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Song Used: Speechless-The Veronicas

Chapter 12: Speechless

We ignored the knocks but, whoever they was to damned persistent.

"I'm working, come back later." Tommy yelled at them between kisses. I kissed his neck and his collar bone lightly. There was another knock, this time they were banging.

"Who is it?"

"It's Chaz, and Mason. Open up Quincy" They yelled. I wasn't supposed to be in here, Darius thought I was writing in studio C, and I wanted to keep it that way. I grabbed my shirt and put it over my head, and hid under the desk. I heard Tommy fasten his belt, and slid his shirt back on.

"Come in" He yelled to them.

"Damn, what took you so long?" Mason asked.

"I was on the phone, with an important person."

"Oh, I'll believe it when I see it." Chaz said, just as Tommy's phone went off. I sent him a text message, and I put my phone on silent so that at least we could talk to each other. I heard Tommy giggle when he opened his phone and looked at the message contents.

"What is it Quincy?" Mason asked.

"Nothing, it's a message from Jude." He said. I knew he would get a kick out of it. I got his reply, and I wanted to laugh so hard but, I held it all in. This was going to be a long and cramped conversation from my part.

"Did you both want something?" He asked them. He was a little pissed considering that we never get a minute alone together anymore. People have made it impossible.

"Oh yeah, we need you to smooth Darius over for us."

"Why?"

"I want to perform at this Cancer Charity Benefit, and he is pissed about something, and I really want to do it." Mason said.

"All right, I'll talk to him; I can't guarantee that he will even see me today." He said.

"Thank you, thank you, thank you. Now you can get back to what you were doing." Chaz said and he left.

"I think it's safe for you to come out now." Tommy said to me. I crawled out from under the desk, and I sat on him.

So, my new single was released, the one that I recorded with Tommy and it debuted at number one. Darius was begging us to do another duet and the video shoot was coming up. In two days Tommy and I had to do this, and Darius was nuts. He loved this kind of publicity, me and Tommy on the other hand hated it.

We never left his apartment, my dad finally got over me and Tommy alone and Tommy's place. He saw that Tommy wasn't going anywhere. We left his apartment, to go and get food, and to go to G-Major late at night. We would get into G-Major about eight and leave about four a.m. and tonight was one of those eight to four nights.

"Tommy, I have recorded this one twelve times."

"You're the one who asked me to produce this one."

"But, I can't sing when you're staring at me."

"Why not?"

"Why do you think, the song is about you."

"and, You've done it before."

"Yeah but, I don't know. Try not to look at me."

"Harrison, we had this conversation about this time last year when I made you record 'White Lines'."

"I know, I know. Please…."

"Alright my back is turned." He said.

I started singing into the mic with my eyes closed and, I when I started I knew that Tommy turned around and was watching me.

feels like I have always known you
and I swear I dreamt about you
all those endless nights I was alone
it's like I've spent forever searching
now I know that it was worth it
with you it feels like I am finally home

falling head over heels
thought I knew how it feels
but with you it's like the first day of my life

cuz you leave me speechless
when you talk to me
you leave me breathless
the way you look at me
you manage to disarm me
my soul is shining through
can't help but surrender
my everything to you

I thought I could resist you
I thought that I was strong
somehow you were different from what I've known
I didn't see you coming
you took me by surprise and
you stole my heart before I could say no

falling head over heels
thought I knew how it feels
but with you it's like the first day of my life

you leave me speechless
when you talk to me
you leave me breathless
the way you look at me
you manage to disarm me
my soul is shining through
i can't help but surrender
oh no
my everything to you

you leave me speechless
(the way you smile, the way you touch my face)
you leave me breathless
(it's something that you do I can't explain)
I run a million miles just to hear you say my name
baby

you leave me speechless
you leave me breathless
the way you look at me
you manage to disarm me
my soul is shining through
I can't help but surrender
my everything to you

When I finished singing I opened my eyes and Tommy turned away, trying to pretend that he hadn't watched me the entire time. I looked away and I knew this was going to be a long night.

"That was amazing," he said to me through the mic.

"Thanks" I took off the headphones and walked back into the sound room and sat on Tommy's lap. I lightly kissed him, and I heard someone clear their throat.

"Rebeka, Eden. What are the both of you doing here?" I asked them.

"Eden is singing a few songs with me for my c.d." Rebeka said.

"That's great." I was still seated on Tommy's lap and Eden looked at us both curiously.

"I thought every one was gone." Tommy said.

"So did we" Eden replied. I still didn't like her, now it's because she publicly made Shay dump me on my Sweet Sixteen, and she was still a skank.

"We are still recording, so I guess that we will see you both later." I replied to them. I gave Eden my get lost look, and she took it. I guess she knew what I was capable of since Karma was still showing marks of a shiner on her eye.

"Jude, I need to talk to you" Eden said. I wasn't even going to give her the time of day.

"Sorry Eden, I don't talk to people who publicly try to ruin my career." I coldly said to her.

"You know that I am working here again." She said.

"That doesn't mean I have to speak to you." I said to her. "So, why don't you go back into your hole, and leave me and Tommy alone so that we can get some work done.

She walked off with a huff in her voice, she sounded defeated. I don't even care right now; I just wanted some time with Tommy. I knew I was a bitch to her but; I had a right to be.

"That was cold"

"I know but, I didn't want her near me. I can't stand her." I said.

"I know you can't, that's the only reason that I didn't say anything." He said to me.

"Have you talked to Darius for Mason and Chaz yet?"

"Nope, he won't even speak to anyone. I think that his ex is stirring up trouble again" He said.

"Oh." Was all I could say.

"Well, it's three o'clock, do want to go or do you want to stay?"

"I want to go. I'm tired." I said to him. I was looking forward to time ALONE with Tommy. I didn't get enough of it. My father was out of town so, I told him I was staying with Kat, and he believed it.