PART TWELVE
Billie Joe's Point of View
Only one word could describe what I was living right now – heaven. I was flying high and what matters most, she was flying with me. All this seemed too good to be true. She's everything I've ever wanted and now it feels like I have her.
She pulled away and I felt fear inside me. But when I saw her smile the fear was gone. "We've gotta get out of here!" She grabbed my hand and we ran across the street in laughter. We got into a small alley that was covered by roofs of houses, so we weren't in the rain anymore. Both of us were still laughing when I pressed her against the wall and kissed her again. I could never get enough of the taste of her lips. "I should probably get going." She spoke with a quiet voice, looking down at the ground. I put two fingers under her chin and raised her head so that she looked at me. "Where's the fire?" I was looking right in her eyes, so deep that it made my head spin. "Well, I still live with my parents. My mom's probably going mad because she has no idea where I am. I still need to tell them stuff like that for a few months, until I'm eighteen." I smiled at her worries. Thank god I'm not under age anymore. "Make a call home. We can go…somewhere. Anywhere. Just don't leave yet." I was practically begging her to stay. I was too happy to let today end so soon. "We can't stay here forever. Eventually I'm going to go home and so are you. There's always tomorrow. It's not like you'll never see me again." She's right, I'm over-reacting. "Then at least made me take you home." She smiled and it was like the sun shined for me. "Well, I guess I could let you drive my car. But it's at Rod's." At least I have the pleasure of her presence for a little longer. We walked all the way to Rod's hand in hand. I held on to each moment I spent with her and wanted it to last forever. It was like I was living my own fairytale.
She fell asleep on my shoulder while we were on the way to her house. I didn't even want to wake her up when we arrived. Having her this close was all I could ever ask for. So I let her sleep for about an hour, then she woke up. When we got out of the car I realized there's so much I have to say. "I've gone from hell to paradise with you in just one day. That's pretty fucking amazing." My knees softened up when she took my hand and kissed me. She walked to the door and shaped a heart with her hands before she went inside. I just stood in the driveway for a couple of minutes, thinking about what a lucky bastard I am, then I headed home. I was surprised to see both Mike and Tre there already. "You're early." Mike was drinking his usual evening coffee and Tre was watching TV. "Good evening to you too, Mike." My best friend was surprised to see the bright smile on my face and my cheerful greeting. "Bill, are you high or something?" Looks like our conversation got Tre's attention as well. "Nope, not this time. I guess I'll head upstairs. Night, fuckwads."
I threw myself on my bed and was instantly overflown by everything that happened today. I was surprised even by the fact that she actually showed up at Rod's in the first place. I thought of every single word she said to me there, and of course what I did after that. I thought of how she looked at me when I was on stage, and how I looked back at her. I thought of the shock of seeing her in the meadow and our conversation there. Of course I thought of the kiss we shared, and after that how she pushed me away and left in tears. I thought of the alcohol I drank at Rod's when I came back and of my walk in the pouring rain, that got me sober. I thought of the feeling that I don't belong anywhere, that I'm lost and hopeless. I thought of her, standing in the street, calling my name and saying she's sorry. I thought of the look in her eyes when she told me she never hated me. And I thought of her fingers in my hair and how she finally didn't push me away when I kissed her. I thought of our laughter in the alley, of the walk to Rod's, of her hand in mine. I thought of her, sleeping on my shoulder, looking so peaceful and innocent. I thought of the way she walked to her house and how she looked at me before she left. I thought of the feeling of being complete I was left with.
Every thought in my head was linked to her. I didn't have to hide it anymore. I've found what I was looking for all of this time.
