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"You wanna talk about earlier?" Deeks asked Kensi when they were laying in bed in each other's arms. Kensi sighed because she knew this was coming. She knew she had to talk to him but still, she was kind of scared to do so. "You can go spend a couple of nights at your place Kens. You don't have to stay here with me. I'll be fine."

"Is that what you want Deeks? Or are you just saying that because you think that is what's best for me?" Kensi asked a little shocked by his statement.

"I'll be fine, really."

"You didn't answer my question Deeks. Is that what you want?" Kensi asked again. Deeks closed his eyes and shook his head. That is not what he wants, if anything, she helps him after the nightmare. She calms him down and to be honest, he's not sure he can last a whole night without her.

"Then I'm not going anywhere Marty. I told you I'm here for you every step of the way. I'm not going to leave you alone." She confessed, pushing a strand of golden hair away from his forehead.

When Deeks met her eyes, his were watery and full of pain. Deeks pulled Kensi closer until she was practically laying on top of him. Kensi, so overwhelmed, cupped both his cheeks and rested her forehead on his, she kissed him with so much love and then said: "I'm not going anywhere."

Kensi brushed away a single tear that had made its way down Deeks' cheek and rested her head back on his chest. He placed a kiss on the top of Kensi's head and mentally thanked the heavens for putting her in his path. He's not sure if he can live without her anymore.

"I'm glad you talked to Michelle." Deeks said stroking her head all the way down to the ends of her hair. She was still laying on top of him but he really couldn't care less, he just wanted her as close as possible.

"Why?" She asked. It wasn't meant to be an accusing question, she was just curious to know why and he understood.

"Because I think she can help you more than I could." Deeks answered.

"That's not true." She told him propping her head up to look at him.

"Yes actually she can, she gets better than I can what you're going through. She's on the same side of this than you and she has been two other times before so she can help you better." Deeks said matter-of-factly.

"That's true but she can't help me better than you. The only thing that makes me feel better, is having you with me and she can't help me with that." Kensi answered.

"You going soft on me Blye?" Deeks joked but that only earned him a punch on his shoulder.

"Shut up Deeks." Kensi threatened, settling her head back on the crook of his neck, breathing in his scent.

"What did you talk about?" Deeks answered turning serious again. When Kensi took a moment of silence he quickly added: "You don't have to tell me if you don't want to."

"We talked about how it's normal that you have the nightmares for a couple of months and -"

"A COUPLE OF MONTHS?" Deeks asked, his voice tired and full of exasperation.

"I know, I'm sorry baby." Kensi said stroking his arm with her fingertips.

"Don't be, it's not your fault." He told her stroking her lower back. "What else did you talk about?"

"Hetty asked me how I was doing -"

"- And let me guess, you said you were fine." He interrupted again and when he felt her nod against him he added: "Shocker."

"Do you plan on letting me finish?" Kensi asked a little annoyed.

"Right, sorry." Deeks apologized and Kensi continued.

"I said I was fine but they didn't buy it." Kensi told him matter-of-factly. "So I really had no choice other than to unload on them. I'm not fine because you're not fine." The last sentence made her voice tremble and the tears start flowing.

"Don't cry baby please." Deeks said trying not to cry himself but he just broke, he couldn't keep it together for her anymore.

He hit his breaking point. His dam broke and tears started to flow freely. Kensi sat on the bed next to him and tried to wipe away his tears but they were like rivers on his cheeks. He started to sob and buried his head on her neck. The only thing that makes sense in his life right now- her. He needs her.

Kensi held on to him for dear life. Just like he was holding on to her for dear life. He finally broke. He's been strong for her. She sees him struggle with the nightmares but he tries to stay as strong as possible for her. To be honest, that makes her go more insane because she knows that he's doing it for her when he's the one that was tortured, he's the one with the nightmares.

His sobs were strong with pain and tears kept streaming down his face. Kensi stroked his head and kissed his temple every two minutes.

"I'm sorry". He said. Kensi pulled him back and cupped his cheeks to make him look at her.

"Don't you ever apologize Deeks. This is NOT your fault. I'm so glad you broke down. You can't keep staying strong for me. Not when you're dealing with all this crap. It will eat you alive Deeks and you promised. You promised you wouldn't get yourself killed." How was it possible that she still had tears left? This past month has been a rollercoaster ride and she would have thought that by now her tears would be all dried up and shed, but apparently not. "We need each other ok? We can't keep being strong for the other."

Deeks nodded and kissed Kensi.

"You are the only thing in my life right now that makes sense, Kens. Thank You." He confessed and pulled her back down laying her back on top of him.

"No need to thank me." She answered smiling up to him.

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