The Empty Void In The Aftermath
Asuka took in a deep breath letting it out slowly as she pulled the thin sheet over herself laying on her front watching as Mari lay back opposite her naked on the cover not really caring about how naked she was why was she here? She had no idea she came to the other girl's quarters once a week for this, it was silent sex no real talking and all about letting off steam. Yet she had no idea why she did it deep down maybe because she was lonely and it was covenant it was a friends with benefits relationship with no strings attacked which was never talked about to anyone. Yet recently she found that despite the sex she still felt shallow and empty and she had no idea why.
Mari she started humming some tune as she adjusted her glasses a sly smile forming as she eyed Asuka. "You know your being overly rouge tonight Princess." Asuka breathed in deeply as she spoke in a cold voice. "You don't care you love it so shut up and stop complaining four eyes." Mari pulled the cover over herself rolling towards her, her grin widening. "Yes I do but that not what I'm getting at it might be me but I think something is bothering you." Asuka eyed her not liking that she was picking up on this. "Yeah somethings bothering me but its none of your concern your not my agony aunt."
Mari's smile remained as she eased up her hand running it through the long loose red hair. "Is it that little puppy you're still thinking about him even three years on?" Asuka turned sharply. "I don't fucking care about him he ruined my left eye and ruined this fucking world when I see him again I'm going to hit him!" Mari leaned on her elbow. "It's okay to miss him though he was your friend, I have someone who I met a long time ago who I cared about." Asuka eyed her for a long moment. "Where is she now?"
Mari looked down sadly. "A place I can't go but I do hope one day we'll see each other again." Asuka raised her eyebrow. "You know I come here for sex not to hear about your life or your dead lover." Mari breathed in ignoring that, that comment hurt as she met Asuka's good eye the other was closed and had a large scar running through it. "You know what your problem is princess? You know how to have sex but you don't know how to make love."
She raised her finger. "I'm guessing lately you're still feeling empty even after our sessions and it's because you're not letting go with your heart and allowing yourself to feel." Asuka felt a sneer form. "We agreed no strings, no attachments and no relationship." Mari rolled back on to her back raising her hand. "Yes but there is more to sex than just sex and you can talk to people Asuka it doesn't change what it is but it makes it more wholesome and you won't go away and keep on wall crawling because your deeply unsatisfied."
Asuka eyed her for a long moment. "And how do you know so much about sex? You're not much older than me." Mari turned to meet her gaze as she spoke in a deeply serious voice. "You might one day know the answer to that question but not today Asuka." She paused. "So how's about you just take a leap of faith and kiss me with some form of emotion for a change." Asuka looked down slightly the uncertainty in her voice. "I don't know how."
Mari eased up her hand putting it under Asuka's chin raising her head as she spoke in a soft whisper. "I'll let you in on a little secret when I kiss you I just imagine the other person I loved and lost maybe you should imagine I'm some one you love and we can try this all over again but with more from your side." Asuka breathed in deeply as much as she hated to go with this maybe she should just listen maybe she could envision his face maybe it would help she leaned forward kissing Mari again feeling the response as it became more heated and she started to push Mari back only to be pushed in return but not as hard as the last time.
The kiss suddenly stopped as Mari pulled away patting her face a sly grin forming. "Much better princess, this time might actuality be emotionally for filling for you." Asuka felt a sneer form. "Oh shut up four eyes!" They were kissing again but with more feel and emotion and even if it was her opening a tiny crack in her hearts armour it was already feeling better, Mari was her friend a friend she sometimes loved to hate and who could be a pain in ass but she did trust her judgement and her instincts as if she didn't they would not be piloting together.
By Silvermoonlight
Based on rebuild and the idea that Mari is in fact way older than she looks and is waiting for Yui while Asuka is waiting for Shinji.