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It's days before it fully sinks in.

You're not a Meade by blood. You're evil and powerful and you want to throw yourself off the nearest bridge. You need to escape, but every time the plans in your head get even close to being complete because that's who you are, the responsible one, the careful one, the one than follows a set of rules regardless of which way your heart pulls you, the heritage that you don't want pulls you back in.

You follow your fathers request, and refuse Blackwell any chance to get closer to you on a one-on-one basis.

You end up snapping at your sister because you just need five minutes to yourself, but you're having trouble finding that. Even though Faye has done nothing but be patient which is more and more surprising, you still feel the weight on your shoulders. No one knows about the two of you, and you beginning to feel the pressure of hiding with everything going on, and then there's Grant who seems like the safe choice.

He gets frustrated with your inability to tell him anything about where you go when you run off, the usually results in you falling into her bed instead of anywhere with him.

You have no idea what's really going on anymore. As soon as your biological father had come back into the picture, he had taken over, everyone trusting him blindly because Cassie was vouching for him. She knew even less about him than the rest of you did.

You end up looking for her family's crystal and the amusement park that's closed for the winter, when it goes missing from the abandoned house. When you all agree to split up, you refuse to go anywhere with Cassie or Jake, adamant about searching with Faye.

As soon as the two of you are alone, your fingers are twisted together while you hunt. Prom crosses your mind, but you ask about her fear of clowns instead, and she shuffles a little closer as you walk through the deserted park.

You find the friend you buried, running from you and killing witch hunters. Everything just got a whole lot more confusing.

Then it's prom. One of those nights in high school that's meant to be the most magical of a girl's life. That's supposed to go something along the lines of the dream boy, the limo, the perfect dress and the matching corsage to go with it.

You actually considered asking her to go with you, as your date. But the fear of rejection and loss of what you already have, stopped you at the last minute. The need to find the final crystal leaves you seeing your mother sixteen years ago, arguing with Cassie, and fighting with Nick. That was the last you saw of her, as you all took off to try and do a million things at once.

You search for your father.

You can't believe what he tells you, about what he's done. It's incomprehensible. They were just as bad each other. You nearly get run over by Grant in the rain. You've barely broken, but you start to and it looks like he's the one to pick you up and put you back together.

When you wake up, against his shoulder a few hours later, you're even more scared.

She's missing.

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