Author's Note:
This chapter is kind of an awkward filler chapter. Just to get a feeling of what's going on. The next chapter is better, I promise. :)
I really try my best to update weekly. I have no internet at home, and I use the internet from a different source. Which I have access to… about once a week. And I'm very impatient in posting these chapters because they've been written for so long. I've had this one written for a while and haven't gotten around to posting it till now. Sorry!
Hope you like chapter 12 :)
- lekaela
Carlos was with his close friend James, staring blankly at the TV while a fox sitcom he's never heard of played. His entire body was tensing up. He was so nervous. He is expecting Kendall and Logan to come bursting through the front door at any second. He needed to tell him now. And not by a text message or call, it needs to be face-to-face. He's expecting everything bad to happen. What if it ruins their friendship? What if he hates him? What if Kendall hates him? That's the last thing he wants – hate. Carlos' heart aches for Logan. He'd probably die if Logan hates him. Carlos begins to tear up. He closes his eyes tightly and covers them.
James next to him notices and is worried, "Is something wrong Carlos?" He gets close and gently rubs his back for comfort.
"Yeah… it's just," he looks up at James with red watery eyes, "what if he hates me because of it?" Carlos looks back down and lets it all out. Tears run down his cheeks and drip onto his jeans.
"Oh Carlos, I'm sure he won't hate you." James wipes his tears away. "All four of us are best friends. Nothing can and will wreck that bond."
Carlos looks back up, "Are you sure?"
"Absolutely." James smiled at him.
Carlos smiled back, "Thanks." He sniffed and rubbed his eyes. James wiped away the tears on his jaw line and cheeks. Carlos leaned back into the couch and sighed deeply – as did James. Carlos looks up at James watching the TV and smiles.
Just then, the door opens. Carlos jolted his head to see who it was – practically sprained his neck. It was Kendall and Logan. James looked over too, "Hey guys! How was recording?"
"It was pretty good. It's gonna be a great song." Logan replied.
Carlos didn't speak one word. Instead he got up and walked towards him slowly then spoke, "Hey Logan, can I speak to you alone for a sec?" His eyes were still a little red from crying but Logan didn't notice.
"Yeah sure." Logan turned around and headed toward the hallway – Carlos followed and closed the door behind them.
Carlos took a big sigh before he spoke, "Listen, I really need to tell you something." He paused, "I really, really like you." Logan opened his mouth slightly in shock.
"Really?" Logan asked.
"Yes. I do. And, it kills me seeing you in love with Kendall." Carlos curled in his lips.
"Well, I'm really sorry Carlos, but I am in love with Kendall. I don't think that's going to change any time soon." Logan admitted.
Carlos looked away, "Okay, I understand… but, you're not mad at me, are you?" Carlos asked worriedly.
"Of course not," Logan smiled, "what made you think I'd be mad?"
Carlos rubbed his neck and looked down, "I dunno… I just like you a lot and, exposing my feelings to someone who's in love is kind of weird in a way, I just thought you'd be mad."
"Well I'm not. We're still best friends." Logan said with a smile.
"Good." Carlos smiled back.
"And, thanks for telling me the truth."
"Why?"
"Because, I know what it's like to like someone and not tell them. If you hadn't told me sooner you'd probably feel really guilty and I'd get worried about you. We're best friends and best friends worry about eachother."
"Yeah, you're right." Carlos paused and held out his arms for a hug. Logan hugged him and they went inside. Immediately when Logan opened the door Kendall turned around and greeted Logan for an unnecessary reason.
"Logan! How's my love?" Kendall hugged him and kissed his cheek.
Logan smiled back, "I'm doing good, Green Eyes."
Kendall smiled big and kissed him on his lips. Carlos walked passed them like they weren't even there and approached James.
"So, did you tell him?" Ask James.
"Yup." Carlos sighed and smiled.
"And?" James asked in anticipation.
"He's totally cool about it. Doesn't hate me or anything."
"See! What'd I tell ya?" James smiled and rustled his fingers through his hair.
"You were right." Carlos said smiling.
"Wanna hit the pool?" James asked.
Carlos shrugged, "Sure. Why not." The boys quickly changed and left the apartment while Kendall and Logan were still having their love fest. When they left, Logan broke the kisses.
"I wanna tell you something, sweetie." Logan said seriously.
"Sure, what is it." Kendall said into his eyes.
Logan took his hand and walked to the couch and sat down. "When Carlos talked to me in the hallway, he admitted he likes me, a lot."
"Really? You're kidding." Kendall couldn't believe his best friend has a crush on his boyfriend.
"Totally not kidding. He straight up told me he likes me," he got quiet, "and… that it kills him seeing us together."
"Well… we can't do anything about it. Because, we love eachother! And I promised you, I would never leave you. And when I said that, I literally meant it. We are going to stay together forever."
"I know. I do too. I told him that I wasn't mad at him and that I'm not breaking up with you because he has feelings for me." Logan said into Kendall's beautiful light green eyes.
"Okay… well, what're we going to do about it? We're obviously not leaving each other." Kendall asked.
"I have no idea. I guess he's going to have to live with it. Because I love you." Logan said and kissed him gently.
"I love you too." Kendall kissed him back.
"But, if this really bugs him we're going to talk to him about it." Says the brunette.
Kendall nods, "Right. Because even I don't like seeing him upset."
"Exactly. We're best friends. And nothing will change that." Logan agreed.
"So, did Carlos say how long he's liked you?" Asked the curious blonde.
"No. I'm guessing not long because he does, or did have a girlfriend."
"Does James know about this, or did Carlos keep it to himself?"
"He might've told him. But who knows." Logan shrugged.
"Point is: I love you, you love me, and nothing will break our love." Kendall said.
"Of course." Logan smiled and kissed him passionately. "Where did they go anyway?" Logan asked.
"Psh, I have no idea." Kendall says. They both shrugged.
