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Naomi's POV

I feel physically sick; it feels like someone has just shoved a hook through where it hurts the most, my heart.

How could she do that to me after everything I confessed to her? It should make a difference when someone loves you, shouldn't it?

Why did she have to fucking run away? She didn't even give me a chance to explain. I know what I said wasn't fair but I wasn't thinking straight, with the worry of my mum; I thought a relationship would complicate things more. I'm finding it hard to deal with my own feelings without having to take someone else's into consideration.

But I was wrong, I need Emily, I need her in my life. Not seeing or speaking to her this week has been dreadful, I miss her. I'm worried about her, I know she text Freddie saying that she's okay but Emily's stubborn, even I know that and I don't even know her as well as I wish I did.

But this is what I hate; I shouldn't be so attached to her. I've been telling myself this from the moment that I fell in love with the red head. I don't need people and I certainly don't love them, the only people I love and need is my mum and Effy.

But that's how I used to be, before I laid eyes on Emily. I didn't care about people and I always told myself that I'd never fall in love, I saw how it destroyed my mum every time she thought of my dad. He may be a shitty little prick but I know she still loves him in some way, it's saddening really. I never wanted to be like that, I've always been headstrong and independent but here I am, crumbling into a fucking mess over one beautiful red head that just happened to snog possibly the sleaziest guy right in front of me.

I like Cook, he's been a good friend to me and I know there's more to him than what meets the eye. But Emily detests him, so why she's hanging out with him is beyond me, but kissing him? Emily kissing a guy is a big enough shock as it is but she kissed Cook of all people.

The scene keeps on repeating itself within my mind; the thought of it is agonising but seeing it makes it all so much worse.

I've seen Emily with other people before, my best friend being one of them, but this hurts more because back then nobody knew about how I felt, now they do and there is nothing I can do to hide the way I feel. Emily knows and she knew how much this would hurt me…hmm, I don't think hurt is the right word to describe it. Okay, she knew that this would destroy me.

This is the reason why I hate being in love with her, she is the one person who can ruin my life. I hate that she has this power over me, she knocked down barriers without even knowing it but now that she does know, she has used that power to hurt me in so many ways. My head of screaming at me to get out before she royally fucks me over but my heart is stuck in a mix of crimson and chocolate brown and the sweet aroma of what I think is roses. I'm chained to Emily Fitch and a part of me never wants to be released.

Seeing Emily that way, I hate it. She looked so tired and weak, seeing her so fucked out of her head was more painful than I ever thought it would be, not that I have thought about her in that kind of state but oh well.

Knowing that I'm the main reason behind it, it makes me sick, especially over something that she blew completely out of proportion. Why couldn't she have just stayed and let me explain? We wouldn't be in this mess if she had.

I down the new drink that Effy just placed in front of me, the liquid burns but the feeling is soothing compared to the throbbing in my chest.

Effy looks at me with concerned eyes, I feel bad for snapping at her when she was only trying to comfort me but I can't help but feel that in a way, this is all her fault. If she hadn't fucked around with Emily I could have probably ignored my feelings for her.

If she hadn't convinced me to invite Emily and Freddie to the party then we never would have flirted and they wouldn't have stuck up for me in college.

If Effy hadn't convinced me to apologise to them then we wouldn't have ended up in Freddie's shed, I wouldn't have punched Emily and what happened at the hospital would never have happened. If we didn't go to the club, if she didn't make me go and see Emily then we wouldn't have ended up fucking in the toilets. If Emily didn't catch Effy and Freddie kissing then we wouldn't have gone back to mine, we wouldn't have had sex and I wouldn't have told her how I feel.

Fuck, fuck, fuck. I can't blame this all on her; it's my fault as much as it is hers. Effy was only trying to help, she succeeded but I was the one who fucked it all up. I panicked and shut down and tried to push Emily away, in which I fucking succeeded.

Fuck, I miss her, I miss my Emily.

Wait, my Emily?! What the fuck? She was never mine and now she never will be.

"Naomi…Naomi!" I snap out from my day dream from the sound of Effy shouting at me. I look at her and blink as I try to focus my attention back on reality but I can't stand the worried stares from her and Freddie. I distract myself by looking around the table only to find that JJ and Katie have left. That's weird…I never noticed them go.

"JJ couldn't handle the tension so he's gone to find Thomas and Katie's gone to sort out Emily." Effy answers the question that was filling my mind; obviously she knew exactly what I was thinking from my puzzled expression so I nod in return. I feel bad for JJ but I really hope Katie finds Emily and gets her to stop with all of this shit.

"Is Emily surf and turfing with guys now Eff? I thought she was only into fannies." I can't help but giggle at Panda's question, her way of wording it reminds me of a child.

"No Panda, she's not." Effy replies as bluntly as ever, I laugh sarcastically.

"Could have fooled me." I mutter and spin my empty glass on the table; it's much more interesting than looking at faces.

"She's just fucking with you." I look up and raise my eyebrow at her. Freddie has his arm slung loosely around Effy's shoulder but he's staring of into the dance floor, I know this has shocked him as much as it has me.

"How could you possibly know that?"

"I'm all knowing Naoms, you should know that." She winks and smirks at me in her typical mysterious way. I'm so used to it that I just roll my eyes at her.

"Yeah, well you didn't know that I liked her when you were fucking her around." I clamp my hand to my mouth in shock as the words accidentally spill out. I feel the tension thicken as Effy drops her eyes to the floor.

"Effy I'm so sorry, I didn't mean that." I splutter pathetically and shake my head; it's not in the right place tonight.

"Yes you did; it's okay." She looks at me, her voice and eyes are filled with sadness. This time I have to look away. Effy's right, I do mean it but I don't hold it against her, she knows me better now. She's grown up within this last year; she no longer wants to fuck people around. It scares her to change but she's doing so well already, she loves Freddie and she's finally allowing herself to enjoy the feeling.

I reach out and take her hand under the table, she squeezes mine, letting me know that she understands and forgives me.

"Do you really think that she's trying to fuck with me?" I ask quietly, if I spoke any louder then they'd be able to hear every emotion that I'm feeling right now.

"From the way she looked so guilty every time she looked at you, I know so."

I rake my fingers through my tangled blonde locks and sigh. Could Effy be right? Was Emily really only trying to fuck with my head? If so, she is certainly doing a good job of it. This whole situation is ridiculous, I know what I did was wrong but Emily's taking it too far. I stand up so quickly that the alcohol rushes through my head and I have to grip onto the table for support.

"What are you doing?" Effy asks in surprise by my sudden actions.

"For once I'm not running away. I'm gonna find Emily and sort this shit out." The confidence in my voice surprises me because inside I'm feeling far from confident. Freddie finally pulls his gaze away from the dance floor and glances up at me, I know from the look in his eyes that he agrees with me. Emily's in no fit state to sort things out herself and we know that if we don't do it, Emily will carry on acting this way and I love her too much to let her do that.

Effy looks at Freddie, she knows exactly what he's thinking so no words needed to be exchanged. Instead she got up and sat beside Panda as Freddie stood up to join me, she'd join us later if need be but right now this situation didn't concern her.

"Let's get your girl." Freddie nudges my arm lightly, I smile shyly.

My girl, I do like the sound of that.

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Sorry that it's short again but I wanted you all too finally know the way that Naomi feels. I wanted to fill in a few more things because otherwise this story would have been quite short. More happens after this, I promise :)

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