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Burning Lies: Chapter Eleven, Moony
"So Harry, how's the week gone?" Tony asked at the start of their second appointment.
"Terribly." Harry said breaking down in sobs and reaching for the tissue that Tony held out towards him.
"I hadn't got a good impression when Remus and Sirius refused to meet with me, tell me about it."
"It's been terrible," Harry cried, reaching for moor tissues and clutching Chase to his chest, he had refused to part with the puppy even for an hour. "Moony hasn't left his room in a week, Sirius is practically cationic, whatever he does eat he throws up." He said, whipping his eyes and trying to control his breathing.
"Remus had charmed the room he's shut himself in, and he hasn't turned back into Remus since last week. He just sits in his room and howls, these horrible, heart breaking sobs that make everything seem pointless. It's like every noise he makes drains all of the life out of the house. Even Chase has gotten less playful. I don't know what to do. He's so desperate, absolutely shattered."
He said looking towards the man charged with making him better.
"Fix him please." Harry begged.
"I don't know if I can Harry, werewolf psychology is so different to humans, they think differently. Especially in the case of your adoptive father; he and his wolf are so intertwined I can seldom imagine a situation where they don't feel each other's emotions."
"Can you try please, please. I can't be without him and Sirius, I would fall apart." He said, tears falling once again.
"I'll try." Tony relented, moving towards the teen and placing a comforting hand on his shoulder, moving towards the door and telling Harry to stay put.
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He tried knocking on the door to the werewolf's room; he knew it was his room because he could feel the wards and the primal magic surrounding them.
When he received no answer he attempted calling out to the wolf, his limited knowledge of them telling him that he would try to protect his mate or cubs if they were in danger.
"Remus, Harry's in trouble, he needs you." He called loudly; it was when that received no response that he started to panic. Nothing should override a werewolf's need to protect his young.
He withdrew his wand from its holster in his sleeve and began undoing the wards protecting the rooms. Because of the nature of the magic it was easy to disable and soon enough Tony was opening the door and inching his way inside, squinting as he tried to make out shapes in the darkness.
Fumbling for a light switch he eventually found one and switched it on, the brightness blinding him momentarily, causing blurry shapes to gradually come into focus.
What he found when he could see however, was devastating.
Remus Lupin was lay on the floor, a week's worth of stubble on his rugged, aged face, hair matted and clothes dirty, blood pooling around his recently slit wrists.
He wasn't ashamed to admit that he screamed for Tom, his shocked brain had enough power left in it to know that this was not something that Sirius or Harry needed to see.
Moving towards the prone man he quickly knelt and began wrapping strips of the shredded bedspread around his wrists to steam the bleeding. It was as he was finishing this task that Tom entered the room.
"Salazar." He gasped moving towards the two men on the floor. "I'll take him to St Mungo's but you have to stay here and look after Sirius and Harry, he's going to be devastated. Bring them along when they've had time to process what happened." Tom said and that was all Tony heard before they apperated away and he was left in the bedroom with a pool of blood as his only proof it just happened.
It was when Sirius and Harry tore up the stairs and into the room that he snapped out of it, standing shakily he took a breath and remembered his training, he was going to need it for the following conversation.
He gestured for the men to move out of the room before he told them what happened.
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Tom landed with Remus in a heap in St Mungo's Magical Accidents and Life Threatening Mishaps lobby and they were quickly swarmed by Medi-Wizards and Medi-Witches. They quickly established with a few well pointed healing spells that Remus was the one in need of medical attention and they moved him to the ward to be treated.
Tom was allowed to watch through the glass windows as Medical professionals removed the make shift bandages and poured potion after potion down Remus' throat, spelling him numerous times to stop the bleeding. They worked frantically for about twenty minutes before they re-bandaged his wrists and the Head Medi-Wizard came out to talk to Tom.
"Are you a relative?"
"Son-in-law." He responded quickly, knowing that he would only be told things if he was considered family. "My Bond-Mate is at home with M. Lupin's Bond-Mate, they took the news terribly and I thought it best that they join us later, I can't imagine John wanting his husband and son to see him like this." He said, lying again, if they found out Remus' werewolf status they wouldn't treat him.
"Very well Mr…" the Medi-Wizard trailed off, expecting Tom to fill in the gap.
"Riddle."
"Very well Mr Riddle, Mr Lupin has quite clearly tried to end his own life. We managed to stop the bleeding and replenish the blood he lost with numerous potions, he will be fine physically however the mental effects are going to be harder to deal with and we suggest that you find a specialist Mind Healer to deal with the emotional trauma this is going to have caused your entire family."
"We already have one; he had agreed to help us with this issue as he has been helping us with others as well."
"May I enquire as to who is treating your family." The healer asked.
"Madison." Tom replied shortly whilst retrieving his wallet from his pocket and removing several galleons which he handed to the healer. "I expect you can find my father-in-law a private room."
"Of course Mr Riddle, I believe room 134 is free. He shall be moved as soon as he is checked once more to make sure the bleeding has stopped."
"I shall be waiting for my Bond-Mate in the entrance. I can guarantee you that if anything is leaked to the press regarding my identity, Mr Lupin's, my Bond-Mate's or Mr Lupin's mate I shall be holding you personally responsible and I will be coming after you with every resource at my disposal."
The Medi-Wizard swallowed nervously and nodded before going to check Remus once more.
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Tom was sat stiffly in a plastic chair in the clinical waiting room when Harry rushed towards him and jumped into his arms, Tom sighed in relief as Harry gripped him tighter and cried into his shoulder.
"Is he okay?" Sirius asked Tom from behind Harry as he watched the two lovers embrace, a bitter part of him wishing them to be as unhappy as him.
"They are moving him to a private room, number 134 we can go and see him now." He explained, watching as Sirius tore towards the room with Tony hot on his heels.
"Why would he do that?" Harry sobbed harder into Tom's shoulder and Tom moved them back to the plastic chairs, pulling Harry into his lap and rocking him back and forth.
"I don't know Harry, I don't know." He said, pausing his rocking as the Medi-Wizard came back over.
"You hadn't mentioned a son coming Mr Riddle." The doctor said and Tom glared at the man, twice now, he didn't look that much older than Harry did he?
"As you can see my Bond-Mate is very upset so if you can tell me what is happening with Mr Lupin quickly I would appreciate it." He said curtly, still glaring at the wizard.
"Oh…Well, ummm Mr Lupin has responded brilliantly to all of our treatments, he needs to stay overnight as a precaution but as long as he doesn't deteriorate then he can go home tomorrow afternoon, on the condition that your Mind-Healer can stay with you on a permanent basis for the next two weeks or possibly longer."
The healer stood looking at Harry bemusedly until Tom cleared his throat and pointedly looked at the man to shoo him off.
Watching as the man scurried off to some dark recess of the hospital to tell all of the other mindless gossips that the great Harry Potter was copping off with a man twice his age; Tom stood and carried Harry towards Lupin's room as he persistently cried into Tom's pale blue dress shirt.
They settled in the plush chair in the corner of the room, Harry still on Tom's lap, still crying, Tom rocking him and watching as Sirius cried into the bed that Remus was lay on, looking so small and powerless compared to the strong leader he normally looked like.
Tony was stood behind Sirius with one arm on his shoulder hoping to comfort him in some way until he was ready to talk about it, to try and think things through.
Harry quickly drifted off to sleep and Sirius calmed, sitting up and staring blankly at the wall. Tom needed to talk to Tony so he stood and was about to place Harry in the chair when Sirius called and asked for him. He quickly transferred his mate to the man and watched as he was folded tightly into Sirius' arms, as if the man was trying to protect him from everything.
Moving to the door and gesturing for Tony to follow he allowed the man to leave first before following him to the corridor and facing the man that he was about to ask to give up two weeks of his life.
"The Medi-Wizard said that he can be released tomorrow if we have a full time Mind Healer at our home for at least the next two weeks." He began looking the man in the eye. "We know and trust you Madison and I know that Sirius and Harry at least will appreciate you doing it but if you have prior engagements then it wouldn't be a problem to find someone else. We don't want you to feel like you have to, but if you did decide to do it you would be paid handsomely."
"I would like to help your family Mr Riddle, I have become strangely attached to all of you and hope we can become good friends eventually and I would love to help Remus. I know there is no one else you'd be willing to trust and you told me what to expect when I signed up for the job. Admittedly I had thought if we were ever in this situation it would have been with Harry but I'm sure I can help Remus get better."
Tom's blood ran cold at the thought of Harry trying to take his own life; how strong must he have been to survive everything that has been thrown at him over the years without hurting himself or attempting to kill himself, god knows it would have been easy enough.
"Thank you so much Dr Madison." Tom said before re-entering the room and sitting in the corner again. He didn't collect Harry from Sirius before settling in the chair because he felt as if the other man could do with the comfort more that he did.
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Tom awoke the next morning to the sound of tears and an upset conversation.
"Why would you do that Moony?" Sirius asked, gripping the wolf's hand tightly in his own.
"Moony bad mate, hurt cub, no more cubs, bad alpha, no more cubs." He stuttered out in broken speech that was difficult to understand.
"I don't get understand Moony." Sirius said, more tears falling onto their joint hands. Moony moaned lowly and pressed his hand on his mate's flat stomach.
"No cub, I no give you cub." He said and Sirius understood, they all did.
Remus was heartbroken because he couldn't give Sirius the one thing that his instincts demanded he give him; a cub.
"I know love, but we have Harry." Sirius placated, knowing that they both thought as Harry as a son.
"Moony let Harry hurt, Moony fail cub." He said, and Tom could understand why he tried to take his own life. Having something inside of your head, something primal that you know in your heart of hearts is true telling you that you are a failure, that you couldn't protect your family would be upsetting enough for one day, but for weeks, months. He couldn't imagine.
"No Moony, Dumbledore failed Harry and he failed James and Lilly and he failed us; it is his fault, not yours. It has never been your fault; you try so hard to protect us from everything and we would fall apart without you. I would die without you Moony, do you understand? Without you and Remus I would die." He explained and you could see the pain flash through the wolf's eyes at the thought of his mate dying.
"For me to survive, you have to survive." Sirius explained as he kissed Moony tenderly on the lips.
Moony nodded and made a low whiny noise in the back of his throat that acted as an apology for what he had done.
"Moony, love, I need you to sleep now to get some of your strength back okay?"
The wolf nodded.
"I love you." Sirius mumbled against Moony's lips.
"Love you." He mumbled back grinning happily at his mate.
He loved his mate and his mate loved him. Sirius didn't hate him for not giving him cubs; they had Harry. They love Harry. They love each other.
And that love…
That love was blazing.
Two chapters in one night you lucky sods ;) please review it makes me happy.