Upon request.

Dedicated to Ruevedette.

I AM YOURS

Akihito woke up in cold sweat. His eyes searched for the clock on the bedside table. 4:30. It was Sunday morning. He felt his heavy arms and legs cling to the bed sheets. He remembered. How amazing it had felt. And how awful. He felt Asami move beside his right arm. The tall man looked at him with expressionless eyes. As always, Akihito thought to himself. He sighed in relief, shaking away the weird dreams he could not remember. His body felt heavy. It took much more strength than usual to move his muscles.

Slowly, he crawled closer to the warm body of his lover. Asami pressed a tender kiss onto the sweaty forehead and closed his arms around his lover.

Akihito could feel his skin shiver with goosebumps. As he turned his body to the side he flinched in pain from his hips. He wasn´t surprised. He had known it would be painful all along.

The young man stared back into the golden eyes of his lover.

"How are you feeling?", he asked.

"Miserable, what did you think?", Akihito groused.

"You have a light fever. It was worse a few hours ago, so I guess it will be gone by the morning."

"Oh man, you fucked me unconscious and into a fever?"

Asami chuckled silently. Had Akihito had the strength to punch his lover, he would have. His arm wouldn´t let him do more than a grumpy bump on the man´s chest. Still, it stopped the smile on his face.

"I know what you did, Akihito."

"Do you? And did it work?"

"Yes. And it scares me that you know me that well. Better than I do."

"It scares you? You are scared? I thought the great Asami Ryuuichi didn´t know fear."

"You taught me."

"What?"

Akihito held his breath for a moment. This conversation was headed in a very strange direction.

"I´ve seen you hurt so many times. And you prove, on a regular basis, how well you know me. These are the two only things that scare the hell out of me."

If Akihito hadn´t been so sick and hurt he would probably have started crying. But his body wouldn´t be able to take that anymore.

"Asami, you never say things like that. You can never talk about your feelings openly. Why now?"

"You have been so honest and open yesterday, I feel in your dept. I don´t like owing people, and I despise owing you."

"Well, you owe me now, big time, for what you did to me yesterday. And last week. And the day before that."

"And I will make that all up to you as soon as your body can take it again. I promise."

With a kiss on Asami´s cheek that cost Akihito so much energy his body started to tremble slightly, the exhausted young man placed his head on Asami´s chest to hear that soothing heartbeat. In his head Akihito repeated again what Asami had said to him in his delirium at the hospital. He listened to the heart, knowing that it belonged to him, that he belonged to him. This heart was his greatest treasure and he would endure anything that might still come if only he could keep it forever.