Word's I Couldn't Say
Disclaimer: I don't own Rizzoli and Isles just writing a story about them no copyright infringement intended. Don't own Rascal Flatts song either.
A/N- Sorry guys for such a long delay in the story but I am in school for Forensic Science and it have been quite the challenge my last few classes. Five more to go then September I am done. Hopefully I can get you a couple of updates before classes start next week enjoy. P.S. I love feedback so feed away.
Chapter 11: It's Not Just Me
Once the movie was over Jane continued to watch Maura sleep. Watching Maura's deep even breaths made her smile and fall even more in love with her. Watching her reminded her at the same time just how close she had come to losing her forever. Jane wished that she could take all those years away that they had been separated and silently thanked GOD that even after all this time they could easy fall back into their own comforting routine. Jane knew that Maura was still not completely well yet but she was going to make sure she was here every step of the way to make sure she made a full recovery. Jane sat and watched Maura for the longest time and after realizing she too was tried she decided to rest her eyes just for a moment. Instead Jane fell fast asleep as well.
"Connie just look how sweet the girls look asleep on the sofa. Do you think we should wake them? "
"Angela dear let them sleep this is probably the first time Jane has had any real rest. I know Jane will wake up at some point and see that Maura gets in bed. I think I am going to retire for the night I think Jane and I are going to have a big day of shopping tomorrow Constance said with a beaming smile."
"Connie you think I don't know that smile. You are up to something I know it."
"Angela now you know me better. However truth be told I am looking forward to shopping with Jane I know how Maura used to always want Jane to shop with her and let her buy her new clothes and of course Jane would not hear of it. Since Jane is going to my daughter too I think this will be a perfect opportunity to talk to her about what she plans once Maura is able to travel. So I can see where her head is about moving back to Boston or staying here in New York. Either way I want to be where both of the girls are."
"I have to agree the boys are grown and have their own lives and I always felt like I was there for the boys more than I was Jane because she has always been so strong. I think sometime I forgot that she too has feelings. It's time for me to be a better mother to her. Where ever she and Maura decide to stay I will not stand in the way and I hope they won't mind us around."
"Well we will just have to see I would be happy with either place. Since the divorce from Richard I don't feel the constant need to be on the go all the time. I have in the last five years been able to be the Mother I always should have been to Maura now the possibility of grandkids well let's say it has made me absolutely giddy."
"Connie I knew if you hung around me long enough I could get you to see my point of view laughs Angela. Now I think I am going to head to bed long day tomorrow with Maura and Icatching up. I possible I will keep my mouth shut about the proposal and let her rest."
"Night Angela I'll see you in the morning."
A few hours later Jane and Maura were still sleeping on the sofa when Maura started to wake. Jane felt her moving and woke up quickly thinking something was wrong.
"Maura are you ok?
"Yes I got a little hot and thirsty I was going to get some water but I don't think I can get to the kitchen. I think I should have taken that pain and nausea medicine like the doctor said I should. I think I need to take them now I feel kind of nauseated."
"It's OK honey I'll get for you. All you had to do was wake me up. Jane cupped Maura's face and said remember anything you want I can get it OK. Don't hesitate to ask me. I love you Maura after saying that Jane took a bold step and leaned in and gently kissed Maura on the lips for the first time."
"I love you too Jane and I have waited all my life for that kiss Maura said with a smile."
"I'm sorry I keep you waiting. Now let me get those meds and water ok. She brushed a few stray hairs from Maura's face and planted one more kiss on her lips before retreating to the kitchen."
Once in the kitchen Jane could not stop smiling from her first kiss with Maura. Sure it was just a peck but to Jane just a peck sent fireworks through her body. Jane stopped to think wow what will happen when I really get to put all my love into a kiss I think I might die. After all this time she still has this effect on me. With Jane quickly got Maura's meds and water thinking to herself she was not going to wait not another second to ask Maura to marry her she knew she did not need a ring to ask all she needed to hear was Maura to say yes. Jane quickly retrieved her iPhone and went to the music and knew what song would be perfect to express all that she felt for Maura and then she could finally ask her what she should have years ago.
Jane nervously walked to the den where Maura sat and gave her the pills as she sat down beside her and took her hands. Maura immediately noticed how nervous Jane was and began to worry.
"Jane what's the matter?'
"Nothing Maura really nothing but I need to ask you something but first I need you to listen to this OK." She hit play on the iPod as the words of Rascal Flatts song
"It's Not Just Me"
Tell me you've had trouble sleeping
That you toss and turn from side to side
That it's my face you've been seeing
In your dreams at night
Tell me that you wake up crying
And you're not sure exactly why
Tell me that something is missing
In your life, in your life baby
Tell me that you live for love
That forever is never enough
That you've waited all your life to see
That you want so badly to believe
Tell me that it's not just me
I could have sworn I saw you smile at me
Standing in the pouring rain
At a loss for words and running out of time
I said this crazy thing (crazy thing), I said
Tell me that you live for love
That forever is never enough
That you've waited all your life to see
That you want so badly to believe
Tell me that it's not just me
Hold me now and tell me that you do believe
In a soul, a soul mate
And tell me, and tell me, tell me
Tell me that you live for love
That forever is never enough
That you've waited all your life to see
That you want so badly to believe
Tell me that it's not just me
As the song ends Jane sees the tears falling from Maura's eyes and she knows that Maura already knows what her question is but Jane knows she still wants to hear it. Jane intertwined her hands with Maura and begins to pour her heart out.
"Maura I love you with everything that I am and every breath that I take from now on is yours forever. There so many nights that I cried myself to sleep over the years since you left and I know you had to leave. I never want you to feel alone and I never want to not lay down with you and wake with you in the morning. I never want to be the reason you cry sad tears only happy ones. Will you spend the rest of your life with me?
I thought this would be a good place to end this chapter and focus next chapter on Maura's answer as well as Jane's shopping day with Constance. What will Maura say? Remember to review.