Chapter 12: What Happened?

A/N: Hi guys… When I wrote the story and read it, I was forced to tears… seriously. That hurts! But in this chapter… I will clear things up… Thanks for the reviews by the way….

Notes…

1. Waaaah!!! Natsume!!!!

2. Waaaah!!! Mikan!!!!

3. Happy Summer! Lol

4. Reviews please!

5. Flames accepted!

6. Guess what! This story is about to finish! Nooo! I don't want it to end!!! Seriously… I wanna cry from all this writing!!!!

7. Please don't ever forget me and this story!!!!

8. I want to make the sequel of this! But… then they'd be together…awww!!!! No fun!!! Wait… Now I know!

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"I told her," Natsume said.

"That you loved her?"

"Yep. She said no," he said and walked even farther.

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Ruka looked at Natsume one last time. He really felt bad for Natsume. Of all the people he liked, why was she the one who'd turn him down?

"I'm heading to the sakura tree," he looked at Ruka, "You coming?"

"I have to go to the clinic and…" he paused and stared at Natsume.

"Whatever," he quickly walked towards the beautiful tree.

"Oh Natsume…" Ruka stared at him as he slowly drifted away.

Ruka rushed back to the clinic. He looked at Mikan. She was still crying but no one was in the room but her. Her cry was heard across the room. She hid herself under the blanket. Ruka went towards her and sat next to her.

"Mi…Mikan?"

Mikan sat up and hugged Ruka.

"Oh Ruka!!!"

"Why did you…." Before Ruka could continue Mikan spoke, "Ruka…I…I…Every time I'm near Natsume, I get this feeling from my heart. It beats slower and faster then I turn red. I don't know what's happening to me! It really hurts…" she cried.

"Mikan…" Ruka hugged her back.

"I really like Natsume that's why when he told me that. That… he lo-loved me… I was shocked. After, I didn't know what to say…."

Ruka looked at her with concern. He gave her advice and left. Mikan suddenly remembered about her penpal! After, she got a piece of paper and wrote down everything

Dear penpal,

I feel really awful. Natsume…. I only found out now that he… he love…love….loves me…. It all started yesterday. I was already about to lose hope but then I saw Natsume…. He was carrying me. I gave him a weak smile and after felt really safe. After, I couldn't remember anything. It was all a blur. A few hours later, I saw Natsume on the couch sleeping. It was really sweet. I sat up. He woke up as well. Then, I saw him. I said, "Natsume!!!! Why are you here? You must really care about me!!! Huh? Admit it Natsume!" Then he said, "Mikan…" His bangs were covering up his face. I looked at him with concern. "Mikan… I really love you." I looked at him and walked next to him. "Natume… you're obviously sleepy." Before I could go away from the couch, he held my wrist and brought me near him. His eyes…. It was the only thing I could see. His eyes were full of passion. "Natsume…" Then he held my back and brought me even closer to him. We were just five centimeters away from each other. Then he went forward and… and… ki…ki…kissed me…. I kissed him back but then I turned away… "Natsume… I… I… I'm sorry…." I'm sorry penpal! I was too scared! I couldn't… I told him we were just friends…. Then, I said, "We better get to sleep. You can go back…" He looked away, "An idiot like you shouldn't be alone." I couldn't speak. Instead, I silently cried and slept. Now I regret what I did. I don't know if I love… love him. Help me!!!!!

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Mikan looked at the letter and frowned. She does regret what happened. Does she love him? What is love? These thoughts ran through her head. She stepped out of the clinic. She was finally out. She went to the sakura tree. She saw Natsume reading his manga as always… She looked at him from afar and held her heart. She was already blushing away. She thought that when he wasn't a jerk or a pervert, he was actually kind of….nice. She heaved a sigh and went closer to the sakura tree. She wanted to turn away… But her conscience didn't let her. She stopped at her tracks and stared at him…

At a glimpse, Natsume found out that Mikan was coming towards him but stopped. He looked at her and looked away. He thought, "What's the idiot doing here?"

She went towards him. She looked for the box totally ignoring Natsume. She found the box at the other side of the tree and quietly placed her letter in. She looked at the box and found other letters. He must've been worried about her since she wasn't able to give her other letters to him. She got the other letters from her pocket and placed it in. She looked at the box and gave a weak smile. She took the other letters from her penpal. Before she left, Natsume suddenly spoke, "What are you doing here, idiot?" She turned back and looked at his eyes. His eyes changed from last night. He must've really been hurt.

"I…it's nothing," she looked down thinking not to look at him, "What are you doing here?"

"Isn't obvious, idiot?" he looked up also trying not to look at her, "I'm reading…"

"Oh…"

After the last word, it grew silent and a gust of wind blew. Ruka and Hotaru looked at them. Ruka ran towards them but Hotaru told him to stop. "They need to talk," Hotaru said looking at them.

"Natsume… about last night…" Mikan looked down.

Natsume looked at her with a bit shocked expression. He stood up and closed his manga and slowly walked. Mikan saw him and was shocked. She wanted to yell at him to tell him to stop. She wanted to tell him, "Wait! Listen to me first you…you… YOU IDIOT!" But instead of telling him her true feelings, she mumbled… "I'm sorry." Too bad he didn't hear.

Her bangs covered her face and she cried. She wiped away her tears and sat down under the tree. She read the letters of her penpal. She didn't notice that it was Natsume until she came across one of his letters…

Some girl,

I'm stuck with Mikan…. I hate it…. I know what you're thinking…. I already told you how I feel about her… but…she's soooooo annoying! She's too talkative… she always whining but her smile…. I guess I like her smile… her laugh…. Her positive attitude…. But…. Still…. I don't like her

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"Wait! Who was stuck with me? Oh no… It's… NATSUME!" She yelled.

Hotaru and Ruka cam out of the bushes and went near her. "Mikan…" Hotaru whispered.

"Hotaru! Did you know that Natsume was my…"

Hotaru nodded.

"Oh no. What have I done?"

Mikan quickly ran. Hotaru stopped her with her baka gun and told her, "Don't…Tell him at the right moment…"

"Natsume…"

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"Why didn't I know! It was so obvious! He was the one I bumped when I got his letter! No! Why didn't I know?!" she yelled.

"It's because you're an idiot," Hotaru said in her monotonous voice.

"Hotaru that hurt! You know that I didn't want to hear that!"

Meanwhile…

At a certain kuro neko's room, Sumire came in with two dresses. She showed Natsume.

"Which one do you like? The green one or the pink?"

"I don't care," he said still reading his manga.

With that, Sumire looked down with a sad expression. She couldn't do anything. She had no choice but to say…

"Nat…Nat…Natsume! I'm your penpal!"

Natsume looked at her with shock. He couldn't believe it. Sumire was the one he loved writing to? Impossible he thought.

"I always give you letters!" she paused," Under the sakura tree! The box! I'm your penpal!"

"You're lying," he said with a discouraged look.

"Wh…what?"

"When I opened the box, I didn't see any letters…"

"Shoot! That's right. Mikan couldn't have given him any letters. She was in the forest after all!" she thought.

Sumire suddenly felt pressured. She gave him a straight look and told him, "I couldn't because… I wanted to tell you but you… you were in the forest! I wasn't sure if I wanted to tell you…That's why I couldn't write to you… I wanted to tell you in person!"

"Shut up!" Natsume yelled.

Sumire looked shocked. She grew quiet.

"You'll never be my penpal! Get out!" Natsume yelled.

Sumire went out. She wanted to knock but went away instead. She cried. While she walked she bumped into Mikan.

"I'm sorry, Sumire. Are you alright?"

Sumire looked at Mikan with hatred. "No I am not! You idiot! Because of you, Natsume will never like me! Why do you even bother? You always think you're going to win! You are a total dunce!"

"S..Sumire… I'm really sorry."

"Shut up and get out of my way!"

Sumire ran away dropping the two dresses. Mikan just stood there speechless. Mikan grew furious. She ran towards Natsumes room. She banged on the door.

"NATSUME! NATSUME! OPEN THE DOOR! NATSUME!" Mikan yelled.

"What, strawberries? Idiot."

"You made Sumire cry! You are so heartless! Why don't you get that she loves you? You…you… you idiot! She loves you and yet you rejected her! Why are you so…so…" she paused from interruption.

"Like you?" Natsume said coldly.

"Natsume…."

"Shut up. Remember, you also do the same thing so don't blame me on the same fault you do!"

He slammed the door right in front of her face. He was never like this to Mikan. After last night, he really changed. His eyes turned cold with anger and his actions changed as well. He doesn't care who gets hurt or not. Mikan looked down and turned away. She just wanted to get out of this place. No more problems…. No more… anything…

As Mikan walked down the hallway, she kept overhearing rumors about Mikan and Natsume surround her. Even so, she had no strength. She only concentrated on what Natsume had just said.

"Shut up. Remember, you also do the same thing so don't blame me on the same fault you do!"

"Am I that heartless?" Mikan thought, "Am I that heartless that I completely changed him for the worse. I want to tell him everything but I can't… why?"

In the special ability class….

Misaki and Tsubasa saw Mikan looking outside.

"Hmmm… The kids thinking," Misaki said.

"Something must be wrong."

"It's the Alice Festival and she isn't excited as she usually is…" Misaki agreed.

Tsubasa and Misaki went near her. They asked her what happened.

"Natsume…"

His name was the only thing she could say.

"Is it Natsume, Mikan?" Tsubasa and Misaki said in chorus.

She just looked out.

"Oh I remember! A rumor's spreading that Mikan said 'no' to Natsume. After that, the black cat couldn't stay the same. He turned different and Mikan just cries," Misaki said.

"Oh… Ouch! Well the little monster must've gotten hurt about that! I mean if he really loves Mikan then…" he paused from interruption.

"I didn't mean to… Why is everyone mad at me for what happened?!" Mikan cried.

"I'm sorry, Mikan. I didn't mean it like that."

"Yes you did! Why is everyone mad?!" she looked down with tears flowing down, "Sumire and Natsume, you and Misaki, everyone in this school is getting mad at me! It's not fair!"

With that said, Mikan rushed outside and went under the sakura tree. She looked down with a lonely expression. She couldn't help but think of "him." "Him being her penpal and being her friend."

"I didn't want this to happen but wh…why?"

"I'm sorry…" Mikan cried.