rachael wouldn't judge her, that's why she told her. Raven and Sammi would say they wouldn't judge, but they like Candi often couldn't help it.

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

Candi jumped on her bed and stared at the ceiling, she could feel the cool breeze on her side but also the sunlight on her stomach and legs. The warmth comforted her in a way she couldn't explain. She fiddled with her phone and skipped a few songs.

On a Monday, I am waiting
Tuesday, I am fading
And by Wednesday, I can't sleep
Then the phone rings, I hear you
And the darkness is a clear view
Cuz you've come to rescue me

Candi rolled her eyes; there were no such things as knights in shining armour. Not that she had given him a chance to try; she just assumed the worst, as she always did. Candi hadn't even bothered to tell him. She didn't want to turn out like Kimmy's mum.

I am moody, messy
I get restless, and it's senseless
How you never seem to care

Candi didn't even like this song; she just liked that one little part of it. She related to it in many ways.

When I'm angry, you listen
Make me happy it's a mission
And you won't stop til I'm there

Fall... Sometimes I fall so fast
When I hit that bottom
Crash, you're all I have

Ohhhhh
It seems like I can finally rest my head on something real
I like the way that feels
Ohhhhh
It's as if you known me better than I ever knew myself
I love how you can tell
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me

Candi had learnt long ago never rest on something, it'll be gone soon then you'll fall.

How do you know everything I'm about to say?
Am I that obvious?
And if it's written on my face...
I hope it never goes away... yeah

Candi turned to see Krum standing in her doorway, but she chose to ignore him, even though he had done nothing wrong. It's easy to ignore and a problem and hope it goes away. Candi grabbed her phone from off her chest and turned up the volume to its maximum.

On a Monday, I am waiting
And by Tuesday, I am fading into your arms...
So I can breathe

Victor came into the room and purposely stood in the sunlight, which annoyed Candi.

Ohhhhh
It seems like I can finally rest my head on something real
I like the way that feels

Candi rolled over into the sun, now on her stomach.

Ohhhhh
It's as if you've know me better than I ever knew myself
I love how you can tell

Once Candi had moved Victor followed, again blocking her sunlight. When Candi couldn't feel the sun on her back, she looked up at him and he said something but she couldn't hear due to the headphones.

Ohhhhh
I love how you can tell
Ohhhhh
I love how you can tell
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me...

At the end of the song Candi took of her headphones, then looked at professional Quidditch played blankly, "can I help you?"

"You left breakfast very abruptly," Victor told her.

"I wanted a shower," Candi defended.

"Before you had even eaten anything?"

"Yeah, what's your point?" Candi asked starting to get annoyed, how was it his business when, what or if she ate.

"You have Quidditch in an hour or so and you'll need your strength up," Victor informed her.

"And why do you care?" Candi asked as she got of her bed and put a robe on, "What I do is my business, not yours."

"Nice cut, did you do that redecorating your bathroom?" Krum asked, finally mentioning the glass covered bathroom he had seen when he first came in, not to mention all the cuts and scratches Candi had.

Candi glanced over her shoulder at the mess she had made in her bathroom, and then went to retaliate but her body didn't agree with her, she felt like she was going to puke.

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Sorry for the wait, but here it is Chapter 11. Wood should be here next chapter.