Who I Am Hates Who I've Been

Chapter 12

Jessica had hoped for some time to catch up with the brothers she barely remembered, Tommy whom she had never met at all, but as soon as they had released her from their bear hug a nurse walked into the room, "Agents Cho & Rigsby?" She asked the group.

Cho stood up, "Yes?"

She smiled, "I'm afraid Mr Jane had just been taken in for surgery, the wound in his chest has pierced his lung and it could cause brain damage if not operated on." Their faces all fell, "However Miss Lisbon is out of surgery, she isn't awake yet, but she's going to be fine. The bullet never hit any vital organs and her leg wasn't broken badly."

They breathed a sigh of relief for Lisbon, but then they remembered that Jane wasn't in the clear yet. Not knowing what to do and feeling very torn Cho didn't speak.

Jessica smiled at them, "The boys and I will stay with Teresa and I'll let you know when she wakes up. You stay here and let us know when you hear about Patrick." She said.

Rigsby nodded, "Yeah, that's a good idea." He handed her a piece of paper, "That's my number; call me when she wakes up."

She smiled, "Of course." And with that she and the 3 Lisbon brothers had followed the nurse to whatever ward Lisbon was in.

The intense worry hitting him hard in the chest again Rigsby sat down in one of the hard plastic chairs, it felt much lonelier without Jessica's warm presence around.

"You have a thing for Lisbons twin sister." Cho deadpanned and Rigsby blushed a little, "Well I…she's attractive."

"So you find Lisbon attractive?" The faint blush on Rigsbys cheeks intensified, "Well she's my boss I'm not supposed too, but I do think so and Jessica's so carefree and…I like her okay?"

Cho smiled, very slightly, "She's good for you." He told his friend who frowned in response, "What do you mean?"

Cho shrugged, "She's good for you." He stated again.

Elise rolled her eyes, "He means that she's a good match for you, you two hit it off really well."

Rigsby groaned, "Just wait until the boss finds out."

"She'll kill you." Cho said and Elise playfully hit his arm, "She will be happy that her team mate and her sister are happy, don't listen to Mr Negative over here." She glared playfully at Cho who shrugged and compromised, "She won't kill you, but she might shoot you."

"Kimball!"

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As Jessica sat by her sister's bedside, holding her hand and looking down at her sleeping form she realised just how alike they really were, she knew that identical twins were sometimes not so identical, but they looked like they could be the same person.

Teresa looked like her life had been harder than Jessica's, the slight crease lines on her forehead told her that she had been very stressed very often. She found herself wondering about Teresa's childhood in comparison to hers and as if sensing her thoughts Daniel came to sit next to her by Teresa's bed.

"She had a tough life." He said, somewhat sadly, "You probably don't remember Mom and Dad or even have pictures, but Mom died when Teresa was 12, the rest of us were just kids when it happened."

Jessica was disappointed; she had been looking forward to meeting her real mother.

"Dad couldn't take it and he became an alcoholic. Teresa had to take care of him and us for 4 years and when she was 16 he killed himself." Daniel said, struggling to look at Jessica as he spoke, "I was 15 and she always had to get me out of trouble at school, Jack was 13 and was failing all his subjects because of all the stuff going on and Tommy was only 8 and Teresa practically raised him."

Jessica had tears brimming her eyes as Daniel said, "She gave up college for us and ended up joining the police, when she worked her way up and got into the CBI we were all so proud of her, she was our mother in so many respects"

Jessica let a couple of tears fall, it seemed so unfair, she felt so selfish, "I feel so selfish. You grew up in such horrible conditions and I was in England in a big mansion with my own pony." She said bitterly, "If I had just tried to help sooner." She sighed and Tommy stepped forward, "It wasn't your fault, it was for your own protection." He told her and with a small nod she agreed, but it didn't make the guilt go away.

A moan from the bed distracted them and they all turned immediately to see that Lisbon was tossing and turning, after a few seconds she opened her eyes, scanned the room and saw her brothers before her eyes fell on the woman identical to her.

Her eyes widened, "Am I dead?" She asked, trying to sit up, but the sharp pain that shot through her side convinced her that she was alive.

Jessica laughed, "No, you're alive. Thank goodness."

She frowned, "But you're dead and what's with the English accent?"

Jessica smiled, "I got taken away to England for my own safety after what happened, they thought it was best to separate us. I came here as soon as I found out they had kidnapped you."

Lisbon stared at her sister in shock, "Jessica." She whispered and she hugged her sister as tightly as she could without hurting herself in the process.

Her brothers looked on with a smile and when she pulled back from the hug the realisation of where she was and what had happened dawned on her, "Jane." She whispered, sitting up too fast and wincing, but not caring about her pain anymore, "Where's Jane?" She asked a little frantically.

Jessica put her hand on Lisbons arm to make sure she didn't move too much and hurt herself, "He's in surgery." She said gently.

Fear flashed through her eyes, "Whats wrong with him?" She asked weakly.

Tommy stepped in, "He was stabbed and his lung was punctured, they had to do the surgery immediately."

"But he's going to be okay?" She asked, looking at their anxious faces.

"He'll be fine, he's strong." Jessica told her sister who leaned back a little, but was clearly still anxious about the mans condition.

"I asked Wayne to call me when they hear anything about him, if they find out anything we'll be the first to know." Jessica told her sister kindly and Lisbon raised an eyebrow at the woman, "Wayne?"

She smiled, "He very kindly offered to show me San Francisco one day." She said innocently, but it was clearly a date.

Lisbon chuckled, then winced as the pain in her side shot through her, "Did Rigsby and Cho get Red John?" She asked suddenly and an awkward look appeared on Jessica's face as she answered, "Yeah, she's been arrested and they are talking about charging her with the death penalty."

"But?" Lisbon asked, a little anxious about the look on Jessica's face.

"Red John is Grace Van Pelt, you're colleague." Jessica told her, unable to look her in the eye.

Lisbon looked shocked, but her jaw didn't drop and she didn't gasp in surprise, the more she thought about it the pieces fitted and just like Cho and Rigsby had she put the puzzle together, if only they had seen the situation with hindsight like they were now.

"Van Pelt, I imagined so many scenarios, I thought of everyone, but I never imagined that it was someone on my team." Her brow furrowed, "Someone who I trusted and befriended." She let out a disappointed sigh, "I went to yoga with her and I went out for coffee with her."

Her face then fell as she thought of the others and how they would take it; Cho would be ashamed that he had worked with her for so long without realising that she was a murderer. Jane would feel stupid for not seeing the signs and embarrassed for sharing so much personal information with her and Rigsby, god Rigsby would be devastated, utterly devastated. He had loved her, he had fallen hard for her and she was a mad serial killer.

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"Its been almost 2 hours since they took him in." Rigsby commented as he returned from the drinks round, handing Cho and Elise their coffee he took once more to pacing and drinking the soothing warm liquid. It was now almost midnight and he needed the stuff to keep him awake.

The white doors opened for the second time that evening and the same nurse who had spoken to them earlier walked in, "Mr Jane is out of surgery, we successfully managed to repair his lung and stop the bleeding. You can see him if you like."

Sighing in relief the trio stood up and followed the nurse through the ICU unit until they reached a small room and saw Jane lying unconscious.

"Stay as long as you need too." She told them kindly and she left the room.

As soon as the nurse was gone Cho closed the door and pulled the blinds by the window down. With a grateful smile Rigsby dialled Jessica's number, "Hello." She answered; she seemed happy which was a good sign.

"Hey Jessica, uh its Wayne." He said pathetically.

Her voice brightened up, "Oh hey Wayne, Teresa woke up about 10 minutes ago, but they medicated her again for the pain so she's out again. Any news on Patrick?"

Rigsby replied, "Yeah we're with him now, he's still unconscious, but the nurse said he's going to be fine so you can let Lisbon know when she wakes up."

"Sure thing, do you want me to come up and sit with you or are you alright?" She asked kindly.

Elise smirked at Cho who couldn't hide his smile, Lisbons twin had a thing for Rigsby and vice-versa, if Jane was awake right now he would be laughing so much.

"Uh thanks for the offer, but its fine. You stay with Lisbon." He told her, his cheeks burning red as he glared at Cho and Elise.

"Okay, see you later." She said before hanging up the phone. Once the line was dead he turned to Cho in annoyance, "What was that all about?" He asked.

Before Cho could answer Jane spoke up, "What was what all about? What did I miss?"

Turning to find Jane looking between the 3 of them in amusement Cho said, "Rigsby and Jessica have a thing for each other."

Jane frowned, "Whose Jessica?" He asked. Cho had forgotten that he had missed all of the drama what with being kidnapped and in surgery and all that.

"Oh Lisbons twin sister Jessica, she survived and got taken to England for her safety, but she's moving back to California and Rigsby asked her on a date." Cho stated, sitting down on a chair by his bed.

Jane processed all this information and then his reaction was to laugh, "You're going on a date with Lisbons twin sister?" He grinned, "So you find her attractive right?"

Rigsby mumbled, "S'pose so."

Jane just continued to laugh, "Which means you find Lisbon attractive, I can't wait to tell Lisbon all of this." As if suddenly remembering the situation he asked, "Where is Lisbon?" The panic in his voice told them he was assuming the worst had happened.

"Two levels down." Rigsby said, "She got shot."

Jane's eyes widened, but Elise said with her comforting smile, "She's fine, she's just out of surgery like you, but her family are down there with her."

Jane smiled back at Elise, the woman was a very comforting person, the entire team had warmed to her immediately, even Van Pelt, the murderer Van Pelt.

"Red John." He mumbled and with a venom in his voice Rigsby said, "Is in custody where she deserves to be."

Jane gave the man a smile as comforting as he could muster, "You'll be fine." He told the man, seeing through his tough façade.

He then crossed his arms stubbornly, "I want to see Lisbon."

Rigsby rolled his eyes, "You can't, your both still bed-ridden."

"So? Put me in a wheelchair or something I want to see her." Jane said, god he was stubborn.

"Please?" He asked, a little nicer with a big fake smile to Cho who just raised an eyebrow, "Nurse said you have to stay in this room."

Elise, the bright young woman that she was said, "You got out of surgery half an hour ago, you're not going anywhere."

Jane groaned, "Can I call her?" He asked and Rigsby shook his head, "She's asleep, they put her on meds for the pain."

The consultant looked thoroughly annoyed that he couldn't see the person he really wanted to see, but settled back in his pillows, "Guess you guys will just have to do then." He said playfully.

To Be Continued

A/N- More Jane/Lisbon interaction in the next chapter and more about the fate of Red John/Grace.

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