A/N: SORRY SORRY about the ginormous wait. Even though one of us doesn't have a life, the other does so…it doesn't work out too well :[
the-master here again! Eha hogs all the author's notes. I gotta be able to talk to our readers too! Well, here is the long awaited chapter – we got tons of reviews asking about Jake, and we are now answering your call!
Chapter 12: (Unwanted) Destined Love, Childhood Memories, and Those Creepy Guys in Black Show Up Again
Something was tugging on Nessie's heart. She felt guilty about not talking to Jake lately. The guilt was increasing. He seemed less enthusiastic at classes. She felt stress begin to settle in. Her classes were becoming more difficult, the homework load was greater, Professor Rickman acted like he wanted to rape everyone, she had to deal with Rose and Cassie giggling away every night, and not to mention trying to keep her new boyfriend happy. She didn't really mind that part. AND she had received a letter from her parents asking if her friends would like to come to Forks for the summer. Life was a bit too much at the moment. She decided her Defense Against the Dark Arts reading could wait. She went to visit Jake.
Knocking lightly on his office door, she heard a muffled "come in" and pushed it open, walking in. Jake was sitting behind the wooden desk in the small office, devoid of all personal items save for a few picture frames. One small wooden chair was placed in front of the desk, and Renesmee walked over to it, slowly sitting down. Jacob was shuffling with some papers, his head down.
"Hey, Jake. I've been feeling kind of stressed lately, and I just needed a good friend to talk to." He mirrored her smile, though his looked forced.
Sighing, he put down the papers and rested his face in his hands. "Ness, I need you to know something. The imprint - my imprint on you - doesn't just mean that we have a soul deep bond and I'm sworn to watch over you. It's more than that. I wasn't sure if you knew.
"Because of the imprint, my world basically revolves around you. Renesmee, you are my life."
"What?" Nessie asked, her face blank. "Jake, what are you-"
"Nessie, I love you, and I know it may seem wrong because I'm so much older than you, but to me it's right. It's the rightest thing in the world." He lifted up his head as he said this, dark eyes burning into her shocked ones.
"Oh, Jake...I...I didn't know...I just thought we were best friends..."
Jacob covered his eyes and groaned. "Damn it, maybe it's too early. But I heard you already got yourself a boyfriend - no, don't try to deny it, your classmates are gossips - and I just wanted you to know. Because I'll always be here. Waiting, in the background. I'll never break your heart, ever."
He engulfed her hands within his, a serious look on his usually smiling face. Tears filled Renesmee's eyes, a few trickling down her pale face.
"But Jake, you're breaking it now."
"What-"
"I love you, Jake, but not that way. You're just my wolf, my Jake. I don't know...and I really really like Hugo. I can't see the future."
He leaned back, sighing again. "So young...and about the future? You can go to Professor Trelawney for that."
Chuckling sadly, he shook his head and waved her away. "Gotta finish grading papers. Just wanted you to know, Ness."
"Okay. Uh...thanks?" She said doubtfully.
Jake nodded sadly and swiveled his chair around. She let the door swing shut and began to walk down the candle lit hallways. The flames made shadows on the wall as she felt the cold stone.
"Oh no." She whispered.
She reached the bronze eagle knocker of the Ravenclaw house far too soon. She felt as though she could walk forever. The eagle opened its beak to speak, but Nessie began to walk away before it could riddle her. Her head was spinning. She had no idea where she was walking.
How can Jake love me? Is this really what the imprint means? Oh no, oh no...why do I feel so guilty? I like Hugo, but poor Jake...how he must feel.... Oh shit. What am I going to do? She found herself walking back towards the Great Hall, where a few stragglers were still eating a very late breakfast. Alex was sitting by herself at one end of the Ravenclaw table, staring at the puddle of forgotten eggs in front of her.
"Hey." Renesmee sat down across from her, nervously lacing her fingers together on the table. "What's up?"
Alex glanced up, blushed, and looked back down. "Just...just thinking. You know, I really like Cliff."
Renesmee was startled by her frankness. "Uh, you guys do talk a lot..."
"He's really nice. And cares about me. But I just feel like I'm cheating on my friend Will from back home. We've been friends since forever and we always joked about getting married when we were like, five. But of course we never really went out or anything. Still...I don't know. Everything just seems so far away now that I'm here." Alex started playing with her fork, twirling it around.
"Yeah, I get what you mean. I just realized something too...actually, I think I'm going to write a quick letter to my parents. Well, see you later?"
With an awkward wave, Renesmee climbed over the bench and speed walked to the hallway, leaving Alex with her thoughts.
Mom and Dad probably knew this whole time. What kind of parents are they? Renesmee sped off towards the library and sat herself in the very back. She quickly took out a piece of parchment, ink, and a quill. WHAT THE FUCK she wrote in huge, blotchy letters. The ink was beginning to seep through the paper. She sighed and crumbled the parchment into a little ball thinking she needed another approach to confront her parents.
Dear Mother and Father,
I hope all is well at home...all is well here. You know, a funny thing happened today. I was talking to Jake and he told me a little more about the imprint thing. The whole destined to be together, overwhelming love/connection thing. Yeah...I'm sure you know. I thought I'd just let you know. You must have a good reason for telling me. Say hi to everyone for me. Like I said, everything here is just dandy. Love your prized possession, your ONE and ONLY daughter, Renesmee.
BRIEF INTERLUDE TO FORKS.
Alice tensed up.
"SHE'S HAVING A VISION!" Emmett shouted.
"We know." Edward said, rolling his eyes even through his nervousness.
"What did you see!?!" Bella asked excitedly.
Alice blinked and then stared at her family with her ember eyes. "Oh shit."
Bella clutched her face. "What? WHAT'S WRONG? IS IT RENESMEE?"
Alice nodded, squeezing her eyes shut. "Jacob told her about the details of the imprint...she's really, really stressed...and...oh no."
Edward's eyes widened. He clutched Bella's arm, bringing her close to his body.
"WHAT? WHAT?"
Alice spoke for them. Her eyes turned to coal. "The Volturi. At Hogwarts."
