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Lean on me

Satoshi strolled off the elevator. He was wearing his dark blue suit briefcase in hand. "Morning Brenda" he greeted his secretary as she got up and fallowed him into his office checking off what he had to do this morning.

"...And you have a meeting at three and you can't skip it this time Spectrum is coming and there pretty pissed you been blowing them off."

"There just going to tell me the same thing. Over and over and I don't want to promote there new project"

"It sure to be a big sell"

"Ah yes it will be for the first two years and it will cost twice as much for us to help developed it and get if off the ground. We will make no revenue on it."

Brenda crunched the numbers in her head "I can see where you see that. I could care less just deal with them. When your not here they complain to me and. There rich stuck up attitudes really piss me off. "

She put down her pen and paper and sat down at the edge of the desk. "Speaking of not being here. You've been leaving work early. Skipping out on meetings. Sometimes not coming to work at all. What is going on? I miss you….You got a boy friend didn't you? "She smirked.

"Oh how I wished. You know that guy I told you about the one I had lost touch with."

"The red head? The one you said you can't seem to get over?"

"Yah him well I met his son."

"Your in love with his son! Isn't that shooting a bit young for you?"

"Not the son. Through the son I met with him and now I'm baby sitting his son. While he works him self to death."

"Oh that's so cute you taking care of a kid is the kid cute?"

"Very, and he's smart."

"Aw! So how far have you gotten with the red head?"

" I haven't gotten anywhere he doesn't even know that I'm gay."

"What! What are you waiting for go get him"

"Well you see he's straight."

Brenda was about to yell something but in stead she said "Bummer."

"Tell me about it"

Neither one had spoke for a good minute then Satoshi asked "So what do you think I should say?"

"To who? The red head?"

"No to Spectrum"

"I think you should tell the to F off. Save me the paper work."

Satoshi smirked "I knew there was a reason I chose you over the other secretaries."

Little Satoshi was coloring his picture trying to stay in the lines but failing horribly. While Satoshi was sketching out the living room in his note pad.

"Did you ask Daddy to go the fair?" Asked the brunet.

"Um No it slipped my mind"

"Well it's ok you don't have to ask!"

"Ok?" Why did he reconsider all of the sudden?

They continued on there art work. Later on Little Satoshi told him to pick out a book while he did something. Satoshi obeyed when he had picked one he went looking for the boy. He passed by the bathroom and saw that the bathtub was filled to the very top with water and so was the sink. He went to the kitchen and found that the sink there was also filled. He called for the boy. He saw the boy bounce in to view.

"Yes!"

"Why did you fill up the bathtub and sinks with water?"

"So I won't get thirsty later"

Thirsty? Why wouldn't he just get a cup of water when he was thirsty. But then again this child has a fork in the fridge so he wasn't going to question it.

Satoshi closed the door of the boys room. He fell asleep early that night he must have been warn out after all the running they did at the park. Satoshi wander around the house waiting for Daisuke to come home. He began cleaning up. When he went into Daisuke's room to make his bed. He look at his desk. It was littered with opened envelopes and letters some scratch sheet of paper with number of adding and subtracting. Satoshi saw that Daisuke was figuring his bills and his paychecks. Form the math presented he still saw that he was short. He saw another Mortgage notice.

Satoshi balled his hand in fists. He hated these numbers .These numbers kept Daisuke form being with his son. They kept him working day in day out driving himself with little sleep.(He gets only about 3- 4 hours a day) He never saw Daisuke eat anything and there was hardly anything in the house. He understood now why little Satoshi filled the bathtub and sinks with water. They where just numbers how could they drive a person to drain themselves like this

Why did Daisuke never show any distress about it? He was even willing to pay him to watch his kid! Its like he had grown with a philosophy that you have to pay every one to do something for you. Or more like he should give something back for what they do. He was too giving. He care to much with making every one happy. What made his life go so south? Last time he remembered Daisuke had a wonderful job as a high paying manger of a small chain of art stores. Satoshi took the letters and got his coat. That he bought over a day ago. He pulled his tools began to fill them out.

When Daisuke reached home. Satoshi had put the letters in there envelopes and place them on the table by the front door. Daisuke saw them and asked "You brought in the mail?"

Satoshi sipped his coffee he had made for the house owner "No that's mail to go out."

"Mail to go out?" he filed through it.

"Hiawatri! these are my bills!"

"Yes I know."

Daisuke came in the other room and slapped the mail on the bar counter. And stood in front of Satoshi "These can't go out I haven't paid them yet!"

"I know that's why I paid them."

Daisuke's eyes went wide his jaw dropped "Hiawatri! Why did you do that! I'm fine. I getting my pay check this Monday!" He began to re-open the envelopes. Satoshi put a hand over Daisuke's which made him stop working on them he made the red head look at him straight in the eyes "By tomorrow you where going to have no electricity and no running water."

"We could of toughen it out! When done it before" he protested.

"Is that why Little Satoshi was filling up the bath tub and sinks with water today?"

Daisuke broke eye contact as his tone changed "…Yah he knows It's coming. He so sacred that we will run out of water and die. He's got this fear with dehydration or something. He dose this every time. We hardly use the water. I usually drop Satoshi off at my family's house while I just stay at work. I let him do it though. It makes him feel safer I guess."

Satoshi lifted his chin up to make eye contact "Why don't you ever say anything? Daisuke you can lean on me. You ask for my help"

"No I can't" he broke it once more.

"Why not?"

"I just can't" his voice cracked.

"Tell me"

"No"

"Niwa tell me why"

"Cause everyone who I lean on leaves me!" he cried. He stood there trying not to the tears fall. Some how he kept them back "….It's just so hard and I'm so tired"

Satoshi encircled Daisuke in embrace he felt upset red head was trembling. "Then lean on me. You don't have to brace it all by yourself anymore. Just ask for my help."

"I have already asked too much of you watching Satoshi and making me coffee."

Satoshi couldn't help but smile a bit when he said coffee part.

"I don't mind I'm happy to help you."

"I can't you'll see how weak I am and leave." Daisuke was battling with his tears once again.

"I won't leave you." Satoshi whispered. Daisuke gave up and buried his face in Satoshi's shirt and cried. Satoshi held him stroking his hair tiring to clam him. After a few minutes he began to sob out "I'm weak, I'm useless, I'm stupid, I'm a terrible father."

Satoshi's heart hurt with every word that came the crying man. "Your not. Your not any of those things"

"I am! If I wasn't weak I could bear this. If I was a good father I would be there for Satoshi instead of taking him to a daycare. If I was smart I could figure out how to get myself out of this mess."

"No your not any of them. Stop saying your worthless your not."

"If I'm not worthless then why dose everyone leave me! He cried harder.

"Your not worthless stop saying things like that your not worthless!"

It hurt to hear that he thought so low of him self. He began to grow angry that he couldn't see that he was indeed more worthy than most people. Satoshi took his face and made him look at him Daisuke eyes where puffy his cheeks where wet.

He rose his voice risking yelling at Daisuke to get his point across. "Your not weak. Your raising a son on your own and balancing two jobs. You're a good Father you can tell cause Little Satoshi is a good kid. Your smart that you figured out how to live in this life. Your not worth less. You where never worthless. That's why I won't leave you."

Daisuke searched along time in his eyes to make sure he was telling the truth. He closed his crimson eyes as the last tear ran down his face. He warped his arms around Satoshi's waist and rest his head on his chest and whispered "Thank you. Thank you for letting me lean on you" They stood there holding each other. Satoshi didn't dare move. Daisuke was hugging him. Hugging him back! He had always wanted this to be able to hold the red head like this. It seemed to be a dream but only better. Satoshi wished that he could freeze time. Cause he knew this was the closest the was ever going to get to Daisuke. This was his one perfect movement. "Hey Niwa?"

"Hmm?"

"Do you want to go to the fair with me?"