April's eyes fluttered open saw the most beautiful sigh next to her. Flashes of the previous night came to her mind as she looked to see the tangled sheets around her and Jackson. He was laying on his stomach, so she could see his muscled back which made her groan as she flopped back onto her back against her pillow. He was the most gorgeous man she had ever seen and was laying in her bed, which she would have never thought would happen. For a few moments, she laid there and thought about the night before. She had Jackson had given in and had sex…again. And it was really good – amazing even, but the guilt was really hitting her already.

"Mmm…good morning," Jackson said as he stirred.

She pulled the sheets closer around her body. "Morning…"

He turned on his side and looked at her. The combination of his beautiful eyes and sculpted chest was hard to resist this early in the morning as she had to avert her eyes.

"I should get ready…I have early rounds and um…a study session with Torres for my boards," she said, bumbling along with her words.

"Okay – we could shower," he suggested with a smile.

"Together?" she asked. They had showered together the last time they were together, right after Mark and Lexie's wedding, but she still felt insecure about Jackson seeing her naked.

"Yeah…it'll save us time," he offered.

"Okay," she agreed hesitantly as she got up with the sheet around her body.

Jackson got up completely naked and strode into her bathroom. He was so incredibly sexy and she couldn't help but watch him for a moment before walking in behind him. The water came on and Jackson slipped in, holding out his hand for her. After a deep breath, she dropped the sheet and came in the shower with him. Water cascaded over both of them as April placed her hands on his cheeks and kissed him soundly.

When their kiss broke, she looked at him as he stepped back to glance over her body. She blushed and fought the urge to cover herself. April had always been self-conscious of her body and knew that it came from years of being a virgin and being guilted about sex, her body, and sexuality in general.

"April…you are gorgeous," he said, touching her hip to draw her closer to him.

"Am I?" she asked seriously. No one but Jackson had ever seen her naked and she wanted to be sure that he was sure about what he was saying since he was so much more experienced than she was.

"You are the sexiest woman I've ever seen," he murmured as he kissed her neck, making her shiver.

"Jackson…I…we can't," she mumbled and bit her lip. "No…oh God…no condoms in here…"

"We can still fool around," he grinned, kissing her deeply as his lips touched hers. She didn't argue as her tongue slipped into his mouth.

A while later, cold water sent them retreating to her bedroom, laughing and shivering in their towels. April looked over at Jackson and smiled. She loved how they could have fun together and she felt comfortable with him, even with her usual insecurities.

"I think that's the first time I've ever used up all the hot water like that," she laughed as she went to find clean clothes, keeping the towel wrapped around her body.

"Always fun to do though," he replied with a smirk.

Rolling her eyes, April took her clothes and went to the bathroom to get dressed. She pulled her bra and panties on before her jeans, long-sleeved shirt, and a cute vest before stepping out. Her favorite pair of boots were right in her closet as she grabbed them to pull on, sitting down on the bed.

"Do you have a lot of surgeries today?" he asked, pulling a hoodie on.

"Um…I have two scheduled procedures from a few traumas that I saw weeks ago, before the trauma center closed…they're coming in for post-op procedures to finish some stuff," she replied. "What are you up to?"

"I'm meeting with Sloan, Lexie, Robbins, Shepherd, Yang, Meredith, and Robbins," he said nonchalantly.

"Wait…why?" she asked. "Those are all the plane crash survivors."

"I can't say yet, but I will tell you soon," he promised, making April even more confused as to what was happening.

"Oh…okay," she said as she went into the bathroom to dry her hair and throw it into a quick braid. "I'm going in for rounds. Do you want to ride with me?"

He nodded and they went toward the door of her apartment and down to her car. The ride to the hospital was pretty quiet as she thought about what she and Jackson had done last night and in the shower. It was wrong, immoral, and she felt so guilty about it because she was so weak when it came to Jackson. But her sister's words also came to mind. Why would God be angry with her for falling for someone He placed in her life? But maybe she was supposed to resist him and be strong about her commitment to God. Or maybe Jackson was meant to be in her life as something more?

"April?" Jackson's voice made her jump. "Are you okay?"

"Uh yeah…I was just thinking," she replied, realizing they were already at the hospital and she had just zoned out completely. "Sorry."

"It's okay – I'll see you later?" he asked as he was getting out.

"Yeah, later," she sighed, getting out as well.

Watching Jackson disappear to whatever meeting he was going to, April sighed and went to change into her scrubs. Since the ER was closed, she was mostly scrubbing in on general procedures that she could swipe from either Bailey or Meredith, but today she had her own scheduled procedures from previous patients to scrub in on. Grabbing a few residents and interns, she scrubbed in and began a bowel repair on an older gentleman. Surgery was cathartic for her as it brought her anxiety down and helped her focus a lot more.

"Dr. Kepner, if the hospital is bought out by Pegasus, what'll happen to the interns?" Shane Ross asked while she worked.

"Hold the retractor tighter, Dr. Ross," she instructed, ignoring his question for a moment.

When he did as she asked, she continued working on the surgery, focused on the patient and what she was doing.

"If the hospital is bought by Pegasus, it's likely that the teaching program will not exist any longer," she said honestly. "You will all likely have to transfer to other hospitals and programs."

"Is there any hope or should we just start looking?" Jo Wilson asked.

"You know the saying 'Hope for the best and prepare for the worst', right?" she asked. They all nodded. "No one wants to see this hospital close or lose our teaching program, but we are hurting in a bad way."

"Because the crash victims all bankrupted us," Jo snorted.

"They didn't ask to be on that plane that day," April defended. "They were just doing what they were told to do in order to care for patients that they were going to save in Boise." She knew the struggle each of the survivors went through and how they felt guilty that the payout they received had come from the hospital instead of the plane company as they originally thought it would. Lexie had told her that the plane company had shut down recently, so there were small victories there, but at the same time…they all felt guilty to take from the hospital that had given them all so much in their time there.

"We almost lost several amazing doctors and many of them were badly hurt. So this is not their fault and I don't ever want to hear any of you blaming them ever again."

April finished and left her third year resident to close up while she scrubbed out and went to one of the nurses' stations with the chart, telling the nurses what she wanted monitored for her patient post-op. Handing over the chart, she went to the cafeteria to grab something to eat since it was now after noon.

"April!" Jackson called from behind her as she turned to see him catching up with her with a smile.

"You look happy…good meeting?"

He surprised her by pulling her into an on-call room before shutting the door. April looked at him, confused for a moment as to what was happening.

"We can save the hospital from the Pegasus buyout," he said, grinning happily.

"Wh-what?! How?!" April was shocked, but happy as she realized there was hope.

"Everyone from the crash has put in their money – totaling about ninety million – and the Harper Avery Foundation is putting up the rest of the money," he explained.

"Oh my God!" she gasped. "What does that mean for the hospital?"

"It means the doors stay open, the hospital will have a new board – the doctors, and the trauma center will officially reopen," he replied, smiling. "But it does come with strings attached, like everything else."

"Oh…what are they?" April could imagine money like that would come with requirements.

He scratched his jaw and then his head a little. "The Foundation wants someone on the board that has their interests in mind…I was the one chosen because saving this hospital was my project."

"Jackson…what does that mean…?" She didn't dare breathe the words she was thinking right now, in fear that this was all some dream and that she would wake up from it any second now.

"It means that I'm moving back to Seattle," he finished.

"But you love Tulane…why would you give that up?" She knew from their conversations that he was so happy in New Orleans and his fellowship by how he talked about it.

"Because this hospital means a lot to me," he replied, giving her a small smile. "And it deserves to keep being a teaching hospital for the new generations of doctors to come through the doors."

She smiled a little. "You're coming back to Seattle…"

"Think I could get my old roommate back?" he asked.

"Well I do have a spare room…" she trailed off, smiling a little.

"It'll be like old times," he said, smiling.

"Yeah…just like old times."

April didn't want it to be like old times though. She wanted something more and realized it the moment she knew Jackson was coming back to Seattle. With the hospital doors staying open, she knew that it would be complicated for a while for both of them with the amount of work that needed to be done for the hospital to be up and running again, but she wanted to sit down and talk with Jackson about what they were…if they were anything. Because, to her, he was so much more than someone she just had sex with…even though it's what it was seeming like to her. He had been there for her, especially after the shooting when they lost Reed and Charles, but always as only her friend. The boards had changed all of that and she still didn't know where she stood. Not anymore at least. But Jackson coming home to Seattle would change things and she knew that she would be forced to face what was and wasn't part of their relationship, finally.

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