Jay stepped away from Erin and backed up. He shook his head, still shocked at what his son just told him.

"Kyle you aren't going.." Jay said sternly ripping the paper from his son's hand.

"Yes I am dad. You can't tell me what I'm going to do." Kyle snapped

"Kyle Henry James Halstead I don't give a crap. I'm not letting my youngest son go to war. Shane is damn lucky he went." Jay shouted

"Dad! I'm freaking 17 years old. I'm old enough to make my own decisions!" Kyle backed up behind his brother and stood tall. Erin pushing Jay back.

"Mom! You can't let him decide for me! I need this..." Erin pulled Kyle in for a hug.

"Kyle I'm not making decisions for you. I'm not trying to. Y your dad saw what happened to Shane. He he doesn't want it to happen to you. I I don't either.."

"Kyle I I don't want you going because I I saw what happened to Shane and Kyle. I saw what happened to him. That's why I offered to raise Shane. I I knew he couldn't do it either. I couldn't. I was messed up.." Jay pulled Kyle in for a hug. Kyle wrapped his arms around his dad.

"Dad it's not your choice, It's mine..."

"I I know.. I'm sorry." Kyle backed up and stopped and looked at everyone in the room.

"My nephew is going to be a Marine." Mouse said standing up and hugging Kyle.

"Yeah. At least you are happy." Kyle said backing up away from Mouse and hugging Kevin.

"Kid I'm real proud." One person he didn't see up the stairs was Brynleigh. Her face was filled with fear and shock. She was scared scared that she may never see her best friend again.

"Dad, I I'm gonna go." Brynleigh said starting to walk down the stairs. Kyle let go of his uncle and ran towards Bryn. He turned her around grabbed her cheeks and kissed her lips like no one was watching.

"Ky what was that for?"

" 'Cause I love you. I always will. I needed time to decide for myself. It just took me a while. Brynleigh, you don't know how much you mean to me."

"Well I I don't want you to go. You should leave.." Brynleigh said backing up until she was almost out of the door.

"I have to do this. I have to go protect my country.." Kyle said proudly.

"I I can't believe you waited to tell anyone! Kyle, it's almost freaking July! You leave in a couple freaking months. You leave everyone for three years! Three years I'll get to see you. Three years your niece or nephew can't see you. Three years without me." Brynleigh yelled pulling him in for a hug.

"I'm gonna miss you more than anything. You are my best friend and I hope you become more than that. It took a while, for me to tell you this but I love you. I don't love anyone but you. You are mine. So don't freak out by me leaving. I'll be back and when I do. You and me are going to live together. We are going to get married and have so many kids so many. Maybe 5, and I just want you to know I'm always going to come home, because I have you and I have Shane who needs me here." Brynleigh smiled and wrapped her arms around him.

Emily stormed into the district, her face red hot. She was angry and mad. She walked up to the front desk and looked around.

"Where's Shane Halstead?" Emily asked

"Upstairs. Uh why do you need him?" Platt asked throwing a look at Kyle who started opening the door.

"I need to talk to him, may I please get buzzed up." Platt three Brynleigh a look to open the damn door. Emily stormed up the steps and looked around the room, then pointed to Shane!

"You! You you've kept my daughter away from me for too damn long. I need to see her! I deserve to see her! Shane, I need to see my baby girl.." Emily yelled charging Shane. Jay put his hand in front of her and pushed her back.

"Stop! Let me get closer."

"Sorry I can't. He needs his face. I don't know about you but I could have you arrested for doing this. Now leave. You already know he's not going to let you see Maddie. Also your daughter has a name her name is Maddysn Camille." Jay shot a look at Kyle to make sure he helps.

"NO Dad. I got her. I'm not letting her do anything. But do you remember what you said to Grant when she was born? Or you don't remember? You said 'You can keep her. I don't think I'm gonna be a good mother..' You said that in front of me, Morgan and Gracie also Mikey. You didn't think you were gonna be a good mother. Grant tried changing your mind. I even tried. Maddie isn't yours anymore. She's Grant's. Okay you gave up your rights. You don't deserve to see her. I can't believe you thought you could. I'm her guardian while he's gone and I made a promise to protect her from evil. I need her to be safe for me. I need my niece to be the strongest she can be. I don't care Emily you need to leave. Now. You can't keep running back every time something's gone bad. It's not fair to Maddie or yourself. You chose to do this, not me. I just made a promise to protect her. That's a promise I intend to keep." Shane stepped back and took a breath.

"I I just wanted to tell her that I had a son a couple years ago his name is Isaiah.." Emily turned around and started walking away when Maddie ran up the stairs.

"Uncle Shane, I'm all better now." She yelled running towards her uncle and into a hug.

"I'm glad.." Emily walked up the steps and stopped she watched as Shane hugged her daughter.

"Dad, who's the lady?" Tyler asked Michael

"Maddie's Mom.." Mikey shot Shane a look. Maddie let go of her uncle and turned around.

Facing her mom for the first time. She looked around the room at her family the people who have never left her. The ones that have stuck by her. When she got hurt.

"So you are the person who gave me up. To my dad. You are the one who said you can't handle me. You are the one who said you wouldn't be a good mom. What about your son? I bet you are the best mom to him. I was left for years without knowing where you went. I I was just told you died or something. The person who told me was my uncle Shane. My dad was too scared to tell me the reason why. He always tells me to stay strong and follow my dreams. Because of him I'm the person I am today. I've been taught by my uncles and aunts that I need to not be afraid. I need to just face everything head on. Well this is me facing everything head on. You don't deserve to be here. You don't deserve to even see my face. You left leaving everything to my dad. You left knowing that you'd never see me. He was the only person that protected you through thick and thin. He didn't leave you when you were pregnant instead after you left him. You left him because I don't even want to know. You decided to give me up to my dad. I've been told by everyone how strong I am and how I've never broke. My dad leaves every couple months. I'm I'm the only thing he has left of you. He loved you. I haven't broke yet because everyone has told me he's going to always come back home. I have the fear that one time he may never come back home I'll be burying him. I don't want to see that day till he's seen my walk down the isle. You will never get to see that moment because you left. You missed 14 years of my life for what? A boyfriend who probably doesn't love you. A son who could care less about you. You left me! You left me for something that is just in a dream. You had it all figured out. You could have gone to school. You could have had it all. You could have had your dream job. We could have been a family yet you still left us, So you don't deserve knowing me.."

Maddie turned around and burst into tears Shane walked towards her and pulled her in a tight hug.

"I faced it head on.. Like you always told me." Maddie clung tight to her uncle still crying.

Kyle grabbed Emily's arm and started walking her down the stairs. He closed the door on her and motioned for patrol to get her out.

"You did and I'm proud of you. I will always be proud." Shane softly said as he cradled his niece in a hug.

Caroline stood up and joined the hug. "Mad, what you did..I never would have had the courage." Maddie shook her head looking at everyone in the room.

"Anybody want to go out for pizza?" Jay asked everyone in the room.

Maddie let go of her uncle then started walking down the stairs.

"Bryn,wait." Kyle yelled. Brynleigh stopped and turned around. She walked back up the stairs and stopped in the middle of the room. Kyle met her there and he pulled her in for a tight hug. Kyle grasped her cheeks with his hands and kissed her lips.

"I've been wanting to do that for so damn long." Kyle said letting go of her. Brynleigh backed up surprised at what just happened.

"I I don't have any words." Brynleigh grabbed his face and kissed his lips.

Everyone had left the room and they were the only two left. Kyle smiled in between the kiss.

"I love you." Brynleigh said.

"So Gracie what are you naming the twins?" Gracie looked up at Mikey and smiled.

"Well I want Kendall Jay for a boy, and for our girl we haven't decided. I want Juliette Isabelle." Mikey gave her a kiss.

"Then those are our names.. I don't care as long as they are both healthy.." Mikey said...

After they all went home, Maddie went into her room and laid down, she looked around the room and saw the razor sitting there.. Not wanting to do it.

Kyle walked into his house he laid down on the couch and found a letter written to his dad from his Uncle Kyle.

"Dear Jay,

you know I hate being all sappy as any man is.. But I just want to tell you I might not make it out of here. I I can't go home b but I'm not coming out alive.. Tell Shane I love him... I love you too I can't thank you enough for raising my son.. Jay you are the best friend I've ever had. I am glad I had the chance of being my friend if I don't make it back don't turn this into something bad for you. I need you alive raising my son. Marry Erin. Marry Her kiss her tell her your vows. Have a lot of kids. Don't ever regret your decisions... I am sorry brother.. I'll see you again someday.. I."

Love Kyle. your best friend."

Kyle's mouth shot open wide. He looked around the house trying to find an answer. He couldn't figure it out why. So he grabbed the letter and rushed into the parent's room.

"Dad, did you even read this? " Kyle yelled

"What are you talking about son?" Kyle held up the letter.

"No I I guess I didn't.. Who's it from?" Kyle shot him a look.

"Uncle Kyle.. He HE knew he was going to die. Dad Uncle Kyle knew he was going to die... Yet he he still went out in that humvee. He he could still be here... Here right now meeting his grandson.." Jay's face went blank he didn't know what to say but fall to the ground and started crying. Erin got down and pulled him in for a hug.

"J Jay, I I know how bad you miss him.." Erin said

"I I he should have gotten out of there. HE could still be here.." Jay murmured.

"I I know.. It's okay to cry." Erin said trying to comfort him.

Jay laid his head on her chest and kept crying. Kyle backed out of the room. Kyle walked into the bathroom and slid down the wall and stared straight into the mirror. He got up and punched it..

"Am I really good enough to be apart of this?" He asked. Kyle just burst into tears as he said it. He looked at himself crying.

"I'm sorry Mom and Dad..." He took the razor and slit his wrists until he bled out. He started feeling lightheaded he fainted and hit his head on the ground.

I hope you enjoyed this.. I have been planning this for sometime now. It will all make sense in a couple chapters. But it might not.