Forever May Not Be Enough
Twelve: Forgiveness?
So I was dying for good.
I had less a month to depart from this world.
If I had it my way, I would die with a broken heart.
Yes, I made a foolish and stupid mistake.
I would beg on my knees until they were bloody red for forgiveness.
Amelia and Gloria were always there to comfort me through my never ending tears.
Even Jake, who didn't really like me, was someone to talk to if they werrn't there.
Alicia dropped her goth look and became a proper teenager, though she still had mood swings.
Though they were always around, I missed Dracula terribly.
Through my sleepless nights, I thought of only him and nothing else.
To be in his arms, feel his sweet caresses and make love to him until we would sleep through the day.
The agony was building with each passing, second, minute, hour and day.
So many times I just wanted to end my life but it seemed worthless with each failed attempt.
I began to notice my organs were weakening, I was aging in a rapid pace and was now placed in bed instead of moving about.
Was this how I was going to die?
Then, one night, everything changed.
Saying goodnight to everyone, I settled to a comfortable postion and slowly shut my tired eyes.
"Athena..."
His voice made wake up instanly but there was no sign of him in the room.
Disappointed, I went back to sleep and tugged the sheets over my ears.
I don't need lies, I want the man to be there right before me.
Suddenly, the sheets were violently thrown off my grip and landed on the floor.
Stunned, I looked around me. Nothing. Not a shape or shadow was there.
"Very funny, just leave me alone." I snapped, laying back on the pillow and tightly shut my eyes.
"Wake up, Athena..." He said.
"No way, not to a invisable voice." I replied.
"But I'm here, standing over you."
I opened my eyes wide open, there he was.
He still looked angry, the rage in his eyes went unnoticed.
So why was he here?
Probably torrmenting the state of me, wanting a another arugement.
Instead he sat at the end of the bed, his eyes never leaving mine.
"What do you want, Dracula? I thought you didn't want to see me again." I said, struggling to sit up.
" Because I wanted to see how you looked before you die this very night." He replied, sternly.
Joy!
What a total asswipe!
"Thanks, now you've seen me, you can go." I muttered, turning away from him.
"But I don't want to leave, Athena." He said, softly this time.
I didn't look at him but my head tilted at his direction.
"Why?" I asked.
"I can't answer that question, Athena." He replied.
Turning my now raging gaze at him I said.
"What the hell? Who on earth do you think you are? Some undead moron that stole my life, made me fall in love you and then ditch me because I wanted to see my human friends?"
His lips were a cruel smirk, I hated it.
"Perhaps I am just a undead moron then but a foolish undead moron." He replied, quietly.
I eased the tenison for a little bit though I was still angry.
"Explain, looks like we got all night." I said, folding my arms.
The way he looked at me stunned the inner core inside of me.
Tears?
No way, I've never seen a grown man cry in all my life. Not even my father cried.
They were falling now like a waterfall, I was tempted to capture them with my fingers but decided against it.
"It pains me with every passing second of what I did to you, Athena. I had to say those words because it's forbidden for a vampire to see any human people that they were close to when they were humans."
"Yeah? Well, you are a master of breaking my heart, thank you very much." I said, gruffly.
He took my winkly hands into his, somehow they turned back to normal by one touch.
I looked at them in shock, how did he do that?
"Athena, please look at me. Tell me what you see." He pleaded.
Slowly I lifted my gaze to his face, instanly my breath was taken.
So handsome he was, those magical eyes were unbelieveable and his lips were just begging for mine to embrace them.
"I see someone who has taught me the meaning of love, someone I want to be with forever. A man I've fallen for ever since."
Every single word was the truth.
"I beg for forgivness but my knees are not as they are used to be. I'm so sorry for what I did, the pain I caused. I would do anything just to be with you again."
He stared ever so deeply in my eyes, the silence was agony.
"I will return with my answer, now I must go and think this through."
He slid his hands out of mine, the disappointment and utter despair filled my bones very quickly.
"Okay, that's fine." I said, my voice breaking.
He cupped my chin, I looked straight at him.
There was no tears coming out of his eyes but I was crying now.
"You will live tonight, I shall come tomorrow. Goodnight Athena."
With that, he disappeared in a thick black mist leaving me alone once more.
I screamed at the top of my voice: was it frustation? heartbreak?
Whatever it was, I needed comfort fast.
Amelia, Jake and Gloria burst in the door to find me in a terrible state.
"Oh Athena!" Amelia said, rushing to my side and hugged me tightly.
My cries and wails were long and loud, would he hear this?
How could he leave me like this?
I was going to live a another day, waiting in hope he would return.
Oh God, the agony!
I can't bear this a another minute.
Author's Note: Next Chapter Will Be The Last.
