The moment (Graduation)
Buffy (pov)
You never thought she would do that.
You truly never thought she would hurt one of you. Perhaps it was naïve from you. Perhaps you were losing your mind. But you truly never thought she would hurt one of you. You thought the slayer in her would stop her. But as you watch Angel go down in front of you it hits you.
You were wrong. She has hurt you.
You don't know at first if she intentionally missed the heart. For a while you believed that. That she wanted the Mayor to think she'd hurt you. But she missed, and a slayer rarely misses. But then it turns out it's poison and you know.
She did it to hurt you.
You never wonder if she knows there's a cure. Or what that cure is. You never think about the consequences of your actions. You have to save Angel. She is the one that took it this far.
She shot. You will stab.
Faith (pov)
You truly never thought it would come to this.
Even as she shows up in your apartment. Even as she says she'll kill you. You never thought she'd actually do it. She never had that in her. She was good. Pure good. You wanted to be like her. To feel like her. After you lost yourself you wanted to destroy her.
You're only distracted for a second.
But it's long enough to change both of you. The knife goes in without a second's pause. Your eyes meet and you both know. Neither one of you thought it would come this far. Neither one of you thought it would happen.
You take a step back.
She stares at you in shock. You just stand there staring at each other. 'You did it. You killed me.' You don't know why you say it. You can never explain, not even to yourself, what made you take that step backward. What made you fall of the roof.
You wonder.
If a part of you didn't want this to happen. For her to kill you. For you to be free. Free of the guilt that is starting to come up. Free of the nightmares and the ghosts.
You'll never truly know.