Wtf? I swear to god, I posted this like, a week ago. Didn't I? Jesus Christ! No way? Im going insane! You thought I dropped it, didn't you? Whats wrong with me, I need medication! I was like...'Theres 11 fics on FF . net, and 12 in my folder...wtf? And Then I couldnt find this one and...

OMG. I thought I accomplished something! goes into little emo bubble But here it is now. And heres the original thingy for it:

Okay!! I finally did it! EdxEnvy isn't as bad as I thought...even though you realise they are half-brothers, right? Whatever. My brain didn't explode, so we're okay. This might not be as good as I intended it to be, but I think Ill include this pairing more often so I do get better at it. I got a cool story idea for it, so that should be out...um...eventually. AlxWrath is totally out of the question, though...

My Deepest Sin

Of the seven deadly sins, the one that I think is the worst is Envy. Envy is the only feeling that taunts the mind and soul continuously, telling them what they want and can't have. Pride, Wrath, Lust, Gluttony, Greed, Slovenly; All who feel such can acheive what they seek. But Envy...Envy is when someone desires something with their entire being, yet cannot get it within their grasp. Envy is when you would give up everything you have to obtain something, yet can't.

Envy is what I feel every time I look into your eyes...

Because of the seven deadly sins, the only one I would let love me would be you.

But why? Why does it have to be this way? I would sacrifice everything I am just for one minute with you. One. Why are we forced to fight? I've never won a fight against you...because Im afraid to hit you; I can't hit you. I...I love you. It hurts me to look into your eyes and know that you will never return my affections, aside from my dreams. Even so, my dreams taunt me. Because I know that the images in my head, of your hands through my hair, your lips on my lips, body on mine- are not real.

I wish I could never wake up, never know that when I wake up in the morning I might have to fight you. That's what happens for falling in love with your opponent.

That's why I Envy you. I doubt you kept hold of the emotion called love once you became the way you are, and therefore have no such emotion to hold you back. You will never have to fall in love with someone who will never feel the same way about you. Never have someone leave you crying in bed at night hopelessly like a child.

Of all the people I could have fallen in love with...it was you...and it eats my insides, a little more every day.

And of all of them, You are my deepest sin. I wonder sometimes, if you see me looking at you the way I do. Do you notice? Would you care if you did? You'd think I was crazy, falling for the Enemy. Especially when you could just say you loved me back, and then kill me. That's something you would do. I would know, all I ever think about is you. But not so much so that my memories and thoughts of you are warped. I love you exactly the way you are, and I can't change that. There is no reason for love, it just is. A blessing to some, a curse to others. But if I were to tell you how I really felt, you could use it against me in so many ways, I wanted to cry...and that's why I could never tell you...so you told me first.

I couldn't believe it...Im not sure I completely do, even now. But Ill take your word for it, as long as you keep telling me. As long as you keep looking at me like you do. Keep kissing me and running your hand through my hair, keep holding my hand when no one looks, touching my cheek sadly when you have to leave.

I know you love me. But I also know that you would have to kill me if you were told. And that's why any time I get to spend with you is twice, three times as good. I enjoy every moment that I have with you like it's my last, because it could be. I don't know how long it will be until that time...All I know is that I love you, and nothing can take that away.

And of the seven deadly sins, the only one I would ever let kill me would be you.