Chapter 12: No Sleep

"Jason, this doesn't involve you. You've done enough here, don't you think? I'm here to talk some sense into my daughter"

I feel Jason seething behind me. I know he is about to lose it. I know I am.

"Why now?"

I ask the question and Alexis has to think. She looks around the hallway. Jason's door to the penthouse leads to security.

"What?

"Why now?"

"Can't we go in and speak with one another or perhaps you can come home with me and we can send for your things tomorrow?"

I hear the sharp intake of breath from Jason. I also can hear his hands in his pocket, playing with his keys. I have to be strong now.

"No. You don't get to come inside. I don't even know why you're here. You didn't care about me enough to check on me after I donated what you needed for your baby. So why now?"

"Sam we have a lot to discuss. I don't want to do this now. Not here. Not in front of Sonny's hitman. That's what he does you know. You live with a killer."

I feel Jason about to lunge for her. I step forward a bit.

"Don't even go there. You just had a baby by Sonny. I've been wondering why you can keep her. I'm guessing the age difference comes into play."

"Sam. We've gone over this. I did what I had to do. I had no choice with you. If you are in trouble now I can help. You don't have to live here. I can guarantee you'll get hurt."

"Alexis. Shove it!"

"What?"

"You heard me. You're so sanctimonious and hypocritical. Go back home to your sick freak Rick and the baby I helped save, and you think about how many times you tried to contact me over the years. How many times you checked on me after the surgery. You think about it, and then you forget you know me. Other than the handful of people who know what I did for your family, no one will associate the two of us. Just let it be."

"You can't seriously want to live with him? You can't want to stay with a mobster. You know you had money in an account. I don't know what you did with all that money but.."

I was about to hit her. I stepped closer to her, pointing my finger in her face.

"Stop! Just stop now. You slept with a mobster- AGAIN, and tried to cover it up – AGAIN, only you needed help that I gave. Not to you. Not for you. But for an innocent child. That money was drained and can't be traced just in case you ever wanted to control me. So don't. Don't sit there and pretend you did anything for me, or that you have the upper hand. You and I both know I can blow your world apart if I chose to. So just don't. Leave."

"Sam. How…when…what?"

"Oh. There's the concern I was waiting on. The act you were feeding me about Jason and where I was living was a fucking act. You want to get a real reaction? Keep on. I know who my father is. I can blow your world apart. Wide open. So don't approach me again. You should be thanking Jason for finding me so that I could save your daughter."

Alexis looks at me and walks to the elevator. When I hear the doors close I see Jason's face. His eyes are cold. He's trying to hide it. I know he is.

I walk past him. I feel his eyes on me. I walk past Max and I bang on the door across the hall. By the third knock Carly answers the door.

"Hey Sammmm! How's your night going?"

Carly's smug face is about to get punched.

I look past her to see an empty room.

"I'll say this ONE time. If you know what's good for you then listen up. You can hate me, you can lie to me, lie about me, you and I can get in a fist fight if you'd like. The next time you bring Alexis into it, I will fight you. I will win. Do not think just because you control everyone you can control me. I don't know who Robin is. I haven't officially met Courtney, but know this – I'm not them. What you did tonight, that's all you. It didn't work. So you can sleep, or not. I don't care but know this. I know you did that. It has your skank planning all over it. It was something I would have pulled in third grade. Don't play a player."

I didn't wait to hear what she had to say. I walked back towards Jason, who had a murderous look on his face. I wasn't sure if he would kick me out or not but I walked straight to his front door. I heard Carly slam hers before I looked at the floor waiting for Jason to unlock the door. Jason was there in an instant, his hands shook as he unlocked the key to paradise.

He opened the door and stepped back. I walked through and realized I didn't know what to do. I walked past the pool table and opened the door that let the fresh night air in. Why did tonight have to be ruined? Silent tears flowed. I wiped them away and wrapped my arms around my chest, wanting the pain to go away.

A strong hand came to my upper arm. I turned to look at Jason. His eyes weren't stone any more. They were the rich blue that I loved so much.

Without saying a word he pulled me into his chest. I wrapped my arms around his waist and breathed in the scent that is all Jason. His arms wrapped around me and his chin rested on my head. I'm not sure how many minutes I breathed in his shirt and felt his hard body near mine, but I knew there would never be enough time.

Jason rubbed a hand up and down my back and I found myself leaning into him further. His phone vibrating didn't go unnoticed.

"Jason, you have to answer it."

"I don't have to do anything right now."

I looked up into his eyes. His thumb wiped away a stray tear that had settled near my eye.

"You want to talk about it?"

I didn't know if I wanted to or not. I decided to ask the one question I needed an answer to.

"Are you mad at me for threatening Carly?"

Jason actually smiled a little before looking down at me.

"How'd you know it was her?"

"Honestly if I tell you I need you to promise you'll never repeat it and you won't kill her."

Jason looked at me then. He stood still.

"I'm only telling you this because I've lied to just about everyone I've ever known except for you. I don't want to start now."

Jason nodded his head.

"Good to know."

For the first time since the elevator ride up, I wanted to smile.

"Mercedes overheard Carly and Courtney. Apparently Carly wanted some guy named Jax to tell Alexis I was living here so I would go away."

Jason tilted his head to the side. "Now it all makes sense."

"I kind of thought you'd figure it out."

"Oh I knew something was coming. I was just surprised at your reaction."

"She had it coming."

"Yeah, she did. You weren't wrong. Just normally I'm used to people leaving when they're confronted with truths and choices."

"Jason. I have to say this."

Jason looks nervous for the first time since I've known him.

"I'm not stupid. I figured out within minutes who you were and what you did. I didn't know the extent but I knew. I know there's a life story about you I may never know. I don't care. I'm not them. I'll never betray you or use you like the people here seem to do. I can handle this life. You're worth it to me. Please don't give me a reason to doubt you now."

I don't have time to wonder what he is thinking. Jason places his hands on my hips and walks us both back into the wall. I see Jason's arms stretch beside my head, as if he is trapping me between himself and the wall. His eyes are a darker blue now, and I feel his lips on mine instantly.

I pull on his shirt and feel him press against me. My mouth opens wider and I feel his tongue battling mine for dominance. Strong hands grip my ass and I feel how hard he is through our clothes. My hands find his neck and pull his face towards me.

Jason's hands are kneading my ass, forcing me to feel the bulge, not knowing how wet he is making me. I moan into his mouth before wrapping my legs around his waist. I feel him moan in my mouth, and I know he likes it.

Jason holds me up, and I can't resist the urge to grind on him a little bit.

"Sam. God. Sam."

I pull on his hair a little before biting on his ear while grinding my hips on him. Jason slams me into the wall until my back is being supported. I'm attacking his neck now.

"Sam. Please."

I stop what I'm doing and look into his eyes. I don't think anyone else could ever be him. No one could compare.

There's a loud banging noise coming from the door and I hear Max yelling Jason's name.

"Fuck."

I laugh a little. I kiss him once more quickly before sliding down and letting my feet touch the floor. Jason leans back a little.

Jason yells through the door, "What is it?"

"Boss we have an issue."

Jason looks at me and grabs his leather jacket. He quickly kisses my lips before grabbing the back of my neck and kissing me harder.

I know he hates to leave. He breathes out quickly and I can't help but notice he's still hard.

I giggle and he turns back to me. He smiles quickly.

"Later," he promises.

"Be safe."

Jason nods and walks out the door. I lock the door behind him and go to the kitchen to see where the dinner from earlier went.

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At around one a.m. I take a shower in Jason's bathroom. I move my cell phone charger to his room before falling asleep in Jason's bed. I can't help it, it smells like him.

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I'm being shaken by strong hands. I look up and see Jason staring down.

"Sam, get up. We have to leave."

"What's going on?"

"Sam do you trust me?"

Even when I'm practically still asleep I know the answer to that one.

"Of course."

"Sam, we have to move you to the safe house. Come on."

I grab jeans from my bedroom and put on a bra. Jason comes in as I'm pulling the shirt back down my back.

"Sam, we have to leave."

I grab my purse and follow him down the stairs. When I have my shoes on Jason pulls me toward the laundry room. If we're taking the secret passageway out of his apartment then this may be worse than I thought.