I just wanted to say thank you for all your support. It really means a lot. Last night's episode had me a complete bundle of emotions all flying out at once between being so happy I couldn't help but grin from ear to ear and feeling like I was going to cry because I was so sad the finale is just next week and the show would never be the same. But I loved it none the less. I hope you all enjoy this as much as I enjoyed that episode! Thanks again! (:

Ten. Defying Gravity
"I'm through accepting limits 'cause someone says they're so.
Some things I cannot change but till I try, I'll never know"
- Defying Gravity, Wicked

I wake up to find myself in bedroom with Brittany's arms wrapped loosely around my waist. The last thing I remember from last night, well this morning, was telling Brittany about Reyna. She must have carried me back to our room after I fell asleep in her lap. It amazed me how physically fit Brittany was after giving birth to Lily; in only three months she almost completely back into her pre-baby shape. I look at the clock on my bedside table. 7:02 am. As much as I would love to stay in bed right now it was time to face the day; time to face Reyna.

I slowly try to climb out of bed but Brittany tightens her hold on me; pulling me into her so were millimeters apart, tangling our legs together. I can't help but grin a little as I feel her breath against my shoulder. "Not yet, five more minutes. Please?" Her voice is mumbled and filled with sleepiness.

"Fine, five more minutes." I roll over. Brittany's breathingly blue eyes are now focused sleepily on my face. I can see her scanning my face as I give her a genuine smile; she's investigating to see if I'm faking it. Her ability to read my emotions never ceases to amaze me. "You're cute when concentrating, you know?" I brush a stray piece of hair from Brittany's face, tucking it behind her ear.

She quickly wipes the sleepiness from her eyes before giggling to herself. "Well you're cute when you wake up in the morning. Messy hair and all." She gives me a kiss on the tip of my nose. "I love you, Santana." She gives me a smile that matches my own before burying her face into the crook of my neck, placing a quick kiss to the underside of my chin.

"I love you too, Brittany." After I speak we sit in silence, simply enjoying being in each other's presence. Before long I can hear Lily gurgling to herself through the baby monitor. "Let's go get our little monster up for breakfast shall we?" The excitement in my voice causing me to chuckle; I can't help but feel like I'm Rachel and I'm being given a Tony Award every time I think about spending to with our daughter, especially when that time is also shared with Brittany.

"That sounds like an amazing idea." Brittany lift her head up as she lets go of my waist; bringing her fingers up to slowly run down the length of my hair.

"We can talk about last night then okay?" My voice isn't as cheery as it was a moment ago but I can see in her eyes that she understands; right now that's all that I need.

"What will it be this morning Lils?" I ask, the top half of my body is practically in our fridge. "Banana puree, baby rice cereal, applesauce?"

"San, I don't think she gets what your asking. Considering all she can see is your behind, which I frankly don't mind." I can hear my wife give a throaty chuckle, clearly pleased with herself before continuing. "But I think she'd rather see her options rather than us randomly choosing for her. Don'tcha think?"

As I pull myself out of the fridge I can't help but grin from ear to ear. I look down at Lily who is sitting in Brittany lap at the breakfast nook. I can feel my heartstrings tug in my chest; seeing Brittany holding our daughter always makes me feel like I'm the luckiest person in the world. I hold out a baby sized container of applesauce and Lily begins to gurgle, a smile forms on her face. "Applesauce is it then." I turn around and begin to look for a spoon as Brittany stands up. "We only put them away yesterday and I still don't know where they are." I can't help but grumble slightly.

Brittany with Lily grabbing hold to her t-shirt neck in her little fists comes over the other side of the counter and opens a drawer filled with kitchen utensils. "Nothing to panic over, honey. I got it covered." She flashes me a thousand watt smile before handing me the baby spoon.

"Thank you." I give her a small smile as a blush creeps across my face. "Now we can have some breakfast, Lily." I make my way to sit down on a dinette chair next to Lily. As soon as I open the container of applesauce the doorbell rings.

I look over at Brittany and give her a look of fear mixed with anxiety. "I'll get it." I can hear the empathy in her voice and I know she'd give anything for this not to be happening to us right now. She puts Lily into her high chair so I can begin feeding her before she started crying because the food isn't getting into her fast enough; much like Quinn when the bacon has run out, Brittany and I learnt that the hard way. Brittany comes towards me and wraps her arm around my shoulder, giving me a kiss on cheek before leaving the kitchen. I do the only thing I can do, I begin to feed Lily her much wanted applesauce.

Before I know it my sister is standing in beside me, staring at my daughter. I can see the adoration in her eyes and a genuine smile that I haven't seen from her in years has spread across her face. "She's beautiful." Her gaze doesn't leave Lily's face as she speaks to me. She hesitantly walks closer to us.

"I'm going to say this bluntly. What are you doing here Reyna?" I never had gotten a straight answer from her yesterday and I needed to know. I needed to know so that I'd be able to figure out what to do. I feel Brittany come up behind me draping her arm across my shoulder for much needed and appreciated support.

My breath automatically hitches as my sister opens her mouth. "Can we sit down and talk?" Reyna's voice is neither smug nor apathetic; it's filled with fear and anxiety like my own. The smile on her face is gone. I can see the apprehension in her eyes.

"Promise me you'll tell me what's going on. I don't want the run around like I'm a child." I need to hear her say it. Reyna has always been the master of avoidance and deflecting.

"I promise, Tana." The sincerity in her voice is undeniable.

I look up at Brittany, I don't know if I can do this alone but her cerulean eyes gives me all the reassurance I need without her even saying a single word. "I'll finish feeding her." She simply states as she takes the applesauce and spoon from my hands.

I bend over and place a kiss on the top of Lily's head before getting out of my chair. "Okay, Reyna. Follow me." I say in the calmest voice possible knowing that it was highly likely that in only a few moments I would break into the pieces that Brittany and Lily had slowly put together piece by piece.

I slowly easy myself into my usual leather recliner chair across from Reyna. We sit for a few moments with the room filled with silence before she finally speaks. "I was wrong, Santana." My gaze that was focused on the coffee table in front of me snaps up to catch Reyna's eyes. Reyna never admitted she was wrong willingly or called me Santana, I had always been Tana to her since I was old enough to know what my name was. If I had been suprised last night, then now I'm shellshocked.

I open my mouth to speak but Reyna holds up her hand to stop me. She gives me a look that speaks a million words; the hurt in her eyes is undeniable. I don't say anything I simply watch what she is doing. She has bent over, taking off her shoes and rolling up her pants legs to reveal something I don't expect. Instead of seeing my sister's usual toned, caramel skinned legs I see a pair a prosthetics. My jaw automatically drops slightly; I try to speak but nothing comes out. This is one of the very few moments in my life I, badass Santana Lopez, have been rendered speechless.

I look into my sisters eyes to find tears forming. "I'm sorry." Her words are filled with remorse and trepidation. "I couldn't, I just couldn't." Reyna's unable to finish her sentence. She buries her face in her hands. Her body is now shaking in sobs.

Whatever disappointment and rage I once felt is now gone. Without hesitation I kneel in front of my sister and take her into my arms. Thankfully, my body allows me to form words again. "It's okay. Everything's going to be alright." My voice is barely more than a whisper. "We're going to figure everything out." Eventually I feel my sister arms wrap around me. Her arms are locked around me as tight as the gates on the Hoover Dam.

After a few minutes Reyna pulls away from me with a sniffle. "I couldn't let Mom tell you, this was something I had to tell you myself. Even if it did take me two years to do it, as pathetic as that sounds."

"You're not pathetic, Rey." I look into her tearfilled eyes to make sure she knows I'm telling her the honest truth.

She wipes away the tears in her eyes before looking back at me. "You know who hard this is for me to admit. I need your help Tana."

"I can't give you my," I begin to speak but she quickly cuts me off by putting a finger on my lips. As she pulls it away I don't begin to speak; I listen. Thankfully over the years that was one of the skills Brittany had helped me with.

"I know. I'd never ask to you to do that for me. I could never do that. And Mom told me that you and Brittany are going to have more kids. That's great by the way. That little one of yours is definitely going to be a better big sister than I ever was to you. That I'm sure off."

"Rey, stop it."

"Fine, no more round arounds. What is need is for you to admit me and put me on the UNOS list."

"You gain strength, courage, and confidence by every experience in which you really," I don't get the chance to finish my sentence; Reyna finishes it for me.

"Stop to look fear in the face. You must do the thing which you think you cannot do." A small smile forms on her face. "Eleanor Roosevelt." Reyna doesn't resist the urge to laugh slightly. "Just because my middle name is after her doesn't mean you need to quote her at me."

I can't help but roll my eyes at her as she crawls out of my arms to sit back on the couch. "Yes, I do. You're my big sister so I can quote Eleanor Roosevelt at you as much as I need to." I give her a smile I know she hasn't seen in what seems like forever.

Out of the corner of my eye I notice Brittany enter the doorway holding Lily in her arms, but she doesn't enter. She's looking at me searching for a sign of some sort telling her its okay to come in. I change the focus of my gaze to Britt and nod slightly; I immediately notice the concern in her eyes. She understands and slowly but surely makes her way into the living room, taking a seat on the love seat next to us.

"To answer your earlier question I'm here for numerous reasons. I'm here to apologize, because I never should have ran from you, "I should have listened to you. You were definitely the smartest kid of your age, and"

"No, I pretty sure that was Britt." I can't help but take this opportunity to make my wife laugh at my honesty.

"San." Brittany slightly scolds me.

"What? It's true, isn't it?" I give her a wink before turning my attention back to my sister. "And what?"

"And I'm so sorry I put you through all of that." She stops for a moment, clearly trying to hold back a sob. "But it was me who was dying and I felt like no matter how hard I tried I wouldn't be able to stop it. So I just wanted to live what I could." I place a hand on my sister's knee.

"No apology needed, Rey. You were scared. Fear makes do all sorts of things that are out of our character." I immediately think back to high school. It still makes my heart break when I think about how much I would push Brittany away out of fear. Thankfully I was able to get past the fear because other wise I wouldn't even want to consider where I would have been right now. I wouldn't give up my family and our life for the world.

"I wanted to meet my sister-in-law and my niece." Reyna looks over at Brittany and Lily for a moment before looking me in the eye as she begins to speak once again. "I came because I know I've made mistakes and I need my sister to tell me that everything's going to be okay. I need my Tana." Her eyes are filled with tears and they begin to roll down her face once again. I reach out and wipe them away.

"How about I make some breakfast, well Britt will," I can hear Britt's classic giggle behind me. "Then we'll go to the hospital? We can talk about this more there." I know we discussed this long enough; going over the gruelling topic for too long was bound to take even more of a toll on the both of us than it already had.

"I'd like that. I'd like to catch up with you, Tana. Secondhand stories from Mom definitely aren't enough anymore. And of course get to know you, Brittany." My sister looks at my wife again with a smile on her face but I can see the signs of internal conflict on her face.

"Is there something else, Rey?" I ask, waiting intently for her answer because I honestly don't know what more she can say that would make her conflicted like this.

"Can I, can I hold her?" Her voice is hesitant but I can feel her need to connect with my daughter. I had thought about this moment ever since the first time Brittany asked me if we could have a baby; I never thought that it would happen, no matter how much I wished I would. Yet here we are.

"Of course, you can." Brittany's voice takes me out of my thoughts. She holds Lily out to my sister who welcomes her with open arms. "She likes it when you tickle her toes but watch out she just ate so be prepared for a little spit up." Brittany leans forward taking a cloth off her shoulder and placing on my sister's.

"Thanks. She's so beautiful." Reyna beings to tickle Lily's toes who lets out a loud squeal of excitement. "Hi Lily. You're some cute aren't you? You look just like your Mami don't you?" She gives me a quick grin.

"So what are am I going to be making for breakfast?" I can't help but laugh as Brittany creates an emphasis on the word I.

Reyna's to caught up in Lily to answer her. "Banana pancakes, honey." Her head snaps up quite quickly at the mention of her favorite breakfast.

"Three plates of banana pancakes coming right up." Britt says in a cheerful tone as she heads for the kitchen leaving me alone with my sister and daughter.

"I've got to fix this, Tana. I know that there are something things in life you can't change but with this I'm done being afraid and running from it. I've got to try." The sincerity is there in the words I've been praying to hear from my sister for years. I can't help but pray that we're not too late, that we can fix this, because if we can't I know my heart will be broken into countless little pieces to meticulous and sharp for anyone, even Brittany and my daughter, to pick up and put back together.