While At Masbolle - Chapter 12

The Confession

Summary: An account of Keladry of Mindelan's stay at Masbolle. Future KD, set after Lady Knight.

Disclaimer: Only the Masbolles are mine, excepting Dom. Do not own the song.It is Speechless by The Veronicas

This chapter is dedicated to all my reviewers, and all the readers of this story, your ideas and feedback are much appreciated.

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Feels like I have always known you

Dom thought back to the first time he had seen her. She had been practicing tilting with her fellow pages. She had been on probation then, and most of what he had known of her had come from letters from his cousin, which he trusted more than the Own's gossip. Her horse had somehow gotten a fright and reared up, leaving everyone certain she would land in the dust. But not his Kel, who he knew even then (even if it was only second hand information) to be fiercely determined - why else would she have entered knight training, when all were expecting, wanting her to fail? But she had pushed through - even then he had viewed her as a girl he could respect. Looking back at his life now, he couldn't imagine life not knowing her.

And I swear I dreamt about you
All those endless nights I was alone

Dom rolled over roughly in his bed. He thought of all the previous days, his nights riddled with dreams of her, his days plagued with the knowledge she wasn't his to hold, his to comfort. His to cherish.

It's like I've spent forever searching
Now I know that it was worth it
With you it feels like I am finally home

Being around her felt right, and those rare moments he could catch her up in a hug, he could imagine never letting her go. He was hers he had discovered, whether this pleased her or not. For forever and always.

Falling head over heels
Thought I knew how it feels

Dom had courted ladies before, flirted with them, kissed them. He had thought he was no stranger to love, and would have called himself an expert, able to handle the ladies emotions with a smile, but Kel had proved him wrong.

But with you it's like the first day of my life

With Kel, he could imagine marriage, imagine children, imagine a life full of happiness, where he had never been able to imagine any of these with any other lady, and had quaked at the mere mention or suggestion of any long term commitment to those he now saw as completely meaningless flings.

Cuz you leave me speechless
When you talk to me

He had always been a man of words, a court flirt, a person who could charm his way out of any situation and never be at a loss for words But around Kel, more often than not these days, he could not figure out what he should say. She left him tongue tied. Speechless.

You leave me breathless
The way you look at me

One look from her and he felt like he was the person being charmed, and she the flirt, able to catch a man's attention with a glance.

You manage to disarm me
My soul is shining through
Can't help but surrender
My everything to you

Dom threw the sheets from the bed onto the floor roughly, jumping up with an energy that surprised him. Robotically he managed to find a shirt in the dark and throw it over his head. Pushing his hair back out of his eyes, he went to the door and jerked it open, heading out into the corridor.

I thought I could resist you
I thought that I was strong

He had thought that he could just not tell her, and be secure in the knowledge that they were friends. She deserved to know. He didn't want to put their friendship at risk, but how could he live with not telling? How could he live with seeing her most days, and knowing he had not even told her, not put himself out on the slightest chance she might feel the same, that he had not done all he could. He now knew that he was not that strong.

Somehow you were different from what I've known
I didn't see you coming
You took me by surprise and
You stole my heart before I could say no

He had first known he could never be satisfied with another woman when she had come back to the Own after her ordeal. He had seen the fine woman she had become, the woman Neal had always known she would become. Of course through her squire years he had always had a soft spot for the young squire that became as much a part of the Own as he was, but it wasn't until after her ordeal, and their time in Scanra that he had really known her, really loved her.

Falling head over heels
Thought I knew how it feels
But with you it's like the first day of my life

He had never known as much worry for someone as he had felt for Kel when she had gone through Scanra. The threat of her being killed doubled, and Dom's fear for her life had persisted to be in his mind quite unlike any other fear he had felt before. Not that he had let anyone know it - he could only imagine Neal's voice dripping in sarcasm if he heard.

You leave me speechless
When you talk to me
You leave me breathless
The way you look at me
You manage to disarm me
My soul is shining through
I can't help but surrender
Oh no
My everything to you

Dom raised his hand and once again knocked on her door.

Once again she opened it, this time dressed in a modest night gown, but that may have reminded Dom as to what the hour at which he was coming to her rooms at and make him blush had he not been completely absorbed in looking into her face as she peered up at him with an adorable expression filled with confusion, what he hoped was happiness, and slight worry.

"Dom? Is something wrong?"

You leave me speechless
(the way you smile, the way you touch my face)

She gave him a small smile and all he could do was shake his head slightly. Lost for words. Again.

You leave me breathless
(it's something that you do I can't explain)

Dom's heart raced and his breath stuck in his throat as he looked at her.

I run a million miles just to hear you say my name
Baby

"Dom?"

You leave me speechless
You leave me breathless
The way you look at me

"I. I," Dom sighed slightly in exasperation at himself. "I just wanted to tell you how you make me feel when you look at me."

He saw her blush, and almost concealed confusement played across her face.

You manage to disarm me
My soul is shining through
I can't help but surrender
My everything to you

Dom leaned towards her, kissing her cheek softly. "I think that I most probably am indefinitely in love with you."