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Disclaim: Don't own Glee

Chapter 11

Sentimental Tune

I hate waking up before my alarm it like throws off my whole day and trust everyone was paying the consequences, I think I've slushied four kids today but honestly I stopped counting.

I had a kink in my neck from sleeping awkwardly in my backseat of my car, and my back was killing me but not in a good way. So I went through the day sending glares and flipping birds to everyone who crossed my path today.

I was the last to stomp into the choir room at the end of the day and everyone including Schue shut up when I walked in making me think I was the hot button topic right now, it also brought up memories from when B died. I stand there waiting to see if anyone will pipe up but no one does so I shrug sliding into my seat in the back corner.

"Uh, okay guys so we need to get some ideas running for Regional's or a theme so to speak if we're going that route again this year" Mr. Schuester says leaning up against the piano, I watch as Brad cringes.

Rachel is frantically waving her hand like a five year old on steroids but Schue is desperately looking for anyone else to raise their hand so I humor him he visibly swallows nervously.

"Uhm, yeah Santana go on ahead"

"Thank you Mr. Schuester " I say cocking my head to the side sweetly smiling "I think that instead of ignoring Rachel you should pull your head out ya ass and listen to her suggestion because when she planned everything for sectionals last year we won this year we tied, which proves the suckage that is your planning skills" I cross my arms over my chest still holding the smile as everyone stares at me Puck and Quinn stifle a laugh.

"Office" is all Schue says before I pick up my bag and skip out of there, I know everyone else was thinking the same thing as I was they were just pussies and couldn't say it. So instead of going the office route I go to the locker rooms to grab the rest of my stuff.

On my way out I run into something and get knocked onto my ass "What the fuck" I snarl before glancing up and seeing Brittany reaching down her hand to help me up biting her lip.

"Sorry Sanny I was following you but then the guy who puts the stuff in the snack machine was here so I had to see how he stuffs the candy in, did you know it's like a door and it opens?"

I laugh and except the hand as she pulled me up closer than what would be the 'norm' of 'friends' but she's smiling so naturally so am I "Why'd you follow me BB?"

She shrugs biting her lip pulling me into a hug "Well I thought it was nice how you stood up for Rachel, but like a bitchy nice like the old San I knew"

I shrug nonchalantly even though all that was on my mind was how Britt's arms were still wrapped around me " Schue was being a dick it wasn't fair to Rachel, you know me I look out for my fellow minorities" I say winking tickling her sides "Specially the those Dutch.

She laughs before peeling herself off of me "Yeah, well you weren't looking out for anyone this morning you were on a rampage, I didn't notice but everyone was talking about it when you walked in"

Shit, so I guess that my instincts proved correct again "Uh, yeah I had a bad morning the alarm didn't go off before I woke up" she nods sympathetically she knew how felt about it and puts her hand on my shoulder.

"Yeah and sleeping in your car isn't good for you"

"Oh, I know it totally blowed but it's only for-" I trail off and snap my head focusing at her "Wait what? How'd you know I slept in my car last night?"

"Oh everyone was talking about it in glee" she says eyes glazing over as she starts to glance around the locker room "How many lockers do we have in here?"

I didn't have time for this though more pressing matters "Uh a lot, no Brittany who was talking about it? Who started the topic?" I'm trying to keep my voice calm but it's kind of embarrassing for people to know shit like that. They'll think I'm like homeless or something (even though technically I am, but that's beside the point)

"Oh uhm I think Mike did he saw something on Jacobs blog, I couldn't check though all the screens were black in the library so I just let the computers rest"

I step back until I fell the cool of the locker on my back sliding down I softly bang my head up against the locker "I messed up Brittany big time" I slam my hand back into the locker making her jump, she hesitantly steps over to where I am sitting next to me.

"How? What happened you've kind of been on edge lately"

I close my eyes and play over the scenes that are going on my head trying to find the best place to start I reach for her hand which she slides easily into mine "I came out to my parents last night" I was kind of shocked when she started jumping up and down excitedly crushing my hand in the process re wrapping herself around me straddling my hips, resting her arms around my neck.

"Oh my goodness that's great! I'm so proud of you wait was both of your Parents there?" I smile sadly and nod.

" Yeah Pop got home yesterday night it was…eventful to say the least I… Well my Ma talked to your Mom awhile back and your Mom spilled the beans about us" Brittany's face goes into this cute shocked looked "But my Ma only brought it up last night and she said some retarded shit so I told her about that time we had sex on her bed remember after homecoming?" she smiles sheepishly and nods smiling.

"How could I forget? It was the first you went dow-" I blush and shake my head cutting her off.

"Not the point so Ma freaked out and I left out my window to let her and Pop deal with it I'm willing to bet cash that my shit's on the lawn" and now I'm back to banging my head up against the locker.

Brit rests her head on my shoulder her cheek against mine "What are you going to do San? Do you need a place to stay we have an extra room" She just insert the knife into my heart that one stung a little when ever we were together even at Cheerio things in hotels with two beds we still always slept together " I mean if you want to stay with me".

I want to say yes I mean it's my like gut feeling to jump at the offer I mean I need to start getting back into her good graces (even though with her so close and her body against mine it felt like I was already there) so I keep watch on her and keep her safe cause I know for damn sure that Wheels couldn't do that.

So I swallow my pride and shake my head pushing her face away from mine gently as I could "No, it's okay I have somewhere already, but I'll come over if you want as much as you want" she gives me a tight lipped smile and nods "I'd like that a lot San" I rub my thumb over her cheek and start trying to get us standing up as I hear other Cheerios start filling in.

"Ready to get down to some serious Conditioning, hussies" I hear Sues Bull horn in the distance, yeah this should be real fun.

I literally drag my feet to my car other than my body screaming at me with every step I really didn't want to have to stay cramped up in there again and I really didn't want to go door to door asking for a place to stay it seemed kind of pathetic.

I made sure I was the last to leave the locker room taking my time in the showers and sliding into my old gym shirt and Cheerio sweatpants. I glance down at my phone which was on it's last bar, I knew I should have left my car charger in there why the hell would I need it in my room?

So that's how I wind up driving slowly down my block watching as my house rises as I come up over the hill, I sigh when I see my stuff isn't all over the lawn at least I had that luxury on the flip side though that meant I had to actually go inside. I park in front of the house just in case I had to make a quick get away I struggle at backing out of anything.

As I creep into the house the first thing I notice is the smell, it smelt like how when I was a kid in the summer we'd have bon fires in the back yard and all my Cousins, Aunts, and Uncles would come over. I walk cautiously forward and glance in the back yard seeing that our fire pit was out but it still had a shit load of ash in it like it was freshly used.

I hear someone clear there throat and whip around to face my Pop who is leaning up against the door frame arms crossed in front of him, we stand there for a minute taking each other in.

"She burned her sheets, she would have done the whole bed but I talked her out of it" I nod still frozen hand still clutching the curtain to the window facing the back yard.

"She's out right now and I'm willing to wager she's at a bar" I feel that heat creeping up my face because I could almost feel what he was implying " I think me and you should have a talk mija"

I follow him into the living room and sit down on the love seat while he chooses the arm chair right across from me and now the scene was familiar hopefully the script hadn't changed because I don't think I can get rejected anymore in this lifetime.

My father runs a hand through his hair and lets his hand fall onto the arm of the chair slightly hanging off "You know that I loved you and your mother very much" past tense that's new but I stay focused " But being so far it's hard to stay connected and I don't really know anything about you anymore"

I nod the dutiful daughter I am deciding to stay silent until it's my turn to talk because this time I plan on not crying and not a fuck will be given right now " Last night brought a lot into prospective for me, about your mother and you. This is hard to say but I came home to tell your mother that I met someone else, but as of last night I don't think I can" I have my hands in my lap clinching and unclenching looking any where but at that stupid useless sorry sac of shit a crossed from me " You broke her as soon as we realized you were gone she drank half a bottle of tequila and tried to burn everything in her room. Driving your mother to drink is not a joke Santana" I try to hold it in but I bust up seriously if I didn't get a hold of myself I might just piss on the couch and give my mom another reason to hate me.

"You know what man" I wipe my eyes and stand up " You should go into comedy or the soaps because that was true acting right there, don't come here and act like you give two fucks about me or Ma cause you don't. Also, One don't lame me for her lack of perception shit anyone in a hundred mile radius could see me and Brittany were more than friends and two her drinking probably had something to do with that big hickey your trying to cover up so with that said I'll get my shit and be out of your hair, so you can live in this fantasy world where your guilt free and it's my fault"

"Santana wait" he crosses the room and tries to grab my wrist but I wrench it out of his hand shaking my head at him "No you wait I'm tired of having to wait for everything I get, so you wait and see what happens here you 'heal' Ma cause honestly I've never been more disappointed at anyone as I am at the people I called my parents. I'm done here, with the memories and the put downs and the blatant homophobia that come off you two in waves" I huff and turn on my heel leaving him standing there shoulders slumped.

It takes me about fifteen minutes to get everything I need in my car since I've had an inclination that this would happen any day now, with my phone all plugged up I scroll down to Berry and dial her.

"Hello Santana? Hey what happened to you today, I looked for you after Cheerios but Quinn told me to go home she'd tell you to call me"

"And here I am calling you Jesus, I was just wandering if you were ready for that sleep over?" I could hear the smile spreading across her face I pull off in front of her house.

"Yes that sounds good, like right now because I have a bit of cleaning up to do real quick" I watch as she dances around the living room in a little victory dance laughing I shake my head "Yeah I'll be there in a minute okay?"

She says yes and I rest in my seat for a minute before grabbing my backpack and swinging it on my shoulders popping my trunk and grabbing my cheerios uniform and some fresh underwear shoving it in the front pocket.

Rachel flung the door open as soon as I rang the bell "That was a lot quicker than I expected" I shrug "I was already kind of here" I see as the blush starts to settle on her cheeks "Aw, don't worry Berry I only seen most of your dance before I couldn't see you anymore" I laugh and sling my arm over her shoulders.

As I start chilling out in her room, watching as she bustles about picking things up and getting the guest room ready I try and see her through Quinn's eyes, I mean I see like how she likes her body bellow the neck she had some awesome legs but I thought that was moot because she was annoying then again she had a really nice smile, but the nose kind of threw that off unless Q liked it or something I'll have to ask her.

"Not that I don't appreciate you staring at me I was wandering if you were hungry? We already had dinner but we could go out and get something if you'd like. I know that you don't really appreciate vegan food even though we had steamed veggies tonight and they were delicious"

"No thanks not much an appetite, but thanks for offering and letting me stay tonight I couldn't really ask anyone else without getting embarrassed"

"Well we planned this remember? It's totally fine, but if I'm not pushing my limit why didn't you call last night? I would have said yes and if once again not prying but why were you even sleeping in your car did your dad come home last night?"

I nod once and recant everything that happened last night and everything that happened in the locker room between Brittany, and me Rachel sits down next to me on the bed and true to her word listens humming sympathetically sometimes.

" You really had sex on your parents bed in their room, isn't that sort of unhygienic not to mention kind of disturbing?"

"Well B was pretty hammered because she accidently drank the spiked punch and she's not much of a drinker and I was kind of tipsy myself so we just ended up where we ended up" Berry's face is priceless like she's trying to comprehend but her brain wasn't computing I was waiting for the smoke to start coming out of her ears "And I guess it was like on my bucket list to do it in my parent's room just to spite them"

"I can't even imagine," she says shaking her head.

I smile mischievously "Well maybe someday you and Quinn can do it in your-" she points her finger at me trying to glare but it wasn't really working out for her, that and the fact she was holding back a laugh.

"Don't even finish that sentence Santana Lopez, it's gross not to mention the fact that-" she goes on a tangent spitting out fax and logistics about a whole bunch of shit that I really didn't give two fucks about.

"Okay I get it shut up already" we sit in silence for a minute looking at each other "So, after tonight do you have somewhere else to stay? Because you know I can ask my dad's if it would be okay for you to reside here for some time so I mean do you want to stay here?"

Yes, "No"

I see how crestfallen Berry looks and it makes me feel kind of bad "I mean I already worked some stuff out with someone else so I think I'm good but if you want we could have more of these things" she smiles big and pulls me into a hug.

"You know you don't have to do everything alone there's a whole bunch of people willing to help" she says patting my back and raising up " But seeing as it is still a school night I'm going to have to ask you to go to bed now"

I nod and pause in the door way "Hey um thanks, again for tonight" she smiles and nods flipping her alarm on "See you tomorrow"

I nod and find the guest room down the hall snuggling down into the unfamiliar bed that swell that's been in my throat since yesterday finally bust loose, and next thing I know Rachel's there humming me to sleep.