Song for second half of chapter is "Secrets" by One Republic or "Stay with me" by Sam Smith. I can't decide between them and either one would be good.
Shoutout to ICanExplain for their review of chapter 10. It was very original and funny :)
I know a lot of you are confused about how some of the other characters are feeling at times, but just remember that this story is in Clary's point of view, therefore I can only try and explain how others are feeling through their body language, so it's not very easy but I'm trying my best.
Another thing a lot of people have mentioned is if or when other characters are going to come into the story. I promise that Simon, Isabel, Alec & Magnus will all be in the story, although they may not play a big part in it. I have only planned a few more chapters so I'm not sure how important these characters are to the overall plot. If you guys want to see a particular character more involved in the story just tell me either in a review or PM me and I'll see what I can do, although it won't happen for a while because like I said I already have the next few chapters planned out already.
Pre warning this chapter gets very sad and there is a cliffhanger at the end. Enjoy -M
It's Saturday afternoon and everything feels right with the world. When I got home after my rehearsal with Jace, Jon immediately saw the goofy grin on my face and asked me about it. Obviously I couldn't exactly tell him what was going on so I settled for telling him it was nothing. I know, I know, it's the worst excuse ever, but hey, Jon managed to buy it.
I waltzed into the kitchen deciding what to make myself for lunch when I see Jon there cooking some food already. "What's cooking good looking?" I ask, that was my first mistake.
"So you finally decided to acknowledge who the better looking sibling is, glad to know you came to your senses after all these years sis."
"Ugh. you know what I meant Jon"
"Yeah, but it's much more fun to tease you"
"Your impossible. I was in a perfectly good mood before you had to go and ruin it."
"Would your good mood be for the same reason that you were smiling like an idiot the other day after school?"
"I was not smiling like an idiot!"
"That's beside the point."
"I told you it was nothing."
"And I told you I thought it was a load of rubbish."
"Jon, your on fire."
"Now, now Clare. Trying to distract me by complimenting me is not gonna work. I already know exactly how good looking I am, and it also helps that many others agree."
"Who else it telling you how good looking you are?"
"No one!" He replied quickly, almost suspiciously.
"Okay. Anyway, that's not what I meant. I was trying to tell you that whatever you are cooking is on fire. Jus thought I should warn you."
"What?!" He quickly rushed over to the burning food leaving his phone behind on the counter. It buzzed loudly, but Jon was to preoccupied to notice. Now what kind of a sister would I be if I didn't help Jon out and read his message for him. It could be an emergency after all. Yeah, that logic works. I grabbed Jon's phone, luckily it doesn't require a password and scrolled through his messages.
J_Hey babe, I was wondering if were still on for tomorrow night. I'm planning on taking you somewhere special for our anniversary.
A_Yh were still on, but you know you don't have to do that. I would be happy just having takeout and watching movies, I don't want you spending all this money for me.
J_It's no problem Aline, I really want to do something special for my girlfriend, so suck it up because it's happening. I love you.
A_I love you too.
My first thought was 'GROSE!', my second thought was 'who would be sad enough to go out with my brother!' and my third thought was 'GROSE!'.
"Is that my phone?" BUSTED! Oh well, at least now I could tease him all I wanted.
"Yeah, you got a message and I decided to check it for you being the loving sister I am."
"You what?!"
"So you love Aline huh? Who's Aline? Why didn't you tell me you had a girlfriend?"
"I-I- ughhhhh. Clary! Why did you have to go and read my messages?"
"Now don't get like that Jon, I think it's sweet, grose, but sweet. I want to meet her."
"Absolutely not!"
"Why not?"
"Because I don't need my sister embarrassing me in front of my girlfriend."
"Who says I'm gonna embarrass you?"
"It's you Clary. It's in your DNA"
"Whatever, go eat your burned food."
"It's not burned, it's just well done." With that he left, not realising his phone was still in my hand. Apparently my luck seems to have taken a turn recently because just as Jon was out of hearing range, his phone started to buzz from a phone call. I looked at the screen to see none other than Aline had called. My finger moved to press the green button before I could even think to stop it.
"Hey Jon, I was just wondering where we were going tomorrow night, I still have to pick out what to wear and I don't want to end up looking like a complete weirdo."
"Hey, you must be Aline. I'm Clary, Jon's sister."
"Oh sorry, I thought you were Jon. It's nice to meet you. I've been telling Jon that I wanted to talk to you for ages but he kept telling me you were either sick or out of the house. I kind of got the feeling he didn't want us to meet."
"Yh, I got that feeling too. I wouldn't have even found out about you had I not been snooping through Jon's phone earlier. There was logic behind my actions, but right now the logic seems kind of sketchy now I think about it."
"I think it's better if I don't ask."
"Yeah, it probably is."
"Where is Jon anyway? I'm sure he would probably kill you if he knew we were talking, not that I'm complaining."
"He's eating his dinner, he forgot his phone in the kitchen where I was conveniently-"
"Clary! Have you seen my phone? I think I left it in the kitchen." Jon shouted from another room.
"I've got to go before Jon finds me and kills me for talking to you. It was really nice meeting you Aline."
"Yeah you too. Bye Clary."
"Bye." I hung up just in time before Jon walked into the room again.
"Have you seen my phone?"
"Yh, it's right here where you left it on the counter. Duh" I was trying my hardest to sound convincing, I was terrible at lying when it came to Jon. Somehow he always managed to find out when I wasn't telling the truth.
"Oh, thanks" I had to hold in my sigh of relief so I didn't blow my cover. I can't believe I just got away with that.
"So, you never told me exactly why you had that stupid grin on your face the other day."
"It was nothing Jon. And for the last time, it wasn't a stupid grin."
I woke up late on Sunday to the sound of the doorbell. It's not like I was expecting anyone, so it must have been one of Jonathan's friends. Maybe it was Aline, after all, they did have a date tonight. If I run now, will I get there fast enough to reach the door before Jon? It's worth a try.
I jump out of bed as fast as I can, completely forgetting to put any shoes on. The cold floor is harsh against my skin, but I don't have time to worry about it as I rush to the front door. I managed to make it to the door before Jon and without thinking I swung it wide open, only to be met with an amused smirk and a pair of golden eyes.
Suddenly remembering that I was wearing a pair of skimpy shorts and a baggy t-shirt (don't judge, it's very comfortable) my face began to flush from embarrassment.
"Someone's eager to see me." Jace stated in a mocking tone.
"I thought you were someone else." I reply. It wasn't a lie, but I probably should have told him that I was still happy to see him judging from his fallen expression. Biting back the urge to massage his ego anymore than necessary I decided to tell him the truth. "As in Jon's girlfriend, the one he's been hiding from me for god only knows how long. What are you doing here anyway?"
"I invited him." Jon's voice said from behind me. He had managed to sneak up on me, so when he spoke, my whole body jumped from the fright.
"Jonathan! Don't do that to me!" Both boys seemed to find it hilarious and were on the floor laughing their heads off for a good five minutes. Tears were streaming down their faces from laughter by the time they finally got a grip on themselves. "If your done laughing at me, maybe you would care to explain why you invited Jace over." I directed my question at Jon.
"Am I not allowed to invite my friends over? Just because you never seem to have any friends doesn't mean I'm not allowed Clare." He was only joking, but Jon didn't realise just how much what he said hurt. He didn't know about my life because I didn't want to worry him with my problems. I could feel my eyes go cloudy from unshed tears, not wanting to cry in front of either of them I tried to get away before they noticed. Apparently it didn't work because as I started making my way to my room I could hear Jon's concerned voice, "Clary, what's wrong? Clary?!" I just ignored him as I rushed into my room to wallow in my sadness by myself.
When I reached my room I collapsed onto my bed with my back to the door as the tears started to flow freely from my eyes. A few seconds later I could hear knocking on my door. "Jon I'm fine! Just leave me alone! It's nothing!" The door creaked open and I could hear footsteps approaching my bed. "I said I'm fine. Please just leave me alone Jon." It came out more like a croak due to the crying. There were more footsteps coming closer and closer, making their way around the bed to stand in front of me. "Jon please." I begged closing my eyes.
When I opened my eyes Jon was crouching in front of me, except, it wasn't Jon at all. It was Jace. He reached a hand up to my face and gently wiped a tear off my cheek. "You have me Clary. You'll always have me." He smiled at me, the kind of smile that only I got to see. I attempted a weak smile back, but my heart wasn't in to it.
"Are you my friend then?" I asked weakly.
"If that's what you want me to be… then yes." Thought the way he said it told me he didn't want to be my friend.
"But that's not what you want."
"Remember when we did that thing were we asked each other questions, and we had to answer truthfully?" I nodded for him to go on. "Well I've never lied to you Clary, so no, I don't want to be your friend." In one single second my whole heart shattered like broken glass. The tears that had slowed down began to flow quicker. Jace raised his hand once again to wipe away the tears on my cheek, only this time his hand stayed there stroking the skin as he talked. "Hey, hey, hey. No more tears, you didn't let me finish. I don't want to be your friend Clary, because the kind of affection I have for you is not the friend kind, it's so much more."
He was leaning closer and closer as he talked and by the time he was finished talking our heads were as close as they could get without touching. He was so close I could feel his breath brushing against my skin. I couldn't stand it any longer, the words he just said and his proximity were too much for me. In one bold move, I closed the distance between us, smashing our lips together.
After a moment of brief shock, he returned the kiss. Unlike our first kiss that was gentle and soft, this one was filled with passion and want. Jace pushed himself off of his crouching position and placed his knee on the bed so that he could balance better. His hands were on my waist holding my in place while mine found themselves clutching at his shirt, urging him to come closer. He happily complied and was now leaning over me, his whole body on the bed just above mine. He removed one of his hands from my waist in order to use it to hold himself up against the bed.
All my worries were forgotten as our bodies folded together. When I had to come up for air his lips moved across my neck, sucking at the skin. I moved my head to the right in order to give him better access to the skin as his lips trailed down my neck to my collarbone and then back up to my mouth. Far too quickly his lips pulled away and I felt the immediate loss.
"You son of a bitch! Get your hands off of my sister!" Jon shouted as he stepped in front of me to create a barrier after successfully ripping Jace away and throwing him to the floor a few feet away. "I thought we were friends!"
"Jeez Jon, we are friends" Jace replied as has stumbled to his feet.
"Really? Because I've seen the way you treat girls around school, and if you were really my friend then you wouldn't go after my sister! Especially when she's upset! Not to mention when I'm in the house! How much worse could it get?!"
"Jon relax." I said, trying to calm my brother before he ripped Jace's head off.
"Relax?! What the hell Clary?! You barely know the guy! You've talked, what, twice in total? You don't know what he's like! I thought you were better than that!"
"Jon don't take it out on her okay? It was my fault, blame me." Jace said.
"I'll get to you in a minute, and if I were you, I'd start running now before I do."
"Stop! Both of you just stop! Jon, it was my fault okay? I'm the one who started kissing him, not the other way around."
"But that doesn't explain why he was on top of you! He knew perfectly well that you were my sister, but that didn't stop him from kissing you back! He's only gonna break your heart Clary! He doesn't care about you!"
"Why don't you let him tell you how he feels instead of just assuming!" I don't know why I was shouting now, I was trying to calm Jon down, not make him even more mad.
"Because he's a liar Clary! He tells girls exactly what they want to hear to get them to sleep with him, then he just leaves them there with broken hearts once he's done with them!" Jon turned around so that he was now facing Jace for the next part. "Isn't that true Jace".
There was a moment of silence while Jace was looking at Jon before he turned to me. As quick as a flash, his face was wiped of any emotion, his posture seemed to go rigid as he went to speak.
"Jon's right, I was only using you Clary. You should stay away from me, before you get hurt."
Sometime during the argument tears had started falling down my cheeks. This couldn't be happening, how did everything change so quickly. It was like one of those dreams where everything seems perfect and then all of a sudden the world morfs and changes and your dream has suddenly become a nightmare. Except this time, I couldn't wake up. "Your lying! You said you would never lie to me! You promised me! You promised!" All of my sadness had now turned into anger, red hot anger that was welling up inside of me and bursting out through my voice. "Stop lying to me! It's not true! It's not true. It's not true." My voice became quieter and quieter until it was barely audible.
"I'm sorry Clary. You don't deserve this. I'll leave you alone from now on."
"No! This isn't you! Please, don't leave. If you care about me at all you won't leave. Please."
"I'm sorry." Those two words echoed in my head as he walked out the door. He was gone. He was actually gone and I could't do anything about it. The realisation of it all was like a crushing weight to my heart. Unable to hold myself up I fell to the floor and started to sob. Jon held me while I sobbed speaking comforting words into my ear. But I couldn't hear anything other than the two words that would haunt me for the rest of my life. Those two words that would be my last memory of him.
When the tears finally stopped I still stayed in my small cocoon of blankets that Jon had placed around us when he moved us to my bed. Nothing seemed to matter anymore, I could't feel anything but emptiness. The world seemed to have lost all of it's beauty, but I couldn't bring myself to care about it, or anything else.
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