*wakes up lazily* axel? Why are you…oh yeah…never mind…
Axel: yeah *streatches* the floor isn't very comfortable *had used coat as a blanket, is putting it on*
Zexion: *looks at scares* hand me the razors…
Axel: I…no. why should I! *zips up coat* your just trying ti take it away…I…no! your not taking them!
Axel: you don't need them!
Axel: but I DO! I need them so much! The pain! It has a flavor you know? And its delicious! Delectable! Flavorful! Just the way it feels makes it oh so addicting!
Zexion: what would Roxas say? *looks him dead in the eye* what would…your mother say?
Axel: I…she was…don't bring my mother into this! And…Roxas never notices…even though there in plain sight…*grips package of blades and gets in zexys face* you…will…not…take…them!
Zexion: *eyes get wide in fear* I'm sorry…but…I'm just…worried…
Axel: *gets out of his face* im sorry I…I didn't…*runs out of zexys room to his own* he just…doesn't understand! No one…understands…*opens package and locks himself in himself in his bathroom*
Vexen: *knocking on bedroom door* axel! Axel! You left Zexion alone! I found a razor blade on his floor! Are you mad? He could have killed himself! God you are useless!
Axel: uh! Im sorry I just couldn't pee in the same room as him! *pours peroxide into cuts* *starts bubbling* shhh! Ow ow*exhales and bandages* *comes out* there! Im done! *walks down hallway*
Zexion: you forgot one…I thought he was going to spontaneously combust…are you…okay…
Axel: *cough* yeah I'm fine. Fantastic!
Zexion: you know I can smell it…I can smell the blood too…what do I have to do? What will make you stop?
Axel: I…nothing. Its as simple as that. There is nothing that will stop me from enjoying the pain…*points to gauges* see these? I took them up because they are painful. I always skip a size, just so its extra nice. I went from normal to 14 to10 to 6 and now I'm at 2.
Zexion: *sigh* im not giving up…one of us will have to give in…
Axel: and it will probably be you…*smirk* do…do you wanna help me pull a prank on Marluxia…no no…someone else…Xigbar! Lets take his eye patch! *starts walking in the direction of Xigbar's room*
Zexion: wait! You are just trying to get them to hurt you! And no matter what youdo I have to follow you! That isn't really fair axel!…I don't want to see you get hurt!
Axel: *squirms around*…but it…..just one! I promise! Just one! Please? *pouty eyes* and I might not even get caught…I mean Xigbar sleeps till like noon! And its 8 oclock! Please please please!
Zexion: why would I let you get hurt! Besides you have to stay with me! *feels clever*
Axel: *yells* DEMYX! YO DEMYX! COME HERE!
Demyx: yeah what is it axel?
Axel: watch Zexion for a moment…I have to go see Xigbar…*acts like he doesn't wanna go*
Demyx: no problem! Come on Zexion!
Axel: heh…off to find Xigbar! *runs to door and opens it. Sees he is sleeping* today is my lucky day! *pulls off his eye patch but wrist is grabbed*
Xigbar: well…hello sweet cheeks!
Axel: *pulls on wrist* Xigbar look what I have! *swings around eye patch*
Xigbar: wha-hey! *gets up* give it back now!
Axel: nope! *gets in face* make me you old, crusty, old, pile of trash! *smirks*
Xigbar: grrr! *summons guns* get over here you little piece of crap *shoots at his leg but misses*
Axel: now were talking! *dodges* haha! You cant hit me! *rungs into hall* come on old man! Tou have to get me some time! *dodges* oohhh to slow! Better luck next-
Xigbar: *shoots right through his knee* got you! *stands over him*
Axel: ah…*sharp in take of breath* we…arnt done yet! *fist comes and nock out his knees, and Xigbar falls on his knees on Axel?*not…my best plan…
Xigbar: ew! Now im covered in blood! Errr! Your going to pay! *punches injured knee*
Axel: *seethes* Hashanah! Is that the best you can do! Now I see why Zexion has more responsibilities! You should be number 1000000! You freaken suck!
Xigbar:*shoots him in both of his shoulders* you need to watch your mouth!
Axel: ahhh! *deep breath* you need to watch as you get demotted through ourranks you sorry piece of crap! One day you will be the most decrepit, disgusting piece of shit anyone would have ever seen! We will all need eye patches because we will have gouged our eyes out!
Xigbar: *steps on his right shoulder and gets close to his face* you insult me again…and im not going after just you…
Axel: why would…*whimpers as he presses down harder* who…would you hurt…
Xigbar: someone *even more pressure* very close to you *evil grin*
Axel: *whines* n-no…p-please not Roxas…o-or Zex- anyone. h-here! *hands him his eye patch* *Xigbar stomps on it and turns to leave*
…..flash back to being a nobody….
Lea: you sorry piece of shit! *punched in the face*
Father: if your old enough to talk like an adult, you will be punished as one!
*is continuously beaten*
Lea: *spits our blood* I hate you bastard!
Father: *wrapes his hands around lea's neck* say that again?
Lea: I…hate…you…bastard!
*choked out*
*comes to senses*
Roxas: axel? Whats…oh my god your bleeding all over!
Axel:…h…huh…?*lifts head* oh…h-hi Roxas…
Roxas: y-you're bleeding! Get in here and let me help you!
Axel: r-Roxas I cant walk…..c-can you o-open a portal u-under me?
Roxas: okay but…..this might hurt abit! *opens portal underhim that sends him to Roxas's bed.*
Axel: ah! Fu-…sh-…that feels nice…
Roxas: what? Oh you mean the bed right? *starts cleaning his knee* what happened? Who did this?
Axel:…Roxas I don't need you getting involved…jeez what are you a girl! You need to put pressure on these things!
Roxas: hey! I was just getting it clean! And what do you mean you don't want me getting involved?
Axel: Xigbar and I got into a fight, and I don't want you getting hurt! Its unnecessary! *sits up and winces* just…don't get involved. Please?
Roxas: this isn't something I can ignore axel! Anyone who hurts you is my enemy! Im not going to sit back and watch you suffer!
Axel: suffer! Yeah right. This is nothing! *strongly said* Roxas, he could really hurt you, and it was my fault anyway! Please…just tell me you wont…please! I-I cant lose you!
Roxas:…and I cant lose you! *looks him in the eye*
Axel: w-why so protective. you've…you've never been this relentless?
Roxas: *backs off a bit* I'm…sorry…I guess this qhole incident with Zexion…has me really paranoid…anything can happen…I could lose you at any time! I don't want to take any chances axel!
Axel: its fine…im just…you care so much! *grabs his face gently* I love you…im sorry I make you so worried…*kisses*
Roxas: I love you too!…I need to clean your shoulders axel…take off your coat and ill just-
Axel: oh no…that not necessary! *Roxas grabs zipper and pulls, flinging off his coat*
Roxas: yes of co-…what is all this? *angrily* did you do this! *pointing to numerous cuts and scares*
Axel: *eyes wide* I…I….y-yes *sais sheepishly"* you…you don't understand Roxas! Its just…
Roxas: i don't understand? Well how the heck am I supposed to understand this! Here I am concerned about other people hurting you…and the biggest offender is…YOU *tears begin to fall*
Axel: I-Roxas please just listen! *grabs for wrist but is tugged out of his hand* r-Roxas…please *small tear* don't leave
Roxas: if you don't want me to leave…then stop this! *points to axels arm*
Axel: I-I…I cant…no Roxas! don't sont leave! *slammed door* tries getting up and falls on his face on the floor and begins to cry*
Roxas: *just outside door* I'm sorry…*runs away*
Axel:…why does everything turn out WRONG! *pounds fist in the floor till bruised and red dotted
…..flashback…
Mother: lea hunny, what is this? *holds up small raiser*
Lea: n-nothing mom, I just use it to open envelopes…
Mother: I don't think your telling…*interrupted by father* you been stealing stuff outa my shed! *slapped in the face*
Lea: yeah what about it! *is punched*
Father: *stumbles alittle from drinks* youungratful little! *mother getss in the middle*
Mother: STOP! DON'T HURT HIM ANY- *SLAPPED*
Lea: don't hit my mother! *punches him in the face*
Father: *picks up lea's bat and beats him with it* don't ever do that again!
*lea on floor*
Father:im sick of you always interfering! *points to leas mom* ungrateful bitch*
….grafic and bloody scene commences….
*comes to sences sobbing on the floor*
Larxene: axel! AXEL! Hey come on get up! *shakes him a bit*
Axel: *practically glomos her and starts sobbing* NO STOP! *looks at Larxene and releases instantly* I, s-sorry, I di-didn't…..
Larxene: D- *blushes a bit* jeez axel…whats…you okay?
Axel: DOES IT LOOK LIKE IM OKAY!1 ROXAS LEFT ME, AND I CANT EVEN RUN AFTER HIM! WHAT THE HELL AM I SUPPOSED TO DO! *starts flaming*
Larxene: hey! I'm just trying to help! don't you dare freak out on me! *spark fly from fingers*
Axel: ILL DO WHAT EVER THE HELL I YOU STUPID NIMPH! I AM YOUR SUPERIOR!
Larxene: gggrrrrr! I HATE YOU! YOU DON'T LET ANYONE GET CLOSE TO YOU! THAT'S YOUR PROBLEM YOU CONCETED HOT HEAD! *storms out*
Axel: *breathes deeply and calms down* *pulls on shirt and limps down hallway* I…don't know…what to do now…
Zexion: how about you just give in…this is a fight…that you don't want to win axel…trust me…
Axel: *turns to Zexion crying* ive already lost what I love most. Wh-whats the point in giving in now?…and…to answer you earlier…you know…about my mom…she was sad… *continues limping in some random direction*
Zexion: why do you push away the people who want to help you?
Axel: I-I don't know! *leans against wall* I…don't…I…just…don't…*continues to cry rubbing shoulders* she…she cared…and she…she died…that's why…you'll just die…so you cant care…you cant…
Zexion: I get it now…you are worried that…if someone cares about you they'll dia and vise versa…everything makes sense now *ponders concept*
Axel: you just cant! *grabs his shoulders* I need you, but…but I cant! Because you'll die! You..you cant die…so you cant care! *sobbs* no one can! *looks hysterical in Zexions eyes*
*slapes him* sorry but you need to calm down! I'm not gonna die!
Axel: you…you attempted suicide Zexion! Th-that's almost dieing! And I cant-cant let you die! I need you! But…you cant…cause you'll die…everyone will! *lets go and slumps against wall* everyone will…
Zexion: *hugs him tightly* im sorry…but everything is okay now axel…I'm not gunna die…no one is…I promise you…I promise.
Axel: *shivers* she-she died because she cared…she got in his way one to many times! Just one to many! *crys into his shoulder* because she cared…she died…knowing I did this! She…she found it! She found iiiiitt! *sobbs*
Zexion: but…she still loved you…she will always love you…
Axel: she…she…found it…and I lied…I lied…and she died! *pulls out old rusted raiser blade* I-I shouldn't have lies=d…but I did…and she died…its…its my fault! *trembling*
Zexion: it isn't your fault! I though the same way when my parents died! It isn't your fault…its his! If your father couldn't see….the good in you then then there was something wrong with him!
Axel: y-you think theres good in me? A-and it isn't my fault. I-its not! * hopeful eyes* *opens Zexions hand and gives him old meaningful razor* I…no more…Zexion no more…
Zexion: *hugs him as tight as possible* thank you!…thank you…now go find Roxas…and don't tell demyx were I am!
Axel: I …might need ….a little help…um…potion? *lifts up pant leg and sees blood seaping through the bandaging*
Zexion: *reaches in back pocket and pulls out a potion* here…now hurry!
Axel: *drinks and starts running* *yells back to Zexion* sorry about the blood on your coat! ROXAS! WHERE ARE YOU ROXAS! I-I NEED YOU! WERE…WERE ARE YOU! *running around castle*
Zexion: blood?…oh come on!
*on roof*
Roxas: *crying into his knees*
Axel:*opens door* r-Roxas…are you up here? *finds him* Roxas, come…come here. *sits next to him and opens his arms*
Roxas: you think that im going to jump into your arms and everything is going to be okay? That isn't the way life works axel!
Axel: r-Roxas…im sorry. About everything! I…I don't want to hurt myself anymore…I don't…I wish I would have realized that sooner…
roxas: you don't get it axel…you weren't just hurting yourself…you were hurting me…why did you hide this from me? How am I supposed to understand…if you don't open up to me?
Axel:…I never really hide it Roxas…you know how many times we did it? All those times I was completely nude. and you didn't see them…I was practically displaying them…but that isn't the poing…Roxas. Im sorry. Im so so sorry. Its just that…when I was a somebody…my father…a-abused me…and…and I became addicted to the pain…I started cutting myself…oneday…my mother found it…and confronted me with it…my…my father started beating me for taking his razor…and she got in the way…and he…he …he killed her Roxas. He killed her! *starts crying*
Roxas: but I didn't knowall of that axel! Because you didn't tell me untill now!…if you want this to worl…you have to let me in even if it hurts you…you cant hide these broken parts…because I need to see them! Like it or not thata the way it is…you have to love yourself before you can ever love me!
Axel: o-okay r-Roxas. Just please…come back. I-I cant live without you!
Roxas: okay…but…this is gonna take a while…if I find out you hurt yourself again…then I'm gone…
Axel:*practically glomps* o-okay. Just…just hold me, and…and never let go. Okay? Just…don't let go. *quietly cry's into his chest*
Roxas: I love you…*wraps arms around him tightly*
Axel: I love you so much! *squeezes* I'm sorry, I'm sorry, so so so very sorry. *continue to cry*
Roxas: its okay axel…I forgive you…I'm sorry about your mom…
Axel: she died…because she cared. I miss her Roxas…I wish she was here, so I could apologize. She-she was the only one that cared!
Roxas: well now you have a lot of people who care about you…I think she would be proud…
Axel: I hope so…*snuggles into his chest* my-my father was killed by the heartless…sometimes when I fight them…I wonder if that one is him…
Roxas: well I'm sure one day…you will get him!
Axel:*smiles* now you know why I love heartless hunting! Ha ha…r-Roxas…we need to go threw my room…and …were gunna need some help…theres a lot of things in there…
Roxas: like what?
Axel: ummm…razors, scissors, compasses, exacto knives, needles, pocket knives, other knives… umm…and I am posative…there are more…and were going to need help.
Roxas: okay…who would you like to help?
Axel: z-Zexion…he's the only other one that knows…*gets up and wobles from light headedness and Roxas steadys him* I…come on…
Roxas: where is he…will we have to watch him around that stuff?
Axel: uh…I don't think so. Im pretty sure it was just a momentary laps of judgment that's all…*Roxas makes a portal to hallway in front of axels door* hmmm…I wonder where he is…
Zexion: DEMYX! I cant kill myself with a banana so please just let me eat! Oh hi axel, Roxas…is everything…okay here?
Axel: eveythings awesome…demyx im back now so go do something else!
Demyx: he was gunna kill himself!
Axel: bananas cant kill you…unless you have MAIDs! that's right demyx, run from the banana!
Zexion: thanks! Glad things are okay now…sorry but…you are kinda stuck with me now…
Axel: yeah…that's the plan…we need to go through my room…so im not tempted.
Zexion: okay that's a good step.
Axel: y-yeah…I suppose so…*squizes Roxas's hand* lets just…get it over with…
Roxas: allow me. *opens door for everyone*
Zexion: axel you tell us where you hid them and we'll get them…
Axel:…...
Roxas: axel…
Axel: …theres a box under the bed…and some in the dresser drawers…and desk…and bathroom…uh…..I know theres more….
Zexion: I'll get the bathroom…
Roxas: ill look in the dresser…*turns*
Axel: *sitting in the middle of the floor touching the locket Roxas gave him* thanks…you guys…for everything…
Zexion: this is what friends are for…
Axel: ye-yeah…*pulls out box from under bed* take it! I don't want to touch it anymore!
Roxas: *grabs box* good to here.
Zexion: ahh!
Axel: ahh! What?
Roxas: *flings open door*
Zexion: oh sorry…its…um…I found a box of needles…and well…I…
Roxas: let me take that…*takes small box*
Axel: umm…there might be some harmful… "toys" to…..*gos to closet and pics up small box" *pulls out something that looks like a belt mad of rings and fish hooks* this…this is called a cilice…they were originally used in religions to "abstain" from sex…this one had many other purposes…
Zexion: heh nice vocabulary lesson. Roxas…take this while your at it. *hands him large knife*
Roxas: *throws it in one big box* alright.
Axel: …there might be something I stuck under the floor boards…but I don't remember…
Zexion: *pulls up boards* hmm…some blades, peroxide, a knife, …more needles…
Axel: *starts sweeting* I-is it hot in here? *takes off shirt* normally I wouldn't mind…but…its just so…hot!
Roxas: it must be from us taking his cutting equipment…
Zexion: most likely…Roxas get rid of that stuff before he changes his mind!
Roxas: im doing it im doing it…ill be back…look for more stuff while im gone. *leaves*
Axel: *breathing heavy* I don't need it, I don't need it…
Zexion: *finds about ten more packs of blades* okay I think I've got them all…
Axel: *sitting in the courner mumbling to himself* axel seriously man you don't need them! Got it memorized?
But I do, they are life savers!
How. Seriously dude? What's your problem?
I don't know…at least I don't throw up at night when I cut! I don't like throwing up…no…
I've heard you throw up so often…
No that was you!
Zexion: AXEL! Calm down!
Axel: I…*shivers* I'm a little freaked….I…I feel sick…
Zexion: you'll be okay…I promise you are going to be fine!
Axel: are you sure? I just…feel…different.
Roxas: im back…axel wh-whats wrong baby! *huggs him*
Axel: *sweating* I feel sick Roxas…
Roxas: your fine, just feeling the change…you never did like change.
Zexion: perhaps I should leave now?
Axel: ….change…your right…
Roxas: you cant. You are on suicide watch…sadly…
Axel: b-besides…I don't want you to leave…
Roxas: huh?
Axel: when…when your hurting…you want to be surrounded by your best friends. Right?
Roxas: y-yeah your right…
Zexion: okay…then I'll stay. Axel…maybe it would be best for you to get outside…get some fresh air…or at least out of the castle for a little bit…
Axel: okay…were should we go?
Roxas: well…theres twilight town…atlantica…wonderland…Halloween town, theres so many places!
Axel: Zexion. You choose. I don't know were to go.
Zexion: I would like some tea…wonderland?
Axel: alright lets go! *gets up and grabs a random shirt off the floor*
Roxas: *watches as he puts it on but doesn't say anything*
Axel: I know your looking…*looks at him* its okay…its over now…
Zexion: *opens portal* are we ready? Oh wait one secnd…I want to blend in *snaps fingwers and is wereing dandy outfit namine got him*
Axel: nice! *looks down at red and black button down* well…I couldn't care less!
Roxas: hmm…well lets go! *walks through portal*
Axel: just what I needed! A wacky please that has no ruled! Yes!
Zexion: *is upside down* hmm I think the garden is this way…*walks down wall and to the right*
Axel: *fallows* ive never had tea before…
Roxas: tea is good for you! Very relaxing!
Axel: that would be nice…*continues walking*
Roxas: hey! Cheer up! You wont be walking around hurt anymore!
Axel: y-yeah I guess…*smiles* besides the peroxide gives me a head ach…
Roxas: yep…oh look a bunny!
Zexion: good afternoon sir…
White rabbit: can't talk im late!
Zexion: your always late…
Axel: awe he is cute! 3
Roxas: ^.^ that little guy is always late!
Axel: oh that cat is the coolest cat I have ever seen!
Roxas: good day Cheshire cat!
Cheshire cat: good morning goodday…it cannot say. Good evening goodnight…beware it will bite!
Zexion: mosquito…
Axel: *grin* I want one!
Roxas: we arent allowed to have pets…
Axel: Zexion has a cat!
Roxas: only the original six can have pets…
Axel: ppffftttt like I care! Mansex can kiss my-
*ahem*
Cheshire: very good you are correct! The garden is to your left!
Zexion: thank you *bows*
Axel: thanks *quickly catches up to Zexion* Zexion, you seem so curt.
Roxas: *being dragged behind axel happily*
Zexion: don't let your guard down…the answer wasn't mosquito…
Axel: …well then why did you say mosquito?
Roxas: im confused!
Axel: what was the answer…..
Zexion: *stops walking* …jabberwocky…if I had answers correctly we would be heading right to it…
Axel: hh whats a jabberwhatsamahocky?
Roxas: your dumb…
Axel: that wasn't very nice, now say your sorry
Roxas: why?
Axel: *sigh* whatever…anyway…were are we going then?
Zexion: to the garden of course…he wasn't lying to us that much I know. Annnd here we are…*pushes open gate* just in time too…
Axel: hmmm…mad hatter and the march hair. I hurd about these two…
Roxas: be careful…there mad!
Axel: like im not?
Roxas: *blushes* y-your not mad!
Axel: riiight. Someone who likes pain and starts a conversation with themselves isn't mad by any means…
Hare: good thing you arent late! Now how much would you like?
Axel: a lot…because a lot is good!
Roxas: huh?
Hatter and hare: very good! Is it your un birthday?
Zexion: it is the biggest ones un-birthday! *points to axel*
Axel: un-birthday? Well…its not my birthday, so I guess that means yes!
Roxas: *smirk* I know what happens next!
Axel: as long as im not spanked 20 times ill be good *shifty eyes*
*they start singing and flinging tea everywhere*
Axel: ahaha! We need to come here more often!
Roxas: h-hatter, may I have some tea?
Hatter: sure how about half a cup?
Roxas: okay! *watches in horror as they cut the cup in half* it-its still in there!
Axel: *smirk* you have to start thinking outside the box! Z-sexy you seem awfully quiet…
Zexion: oh sorry…im just watching you two…one cup please hatter!
*is handed cup*
Axel: is that a crumpet? *looks a little over and sees a knife* *hand twitches but refrains from taking it* I don't need it, I don't need it…*sips tea*
Roxas: *talking rapidly with the hare*
Axel: *averts eyes from the table*
Zexion: axel…whats wrong?
Axel: n-nothing…n-not a thing. *hand twitch* *looks at knife again and stands up, leaning against a tree* nothing…nothing…I don't….need it…no.
Zexion: thank you for the tea but we must be going now…Roxas *motions for him to fallow*
Roxas: b-but!*looks at axel* alright by guys!
Axel: *twitch* that was…the hardest thing I have ever done…
Zexion: I'm proud of you
Axel: t-that's the first time anyone's said that…
Roxas: what about your mom, axel?
Axel: I cant expect my mother to do everything now can I? *sad smile* you guys, I could feel it, imagine it! The smooth blade running acrous my skin, the slight sting, and the drip drip of the blood droping…I…it…*sigh*
Zexion: well im glad you were able to walk away…no matter how hard it was…
Axel: *closes his eyes* b-but whos to say ill be that strong next time? *tear* I don't want to lose you guys over something so pathetic.
Roxas: your strong! don't say that!
Axel: but its true! *slams fist against a tree* a human will isn't strong let alone someone who isn't supposed to exist!
Zexion:… ive seen you oversome hardships before…I know that you can do this *encouraging smile*
Axel: *colapses agains a tree and looks overwhelmed*
Roxas: axel, you've beaten many odds. You helped Zexion, me, demyx…probably all of the organization at one time or another…think about your childhood. Now how hard was that?
Axel: that was when someone was beating me at ;east 4 times a week…not to mention all of this! *shows wrists*
Zexion: axel, we need you! None of us want to see you hurt anymore…you've xome too fare to give up now!
Axel: *shaking slightly* to fare…deffinatly to fare…I-ill try. I promise you guys! N-no more. *shakes his head and gets up* now…lets go home.
Roxas: *holds his hand* is okay axel, we are here so if you ever feel like c-cutting, then find one of us and vent!
Zexion: you can come to me for anything…except for one thing…then go to Roxas…
Axel: pppffftttt! *starts laughing*
Roxas: whats so funny!
Axel: n-nothing…inside joke that's all…
Roxas: *summons portal* I don't get it…what would you go to Zexion for that Zexion doesn't want! *utterly confused*
Zexion: oh dear…think Roxas think…
Roxas: *light bulb* ohm…but why wouldn't you want that?
Axel: *laughing so hard he falls to the castle ground*
Zexion: because I'm not bi Roxas! I have a girlfriend!
Roxas: that doesn't mean anything. It still works similarly…if axel ever let you be on top! *glares at axel*
Axel: *laughing so hard he cant breath*
Zexion: oh my god! Why does everyone act like im not straight?
Axel: *says between laughs* cause…everyone…is…atleast…bi…here!
Roxas: he has a point…but yeah! Not to mention je's really good at it! *blushes*
Axel: thank you for the complement! *gets off floor and kisses neck and mumbles something that makes Roxas blush even more*
Zexion: I really wish I could go back to my room…
Demyx: *running down hallway with scissors*
Axel: d-demyx you cant do that! *intersepts him and takes his scissors* you cant run with these! They could hurt you really bad! Im going to take these until firther notice.
Demyx: b-but I need them!
Axel: no buts! How will you learn?
Demyx: fine! Ill find OTHER scissors! *runs in random direction*
Zexion: good job axel im proud of you!…again! *grabs scissors* and now I will take these away from you…
Roxas: and I will take them from you! *takes scissors* since I am the only one here who has not trys to do anything, I will be keeping them!
Axel: *surprised* you know….*thinks about grabbing them but stops, walks down hallway, and sits in front of his door*
Zexion: Axel? Whats going on?
Axel: *staring at bricks across hall* seen it…felt it…was so close to it…and yet…was pluked right out of my hand, then, almost get it back…the strongest, but most timey part held me back…it was even weaker then last time….
Zexion: maybe you should get some sleep…
Axel: *shakes head no* when I sleep, I dream, and when I dream, I dream of him, and when I wake, I think of her, and when I think of her, I think of razors. And….*stops talking*
Roxas:…but you have to sleep some time.
Axel: *looks so child like* what if I told you…im afraid to go to sleep.
Zexion: then Roxas will stay with you…
Axel: *shakes head no again* it…it doesn't matter! It…still happened!
Roxas: well then what do you sugest?
Axel: I…don't know…*looks down* I guess we can try this. *opens door*
Xigbar: why hello there Axel…I see you done the hard part for me! *grabs Roxas by his coat collar and pulls him away* I told you what would happen!
Axel: NO! *grabs the back of Xigbar's coat* you will not take him from me! I already almost lost him once today, I don't need to deal with with that a second time!
Roxas: *whimpering*
Zexion: if you need someone that bad Xigbar then take me!
Xigbar: how noble! Sacrafice yourself to save a friend! And as I remember it…axel cares quite a bit for you too…*tightens grip on Roxas*
Axel: step back Zexion! Xigbar this is my fault, so punish me! You must think that everything is so great for me? don't you Xigbar? That everything is fan-freaken-tastic! Well your wrong, of course your always wrong! Does that brain even work in there you sadistic, pedo, rapest!
Roxas: not…helping. *startss being choked by the collar of his coat*
Xigbar: you dare insult me! Remember who has your lover in a death grip!
Zexion: axel let me help!
Axel: h-he'll just take you both! *starts un-buttoning shirt* Xigbar you don't know what I deal with…*takes off shirt* im physically addicted to pain. What I did was get a fix. It was never supposed to involve others. Now please *sobbing breath* let Roxas go…I-I need him.
Xigbar: maybe you should have thought of that sooner!
Zexion: Xigbar listen to him please!
Xigbar: *looks at all the scaring* FINE! Think before you act Axel! Or you'll wind up hurting someone close to you! *points to Roxas*
Axel: *colapses on the floor next to Roxas hugging him and starts to cry* s-see wh-why I didn't want you I-involved!
Roxas: *hugging him* its okay…I-im fine…were fine…*glaring at Xigbar*
Xigbar: oh really *evil smirk* *shoots Roxas through shoulder* now Axel…you can experience the pain he felt…seeing you like this. *warps away*
Axel: R-ROXAS! *lays him down on the floor and tears of his shirt and sees wound* I-he…I…Zexion? W-what do I do?
Roxas: A-Axel! I-it hurts!
Zexion: put pressure on it! Axel put your coat on! I'm getting Vexen!
Axel: o-okay! *puts pressure on it*
Roxas: ah! Aaaahhhhh! Th-that hurts even more!
Axel: I-I know j-just relax please! Just…
*portals to Vexen's lab and comes back quickly*
Zexion: please help Vexen!
Vexen: what is it this time 6! *sees Roxas on the floor* oh dear…what happened? *ignores axel and throws him to the side and examens Roxas* this is a very deep injury…luckily it went right threw so I don't have to dig anything out…
Axel: * sits in courner* I-its all my fault! *starts crying* I hurt everyone I care about…
Zexion: *puts a comforting hand on his shoulder* it isn't you! Xigbar is just crazy…
Axel: I-if it wasn't for me it wouldn't have happened! Tell Roxas…im sorry…*gets up and runs out of room*
Wait axel! Roxas…what do I do?
Roxas: g-go after him! He probably went to twilight town! Ah…ah ow!
Vexen: im sorry, I cant fix you unless you get the anesthetic…
Roxas: potion?
Vexen: I don't have one and neither does Zexion so put up with it!
Zexion: *portals to twilight town* Axel? Where are you?
Axel: *screaming from train station* im going to kill you once and for all…DAD!
Zexion: AXEL! Are you…holy crap what is that thing! *looks and sees enormous heartless*
Axel: its my father! *throws chakrum* wanna know how I know? *dodges* it walked up to me! *ducks* looked into my eyes! *fire blast* and ran its claws along my face! *scrapped along abdominal region by heartless* *grabs spot* he just…wont give in! *pant pant*
Zexion: please axel let me help!
Axel: no this is my fight! *knocked against wall* j-just like old times huh old man? *gets up* except…this time I wont let you win! *throws flaming chakrum and damages it severely*
*flash back sequence*
*when his father allowed teachers to beat him*
*numerous beatings he received from him*
*being locked in a closet for three days*
*when he started cutting*
*when his father beat up his best friend*
*numerous abusive relationships*
*when his mother died*
*when his father became a heartless*
*when his father took his heart*
You…stole my heart! NOW. GIVE. IT. BACK! *decapitates heartless* *collapses on ground breathing heavy*
Zexion: *runs to axel* y-you beat him? Right?
Axel: *pant pant* I…think hes done… *cringes* my s-side…it…look! *puts hand to side and it comes up dripping with blood* p-pressure…it…h-hurts! And…not like…before…*shadow creeps up behind them*
Zexion: uh oh…look out! *pushes axel out of the way but…*
Axel: ahh! *thrown back against wall* I hate you bastard! *gets up shakily* and goes into a fighting stance* ill kill you, if it's the last thing I DO!
*heartless turns and looks at Zexion, not viewing axel as a threat*
Zexion: *eyes get wide* *summons lexicon but isn't fast enough…the heartless hits him and he goes flying*
Axel: t-that is the last time you hurt one of my friends! *snaps fingers and heartless goes up in flames* *walks unsteadily to Zexion and collapses on his knees* z-Zexion. Are you okay? *holds side and winces*
Zexion: *nods* yeah…im fine…are you…gunna be okay?
Axel: *shrugs shoulders and winces again* he…is the reason…not me…its his…fault. Im gunna quote you okay? D-don't let my head his the ground. *faints*
Zexion: *catches him* heh…you'll need the rest…but we need to get you some help…*portals to vexens lab*
Vexen: why do you two always…*looks at Zexion trying to drag axel in there* what…the…heck…happened…here! *takes axel from Zexion with unknown strength and places him on cold lab table*
Zexion: it's a long story…and id rather not go into detail…
Vexen: fine fine. *looks at the three scratches on his face* he would kill me if those left scares…*quickly puts a small amount of the portion he has left on them, they quickly disappear* Zexion. Take of that raggedy, blood stained shirt will you…I have a feeling he is going to need stitches…*gathers stuff*
Zexion: wait Vexen…don't- *Vexen sees the scares*
Vexen: what did this one do? There are so many!1 *eyes drawn to one long bleeding wound* ill talk to you both later…Zexion clean this while I get the anesthetics…I'm going to need more…
*axel starts shaking , hot skin on freezing table*
Zexion: *starts cleaning*…im sorry…axel…
*puts a few towels under him to keep him warm*
Axel: *mumbles* it…isn't your fault…*opens one eye and looks at him and cringes at his wound*
Zexion: *sniffle* but…now Vexen…he knows…
Axel: everyone…is going to find out eventually. So…its fine.
Vexen: axel, your awake. You are definitely going to need stitches so if you will comply I wont have to test on you…*looks at scares* I promised I would talk to you two later…*sticks him with anesthetic*
….spaces out till he is done…
Vexen: 86 stitches you needed!
Axel: am i supposed to be proud? *says with eyes closed*
Zexion: well…its quite impressive…*sad smile*
Axel: only me! Haha! *sits up and winces* that anesthetic is wearing off…
Vexen: yes it is, but it seems you are quite used to cuts.
Axel; n-not exactly!
Vexen: *looks at him again* how many?
Axel: huh?
Vexen: how many cuts?
Axel:….I stopped counting…. But last time I counted over 80…
Vexen: how long?
Axel: before I was a somebody.
Vexen: why?
Axel: *starts tearing up and wont answer his question*
Zexion: Vexen I think that's enough questions for now…
Vexen: fine fine…now please escort him to his room, Roxas is waiting for him there
Axel: *turns to Zexion* w-whats Roxas going to say! What if he thinks, I did it! What if…*starts hyperventilating*
Zexion: don't panic! I will explain everything to him…it'll be okay!
Axel: *frantic eyes* a-are you sure? *hops off table and falls on the floor* stupid gravity! *holds stitching*
Zexion: jeez axel you have to be more careful…you could have ripped a stitch or ten!
Axel: *gets up* I feel light headed…and dizzy…*wobbles*
Vexen: you lost a lot of blood…
Axel: Zexion will you help me to my room please?...
Zexion: *pulls axel's arm over his shoulder* okay you ready?
Axel: y-yeah lets go…*starts walking to room* thanks…for everything zexion.
Zexion: it's the least I can do…you saved my life…
Axel: a-and you saved mine. Well I guess that's what friends are for…*smiles*
Zexion: yup…oh…we-re at your room…*pushes door open*
Roxas: axel your-wh-why are you bandaged? Axel how could you! *gets up*
Axel: its not what you think!
Zexion: Roxas! He isn't lying sit down and ill explain everything!
Roxas: *sits down quietly*
Axel: I didn't do this purposely, when I went to twilight town, I got into a fight….
Zexion: he found the one heartless that was looking for him too…
Axel: m-my dad.
Roxas: how did you know?
Axel: he…he just…slapped me in the face…with his claws….
Roxas: where's the marks? *looks skeptical*
Zexion: Vexen used a potion…..
Roxas: I thought he didn't have one!
Axel: I don't know…I was out cold…
Roxas: *sigh* so that's why…*hugs axel* I'm sorry…it must have hurt you to kill him.
Axel: you have no idea.
Zexion: *trys to leave again*
Roxas; don't worry Zexion…were not going to do anything.
Axel: are you sure! *smirks*
Roxas: yeah, even if you were on bottom youd get hurt! …no your not!
Axel: *sigh* fine! *rests head against wall* you guys…are my best friends…
Zexion: well…you know…I try…*awkward*
Axel: get over here! *pulls his hand and has him sit down and hugs him*
Roxas: now now your suffocating him!
Axel: am not! * lets go*
Zexion: heh, just a bit.
Axel: you know you like it! Roxas do you wanna make a sandwich…with a creamy
Zexion filling?
Roxas; yeah, but you'd get hurt cause of that! *points to bandages*
Axel: ooohhhhh ignore them!
Zexion: NO! NO ZEXION SANDWICHES PLEASE!
Axel: *pout* th-then how's about an Axel sandwich?
Roxas: I'm down for that! *hugs him from the left side*
Zexion: eh…I don't know…
Axel: *pouts even more* ! *stretches out right arm*
Roxas: its just a hug Zexion, were not gunna do anything!
Axel: I promise I wont do anything. Cross my non-existent heart! *snicker*
Zexion: *hesitates* fine…*gets awkwardly into hug*
Axel: *squeezes* I feel…so loved!
Roxas: *snuggles into axels arm* I love hugs.
Axel: *closes eyes* everything feels so much better now….
Zexion: your keys are digging into my side though…*giggles*
Axel: keys? Since when do I have keys? *scrunches up face* oh my god! *blushes and limp/runs into bathroom*
Roxas: did we just…..
Zexion: um…I was kidding…
Roxas: ummm…..then I'm not telling you what just happened…
Axel: *comes out all red* ignore…what just happened….*sits in desk chair*
Zexion: did you just…
Axel: n-no I did not!
Roxas: *laughing in corner* oh…my…god! Ahahahahahahaha!
Axel: *blushes madly* I-I don't know what your *gulp* talking about!
Zexion: *blushes a bit* …well this has been awkward enough…
Axel: w-well…uh…*so embarrassed he cant form a complete sentence*
Roxas: happens to the best of us axel!
Axel: *shakes his head no*
Roxas: we all need to get some sleep…there's an organization meeting tomorrow…specifically the kind when Vexen goes on and on about all of the injuries…
Zexion: oh no that's tomorrow?
Roxas: *sadly shakes his head yes* and you know what's going to be fresh on his mind…*looks at axel, then back at Zexion* you guys are going to be looked at by the whole organization…so…you gotta be ready.
Axel: *closes eyes tightly as if in pain, holding side* I don't…need to deal with his crap!
Zexion: I have to…*sigh* well I'm going to bed…I have vexen watching me tonight…
Axel: im sorry…see you tomarrow sexy.
Roxas: yeah see you then.
*closes door*
Roxas: axel, come get in bed, you need your sleep.
Axel: *sigh* *gets in bed and sleeps*
…wakes up next day to someone pounding on the door…
Larxene: hey! Get up! Vexen is yelling at me because you arent at the meeting! Get your lazy but up!
Axel: *throws open door, not wearing a coat* tell him…he can kiss my-
Roxas: haaayyyyyyyyy! Axel, put this on and we will leave 'kay baby? *hands him coat*
Axel: *sigh* im not looking forward to this…at all….*puts on coat very slowly*
Larxene: Jeez what happened to you? You look like you lost a fight!
Zexion: actually he won…number 12 please go to the meeting and tell vexen we will be there shortly.
Larxene: make me!
Zexion: as your superior I order you to do so…
Larxene: *walks away in anger*
Axel: thanks Zexy…a-are you ready to be stared at like circus freaks?
Roxas: ohm its not going to be that bad….oh I was supposed to meet up with xion…*kisses axels cheek and warps away*
Zexion: *sigh* this is going to be a heap of fun…
Axel: well…lets go…
*Zexion summons portal*
Vexen: nice of you to join us number 8!
Axel: can it vexen!
Zexion: sorry about the delay vexen…carry on please.
Vexen: I was just getting to more recent events. Zexion is first. He didn't really have an injury, but has now been put on suicide watch. I will not go into detail because having everyone know is embarrassing enough.
Demyx: and I have MAIDs. And Xigbar gave them to me! *shakes head animatedly*
Vexen: there is no such thing as MAIDs…anyway…then we have axel here…*dramatic pause*
Axel: I got up out of bed for this!
Larxene: no surprize that one tries to kill himself *sniker* looks like he failed at that too…
Zexion: s-shut up…
Axel: hey leave him alone! *yells at Larxene*
Vexen: stop interrupting axel! Anyway. It has come to my attention that number 8 has been cutting himself…I didn't get to the why yet. All I know is it started before he became a nobody and has not ended.
Axel: *blush*I-its none of your business!
Xemnas: well…its starts with cutting then turns to suicise! Look at number 6! You are now under the close watch of number 4! it is his business!
Zexion: *twitches*
Axel: t- no! why should I mansex!
*everyone either gasps ir laughs*
Vexen: that is enough out of you! *grabs is collar* now I want to know everything! The whys and whats. And you cab tell everyone, and show them to!
Axel: make me!
Vexen: *smirl and throws him to the floor* now you start!
Axel: but *pleadingly at Xemnas* I don't…want to.
Xemnas: well you have to!
Zexion: sir! This is an outrageous punishment! What will publicly humiliating him accomplish?
Vexen: hopefully he wont do it again!
Axel: FINE! You want to know why! Ill tell you why! While you were addicted to slcohol I was addicted to pain! every chance my father got he beat me! And not just me, my friends and family to! I lived in constant pain, I would try to have abusive relationships, and soon that wasn't enough either. So soon I started cutting. My mother, the one good thing in my life, found a blade and confronted lea. He denied it. And when his dad walked in the room…he just beat him. His mother was sick of the abuse and got in the middle…he killed her. Right in frount of LEA!…eventually the heartless took over my planet, and turned my father into one. I bet you don't know how it feels to have one person tke everything away from you and destroy it have you? Well I have! *flings off coat and bandages* yesterday! I went to twilight town. Ashamed at what had become of me after Xigbar shot Roxas to prove a point. I fought a heartless yesterday…and I knew him previously…he was…my father. *suppresses a sob*
Marluxia: uou expect us to believe all that?
Larxene: what a load of…
Zexion: *throws something heavy at both of them* I'm really getting sick of your attitudes! Sit back and shut up!
Xion: axel…I'm so sorry…
Axel: I knew it was him…because he didn't try to sneak up on me…he got right in my face and clawed me leaving three cuts…and I knew that wasn't a characteristic of a heartless.
Vexen: so that's why you had them…
Axel: he caused this…*points to stitches*and…and I almost didn't win…I almost lost. *chokes back another sob* but I stopped…cutting…my friends helped me.*sad smile*
Vexen: well why did Xigbar shoot Roxas?
Xigbar: because I felt like it *sadistic smile*
Zexion: he said something about having axel feel the pain Roxas felt…but I don't know the rest of the story…
Axel:….I dropped off Zexion with Demyx…and went to pull a prank on Xigbar…I took his eye patch and egged him on until he shot out my kneecap. And I sorta egged him on untill he shot me in both my shoulders…again I frustrated him untill he threatened Roxas…it was my fault…and I'm sorry.
Vexen: I never seen any of those injuries!
Axel: uh…Zexion had a potion.
Zexion: I'm sorry Vexen but he needed help and I-
Vexen: you took the portion! I told you specifically not to take it!
Axel: hey! It was my fualt here! Not his!
Vexen: its always your fauls! My you have broad shoulders don't you? You think you could carry the world don't you?
Axel: no! take the blame were blame is due!
Vexen: you get on my very last nerve!
Axel: same here old man! Get a life and stop getting into my business!
Vexen: *grabs the front of his coat* maybe you need to be tought manners for your superior! *squizes his side*
Axel: mnyaahhh! *groans*
Zexion: VEXEN! This was my fault! I should have come to you first! ;eave axel alone! You are being to hard on him! *makes a portal* we need to talk, meeting is over! *walks through portal*
Vexen: what is it, Zexion?
Zexion: you just embarrassed us both in front of everyone!
Vexen: everyone would have found out about you eventually, because most of them would have watched you!
Zexion: that's not the pint…why were you so cruel to Axel?
Vexen: he killed me Zexion! What am I supposed to do? Frolic with him in a field of flowers? PLEASE!
Zexion: he killed me to…in a way that was incredibly painful…
Vexen: then what the hell is wrong with you? Why do you consider him your friend? Its not as if he changed or anything!
Zexion: no he hasent . People don't change…we got to know each other better, before I really only knew his name.
Vexen: your so neive Zexion! If he killed you once, then he will kill you again! don't let his sob story fool you! Hes just as sick and twisted as he was before!
Zexion: I really thought…that you would believe me…I don't understand why you are so bullheaded?
Vexen: Zexion. Its really simple. I don't trust him with anyone, let alone you. He is the type of person that really gets under your skin, and burrows deeper and deeper until you have to snap at them.
Zexion: well I think you've snapped enough…*starts to walk away*
Vexen: *huff* grabs his wrist* fine…ill refrain from hurting him…or try my very hardest…*sounds sincere enough*
Zexion: thank you…I really appreciate it…
Vexen: your welcom Zexion…*goes to lab*
…in meeting room….
Axel: h-hi Xigbar…*pushes Roxas into a portal*
Xigbar: whats wrong axel…are you scared?
Axel: no im not scared…not for my self anyway…
Xigbar: awww that's a shame…your so cute when you're scared!
Axel: *blushes* so…your not mad anymore…
Xigbar: hm…I guess not…
Axel: I-im sorry…Xigbar…*holds side with his arm* I was being idiotic…
Xigbar: ha that's for sure…its okay though *switches to evil face* just don't ever do it again *back to normal face*
Axel: *cowers down and hurts side* ow ow ow! *holds unbandaged stitching*
Zexion: *comes through portal* Xigbar what did you do to him!
Xigbar: I didn't do anything!
Axel: its fine…just…hurts…*touches Xigbars shoulder* apparently he only likes being talked dirty to in the sack! *trying to be funny*
Zexion: this meeting is over, you are all dismissed! *everyone leaves*
Axel: well…that was a load of fun! *extreme sarcasm* *grabs coat but doesn't out it on*
Zexion: I have some pain killers, you want them?
Axel: *looks thankful* pleassssse! *smiles* your to nice to me…
Zexion: yeah I am…*hands him three pills*
Axel: thanks again *dry swallow* so…how was your talk with Vexen…?
Zexion: he's gonna give you a chance…I convinced him to lighten up…
Axel: *looks relieved* sometimes that man just…took things way to fare…*unconsciously covers stitching*
Zexion: well you did kill him you know…
Axel: *looks down* I did…and I killed you to…*sad eyes* I just wanted to see Roxas…one more time. Just once. I-im sorry!
Zexion: you know I feel that pain every night…
Axel: n-no I didn't…b-but I do now. *starts silently crying* I…you…shouldn't have forgiven me. Im not worth the forgiveness…*walks ahead of him*
Zexion: grabs his shoulder*…im glad I did…or I wouldn't have such a close friend.
Axel: t-thank you. *looks in his eyes* I…I don't know what to say…youv forgiven me so many times…
Zexion: you don't have to say anything.
Axel: …*hugs him* that's my way of not saying anything. *smile*
Zexion: decides to return hug*…would you life some hot chocolate?
Axel: only a lot! *hears clicks* are …you…serious! *smiles in direction of clicking*
Zexion: what the…Namine?
Namine: sorry but its to cute!
Axel: *face palm* I'm not cute! I'm manly and sexy!
Namine: yeah…sure…haha!…smile! *holds up camera*
Zexion: is that my camera?
Namine: yeah!
Axel: *snickers* why thought? You don't have fantasys do you? *slapped in the shoulder* I take that as a nooo! *smirk*
Namine: haha I just like taking Zeku's things!
Vexen: *Talking to Xemnas in a distance* well that's the problem…I didn't even get to cover that part!
Xemnas: you mean namine?
Vexen: yes! Im very concerned about her eating disorder…oh my…*sees axel, Zexion and namine* im so sorry…
Namine: *drops camera*
*breaks*
Axel: o-oh no…this isn't goos. N-namine whats going on?
Namine: n-nothing…
Zexion: *gently grabs her wrist* namine?…an…eating dosorder…what…
Naime: im sorry Zexion…*starts tearing up* im sorry! *runs away*
Axel: Zexion im so sorry…*looks in her direction* you have a few choices. Let her cool off or talk to her now…make that three…or a group meeting…what are they called?
Zexion: an intervention?…I cant do that to her…I didn't expect something like this…not from her…something is wrong…
Axel: well whatever it is you have to find out…we have to find out. Im not letting you go threw this alone. *puts comforting hand on shoulder*
Zexion: thanks…but…I don't think its me we need to worry about…
Axel: of course…but you look about to breakdown at any minut. So whats the plan schemer?
Zexion: *shaking breathing* I don't know…*starts crying*
Axel: oh…hey! *puts an arm around him on his good side* she will tell you. She might not tell you everything at first…but I think you so have to confront her about it…she should already know your there for her, but she might need to here it one more time to.
Zexion: th-thanks axel…I'll let her cool down…and talk to her in the mourning…she responds better to that approach…
Axel: good to know…wait I thought it was mourning…*looks at phone and sees he litterally slept all day* is it really 8 pm?
Zexion: yeah…you were asleep a long time…that's why Larxene was flipping out…
Axel: oh…im still tyred! So Zexy, who gets the pleasure of watching you tonight?
Zexion: L-Larxene…..I hope she doesn't take pictures of me…
Axel: tell her if she refrains from taking pictures we will make a Larxene sandwich…that should make her happy…
Zexion: I am not doing that!
Axel:Zexy! Its not as if you're the filling! She is! Fine…to save you from picture taking tell her I will give you one hug! But only one!
Zexion: I'll see…how it goes…goodnight…
Larxene: Zexion lets GO!
Axel: okay…and Zexion…try to sleep. Lord knows your going to need it.
Zexion: yeah that's for sure…..