Since it was already dark I decided to let this topic for tomorrow, and talk to him when I was less confused. I walked to my bedroom and sat down on my bed. I've never seen Harry that way, but now that I thought of that, he was really caring, and fun to be around, and he was actually gorgeous, and I loved him with all my heart and he was always there for me, and he texted me every morning to say hello and every night to wish me good night, and, and….Oh gosh, what am I thinking?

Maybe it's just lies, Matt has asked me out a lot of times and I've refused. Maybe he's just jealous of my friendship with Harry and he wants to confuse me and ruin it. Yeah, that's it. But Matt has never lied to me… Oh shit, why is this happening?

Buzz, buzz

My phone's screen lit up and showed Harry's picture smiling next to "Styles" and his number

Good timing I thought rolling my eyes and picked up

"Hey" He said, and I could tell he was smiling

"Hi Harry, what happened?" I asked and twirled around the corner of my blanket

"Nothing, can't I just call you?" He scoffed

"I guess" I side-smiled "What happened with Louis?"

"He wanted me to check out his new car" He chuckled "What's new with you?"

"Oh, not much" I shrugged and looked out the window

"Did you get some sleep?" He asked sweetly

"Not really…" I smiled

"Emma…." He complained

"It's just Matt came over after you left to ask me to spend Christmas with him"

"Oh" He sounded offended somehow "And what did you say?"

"I said no, silly. I told him you offered first. Besides, I'd have more fun with you" I could hear him grinning from the other side of the line

"I don't think I can say the same thing about you though…" He trailed off

"I hate you" I laughed

"I'm just kidding" He said loudly "We're going to have the best Christmas ever"

"I know we will" I bit my lower lip

"So, that's all he said?" Harry said

"Humm, actually, no. He told me he heard you talking to yourself today, by the stairs…"

The line went silent for what seemed like forever.

"Did…." He cleared his throat "Did he tell you what I said?"

"I think we shouldn't do this by the phone…."

He interrupted "Did he tell you?" He said serious

"Yeah…. But it's ok, I didn't believe him"

"Can I come over?" He asked as if he wasn't listening.

"Sure" I said and he hung up.

Oh shit, it's true.

I sat there quietly and stared at the wall for God knows how long.

Out of a sudden I heard keys dangling, the door closing and steps. I turned around to see my curly haired friend standing in my door frame, his curls perfectly messed up and his beautiful green eyes piercing mine.

He walked up to me and sat down, looking intently into my eyes.

"What did Matt say?" He said with no expression in his face whatsoever.

"He said you liked me" I looked down "He said you were mumbling that you shouldn't be thinking this, that you were a mess and looking back to my door repeatedly."

"Shit" he said under his breath

"Should I believe him?" I looked at him as he got up and paced back and forth, rubbing his neck. He opened his mouth to say something and closed it, biting his lips. He snickered and looked back at me, narrowing his eyes.

I bit the corner of my mouth as we stood there, watching each other in silence.

"I don't know" he finally said

"What do you mean?"
"I'm confused" he side smiled and shrugged childishly.

"About….?"

"You" He looked down "It's just…. Shit I can't do this" He laughed "Lately…." He trailed off

I pat the empty space next to me and he sat down. "Lately I've been thinking a lot about you, and I've been too impatient to see you" He played with his fingers "My day wouldn't be complete if I didn't listen to your voice, you know?" He looked up and quickly looked to one side. "I don't know what I'm feeling, I don't know why you've been constantly on my mind…I wasn't going to tell you, but this dickhead" He pointed at the floor, referring to Matt "He hates me, I tell ya. He threatened me because he thought we had a thing" He smirked "That's why he told you, because this" he signaled me and him, then me, then him again "he wants it to be awkward, and you know what? He's done it, he's ruined our friendship forever" He flipped his hands dramatically "so, I'm just gonna go ahead and do it, before I change my mind. Shut up Harry, shut up" He said and leaned forward and closed his eyes. His peachy soft lips came crashing down on mine. I closed my eyes and felt his hand move along my cheek, back to my neck and his other placed up my thigh.

He backed out and bit his lip with his eyebrows raised.

"I'm confused too" I said frowning, as I bobbed my head.

"Do you want to be confused together?" He smirked

I nodded and he kissed me again.