Serena was sat clutching onto Bernie hand as they were now in the side room on AAU the Only noise that filled the room was the beep of the monitor. Serena was drawing soft circles with her thumb in Bernie's hand. She wanted to kiss her to let her know she was here but the ventilator was hooked up to her making sure she was still breathing while she was in the coma.

Everyone who helped do the operation was either bringing everything back down or had been told to go home and get some rest. The time was now 3:00am. Hansen had tried to get Serena to leave but she was having non of it she wasn't going to leave Bernie on her own and was staying by her side still she was awake.

The whole of the last 12 hours really had been eventful Serena couldn't believe what she had done she had caused harm to the most amazing person and the most important person in her life she would never forgive her self if Bernie doesn't make a full recovery even though she knows Bernie Doesn't blame her it was new fault they were on the roof in the first place.

Tears started the stream down her face as all the past events started to circulate around her head. She reached into her pocket to try and find a tissue she really didn't want to have to get up and let go of Bernie's hold. As she was rummaging she felt something with sharp edges brush past her hand she pulled it out to find her bear break.

It was the picture she had put in her coat earlier it was her way of saying sorry to Bernie for not being the woman in this picture anymore. She renewed the night well they were so happy that night that was the last time she had felt that happy. She would give anything to feel that way again.

Seeing this picture gave her an idea she remembered that Jason had been carrying around his camera for some time she hopes he has had for longer than she can remember. She knew he started to use it more after Alan had given him a new camera that night but he had a smaller less cool one before that which he would take the odd picture on. She just hoped it would have exactly what she was looking for.

A plan started to form in her head when she suddenly felt panic rise trough her body. Where was Jason he would have been waiting for her when her shift had finished and that was some time ago where had he gone oh he has his routine he wouldn't like the distraction of that.

She kissed Bernie's hand and told her she'd be back soon and then She jumped up and went to her office hoping her phone was there or some sort of message had been left for her on her way she ran into someone.

"Oh ms Campbell I'm sorry I should have been more Careful." Jasmine sheepishly said

"Jasmine what have I said please call me Serena and stop apologizing anyway I was the one who didn't look where I was going. I just need to get to my office and see if I can find out where Jason got to ."

"Sor…. I mean I guess he will take some guessing used to and I should have been looking to oh and don't worry Morven took him home after he had his fish and ships he was getting a bit stressed. We didn't want him getting upset so we said you and Bernie had gone for a walk and then after Bernie took you home to try and cheer you up. He was totally understanding that you needed some time together. Oh that reminds me I'm some money out of ms Wolfe's bag as he wanted his food and I told him Bernie had left money for his food I'll pay he back it's just I don't want to upset him and they seemed like the easy option."

Jasmine finally stopped for a breath.

"Okay so Jason's all right and has been dealt with well that's one thing off my mind. And as for the lonely don't worry I'm sure Bernie would understand we both know how he likes to stick with his schedules."

Serena paused as she got the right words in her head to say.

"I need to thank you you saved my Bernie I hear without you I would probably be standing in the morgue saying goodbye. I don't think I'll ever be able to repay you for all that I've put you through and for saving the my worlds life so pleases if there Is anything you ever need don't think to ask. You did something that takes a lot of courage to stand up to all them surgeons and tell them no and that you have to keep going is something. I'm sure that you will make an incredible doctor and it will be a Privileged to work alongside you and watch you grow into not only a great surgeon but and even better friend."

Jasmine was shocked she didn't think she'd done anything that deserved a thank you she was just doing her job in the moment when everyone had given up she did think about how Serena wouldn't be able to cope without Bernie but she was more focused on the fact that she wasn't going to let this patient on the table die she didn't believed that they should stop

"really I didn't do anything special I was just so focused on making sure the patient survived I don't deserve any kind of thank you I wasn't the one who actually carried out the full procedure I just made everyone remember that we were going to save her I guess I did rind the tear but then Hansen and ric stepped in to repair it I didn't do anything really."

"no you did more than enough you didn't give up and that to me means a lot without you that tare wouldn't of been round and they all would of agreed it was a lost cause let's just agree to disagree on that issue anyway how come you haven't gone home you should take tomorrow enough you've done more than enough for one day and it's way passed your shift time. Go home rest get drunk do what young people do."

"yeah that seems like a good idea and well I wanted to make sure I was here incase there was anything I can do plus I'm kind of living in the on call room right now me and Morven had a bit of a row and now we decided we needed some space. Is there anything I can do for you while I'm here I think there's some food in your office I mean it will be well stone cold by now but I could heat it up if you want while you sit with Ms wolfe."

Serena was a bit taken back to hear that jasmine had been living in the hospital she knew what she needed to do to before she had even fully thought about she was walking to her office and signalling for jasmine to follow.

When they got there Serena got her keys out of her bag.

"there is something actually I am planning on staying here tonight and you should really get some sleep so there is something you can help me with actually."

She handed the keys to jasmine who looked at her in confusion.

"you see I need some fresh clothes from home and I don't want to leave plus Jason will want bringing in for his shift tomorrow so you take my keys and go and stay at my house tonight you can sleep in the guest room which is the 2nd one on the left when you get up the stairs help yourself to whatever but Jason will be a bit shocked in the morning so if you explain that let you stay. But don't tell him about what happened ill tell him when he comes in here. you can take my well Bernie's car to get there"

Serena grabbed some paper and started to write out a message she then got another piece and write on that. She also handed them both the her.

"give the note to Jason in the morning that should ease his confusion and the other is a list of his schedule if you need to use the bathroom while he s there the just use the ensuite in my room."

She looked at jasmine who seemed to be processing everything.

"I can't go and sleep at your house that would be asking to much I can sleep here then just go and get Jason in the morning then he wouldn't be as surprised."

"no no it makes more sense plus by the time you have fallen asleep here you will be getting up to go and get him plus he won't be that shocked he's used to waking up and Bernie suddenly being there just tell him that I need to talk to him and I will treat him to pulse's in the morning just text me when your leaving so I can be waiting for him I know what he's like when you keep him waiting. Honestly jasmine now get going that's an order."

"okay ill go but if you need anything then text or call I care about you Serena and Bernie your like the mothers here on AAU goodnight."

"goodnight jasmine now go"

With that Serena watched as jasmine left the office and she was left on her own still holding on to the picture of her and Bernie which she pinned to her Computer smiling as she thought about that night. After she checked her phone she got up to go back to Bernie she felt bad for leaving her for so long she grabbed her phone and put it in her pocket.

When she got back to Bernie's room she looked in just hoping that maybe she would be sat there waiting for her she knew it was stupid she was in a medically induced coma so it was slim chance that she had just woken up herself. He closed the door and drew the blinds and pulled the chair as close as possible without crushing her legs. She grabbed Bernie's hand and kissed it before resuming her earlier position of stroking her thumb back and forth over her hand.

"I love you so much don't you ever forget that you are the person who saved my life without you I wouldn't of been able to get through these last months god without you I would of jumped your always the one saving me. Let me save you let me be the one to look after you for once major just rest now darling everything is going to be alright."