Hey guys, new chapter up. I decided to wait a few days to post, cause of the error on FF, I knew there'd be too many stories being posted at the same time.

I need help: I need a new name for this story lol, it's quite boring as it is now. And I need to know what to do with Jacob =D I'm still deciding, so any opinions will be greatly appreciated.

While that's being decided, some mother/daughter moments for you... not necessarily Bella/Ness =D There might be some inconsistence with the chapter 'Vegetarians', but I felt the need to put some Bella/Edward cuteness after that chap was posted, sorry, I take all the blame for that =P

Edit: No more inconsistencies. I made sure to rewrite this all so it made sense.

Disclaimer: S. Meyer owns it all.

Chapter 10

BPOV

They were going to Forks soon. I was so scared, but I couldn't let him know. Edward needed to get his anger out somehow, and I sure didn't want to be in his way when he did.

He, Emmett and Jasper were talking, but I wasn't paying attention to them. I just kept running my hand through my daughter's hair, trying to calm her and me down. She was trying to be brave, but I could smell the salt of her tears.

They came back a few minutes later, all intent on following through with their promise. I lay my baby on the couch before following my husband up to our room.

We lay on our bed, just holding each other. I didn't want to show him just how scared I was, but he knew me better than anyone, and could sense my fear even when I tried to hide it.

"Are you sure?" I asked in a whisper.

"I hate to leave you girls here," said he as he kissed my forehead.

"But I need to do this. He needs to pay, I don't care if it's been ten years, he still needs to pay. I'll be careful, I promise, love." He said, and then gave me a sweet kiss on the lips.

"I'm scared," I admitted.

"Don't be, sweetheart. I'll be okay." He tried to comfort me again, kissing me sweetly. I cuddled up more, and he kissed my hair.

We were like this for a while, until we heard someone come into our room, already knowing who it was.

We looked up, and Nessie was standing there with her tear stained face. She looked so broken, it hurt to look.

"Oh, I'm sorry, I didn't mean to interrupt," she said, her hand already on the door knob.

"You're not interrupting anything, baby, come sit with us." Edward said.

She sat on both our laps, her head resting on my shoulder. We were all silent, just enjoying the company while we could. Edward would be leaving soon.

As if on cue, he sighed.

"Jasper says we should get ready," he said, getting up.

"I'm going downstairs to help him with a few things." He let us know, blowing us a kiss from the doorway.

"You'll think he'll be okay, Momma?" Nessie asked me quietly.

"I don't know, May, I hope so."

"I'm so scared," she said,

"Me, too, baby." I admitted.

I hugged her closer, and she held onto me.

A few minutes later I heard Edward calling us, so I just picked her up and went down the stairs.

When we got down, I heard Renesmee whisper.

"I do know how to walk, Mom."

I laughed a bit, and gave her a kiss.

"I know, baby, I'm sorry. Guess I was too eager to get here."

She just looked at me and nodded.

Edward walked over to us, wrapping his arms around us both. I rested my face on his shoulder, inhaling deeply.

His scent had a calming effect on me, and I needed it at the moment.

"We're going now, but we'll be back before you know it." He tried to reassure us, but he could tell it wasn't working.

"There's no need to get worked up. We'll only seek him out, and get nowhere near any other wolf. I'll call you as soon as I can." He promised and I finally nodded in agreement.

He kissed our daughter's forehead, lingering for a moment.

"For you, princess. I'll never let you down again." He whispered, his voice defeated.

I knew he would blame himself for all that happened, which was one of the reasons I had agreed with Nessie on keeping it all a secret. "I love you."

She nodded, and I could see the tears forming behind her closed eyes.

"I'll be fine, Bella. I'll call you when I can." He promised again. "I love you." He declared, leaning down a bit to kiss my lips deeply, but still keeping it chaste.

I lifted my shield with a bit of difficulty and thought to him. "Please, be careful, Edward. I love you too much to lose you like that."

He nodded minutely, kissing me once again before letting go of both of us.

The three of them walked towards the car, and the panic I managed to smother came back full force. I had to excuse myself from the room as soon as I saw the car drive down the road.

I went to my room, sitting down on my beloved window seat just staring ahead.

I couldn't think straight, so it was better that I was here alone for now. I was loathing that I was not able to cry, because it would sure help me get my emotions in check.

It wasn't that I cared for Jacob, but I was scared for him. Edward could be lethal, as I had seen first hand. I knew they wouldn't kill the dog, but intense injury was definitely on their mind.

I had lost all respect for Jacob the day he attacked my child, and could honestly say I could never, ever forgive him. It made me think about all he had done for me and then to me.

While he was still human, he was the best friend one could have asked for. Being a wolf changed him for the worst, and he became angrier and, I later learned, manipulative.

But I digress.

I was afraid the wolves could get wind of it and come to Jacob's aid, which would leave our guys in disadvantage. What if my Edward got hurt, or worse, killed?

Thankfully there were no new wolves, and most of the usual ones had stopped phasing, so the connection with Jacob's mind was closed.

I was thankful no one else became a wolf after the Volturi left; new wolves were volatile and it made them even more dangerous to everyone around.

They were more dangerous than us, the vampires. At least we could think before attacking, and tried very hard not to shoot first and ask questions later.

Carlisle had taught us that and we all honored it. It made the wolves' prejudice towards us even more unjustified.

I could understand the hate, since it was ingrained in their genes or something like that, but I didn't like to judge anyone without knowing them first.

No matter what mythical creature they were.

My mind came up with many different scenarios, one worse than the other, and I had to physically hold my head to try to stop my thoughts.

I kept staring straight ahead, trying hard not to think, but obviously failing miserably.

I finally moved when I noticed the moon was higher up in the sky, deciding on checking on my daughter, who I had all but neglected these last few hours.

I found them on the living room. Renesmee was cuddled up with Rose, watching a movie, while Alice and Esme were sitting on the music room, talking quietly.

I passed through the living room, kissing my daughter's head to let her know I was sorry for leaving her alone before heading towards Esme.

"Bella," Esme exclaimed. "How are you feeling, dear?"

I went to her, and just like a little kid needing her mom, sat on her lap and rested my head on her shoulder.

"I'm so scared, Mom." I admitted yet again. "I don't know what I'll do if anything happens…" I was dry sobbing.

"Bella, shhh, they'll be fine, honey. They'll be back home in no time, you'll see." She hugged me tighter, and rocked me.

"You think so?" I asked in a small voice.

"Yes, honey, I do." She replied.

"They'll be fine, B. You worry too much." Alice said.

I laughed a little. "I know but I can't help it sometimes. It's just who I am, I always worry."

"We know," Alice said with a smile. "But we still love you."

I sighed, and let Esme comfort me. It felt good to let go of all responsibilities for a while, and be held by my Mom.

Esme had always been more of a mother than Renee, if only because she really was maternal and took care of me. I was not used to it, always having to look after my own mother and taking care of things no other kid had to worry about.

Esme let me be, caring for me as only a mother could.

And since I would never be allowed to see Renee again, I just tried not to dwell on it much. She was still my best friend, but she'd never been the mother, so I didn't feel guilty over thinking of Esme that way.

We talked a little, telling Esme about our shopping trip, which we didn't have time to share with anyone because of this mess.

She was delighted to know Alice had actually controlled herself, and enjoyed the whole process more.

We laughed a bit, after we told her about how our customized shirts were the talk of the school this morning.

Alice promised her we had gotten one for her as well, because she knew we'd all like it so much, so Esme would want one as well.

I could see what they were doing, and it was truly working. But I had to get up, since it was getting late and I knew my daughter would have nightmares over all this.

"Thanks for the chat, Mom," I pecked her cheek. "And for distracting me. It worked, I'm calmer." I winked at her. "Now, it's my time to be the mom."

"It's no problem, Bella. Anytime. I should see what Carlisle is up to." She got up and went upstairs.

I walked into the living room to see that the movie they were watching had just ended. I went over to where they were, and knelt down next to them.

"May, baby. It's late. Let's get to bed, okay?" I said gently, caressing her cheek lightly.

She nodded, saying a brief good night to everyone before going upstairs. She went straight to her room to shower, and I went to mine to change into something softer.

Just as I was done, my phone rang.

"Edward?" I answered before the second ring.

"Yes, it's me, Bella. I just wanted to let you know we got here fine. We're just waiting for the sunrise to go to your father's. I'll call you back once I know more, okay?"

"Okay. Please be careful. I love you." I reminded him.

"I will. Love you, too. Tell Ness I love her, too." He replied before he hung up.

I sighed. Now I would fret even more, wanting to know what was going on with them.

I walked into Renesmee's room just as she got out of the bathroom, showered, teeth brushed, and ready to bed. She looked at me with those haunted eyes.

"Momma, will you stay with me tonight? I'm scared."

"Of course, baby. Lie down." She did as told, and I lay down next to her.

She snuggled close, and I hugged her to me.

"Your dad just called. He asked me to tell you that he loves you." I informed her.

"Is he okay?" She asked.

"Yes, he just called to let me know they got there okay and were going to wait until the morning to go looking for him." I told her.

"Thanks for letting me know, Mom."

"Sure, baby. Now tell me, how was your weekend? We didn't get a chance to talk after all this."

She smiled and looked up.

"It was the best, Momma. Sara came over, and she didn't care about the whole being rich thing.

"We went to the mall, watched a movie, and ate. I tried to eat a burger, and ended up enjoying it." She confessed.

"Then Esme picked us up and we hung around here. We talked a lot, about our families and everything. She said she could tell how much I loved everyone by the way I talked about you.

"I don't think she has a good family, Mom. She said her mother doesn't care about her, and her father's always traveling.

"I also found out she didn't have any friends, so I vowed to be the best friend she'll ever have. I even bought her a dress for the dance next month."

I smiled down at her.

"I told you, you had nothing to worry about. You made friends pretty easily."

"Anyways, after I had the nightmare, Rose stayed with me the whole night. The next day, we had a lot of fun. We baked cookies, and they were really good. We watched some movies. Pride and Prejudice, which reminds me of you and dad, and…"

I interrupted her.

"Why does it remind you of us?"

"Well, Mr. Darcy and Lizzie hated each other at first, like you thought Daddy hated you, but in the end they realize they're in love with each other, just like you and Daddy." She smiled again.

I guess I could see where she got that. It did make sense.

"Okay, continue."

"Then we watched Chicago, and we had just finished Across the Universe when you and Aunt Alice arrived."

"Sounds like you had a good time, sweetie."

"I did! And today I talked to Nick at school," she beamed. "He was so sweet."

"Nick? Oh, the Calc guy?" She had told me about him briefly.

I was actually glad to see that she was trying to interact with a boy. She'd been so scared to go anywhere near a man that wasn't family ever since the attack, I thought she would never be able to fully trust anyone again.

"Yeah, he's nice and all, and I kinda like him," she said, barely in a whisper.

"I'm glad you do, baby. Can't you see? You, on your own, approached a boy without cowering in fear. It's progress, baby girl. One day you'll even be able to be alone with him, you'll see."

She smiled. "You think so?"

I knew for a fact she hated the way she reacted whenever someone got too near. She wanted to heal, and maybe now that our lives were back on track it would be possible.

"I really think so."

We stayed in silence for a while, but May broke it as she wanted to know what had happened on my weekend.

"You know, it was awesome, too. Your Aunt Alice actually behaved herself, and we had a great time. She didn't jump into all the stores, we just acted our age for once, laughed and talked a lot. I really missed being with Alice, you know?"

"Yeah, I know, Mom. You and her are perfect for each other, you know? Like you complete her and vice versa. I think it's really cute." She smiled at me.

I touched her nose with my index finger.

"Thank you. Anyways, after you called, Alice started asking some questions, so I just told her you'd tell everyone when you were ready. She decided to drop it, and told me we'd go back through Forks so I could see Charlie.

"We arrived there, and the dog was there, but we ignored him for the whole day. We talked with Charlie a bit, and as we were leaving, Jacob asked to talk to him. You know the rest.

"Then I got home, and was attacked by my daughter that almost hugged me to death," I laughed, hugging her a bit tighter.

"Sorry about that, Mom. I really missed you."

"I'm not complaining. I really like it that you still rely on me so much. Most kids usually hate their parents. I'm glad you're not one of them."

"I have the best parents ever. I could never hate you, Momma. I love you. More than my own life." She quoted the inscription on the locket I gave her all those years ago.

She still wears it.

"Nah, I have the best daughter in the world." I told her. "I love you."

She snuggled closer, and I kissed her hair. I knew our little moment would be ruined, though. I needed to tell her about my past.

"May, before you go to sleep, there's something I've been meaning to talk to you."

"What is it, Mom?"

I took a deep breath, and said,

"It's about Jacob." She shifted a bit, but I held her close. "He once kissed me by force. I broke my hand when I punched him." I told her.

"I'm sorry we never told you that, but we didn't want to bring it up. He played with my feelings, and got me to kiss him, making me think he would kill himself if I didn't.

"He thought I was in love with him, and just couldn't see it. But I could never, ever love anyone as much as I love your father, and when I realized I'd been played, I felt so mad.

"I really didn't want him anywhere near you when I learned about the imprint, but you seemed to like him.

"As you grew up, you started to notice his suffocating care; it made me so mad sometimes, you'd think he was your parent instead of Edward and I.

"The way he acted around you was extremely possessive, and Edward did the right thing by slowly driving him away. And then when you were old enough to decide for yourself, you did the same thing.

"I'm sorry we kept this all from you, but your father and I both decided it wouldn't do you any good to know, especially after what happened."

"I can't believe it," she exclaimed.

I held her close, and whispered, "I'm sorry."

She looked at me, shocked.

"Why, Mom? It was not your fault. I'm mad at Jacob. He just keeps ruining my life." She confessed.

"I do remember everything, you know that. Even when I was still in your womb, I can remember all that happened. And you're right, he was extremely possessive and I could tell you were annoyed when he tried to discipline me.

"I would always pick my family, Mom. He may have helped us with the Volturi ordeal, but it seems all the good things he did were overshadowed by his last act. He made his own choices, and we shouldn't dwell on it anymore." She reasoned.

"Don't get too worked up, sweetheart. Now, it's really late, so try to sleep. We have school tomorrow. I'll watch over you." I promised her.

She nodded, closing her eyes and shifting around a bit, trying to get comfortable.

I kissed her hair once more.

"Sweet dreams, baby, love you."

"Love you, too, Momma." And she was asleep.

Yes, I'm aware that SM made Bella really love Jacob and all that, but it's FanFiction, and I don't lilke that plot line anyways...