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~Cold Heart I Love~
~Going Back Home:
"Sesshomaru, I can carry my own bag." I say as I use my crutches to walk down the hallway. Kagome is out front getting the car while Sesshomaru is helping me get out of my room. They finally released me a few days after the incident and it's about 2:30 on Tuesday. I am so glad to get out, I want to run on out the door but Sesshomaru and the doctor made that nearly impossible.
"I can handle it." He says, his usual stubborn self. I scoff and roll my eyes but smile anyway. He's been with me since I've been at the hospital, always there when I need him, and sometimes even when I don't.
"Okay, fine…" I say as we walk out the doors. I see Kagome parked at the front and I go to get in only to have Sesshomaru help me. I sigh but look up at him anyway with a smile. "Thank you…" I say softly to him while Kagome puts my things in the back. "I'll see you at home?"
"Hnn…" He kisses my cheek and is gone. I shut the door and Kagome drives off, Sesshomaru not far behind us.
I catch Kagome looking at me and I sigh. "What?" I ask, drumming my fingers on my knee cast thing.
"Just surprised is all."
"At?"
"Everything."
"…Care to elaborate?"
"For starters, I'm surprised at you and Sesshomaru. I would've thought you'd pick Kohaku. Another thing is what you've been through and how it's something you're used to going through. The last thing is how you didn't tell me or my mom."
"Kags…it wasn't anything personal. I didn't share with anyone."
"Sesshomaru."
"He's…it's complicated. He found out; I didn't tell him. Okay, I told him but he found out first. I didn't want to get you or Aunt Mae involved in…all this."
"…Just promise you aren't hiding anything else."
I think about Ishi and feel slightly guilty but know that nothing can be down about that unless she is caught. Telling them won't do any good…
"Promise…" I say, a whisper of a whisper. She smiles and turns to radio on, and I let her as I look out the window to hide my guilt.
I open my eyes when I feel us stop and feel as if my heart stops as well as I spot a red car in the driveway that I would know a mile away.
"Hmm, I wonder who that is." Kagome says as she opens her door and gets out, grabbing my bag and coming to my side. She opens the door and looks at me. "Are you coming?"
"Um…yeah…yes, of course." I say, my voice sounding too quiet as I hope out and get my crutches situated as I slowly make my way to the door. I look over at Sesshomaru's house, willing him to come outside and yet willing him to stay inside as well.
I walk in the door and see Ishi sitting on the couch beside Aunt Mae and I instantly want to slink past her and go to my room, just like I would at home.
"Hello Rin, I hope you are feeling better." Aunt Mae calls to me, making Ishi turn around. "Is everything okay?"
I look at Ishi, into the dark red eyes that always remind me of burning coals, and fight the urge to run away.
"Yes Aunt Mae." I say, turning to her. "I feel much better, thank you for asking."
"It's such a shame all this happened to poor little Rin." Ishi says, turning back to Aunt Mae. "But I'm sure if I take her home, she'll be feeling so much better back in her home environment."
"Wait, she's leaving?" Kagome shrieks, entering from the kitchen with a tray of drinks and snacks.
"I feel Rin will be much happier at home where she belongs." Ishi says, turning her head to me that makes her dyed red hair flip slightly in its poofed up bob. "Why don't you go ahead and pack up and we'll leave, okay dear?"
My aunt would never call me dear, even if somebody held a gun to her head. I nod my head and head towards the stairs and up to my room. I take deep breathes as I begin packing up my suitcase with all my stuff, including new stuff I've gotten while here…the ticket stub from a movie me and Kagome saw…a bookmark I got from the book store…the dinner receipt from me and Sesshomaru's first date…our only date…
I brush my hair behind my ear as I sniffle through the tears and such I know are trying to break through but I refuse to let them fall-refuse to give her the satisfaction.
I throw the clothes in, barely making sure they're folded correctly. I work slowly though, as if my muscles refuse the mechanical motions of my mind, as if they're listening to my heart instead.
In what feels like forever, Kagome comes upstairs and knocks on the door as I zip up my suitcase with all my clothes. I go to get my carryon bag while she comes inside. I start putting away books while she shuts the door behind me and I turn around just as he hugs me.
"You can't leave…" She sobs out into my shoulder. I hug her back, tight.
"I have too…" I say softly, stroking her hair to try and calm her. "I'm so sorry Kags but I honestly don't really have a choice. I would stay if I could."
"And why can't you? All that bad stuff was because you were there."
"Kags…that kinda argument won't hold well since I was kidnapped while I was here." I say as I step away from her to continue my packing. She sits at the edge of my bed, still sniffling.
"That's so stupid."
"I don't make the rules."
"Does Sesshomaru know?"
I look at my phone on the vanity and sigh before continuing with the packing. "No."
"Shouldn't you go tell him?"
"…I don't want to." I admit. "I just got him and I don't want to let him go. I really like him and…I can't go back." I say the last part quietly, so quietly she's sure to have not heard it.
"Then stay here."
"Kags." I turn to her. "You and I both know I can't do that." I zip up my carryon bag with all my books and other extra items. "Can you help me with the suitcase? I gotta go talk to Sesshomaru."
"Of course." She says, grabbing the suitcase as we make our way down the stairs. She grabs the carryon from me and I slip out the back door and across the lawn to his yard.
I go through the gate and sit at the bench just as he appears.
"Who is in the red car?" He asks, sitting down beside me. A tear slips and I look up at him with a sad smile.
"It's time for me to go." I say quietly, grabbing his hand in both of mine. "I'm going to miss you so much Sesshomaru Takehashi. You have changed me and my life and…" I love you… "…and I'm so glad I met you and I'm always going to remember you. I'm not going to hold you to anything so if you want to see other people, you do that because long distance is very hard, I know."
"Rin, I do not-."
"You have my number so you can text me or call me whenever. Or I might call or text you when I need to talk to a friend…or when I need book advice or…or if I just missed you."
"Rin, you-."
"I need you to tell your father I had to go and that I won't be working there anymore. You can keep the money; I honestly don't care about that anymore. But I am keeping the books I took just because. Also, Kags has my bag of library books and I would love it if you could drop those off for me. You don't have to do anything else; Kags can tell all the others my goodbyes."
"Rin-."
"And I wanted to thank you again for all that you've done. I don't just mean saving my life. I mean everything you've done since the first day I met you forever ago. Please stay who you are no matter what but try to make a friend or two. I know you don't feel like you need friends but I really think communication with others is the key to good relationships and I'm sure you'll want to meet someone in the future. But don't let her be prettier than me or let it be Kagura."
"Rin." He says, keeping me from saying anything else. "You are not leaving."
"…Sesshomaru, we've been through this. You knew I was leaving… I knew I was leaving. It was wrong of me to get involved but I just really liked you…I still do actually which is why this is so hard for me."
"You are not going anywhere. You are staying with me."
"Sesshomaru, that is a bold suggestion and one I know will not go over well. Please just…just know that I'll miss you." I kiss his cheek and stand up with my crutches. "I'll never forget you…and I'll always have you in my heart."
I make my way to the gate, tears falling, when he catches up, standing in front of me. He puts a hand on my cheek, swiping away a tear.
"You shall always be in my heart." He says softly, his voice deep as he stares into my eyes, his golden eyes piercing. He places his other hand on my cheek and then kisses me. I drop the crutches and wrap my arms around his neck, standing on my tiptoes as my fingers braid themselves into the strands of his silver hair. It's soft and sweet and yet has passion rippling along under the surface. There's fire and electricity wherever his skin touches mine and I feel as if my emotions are a Tsunami washing over my entire body.
He lets me go and I look up into his eyes. "You make it so hard to say goodbye." I say quietly.
"Then don't say it." He says, still staring into my eyes.
"I have too. I wish I didn't but I have too." I feel a tear slip and I grab his wrists while his hands are still on my cheeks. "If you don't let me go now…I won't have the will to leave."
"Then don't go."
"If it were that simple, I would never leave this spot." I say quietly, pulling his hands away from my face and then holding them in my own, never looking away from his eyes. I kiss him quickly. "Goodbye Sesshomaru."
And then I grab my crutches and I'm gone, hobbling through the gate and in through the back door.
"There you are!" Ishi exclaims as if she actually missed me. "We should probably be going. I know you want to go home and rest."
She walks out the door and I walk to Aunt Mae. "Goodbye." I say, hugging her.
"Please don't ever change Rin." She whispers. "You're a beautiful girl who has a bright future ahead of you. I know your parents are proud."
I let her go and smile, trying not to cry as I hug Kagome again. "Bye Cuz."
"Text me. Keep in touch, okay?" She says, sobbing.
"Okay. Tell the gang for me, okay? Saying goodbye to Sesshomaru was too much and I can't go through with it again."
She nods and then I can't keep myself from getting in the car anymore. I sit in the passenger seat and wave to Kagome and Aunt Mae and watch as they disappear in the rearview mirror, trying to keep myself from looking for Sesshomaru.
"I can't believe you're the reason I had to leave my cruise early." Ishi growls. "And all because you got into some trouble. That's not my damn fault and none of my damn business."
I ignore her as I usually do and let the tears fall as I look out the window, already wishing I never left Sesshomaru's arms.
"Rin what's taking you so damn long?!" Ishi yells from the living room. I hobble into the living room with her beer.
"Sorry Ishi." I say politely. I give it to her and she rips it out of my grip and chugs it down.
"Sorry don't get me my damn beer." She growls as she watches the game. I walk back into the kitchen and finish the dishes when my phone buzzes in my sweatshirt pocket. I fish it out and smile when I see it says Sesshomaru.
"Hello?" I ask as I answer it.
"Rin." He says. He voice still makes butterflies appear in my stomach. I smile bigger as I look out the kitchen window as I absently put dishes in the dishwasher.
"Hey." I say. "How are you?"
"I am well. I trust you are too?"
I listen to my aunt and silently sneak out the back door and sigh into the night air. "Yep." I lie. "Everything is a-okay over here."
"I can tell you are lying."
"I'm not lying. Just…tired is all." I look out into the night sky and listen to the familiar and yet foreign noises of my old neighborhood. I hear rustling from behind the bush and look over quickly.
"How are your injuries?" Sesshomaru asks, pulling me from my investigation.
"They're healing, I suppose. Just glad I finally got out of that hospital." I say, thinking about all the needles and shuddering on the inside. I hear the rustle again and look over, fear pushing into my insides.
"Rin!" Ishi yells. "Get in here dammit!"
"Listen Sesshomaru, I have to go but I'll call you later, okay?" I say, already opening the door.
"Hnn." And then he's gone and I hold the phone to my chest before sticking it in my pocket and then walking inside to Ishi.
"Yes?" I ask and instantly regret coming to her when I see she has a man at the door.
"Watch the house, I'm going to the bar." She says, alcohol coming from her mouth.
"Are you sure you should be driving?" I ask.
"Oh just shut the fuck up." She says, heading down the hall. "Just need to get the keys." She says to her date.
He has dark hair and a beer gut but he is big and I step away instinctively.
"You're sure cute." He says, his voice deep and grisly and I can smell the alcohol from here. I say nothing. "Let's say you and me meet up for a party after me and Ishi get it on." I turn away from him and he grabs my wrist in a tight grip and I gasp out; it's my hurt wrist. "Hey bitch, I'm talking to you."
"I heard you." I say calmly, wrenching my wrist from his grip. "I just chose not to answer since they were nasty suggestions I would never even think about."
He goes to come at me but Ishi enters with the keys. He backs up and she gives me a glare as she exits. I lock the door behind her and turn the TV to a cartoon channel for background noise. I walk back into the kitchen and look out the window, squinting when I see a shadow cross the lawn. I instantly take out my phone and dial Sesshomaru's number, using his speed dial. He answers on the 2nd ring.
"Sesshomaru?" I ask, walking to make sure I locked the back door.
"Is something wrong Rin?" He asks. I walk back to the kitchen, flicking on lights as I go.
"Yeah just got a little freaked out…" I admit, knowing he can tell the fear in my voice.
"Should I come down? What is wrong? Is someone there?"
"No, nothing, and no. I just thought I saw something and so I called you. I'm sorry."
"It is fine. Are you sure you're okay?"
"Yes, I'm-." There's a thump on the front porch. "Sesshomaru?"
"I heard. I shall be there soon." He says. I hang up and hold the phone to my chest and slowly walk towards the front door. I look out through the small peep hole and see nothing. I spin around and walk into the living room, praying Sesshomaru will get here soon.
"Oh Rin." Someone calls from outside. I freeze, knowing that voice anywhere. "Come out, come out wherever you are."
Oh God, Oh God, Oh God….. I hyperventilate, dialing 911.
"Hello. This is 911, what's your emergency?" Some lady says on the other side of the line.
"Please, I need the police. There's some guy outside my house trying to break in and I think he's going to kill me. Please send them to 3445 13th Avenue. Please hurry; I think he has a weapon."
I hang up once I know they're coming and walk into the kitchen and look around, turning on all lights as I go when I look in the dishwasher, about to close it, when I notice the big knife is gone.
Didn't I just… I go to spin around when someone wraps an arm around my waist and puts and cool piece of metal to my neck—a knife.
"Scream and you'll suddenly wish you could breathe in to scream." A voice says in my ear; Koki. I sob out and suck in air to keep my neck away from the knife's edge.
"Koki…" I say. "Please don't do this."
"I gave you so much Rin. I made you popular; out of all the girls I picked you. I made you who you are, Rin. I am the reason you're the person you are."
"You mean you turned me into a girl who's terrified of everything and every person who ever shows her kindness because she's afraid they'll end up like you." I say, earning the pressure of his knife.
"I loved you."
"You call this love?" I say with a harsh laugh. "That's like calling murder just a little slap on the wrist. Or like calling an alcoholic somebody who drinks once a month. This is not love Koki and I am so sorry your sick and twisted mind thinks it is."
"You are going to wish you never said that." He pulls the knife closer and then suddenly, the knife is on the floor and he's against the wall with an angry Sesshomaru in front of him.
"Sesshomaru!" I say, coming to his side. He turns to me, his eyes red with blue pupils. "Sesshomaru, it's me, Rin. Please listen to me Sesshomaru, please. It's going to be okay, alright? I'm okay. I'm right here. Please Sesshomaru." I beg as I put my hands on the sides of his face. His eyes turn back to the golden honey they're meant to be and he drops an unconscious Koki to the ground.
I hug Sesshomaru, my arms around his neck and my face buried in his shoulder, and he hugs me back. "Sesshomaru…I owe you my life." I say quietly. "And in case this happens again…I just want to say…I think I love you."
"You have taken my heart." Sesshomaru says quietly in my ear. I kiss his cheek and rub his stripe with teary eyes.
"Please don't ever let me leave ever again." I say before putting my head on his shoulder again.
"Never…" He says, kissing the top of my head.
Then the police come busting in through the door.
"Yes, he did break in." I say. "The knife is mine but he stole it when I was calling you." I tell the cop as I lean against Sesshomaru. "He's the same guy from earlier, the one that already tried to kill me."
The cop writes this down as I stand next to Sesshomaru out on the porch when another cop car comes screeching towards us. He steps out and walks towards me.
"Rin Wakahisa?" He asks, his mustache moving with his mouth. I nod my head. "You are the niece of a Ishi Wakahisa?"
"Yes… Has something happened?" I ask, nervous.
"She's been arrested for DUI and then for running from the cops. This isn't her first mark so she's going to be put away for some time. I've contacted your social worker and I see you and Ms. Ishi have had some problems in the past."
"She's an abusive alcoholic." I say flatly. "And you need to keep her away."
"Oh we shall. I was told your social worker will contact you in the morning to help you find a place to stay." The cop says. I look up at Sesshomaru with a sad look, not wanting to be moved away again.
"Actually, me and the social worker have already come to the conclusion that she'll be staying with us." Says a voice that comes from the other side. I turn and see Aunt Mae with Kagome. "And she'll be staying there for the rest of her life."
"Aunt Mae!" I call, rushing into her arms. "You don't have to."
"Oh shut up Rin." Kagome says through a teary eyed smile. "You're moving in and that's that. Sesshomaru called us and it's already settled; now c'mon cuz, we gotta get you packed."
"Sesshomaru, I am so serious that I can carry this." I say through a huge yawn. "Just give it…I can take it to my room." It feels weird just saying this but I know I'll have to get used to my new home at some point. It is very early in the morning, the sun isn't even up, but my Aunt Mae and Kagome wasted no time moving my things into their car and into the moving van Sesshomaru called.
"You should sleep." Sesshomaru says as he carries another box past me and up the stairs to my room. Sota is at his friends and will probably know all about this later today. Aunt Mae and Kagome fell asleep, or I ordered them to sleep, about 10 minutes ago and they went out like a light.
"I can't…" I admit, looking at my blanket that's wrapped around me. Sesshomaru is at my side in seconds, his hand on my own. "It's just…hard, ya know? I mean, my whole world changed in a matter of a few days and I'm just so scared."
"I am here." Sesshomaru says. "It makes no sense to be scared." I smile at him.
"I usually don't make sense." I say quietly. I kiss his cheek. "I really do want to thank you. For…everything." I stand up and wobble slightly, making Sesshomaru grab me to support me and I smile with an uneasy laugh. "Still saving me…you got your hands full, don't you?" I look up at him and feel my heart beat accelerate, as it always does around him.
His silver hair is long, clashing with the purple moon on his forehead and the magenta stripes on his cheeks. His golden eyes sparkle from the light, revealing emotions I can see but I'm sure others can't. His body is built and strong, the demon in him clearly seen. His face holds no emotions except the quickest of smiles I catch because usually they're just for me.
"Indeed." He says, helping me towards the stairs.
"Oh no." I say. "I just…can't…not yet." I envision what happened the last time I was in there…and then what happened the last time I was alone. I know it can't happen again but….Kagura still hasn't been found or seen. I'm not taking any chances.
He looks at me for a moment…and then we're going out the back door, past the gate, and into his house. He carries me up to the library and then sets me down on the couch, my blanket still around me.
"Sesshomaru-." I go to protest but don't get far when he interrupts me.
"Sleep. I shall not move from your side." He says, sitting in the chair beside me with a book.
"…but don't you need to sleep?" I ask quietly, my curiosity slipping out slightly. He catches my eye with a slight smirk.
"No. I shall be fine."
I watch him for a moment as he reads, flipping the pages faster than I ever would. "Do you do everything with demon speed?"
I receive a wicked smile that hides deviousness and an answer that is coded for more than I was able to handle. "Not everything."
I blush and dig deeper into the covers, staring at the book shelves, my eyes just seeing spines and spines of those books he collects. "I see…" I finally say, knowing I should probably say something at least.
I feel myself drifting off, my mind clear and open, really only thinking about one thing…or should I say, one person. I don't know how I was lucky enough to find him or how I was blessed enough that he liked me back but…I am sure not expecting any refunds soon from the Universe and if the Universe is…I'm going to put up one hell of a fight.
I close my eyes and see nothing, my heart soaring from relief as I finally have a peaceful sleep.
I roll over and see a bright light piercing my eyes behind closed eye lids. I immediately squint them closed, hoping to make it disappear. I turn slightly and realize I have no idea where I am. I open my eyes and look around-books, chairs, table, piano, fireplace, Sesshomaru. SESSHOMARU?
Then I remember and sit up and look at him, pushing my messy hair out of the way and wiping my face to check for any drool signs or eye boogers-I'm clear.
"Hello…" I say quietly, not knowing if he is aware I am awake yet or not. He glances at me and nods then turns back to his book. I notice the pile at his side. "Did you stay and read the whole time?"
"Yes." He says, still looking at his book. I look around for some way to tell the time. "It is 1:23." He glances at his wristwatch again. "1:24."
"Ohmigod." I say, sitting up and going towards the door. Sesshomaru beats me to it and stands there, waiting for me to join him. Curse my slow human speed!
"Look, I'm sorry I kept you here all this time but technically it was your fault." I earn a raised eyebrow from him. "It is! You put me here and ordered me to sleep. It's not exactly my fault your scary presence is calming to me and so I fell asleep. It happens, okay? Now I must get home before Kagome and Aunt Mae send a search party."
"I have already told them that you are here and are safe." He says, stopping me in my tracks. I look up at him.
"What?"
"I told them that you are here."
"No, the last part…"
"That you are safe?"
"Yes….yes that part…"
"It is the truth." He says with a questioning glance. I try to keep the smile off my face and fail. So, I hug him, my arms wrapping around his waist.
"Yep…" I say, not really sure about what but knowing I'm saying it to something. Sesshomaru kisses the top of my head and my heart beats out of my chest it feels like and I blush, knowing he can hear it as well.
I close my eyes, letting myself enjoy the feeling of being here with him…for the rest of my life.