Chapter 11
Tris POV
I wake up to a pained groan. I open my eyes and I'm greeted by a somber sight. Caleb apparently found some more medical supplies and is trying to stitch Tobias' wound. And it doesn't seem comfortable. I sit up and my mom gives me some bread. "The simulation has been shut down. The Abnegation leaders want to head to Amity, they say it safe there". My mom whispers in my ear. I nod slowly. My mom glances over to Tobias. "He's in a lot of pain...". She trails off. I sign and walk over to them. I slide next to Tobias and take his hand. He takes it immediately and leans into me as Caleb finishes the stitching.
I help Tobias put his jacket back on. He tries to hide the pain. But I can see it very clearly. I stroke his cheek. He looks exhausted. Someone comes in and said it's clear outside. Everyone stands up and goes outside. "Where are we going?" Tobias asks. "Amity. Do you want to stay with them?" I look at him. He bites his lip. Marcus is coming as well so of course he's hesitating. "I think that is the safest thing to do". He slowly says. All this time I've known him I have never seen him so weak and vulnerable. I kiss his forehead and stand up. We follow the others till we end at the train tracks. "They want to take the train?" Tobias notices my confusion. "I guess so, we have to help them". I can already hear the train approaching. I know I also have to help Tobias on.
The train approaches and we start to run. Caleb hops on first, surprising good. What did he do? Study how to jump on a train? He helps on the Abnegation people who came along. According to them most of Abnegation has been able to fled. Amity has welcomed them with open arms. I wonder what they will think when three Dauntless and one Erudite enter. I jump on the train but hold the handle so I can help Tobias up. He hides a moan of pain as he gets on. Everyone is on so I step in as well. Tobias slides down to a sitting position and I sit down. It will take at least an hour to get to Amity.
I put my head on Tobias' shoulder. He's holding his arm but doesn't make a sound. Instead he squeezes my hand, letting me know that he's hurting bad. Pain demands to be felt but in Tobias' world you don't make a sound and keep it to yourself. But he knows he can show it to me. I see Marcus staring at us but I glare daggers at him. I want to hurt him so bad but for the sake of Tobias I stay where I am. I hear Tobias stifle a moan. I look at him. I put my hand on his forehead. I gasp. "Tobias, you're burning up".
He doesn't respond. His eyes are closed. "Tobias". I shake his good shoulder. "Stay awake". He opens his eyes again. He looks around bewildered. "What happened?" He asks. I sigh in relief. "You almost went unconscious. You're running a fever". I put my hand on his cheek. "That feels good". He softly moans. I wonder if I should call over Caleb. But when I look over where the rest is sitting, I see Caleb sitting against the wall with his eyes closed. I don't know what to say about him. Erudite attacked us and he's from Erudite. Is he on our side or secretly on their side? I can't see the brother anyone that I grew up with and that saddens me.
I keep my hand on Tobias' cheek to satisfy him a little. It isn't really working as he still feels warm when someone signals we are in Amity. I stand up and slowly help up Tobias. The train slows down as we get near the endpoint of the rail, so luckily we don't have to jump. We are emerged in fields as we step off the train. It is open and it smells like pure nature. We slowly walk towards a tall building in the distance, which I assume is the headquarters of Amity. Marcus walks in front. I may want to kill him for what he did but he does know where we are and where we are going. And maybe I should be a little thankful for that.
I hold unto Tobias' good arm as we walk through Amity. The people give us weird looks. They were expecting Abnegation refugees but not 3 armed Dauntless members and a possible Erudite traitor. I ignore the looks and keep walking. My legs ache from all the running and jumping I've been doing. My arms hurt from holding up my gun for so long. But I don't complain. There is no time for that. Tobias is the one that needs treatment. He's severe pain but doesn't make a sound. His hand feels extremely warm from the fever he has. I just hope it doesn't get worse.
I see a woman figure walking towards us. I assume that's Johanna. I know she's not really a leader here but to the rest of the city she's considered the leader of Amity. "Welcome to Amity. Can I help you?" She asks friendly. Then she spots Marcus and the rest of the Abnegation leaders. "Oh thank god". She doesn't hug them but nods to them. She calls someone over and they get lead away. I frown. What about us? "Uhm excuse me, but he needs medical treatment. He's been shot". I point at his arm. Johanna turns to us. "Yes, he will get medical treatment. But first I want you hand in all the weapons you have". She says sternly. I see Tobias hesitate but he gives his gun anyway. I give mine too together with a couple of knives. I want to give my handgun but Tobias stops me. I quickly look at Johanna but she doesn't see it. I tuck the handgun in my jacket.
Johanna motions us to come over and we follow her into the Headquarters. Everything is in bright red and yellow colors. I don't mind the red but the yellow looks awful to me. Yet again everyone is staring at us. They stopped talking and laughing when they see us. I want stare back but I hold myself in. Johanna brings us to the infirmary. She briefly explains to the nurse what the situation is. The nurse nods and walks away to get a doctor I assume. Johanna motions Tobias to sit down. "He will get the right treatment I assure you, in the meantime you have to put on some different clothes if you want to stay here". She tells me. I nod. I thought that was to happen.
I look at Tobias, who can barely stay awake. I walk over to him and kiss his forehead. "I'll be back when they have treated you". I don't really want to leave him, but I don't really have an option. He looks at me solemnly. I quickly kiss him before following Johanna again. We walk out of the infirmary right into a block of apartments I guess. I decide to speak up. "You can trust Caleb, he's my brother and he left Erudite once he realized what was happening". I don't even believe my own words, but she can't send him away now. I think of my mom, who walked away with him. I wonder what she thinks about him now. When all this over, I have to find her.
"Yes I know. I know who you and Caleb are". She replies. "How?". I frown. How could she know about us? I've never been in Amity. "I knew your father and you two have been in the newspaper for weeks". She quickly replies before opening a door. I sigh. Of course. The newspaper. I was so angry when Peter was daunting and pestering me about it. Will held me back when I wanted to attack him. My friends. Whatever happened to them? "You can find clothes in the closet. I assume Tobias is staying here when he's treated?" I'm shaking out of my thoughts by Johanna's voice. "Yes, thank you". She turns around and walks out of the room closing the door.
I quickly scan the room. It's a small apartment with a kitchen, bathroom and bedroom. I open the closet. It's full of red and yellow clothes. I spot a pink shirt and pull it out with red jeans. There is no way I'm wearing yellow. I decide to shower first. I feel filthy and I'm sweating like no tomorrow. I can only shower 5 minutes but I make the most of it. Everything is coming back to me as I stare at my reflection in the mirror. This is what Dauntless prepared me for. War. I'm running and hiding because I'm divergent. Because Tobias is divergent. Because my mom is divergent. I can't see the girl anymore that I saw on Choosing day. I have changed. My fingers go through my hair. It's long, it's reaches over the middle of my back. I know Tobias likes it. He always tangles his hands through my blonde hair. But do I like it? I'm not so sure anymore.
I see a pair of scissors laying on a table. I pick them up hesitantly and look in the mirror again. Do I really want to do this? Is this going to get rid of my old self? I know this is the only way. I braid my hair and wrap the hairband around it to secure it. I have no idea how do this, so I put the scissors to my shoulder. If it goes right, I'll have shoulder length hair. And that's good enough for me. I close my eyes, I don't want to see it. I let the scissors go and slowly my blonde hair falls on the ground. I continue until I have a chuck of hair in my hand. I dare to open my eyes again. My image has changed. My hair is hanging around me till my shoulders. It's a bit uneven but I'm sure my mom could fix that. I feel refreshing now. Better than before.
I throw the chuck of hair and the remnants on the ground in a paper bag. I dress in the red jeans and put on the pinkish shirt. I put my old clothes on a chair. I'm sure they will be thrown away. I walk out of the room. I hope Tobias is done by now. As I walk to the infirmary, I get no stares. My tattoos are hidden so nobody knows I'm Dauntless. It's not very busy, so I'm to find the room they took Tobias. I look through the window and I see Tobias peacefully sleeping in a bed. I sigh and push open the door. I'm not sure if I'm allowed to be here, but I don't really care. I sit down on the chair against the wall and sleep overtakes me.
