Lets see how everything is gunna play out now that that happened!
Chapter 12
"Facing The Pain"
When I awoke he was still laying on me, cuddled closely. Usually we would wake the other up to cook breakfast together, smiling and listening to music, but this was not the case at all today. So I managed to get up without waking James up and went into the kitchen to cook us breakfast. I didn't wake him up to eat, I wanted to let him sleep, so I sat at the table eating my eggs and sausage in silence by myself, trying to take in what had happened. But no matter how hard I tried I just couldn't wrap my mind around it.
It wasn't to long later, when I was rinsing off my plate that I heard James stirring. He got up and came into the kitchen. He kissed me on my forehead and sat down to eat his breakfast which was already on the plate and waiting for him on the table. I poured myself a glass of milk and went to sit next to him. Everything was silent, but it wasn't an awkward silence. We were both so deep in thought that we didn't (or at least I didn't) notice the silence until James sat his fork on his plate, making a clattering sound. I looked and stood up to take his plate, while he sat there staring into space.
He broke the hour long silence.
"I think I'm going to go pick up Kendall and go ovre to Logan's house, so we can all be together. I need that right now."
I didn't invite myself to go, I knew he needed his alone time with them.
"Okay, whatever you need. I'll be here for you."
He kissed me a long kiss goodbye and when he left I went into my bedroom, wrapped the covers up to my chin and let it all out. I was crying and sobbing so hard, because everything had finally hit me.
Next chapter is the funereal and now there is only 2 more chapters left!
